@flusherxo
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it'd be stupid to lose you
so why would i do that to myself?

stupid to lose you w/ flusher (prod. 1elixoxo x kersie)

quick note about "hopeless"

in life, we lose, then we gain; sometimes we feel as if we are hopeless & have nothing. specific things bring us joy & motivation. that, for me was love. 

i was hopeless, but i had love. when i lost it, i became hopeless again.
but it became tiring. hopelessness was a false reality i let myself be a part of; draped in by self-hate, regret, & extrospection.

this is a song about losing myself in drugs to distract myself from reality, but growing tired that it was delaying my potential. thank you for taking the time to listen.

<3

i been mixing the drank wit the wok, i
partake in a whole lotta pot
i put that dope in the spot now
and you joke a lot
we slept on your sofa, dreams of us alone...
hopeless

i thought promises wasn't real cause i had dumb niggas broke my shit
one day you just get tired of moping about all the hopeless shit
get up and get out your head 
just get up and get out your head
just get up and get out your head

but that's for me to see
cause everything i do, i did that shit for us
and you ain't ever give the time of day hoe
and then you just wanna fuck around and cheat on us
like i ain't got a whole lotta, whole lotta, whole lotta love
like i just wanna ring you 'round that ring of us
i just wanna show you love

but you don't want nothing
you don't want shit from me
you don't want shit from me you don't want
i just wanna put you in some st. laurent girl
i could drip you out get anything you want shawty
so stop playing with these niggas
playing with these lames come fuck wit me

hopeless (prod. mitchxy)

love sick - a song about getting lost in alcohol and other substances to numb the pain of failed love. realizing your wrongs after months of avoidance; realizing you weren't really sick in the head, just lost and running. realizing that despite all that, you're still here, thriving, living, breathing, learning.

i was stuck now i go from coast 2 coast
i know that you're missing me but you wont come
i just wanna let you know this shit resolved
i been drinking vodka, spirits, whole lotta rum
i drink a whole lotta red, get you out my head

fucking up my temple
temple, temple
temple, temple
temple, temple

shaking it off but i'm sick in the head
you got me sick in the head
but if you loved me you wouldn't do that to me
you wouldn't do that to me
i'm getting tired of you just telling me off, like how do i make this work?
if you loved me you wouldn't do that to me
you wouldn't do that to me
i'm getting tired of you just telling me i can't save you
i can't fucking save you

so i had to run, i had to bail, i had to go
i medicate, i get the drugs from mexico
i was stuck now i go from coast 2 coast
i know that you missing me but you wont come
i just wanna let you know this shit resolved
i been drinking vodka, spirits, whole lotta rum
i drink a whole lotta red i'm missing you in my mf bed
you my heartthrob, get you out my head

fucking up my temple
temple, temple
temple, temple
temple, temple

shaking it off but i'm sick in the head
you got me sick in the head
you got me sick in the, sick in the-, sick in the-
you got me thinking of what could've been if you just committed to us
i'm so addicted to pain but baby for you i would give it up
gotta detach from you hoe

i know, i know
i know, i know
i know, i know
i know
i, i, i, i know

love sick (prod. seye)

i swear that i try, i try wit you

i love the shit outta you, but you love me less
tell me how that work? tell me how that work?
so just hit me up one time, call my phone when i'm getting 
so just hit me up one time, call my phone when i'm getting high

i don't know why i deal with you
i don't know why i
do this to myself
say what you want
but i swear i try
i try wit you
i swear that i try, i try wit you

i love the shit outta you, but you love me less
tell me how that work? tell me how that work?
so just hit me up one time, call my phone when i'm getting high
so just hit me up one time, call my phone when i'm getting high

i would never trust in that smile
pretty eyes never lie
you a demon all in disguise
i could put you right behind me
i get high to the sky, so i don't gotta memorize
all of the times that we cried, tryna water plants that was dried up

bank it don't keep her
dick it don't keep her neither
but that bank it don't keep her
dick it don't keep her neither

i love the shit outta you, but you love me less
tell me how that work? tell me how that work?
so just hit me up one time, call my phone when im getting high
so just hit me up one time, call my phone when im getting high

