If your reading this just know your special to me <3

songs that remind me of how much i like you :c

twenty something

instagram.com/harvestdusker
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/0jYjccpOVYyhSSjs6di9DH?si=aSSs6oZVSjmj_2Pw0xiDkA
every night i close my eyes like i'm alright, tell myself that i'll be okay i'll be fine

vocals: @lilxlotus - twitter.com/LILXLOTUS

production: @harvest - twitter.com/hr_vest

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wasting your time w/ lil lotus

lyrics:

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

i had it all planned
we could just fall back
onto the couch look at the moon and just smoke up the whole pack

now its all u said i said
whenever u mad im mad
who got the heart on snapchat
if she hit u up dont call back

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

ur the one i dream bout (prod. mydepression)

Ｉ　ＤＯＮ＇Ｔ　ＷＡＮＮＡ　ＢＥ　ＳＯＢＥＲ

//私の時間は終わった//

lyrics

doormat

prod. @notmorgn

new day new song new problem
new clothes it’s cold in autumn
leaves fall right to the bottom
i miss u but i won’t call you
bags on my eyes
they think that im high
you said you loved me
but then you said bye
i don’t care
the pain make me
i’m post death
till my heart stop aching
ill fucking scream till my voice box breaking
it’s fuck life till the reaper take me

do u wanna be mine
like i wanna be yours
do u wanna be mine
like i wanna be yours

i put in the work
no 9 to 5 
she get outta work 
im kind of hype
your girl was in my dm’s 
for the pipe
but im not a plumbing
so it dont feel right
this feels nice in my car
night ride
if the function sus 
then fuck i gotta slide
cus when i have anxiety
i wanna die
but when im by your side
it feels kind of nice
everything coming clear grey goose with the ice
i like that shit cold have me feeling kind of right
and for my heart you have that shit tied
when we kiss i get warm inside

bags on my eyes
they think that im high
you said you loved me
but then you said bye

do u wanna be mine
like i wanna be yours

do u wanna be mine

ft. 
https://soundcloud.com/lilzubin
 https://twitter.com/lilzubin

prod. 
https://soundcloud.com/nedarbnagrom
https://twitter.com/NEDARBNAGROM

art.
https://soundcloud.com/wolf_drawn
https://twitter.com/WOLFDRAWN

just a memory ft. lil zubin (prod. nedarb)

Me and my sister jamming out to an amazing beat :) Ouse is so talented and has so many dope songs so go check him out @ouseiceland Thank u for 300 followers!!! and almost 50,000 plays!  <3

Music Video

Ghost in Town (Prod. ouse)

Sad vibes  
Sad lives  
Static Heart Gang never dies   
Lil Trashed always cry   

lil trash
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https://www.instagram.com/p/BcJW7S1jE9p/
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCbbjbGQqjoewrVGJU9Ux6Mw/featured?disable_polymer=1

ghostxhouse
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https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCHb6p0yoYQGBehR-O9ZXyIA

Lil Trashed ~ I'm Sorry (prod ghostxhouse)

@sneiv-daed 

Im slowly killing myself 
Puff a smoke then inhale 
Im slowly killilng myself
I don’t need help
I don’t need help 

Imma die from this cancer, idc
Swear its fine I know that no one will even care
This disease is running through my genes
Prescriptions medications are gonna try and force the leave
Or make an absence of the cells that will be slowly killing me 
I guess that life will be the same i know i’ve never seen the green
Green grass that supposedly is on the other side
If im alive, idk why i try 

Im slowly killing myself 
Puff a smoke then inhale 
Im slowly killilng myself
I don’t need help
I don’t need help 

Losing time over matters 
Finna break away from the pain and all the clutter
Losing love after love cause im a pain 
Time after time im losing the game

Hate the weather because its always cold af
I aint got a squad im still running a muck 
I know im fighting a game that i have already lost 
Its like im running in place while im fighting the boss 
Its a lost cause, im a lost

Im dying slowly 
Clouds above me looking shady 
Im dying slowly
Clouds above me looking gloomy

slowly (prod. sneiv daed)

