~ don't mean to tether myself.. ~ 
prod. grayskies
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can't face reality 
didn't think i'd be affected by the gravity 
gotta try and break me free but it's not guaranteed
hold on to someone i don't know and yeah it's sad to see 
how'd you get attached to me?
yell through your stridency
but i don't think i could show you the bad side of me 
i guess i'll fray the ends and let go while i try to sleep
let go of someone i don't know, but now you're fighting me
try to find the irony 

i thought that i was saved 
a siren song, and i surrender to sound
you pulled me in, i caved 
and now i’m planted, stuck here in the ground 

don’t mean to tether myself
when you don’t need someone else 
yeah i’ve been going through hell, and i fell too hard
cause I’ve been rooted in you
i guess your feelings weren’t true 
i sat here watching you bloom, but i’m in the dark
cause things die before their time
but i can’t blossom into nothing when you’re stuck into mine
i dig myself when you look
i’m falling on tenderhooks,
don’t need me, wish that you would, cause i’m tearing apart

cause in reality, you’re the only thing keeping me here,
I just want to let you go, why won’t you let me disappear? 
because i’m holding on to someone I don’t know, 
do you love me like you say you do? 
cause there’s a part of me that I don’t want to show to you.
and I know it’s harder just to follow through, 
cause if I end up falling I don’t want you falling too
I’m tied to what you said, 
and I know that it don’t mean nothing to you
i’m tied down can’t get air, 
but I can’t leave cause it’ll let you down

don’t mean to tether myself
when you don’t need someone else 
yeah i’ve been going through hell, and i fell too hard
cause I’ve been rooted in you
i guess your feelings weren’t true 
i sat here watching you bloom, but i’m in the dark
cause things die before their time
but i can’t blossom into nothing when you’re stuck into mine
i dig myself when you look
i’m falling on tenderhooks,
don’t need me, wish that you would, cause i’m tearing apart

tenderhooks

tenderhooks (w. boygrim)

dont wanna talk no more,
i swear i really cant take no more,
really been tryin my goddamn best but i think im broken down to my core,
i know you've been tryna see the best in me but i dont really think its there,
i know you've been tryna be the best for me but i dont really think i care,
no not at all
dont wanna talk no more,
i swear i really cant take no more,
really been tryin my goddamn best but i think im broken down to my core,
i know you've been tryna see the best in me but i dont really think its there,
i know you've been tryna be the best for me but i dont really think i care,
no not at all

cant even fix this sh*t cuz i just feel so empty,
i didnt mean to get you caught up in my mistakes,
i keep on failing and i know that i failed you,
if you wanna leave i really dont blame you,

i know im broken know im broken to my core,
i know that you been wantin you been wantin more,
but i aint got it in me no i aint got it,
because im broken broken to my core,

dont wanna talk no more,
i swear i really cant take no more,
really been tryin my goddamn best but i think im broken down to my core,
i know you've been tryna see the best in me but i dont really think its there,
i know you've been tryna be the best for me but i dont really think i care,
no not at all
dont wanna talk no more,
i swear i really cant take no more,
really been tryin my goddamn best but i think im broken down to my core,
i know you've been tryna see the best in me but i dont really think its there,
i know you've been tryna be the best for me but i dont really think i care,
no not at all

Broken To My Core (Jayysoul x ddva)

luh bday drop YAYAYAYAYAY
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p. @dooozii + @kitsufinale

late night calls

(prod. Strive & Jkeiloops)

lyrics:

No don’t tell me I can’t 
Its all part of the plan
You wish I was dead
Im out of my head
I got thousands of people their singing my songs
Why the fuck do you think that im so wrong
So why can’t you tell me you love me
Bump all my songs and support me
 
Yea life been feeling like a chore
They’re blowing up my line yeah they begging me for more
But she dont understand it
she will never get it

Im trying my best to fly through the rest
Its the ultimate test 
I won’t let you down im better than that
You think its just sound and im fucking depressed 
I built this alone put myself on the map
Put myself on the map but you don’t get that
So why do I try, these feelings inside
Ill kiss them goodbye,  I won’t think twice

No don’t tell me I can’t 
Its all part of the plan
You wish I was dead
Im out of my head
I got thousands of people their singing my songs
Why the fuck do you think that im so wrong
So why can’t you tell me you love me
Bump all my songs and support me

mom..