try (prod. 4_head)

prod. xangang (https://soundcloud.com/xangang-tm/90s-slow-jams-samples-wcashcache-niko-east-7001)
visualizer (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PGFuNZmYFRE&feature=youtu.be)

what you on, what you on? got me crazy
i been here, you been there, why we so spacey?
baby oh, baby oh
think i need you here, you keep me sane

i think i'll keep you here you keep me sane fasho
need some guidance, love it when i take control
swimming in emotions taught you how to row
you gave them your love but they still crave your gold
we don't know, we don't know
driving me, driving me, driving me crazy

what you on, what you on? got me crazy
i been here, you been there, why we so spacey?
baby oh, baby oh
think i need you here, you keep me sane

you keep me sane for sure
i think you keep me sane for sure

sane (prod. xangang)

i told you leave me alone, lone
i told you leave me alone, i cannot leave you alone
i want you so fucking more

and when we apart, i want you more
you came wit a sword, and tore me apart
can't be in the house, i go to the park
smoke me a blunt, i dance in the dark

dark, dark darkness
don't even know how to process this
don't even know how to process 

breathe in all yo energy but i'm dying cause its toxic
i fill your heart wit these melodies but you fill my heart wit this nonsense

all these excuses that you putting on me
dont you put it on me dont you put it on me dont you put it on me
dont you put it on me dont you put it on me dont you put it on me
dont you put it on me dont you put it on me dont you put it on me

shadows (prod. killua55)

you don't gotta show me, tell me all the things you been on 
you would rather stay at home said fuck them benihanas
open up to me just tell me all the things you wanna
i know that you doing all the things you said you wouldn't do 
why i gotta find out through the grapevine what you been up to?
you know that your man wouldn't be happy if i fucked on you
love when you get slutty, i know you been off the juice

when he gone, she call me on facetime
i been telling you, telling you, make time
you so grimey, grimey
used to these niggas just sliming you out
want me to be in her, sliding right now
i'm in the cut and she slide on me
i'm a hands on learner, anatomy 
i fuck her back now she mad at me 
way that i fit in you got me in love

juice (prod. nazca)

i didn't want to focus on the bad
i dont wanna focus on the-
drown in the red, like its water
i need you right here, you don't need another
puerto rican, you so espanola
dice que ella quiere, quiere todo mi amor (she said she wants all my love)
dame tu calor, yo no quiero otra (give me your warmth, i don't want anybody else)
we could print it out, we could talk about it, we could be about it

drown in the red, like its water 
need you right here, you dont need another
boricua, you so espanola
dice que ella quiere, quiere todo mi amor (said she wants all my love)
dame tu calor, yo no quiero otra (give me your warmth, i dont want anybody else)
we could print it out, we could talk about it, we could really be about it

i, i gotta talk my shit
they, they try to tear my name down
i gotta let them go
i dont know why they dont got nobody else to talk about
i dont know why they dont got nobody else to talk about

i didn't want to focus on the bad
i dont want to focus on the-
drown in the red, like it's water
i need you right here, you don't need another
boricua, you so espanola
dice que ella quiere, todo mi amor (she said she wants all my love) 
dame tu calor, yo no quiero otra (give me your warmth, i don't want anybody else)
we could print it out, we could talk about it, we could be about it

dame tu calor (prod. nazca)

@xiiye0n
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sôrō,ˈsärō - a feeling of deep distress caused by loss, disappointment, or other misfortune suffered by oneself or others.

& you had a chance, & you had a chance, & you had a chance
diamonds they dancing, dancing, dancing
play wit my temple you play wit my head
you wake up now you asking mans what happened?

