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death is always such a dream that I always seem to dream.

i see all the things that haunt me.

i was born to craft

--lyrics--
bleed out all the sin
lips of death sing lullabies
enchanting
she's calling

misery
i love you
self loathing
consuming
agony
please don't hurt me

by the tree there's a bird
she eats the worm
feed off of pain
life so worthless
like an idiot
you make me feel stupid
oh oh oh oh oh

misery
i love you
self loathing
consuming
agony
please don't hurt me
filled with rot
make me something i'm not
the sun shines apon me
and it burns
i begged for your help
and you turned

i live in a continuous state of self loathing and insecurity

*lyrics*
and you try
just to be
a good person

god 
bless our souls
and save me
i’m sorry

save me from this hell
save me from this hell
save me from this hell
save 
me

i’m not perfect
but i wish i was
you never notice when i try
you never notice when i cry
i hope you notice when i die

i never asked to be born so why am i paying the price for your mistakes

lul

i’m too tired to think about it
call me an idiot
like you always
do

hallucinations of a savior
brutality is our human nature
why am i anxious when i breathe
don’t wake me up 
i dont wanna see

the stupid world they’ve made for me
i was born and kept in misery
i live in spite i hate my life
and nothing that i ever do ever goes right

i’m too tired to think about it
call me a idiot like you always do
i try my best
to do
my best
but i know
that i will fail
i try my best
to do
what’s best
but i know
i’ll fail

i’m sorry i’m such a letdown

DNR (scabzone cover)

1. christmas day (っ- ‸ – ς) *demo*
2. ann frank song 1/10
3. please leave me alone demo
4. GOBLINS CRY TOO COVER
5. willow and emerson - in the benz in the benz with my friends in the benz meowversion
6. another thing
7. number girl young girl seventeen sexually knowing cover snippet

mix b

somebody's fiending around the corner
dopamine.
i looked for too long and i
fell in love.
accidents happen again, the same mistakes
i'm losing my friends.

i know i'm worthless
i know to give up
you don't care
don't pretend
i hate myself
this is the end
lay down in a grave
i'm nothing
end my suffering.

diary

pill friends cover 
tribute to ryan
my last cover song for a long while
ive might have listened to this song over a million times...

wearing my dead dog's skin (COVER)

xowillow - better off dead

my hearts so selfish
i cant do anything about it
ill let it beat as it has been
bleed deep with hate and loose ends

i dont wanna be alone again
sitting in a room desolate
even god doesnt respond to me
ive never been less lonely
ive never been less lonely
ive never been less lonely

u trash talk 
x4

i got a big fat sack and im going nowhere
this sakeless breathing superceding 
all that ive ever known
but ive got ur number and its right here
and i know i can always call u on the phone

u trash talk 
x4

theres a hole in my neck let the blood vessels tear
driving in your car looking down at ur nails
i got some trash talk 2 
but im hiding my tail
smoking  till its all ash
cuz i dont even care
x2

Trash Talk

lyrics

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i dont want to let go
so ill change myself for u
you wont pick up the phone
so what more can i do
its been a few months since ive seen
your face
so ill just fall asleep
and think about you

i cant believe this has me
writhing on the floor
its just like
slow torture

u said you forgive me
but i dont know if i can
im sorry for this song
i just want a second chance
you dont 
need me 
but im strugglin on my own
puking 
up my guts 
hopin for the taste of you

i cant believe this has me
writhing on the floor
its just like
slow torture

slow torture puke chamber!!

ur love is poison
i don’t care 
call me when you want
i’d wait right here and never leave

go to sleep at night unwanted
wake up next day i wanna off it
where are you
wandering inside my mind
your memory, it touches my soul
i feel so empty from this vacant hole
reflections don’t match when you’re a ghost
my wrist speaks when my words don’t 
stars fall crashing down
xanax push me to the ground
i felt so safe inside ur arms
take me back when i knew you
and not just your heart
"whats hurting u...?
no, not me, it's them. it's everyone."

Stuffing

suffering forever
trapped inside
my state of mind
i thought it was you
it must’ve been a dream
i’ll just talk to the red on the wall
shadowing you
we’re one and the same
the roses
are wilted

i watched as you died
inside of my heart
the flesh on my bone tears apart
now it’s all fucked up
it happens every time
the red came back
the blood was mine

Ugly, Dumb, Worthless

mandy - skin

instagram @cntsnffer

instrumental and vocals by me

I'm Already Saved

i was 13 in 2017 and didnt have a cat

cover by @dec1st

december 1st -i was 13 in 2017 and didnt have a cat

the first single from my upcoming album, "sweet tooth and the cavities that follow"

music video on youtube!! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aa-xk80gT3o

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I want cruelty flooding through my veins
And I want to make the same mistakes
When I call I hope you won't pick up
When I fall hope you don't give a fuck

And I don't wanna go out tonight
Why can't we just stay inside?
My deeds can't be washed away
I'd rather just go insane

But you read me like an open book
That gut feeling never could be shook
When I call I hope that you'll pick up
When I fall hope that you'd give a fuck

And I don't wanna go out tonight
Why can't we just stay inside?
Stay inside
Stay inside

pillbug anatomy class

prod. owleeng

Tell me what im doing
No i dont wanna fail

Tell me what im perusing
Baby i just cant tell

When i was a kid i used to drool
Baby give me reassurance and ill drool for you

I wished you'll burn
And it'll just fuckin hurt

I wished i learned
but i just kept going

I wished you learned
The things that i said

tell me

Get on my knees just to tie your shoe
Kick me in the face, bitch why so cruel
Counting all these days on my calendar
Just fucking wishing that you'll return

No ones perfect
Just look our wrists

I want her mind 
Cause she's going thru a lot

just Shes trying to heal 
doesn't make her a thot

everyone wants change
that's why we are the same

~`o‘~
Teenage zombie —..,
On the fl00r :(

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