Bite marks on my skin I can feel em 
Conceal em so everyone thinks that I’m living alone
But I’ll see you at home 

Messing with my hair in the mirror
Hoping I’ll appear as something conventional 
Instead of confessional 

I know I said I’d be wrapped around your finger till the day that I die
I know that wrapped up in the wardrobe there sits Bonnie and Clyde 
I know that it’s ok for me to stay for the finer lines
But I’m still hung up on the strings of feeling you will just do it again

So you’ll just do it again

What’s another night with you by my side
Another halt upon my timeline
Another distraction away from the action 
Another segment out of my life

Another tool to sharpen my knife
Another reason that I can’t fight
Another reaction for me to compact in
Another braindance up in my mind 

Now there’s bite marks on my skin I can feel em 
Conceal em so everyone thinks that I’m living alone
But I’ll see you at home 

Just need more when my egoes on the floor 
I try to ignore because urges leave you poor
Why cry any sort of person would slam the door 
and yet you pry until your sore
Let your body heal restore 

then tell me was it worth it
Tell me if you’re ever gonna fall in love again
Tell me if you’re ever gonna pick up trust again
Tell me if you feel something other than lust again
Tell me if your actions ever feel unjust again

Tell me if you ever really wanna crave
Tell me if your heart is ever really feeling safe
Tell me if it’s something that you wanna go replay 
But I’m afraid that I’ll just do it again

Yeah I’ll just do it again 

What’s another night with me by your side
another course that’s changed your timeline 
Another distraction another reaction
Another segment out of your life 

Now there’s bite marks on my skin I can feel em 
Conceal em so everyone thinks that I’m living alone
But I’ll see you at home 

The lipstick stains I hid are revealing
Appearing as if there’s somebody else all along
I guess I’ll see you at home

Just need more when my egoes on the floor
(Night with you by my side, halt upon my timeline)
I try to ignore because urges leave you poor
(Distraction away from the action, segment out of my life)
Why cry any sort of person would slam the door 
(tool to sharpen my knife, reason that I can’t fight)
And yet you pry until your sore 
(Reaction for me to compact in)
Let your body heal restore
(Braindance up in my mind)

Conceal

I swear these girls be plastic they be fake they be barbies thats why I keep a glock in my sock ima jock like what the HECK is wrong w these fake ahh barbies. This ones for u Felicia 💔

BARBIE (Prod. AUGUSTIN)

Angel in the trenches (prod. counter)

instrumental song / not 4 sale or artist use.

potions

how could u believe anything that I say 
I know I lie but I'll be ok
maybe I'm meant to die, its ok
we all leave this life our own way

and I said I would do it
like I couldn't do this
I'm feeling so clueless
I feel like a nuisance
I feel like a psycho
like why can't I do this
I wanted my eyes closed
like its so confusing

I- I- I'm feeling hollow
fill me with sorrow
feed me the drugs and
you'll see me tomorrow 
(2x)

seemetomorrow (+jupiter)

lyrics:

One more life is all
 all i ask
 so i can make it last
 the memories
 that i threw all away for 
 a temporary fix
 throw me in a ditch
 cut me and my wrist
 i deserve this shit 
 karma is a bitch 
 Cursed me like a witch 
 Losing all i love 
 Oh i've had enough 

 Far away i'll go 
 My stories not yet told
 I'll prove them wrong i know 
 I'll be someone's hope 
 I can't find a reason not to cry

karma is a bitch (prod. neverforever)

Your Movie (ft. vil)

I’m a Young Kid with a Humble Household 

🔥🌟🔥                      🌺

Shout out Jambo n Lil Tyke 
Ones my Brother, ones my Brother from another Foster Home

BARBIE (Prod. AUGUSTIN)

KIDD SILAS