& you had a chance, & you had a chance, & you had a chance
& you had a chance, & you had a chance, & you had a chance

im in love wit hiding, bae
woke up today wit a whole lotta bank
if you not busy then tell me today
if you not wit me then tell me the real
we been away for a week right now
im so used to you peacing out
wishing we could talk you got me singing on these metronomes

i'm tired of talking about love, love that don't even find me no more
said that she feel something deep in her soul
that dont let her feel unless its her sorrow

fuck on me slow right now
i could feel your soul right now
i been up im high right now
i been up all night like how
she gon fuck me slow right now
fuck the pills i put them down
ima pop my 1 last bar
that's a lie i took 3 more
we done spanked lil boy, he sore
she tryna suck me up she a whore
she tryna suck me up she a whore
she tryna suck me up she a whore

i'm tired of talking about love, love that don't even find me no more
said that she feel something deep in her soul
that dont let her

& you had a chance, & you had a chance, & you had a chance
diamonds they dancing, dancing, dancing
play wit my temple you play wit my head
you wake up now you asking man's what happened?

& you had a chance, & you had a chance, & you had a chance
& you had a chance, & you had a chance, & you had a chance

im in love wit hiding bae
woke up today wit a whole lotta bank
if you not busy then tell me today
if you not wit me then tell me the real
we been away for a week right now
im so used to you peacing out
wishing we could talk you got me singing on these metronomes

& you had a chance, & you had a chance, & you had a chance
diamonds they dancing, dancing, dancing
play wit my temple you play wit my head
you wake up now you asking mans what happened?

& you had a chance, & you had a chance, & you had a chance
& you had a chance, & you had a chance, & you had a chance

chances w/ xiiye0n (prod. 1Weirdoe)

/wō/dezəˈlāSH(ə)n/souˈdädə/

fucking up my mental
finna blow my head off
fucking wit my mental
finna blow my head up
i'm finna blow my head off

i just hurt myself loving you
i just hurt myself loving you
i deserve myself loving you
all them lies, lies, lies, all them truths
all them lies, lies, lies, is it true?

i can’t stop myself from loving you
you just do what you do, what you do, what you do
you just do what you do, what you do, what you
you just do what you do, what you do, what you do
you just do what you do, what you do, what you do
trust me, i forgot you testing me

fucking on my mental
wanna blow my head off
i could blow my mental
i could blow my head up
i wanna blow my head off
blow my head off
somebody stop me before 
i wanna blow my head off

you stay fucking wit my mental
finna blow my head off

woe, desolation & saudade (prod. margoproxy)

we gon be okay
we gon be okay

i tell myself if we was together
everything would be okay, stay with me 
everything would be okay, stay with me
everything would be

we gon be okay, we gon be okay, we gon be okay, we gon be okay 
we gon be okay, we gon be okay, we gon be okay, we gon be okay
we gon be okay, we gon be okay, we gon be okay, we gon be okay
we gon be okay, we gon be okay, we gon be okay, we gon be okay 
we gon be okay, we gon be okay, we gon be okay, we gon be okay

we gon be okay
we gon be okay

stay with me (prod. cabernett)

am i lost cause i keep chasing you?
got me fucked up
i just swim in my sadness but i'm drowning
you make me want to keep dancing

summer's ending
i don't really care as much as i used to
i don't really care as much as i used to
as much as i used to

all your emotion
all your emotion
i lost all control
motions, oceans

fucked up, when you locking in?
can't cause i keep focusing, on all the shit we did
even though it wasn't perfect
but i loved it, but i loved it, but i loved it
this shit got me dying

all them stories i made up, i was lying
told you i would fix myself but you kept crying
all them stories i made up, i was lying
told you i would fix myself but you kept crying
but i loved it, but i loved, but i loved you
this shit got me dying

all them stories i made up, i was lying
told you i would fix myself but you kept crying
all them stories i made up, i was lying
told you i would fix myself but you kept crying
but i loved it, but i loved it, but i loved it

you don't write anymore (prod. purc)

@catrica
all platforms

would you change as a person?
if i came to you, and i asked you

change ft. catrica (prod. neverforever)

i was chasing you for miles
i was chasing you for miles
it take a lot to smile

all that pressure on you
all that pressure girl
how you live with that
how you live in your world?
i mean no disrespect

i can see it in your face
tryna put other people in your place
i hit the bong cause i cannot be in this space
you show me love but i try to banish you whole different place

all that pressure girl, make me wanna fucking throw up
i'm just tryna grow up everyday
bae i'm just waiting to glow up

all that pressure girl, make me wanna fucking throw up
since you left me i done glowed up
i'm sorry that i couldn't show up, in the way that i needed to
in the way that i needed

i'm telling, you got me feening
i call you at thanksgiving with no meaning
i told you all of these things, i ain't mean it
and you know i didn't, and you know i didn't, but you still
and you know i didn't, and you know i didn't but you chose up
you know i didn't, and you know i didn't but you
i had so much love but i think i lost it in june
i met you in may but we let it go in october

it's over, it's over, it's over
i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sober

i was chasing you for miles
i was chasing you for miles
now it take a lot to smile

pressure (prod. purc)

dawn (prod. idlyblare)

say2me - a song about words hurting more from the people you love

just watch the things that you say to me
you know i'm sensitive
you're my baby
but you're confusing
and there is no sense in this
but you're still my baby

driving me crazy, loco, oh
i just want to know
what the fuck you gave up on me for?
it's like every time i call your phone, you
you drive me loco
without, without you don't wanna go
you drive me loco
without, without you don't wanna go

say2me (prod. galacticmew & scro)

i lost myself in the motherfucking drugs
just to feel something like a hug
failed replications, psychosis so dedicated
just tired of fighting demons, so i medicate

i lost myself in the motherfucking drugs
just to feel something i could hug
failed replications, psychosis so dedicated
just tired of fighting demons, so i medicate

i lost myself in the motherfucking drugs
that's okay with you, i used to sleep all day with you
that's okay with you, i used to sleep all day with you

you really tried
see it with my own eyes
heart disagree with the mind, mind
still, smoking this tree like pine
i just wanted to make you mine 

engulf me in flames, i call that fire & desire
I'm in love wit hiding bae
you look so good I wanna fuck you everyday
i tell these hoes to get out the way 
tell me the real spill
i might pop this fucking pill
sorry mama I don't want to feel
i don't want to feel you

fire & desire (prod. thatspeak)

despite - a song about still wanting to fix a broken relationship with someone despite the hurt you've given them

despite, despite, despite 
all of the times that i, i, i, i let you down baby, i 
i wanna hold you close but, you wanna fucking fly
i wanna hold you patient, i was waiting right outside

i wanna hold you patient, i ain't tell you nothing
why did you take your love? why don't you show me nothing?
i been nervous about us

thinking bout you on the eastside
need you right here en mi frisa
you belong right here where i reside
i been smoking gas, smoking reefa
i put all my feelings in the music
she just wanna love me for my vibras
if i give you my energy don't lose it

i don't even know you, whatever to forget you, i been in the gym like kobe
i don't even know you anymore
i just wanted you to hold me, wanted you to hold me, that's all i wanted

despite (prod. seye)

i'm making these songs again
i'm pouring this liquor again, about a love
you're whispering, "tell me good things and just don't let it sting"
i'm making these songs again
and i can't even lean on my friends, that's cold; so cold

i might just pop pills again, i said fuck your amends
i said fuck your amends, i'll just numb my feelings again
i might just pop pills again, i said fuck your amends, i might just pop pills again, i said "fuck pills again"
i said fuck your amends, i might just pop pills again, i said fuck your amends
and i can't even lean on my friends, that's cold; so cold

i'm making these songs again
i'm pouring this liquor again, about a love
you're whispering, "tell me good things and just don't let it sting"
i'm making these songs again
and i can't even lean on my friends, that's cold; so cold

I - prod. killua55
II - prod. purc

amends (prod. killua55)

@skitowns
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but i like that girl so much, i wish that i never met her
i don't even know why, i don't even know why
i wish that i never met her

i can't get you out of my mind no matter how hard i try
thinking about all of the time that we spent on each other
you lean on me and ill rub on your shoulder lil baby it's gon be alright

i been so alone your loves all that matters you already know
im tryna go home you kissed me and loved me so lets take it slow
just go with the flow i hold you so tight yeah i make you my own
your lipstick is burnin a hole in my soul
im sick and still floating through the undertow
tryna be a new person and im tryna grow
money on me and you know i want more
she do me dirt yea she did me so gross
i listened to her now she not on my phone

she lied to me and she cried to me
memories like distant history

we gon be alright, yeah we gon be okay
yea we gon be alright, we gon be okay

we gon be alright w/ sylo (prod. seye)

this bitch so alluring
i listen to all your stories
and when its time for me to talk, you write me off like i was chalk
petty shit you do to piss me off, you look-

you look just like a song called white ferrari 
i know sometimes it feel like you don't got nobody
i don't just speak, i walk the talk
ill be the key, if you the lock
and your friend stay all on my cock, i think she like me
when is you sliding? when is you-

sad songs, doing me wrong, i won't cry
sad songs, sad songs, when is you?
sad songs, doing me wrong, i won't cry

driving me so crazy

this bitch so alluring
i listen to all your stories
and when its time for me to talk, you write me off like i was chalk
petty shit you do to piss me off, you look-

you look just like a song called white ferrari 
you look just like a song called white ferrari
and when its time for me to talk, you write me off like i was chalk
petty shit you do to piss me off
you look just like a song called white ferrari

white ferrari (prod. seye)

baby i was with whatever
doing this shit to me bitch, you must've thought you was clever
she call my phone again, ringing me i swear that i'll fucking dead her

confident in my abilities
confident in my ability

i caught myself writing all these love letters
to someone who couldnt even show me fucking better
i caught myself writing all these love letters

baby i was with whatever
doing this shit to me bitch, you must've thought you was clever
she call my phone again, ringing me i swear that i'll fucking dead her
baby i was with whatever
doing this shit to me bitch, you must've thought you was clever
she call my phone again, ringing me i swear that i'll fucking dead her

confident in my abilities
confident in my ability

dead her (prod. 4_head)

i hate love
i hate love
it's just pull & tug

said you like that chase
i'm too available for you
you just growing sick of me
toy with me just like a game
that i hate, that i hate

so, this ain't love, no this ain't
so, this ain't love, no this ain't
this ain't love

that was me really giving a fuck
anxious thoughts got me missing your touch
that was me really giving a fuck
but then you lucked out, you lost that side of me
but then you switched your, switched your side
anxious thoughts got me missing your touch

i hate love
it's just pull & tug
said you like that chase
i'm too available for you
you just growing sick of me
toy with me just like a game
that i hate, that i hate

so, this ain't love, no this ain't
so, this ain't love, no this ain't
this ain't love

this ain't love (prod. 308)

this song is about the feeling of love being compared a game, in which the lover realizes that there is no winning. 

after multiple failures with romance, the lover begins to question if this idea of "love" is ever obtainable, & in turn, slowly gives up on it.

love is a losing game (prod. wiley)

you still think i care about all them hoes?
i cant have no feelings for no twitter hoe, i want you
got me spinning all around like vertigo

want no ig hoes, i want you
just take off yo clothes i'm coming through
i know you been thru hell in the past
i know you just want to go, baby don't put me through that

they tryna tell me who i should be
fake niggas around me i can't go there
i just want your love in a cup
mix it wit a bean & go nowhere

i can't have no fans, i want you
just want you, just want you

you still think i care about all them hoes?
i cant have no feelings for no twitter hoe, i want you
got me spinning all around like vertigo

want no ig hoes, i want you
just take off yo clothes i'm coming through
i know you been thru hell in the past
i know you just want to go, baby don't put me through that

twittr ho (prod. nephminaj)

i've been on the run
i've been on the run, peace out

bleed from my arms , cause these thorns poking my skin
& you fill me with a grin
& im missing what it's been 
& im hoping we could end it all
now i know what it is

call me when he's hurting you, when your patience grows thin
i just can't stand watching you, this jealousy is a sin
call me when you missing me, but only if you mean it
lust filling you up, but what is sex with no meaning?

your acts show you love us, but i can't process your treason
people change like the seasons, said my love for you had you geeking
heart throb, now you bleeding
told you i could clean you up, but I guess you stopped believing; leaving
I guess you stopped
said my love for you had you geeking

I was hoping that you'd stay, stay hoping that we could
come together & we could link up
I've been on the run, peace out
I was hoping that you'd stay, stay hoping we could love
stay hoping we could love

I was hoping that you'd stay, stay hoping that we could
stay hoping we could link up, I've been on the run, peace out
stay hoping we could love, &, & link up
come together & just link up
I've been on the run, we could love

hoping, we could love
I've been on the run so
I was hoping that
stay hoping that we could link up

peace out (prod. killua55)

visualizer: https://youtu.be/Yzqr7ZbbTbA

you so deceitful, but you want to hit me up
calling my phone, telling me that you're scared to be alone

you tried to tell me all of the shit that we did?
you tried to tell me all of the shit that we did?

ain't mean nothing to you all of a sudden?
ain't mean nothing to you all of a sudden?

doing all them bad things said you wouldn't
doing all them bad things said you wouldn't
doing all them bad things said you wouldn't
doing all them bad things said you wouldn't
doing all them bad things said you wouldn't

you tried to tell me all of the shit that we did?
you tried to tell me all of the shit that we did?

about you, about you, about you
but you wanna go, telling me, calling my phone
talking about you need some help, telling me that you scared to be alone 
about you, about you, about you
about you, about you, about you

ways you try to control me
ways you try to manipulate the situation, and it fucking shows
you just like my attention & it shows
i cried to my bros about you
i cried to all my bros
cried to my bros about you
about you, about you, about you, about you, about you, about you
you so deceitful, thinking that i love you, baby you so

ain't mean nothing to you all of a sudden?
ain't mean nothing to you all of a sudden?

doing all them bad things said you wouldn't
doing all them bad things said you wouldn't
doing all them bad things said you wouldn't
doing all them bad things said you wouldn't
doing all them bad things said you wouldn't

you so deceitful, thing is that i love you baby you so
you so deceitful, thing is that i love you baby you so
you so deceitful, thing is that i love you baby you so

deceitful (prod. 4_head)

psy·cho/ˈsīkō/

this shit ain't working, no it ain't it, no it ain't it, no 
are you delusional? or do you know what you do to me? 
what you do to me?

this shit ain't working, no it ain't it, no it ain't it, no it ain't, no
this shit ain't working, it's toxic, toxic
so it ain't it, no it ain't it, no it ain't working

you unblock me 
so i unblock you, go back to this damn cycle
i think i'm dealing with a psycho 
baby girl, we so stuck up in this cycle 
fight & then you ride me into siko's paths
sometimes i can't even cry bro
save me, you need a fucking bible

but you hurting, this shit ain't working, no it ain't it, no it ain't it, no
are you delusional, or do you know, do you know, do you know?
what you do to me?
what you do to me?

i think i'm dealing with a psycho 
we so stuck up in this cycle
i think i'm dealing with a cycle
i think i'm dealing with a psy-

ˈsīkō (prod. sh1nky)

gone (prod. seye)

love that you can't even handle
burning my heart open just like a candle
said that you want my love but you can't even handle it

i must be a feen, feen, feen for love
feen for drugs, feen for love, feen for dopamine
if i was me, i'm laundry, unfolding me
baby please, baby please, i'm begging please
show me life, show me signs that you fuck with me

said that you want my love that you can't even handle
burning my heart open just like a candle
said that you want my love but you can't even-, can't even handle it

said that you want my love but you can't even handle it
said that you want my love, said that you want my love
can't even-, said that you want my love

candle (prod. sh1nky)

i heard a story that, grief is just love when it don't got nowhere to go
i'm so sorry that, i couldn't be there for you, don't want you on your own
i heard a story that 

that one day
we wouldn't be okay, we wouldn't be okay
we wanna be okay, i wanna be o-

i had a heart so big, the world couldn't handle it 
i had a love so strong, your mind couldn't fathom it 
i had a bitch so bad but she could be badder though 
you could do better though, oh

enough about me, enough about you, enough about us 
enough about love, enough about grief, enough about trust 
you could do better

trust, you could do better
you could do better though
enough about trust
you could do better though
you could do better though, oh

how much i love you
how much i love you

i heard a story that, grief is just love when it don't got nowhere to go
i'm so sorry that, i couldn't be there for you, don't want you on your own
i heard a story that one day
i couldn't be there for you, don't want you on your own
i couldn't be there for you, don't want you on your own

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