Stay tonight - LIL Jumex (prod. ROGDER)

Shoutout to Fang Gang and 4evr <3 Love all of you.
Sad Chill: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xXvfIrj_IV4
Produced by : @4evrgone

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Tears Of Stone (Prod. 4evr)

produced by DeliverTheCrush
engineered by Heartbreak Jake
written and performed by Macho Randy

I WISH I COULD GO 2 THE START
BEFORE I F*CKED UP UR HEART

I'm Fine (Pretending)

produced by 9TAILS

samples from kingsway music library

talking up just to talk backwards
actor
i remember when the enemies were not a factor
gotta move different cause some outbursts of my temper
i might be an asshole but the truth's what matters
splatter
all my deep down thoughts get scattered
on my new reeboks plant matter
in a coned out raw
smoke the spliff than make this song
holding in smoke face blue man group
loud way too loud man it smell like poop
enough about me tell me more about you
did your friend text back did you link that dude
do you treat him like a main or a strong number 2
you aboutta break with the weight on you
did you put the faith in him but he always fell through
lately i just hope that im not that dude
"you aint really do nothing bad" says you
i been getting pew pew'd every other song
drop *boom* drop bombs and support is gonna cease i guess
profit increase so do ever bodies needs i guess
vampires when i bleed i guess
when i fuck off, now you fuck me i guess
smoke my weed then kiss your teeth whats next

sorry friend
could we make amends
this the second call
but imma call again
im on a variety of shit
its only 2pm
bottles, conscious, and a spliff
all beside me in the whip

i want december
there wasn't as many plans 
that i felt bad for missing to really see what i can
do with these hands
do with this brain
and the subject matter inside
you leave im working im eager something i could never hide

i get too deep in it
mind overdrive my thoughts overwrite as fear overides my shit
coarse cough got me fucked with the blood spit
yuck

sorry friend
could we make amends
this the second call
but imma call again
im on a variety of shit
its only 2pm
bottles, conscious, and a spliff
all beside me in the whip

sorry friend
could we make amends
this the second call
but imma call again
im on a variety of shit
its only 2pm
bottles, conscious, and a spliff
all beside me in the whip

some missed calls

hook:
japanese my shawty
japanese my pants
undercover jeans i be walking til im dead
different color yen, finger licking bands
hentai be the plan, hop inside my bed x2

verse 1:
kawaii my princess
hold me tight in that white wedding dress
these girls lovey dovey harem ending out to shout
took that route but i can't make it back out
ecchi till I die all these lolis call me senpai
like a yandere i kill for that love
in that spotlight, do you love me or not
like yuuki rito, falling down lets get undressed

hook:
japanese my shawty
japanese my pants
undercover jeans i be walking til im dead
different color yen, finger licking bands
hentai be the plan, hop inside my bed

japanese (prod. howard)

Youtube Video: https://youtu.be/nlzArr_N7Sk

Producer, Go follow him ty - @xenithex

Shy ~
Straight suicide
Would heal my mind
And if I die
they wouldnt mind
Help me, oh my
Ive felt this enough
Im running outta time
Im drowning in tides
Looking back im trash~, since 20 twelve
Im feeling less~, less of a man
Fill me with lead~ , I wrote my will
Im ready to fade im ready to leave
cause im alone thats the reason
cold in my bones and im freezing


Seppuku :'c

Tyfon <3
Never was enough for
Anyone or anything
On a constant downfall
Falling till they burry me
Gotta fly away now
To a place where I won't hurt
But I guess the way down
Is the only place I get
No place left for a fuckup what was I expecting in the end ?
Always thought I knew wassup and that is what made me ignorant
I should had known I'd never make it
Don't need this head I'll break it break it break it
Get in my shoes for a day
Dare you not to run away
Maybe you could try my brain
Might be half when you escape
Shut my eyes, feel like I'm blind
Playing dead until I die
Save the talk I've lost the fight

Seppuku - Single

Seppuku

Seppuku feat. Tyfon (Prod. Sera.)

ur dad doesn't seem to like me much
but i don't care i just want your touch
and when you kiss me i just get a rush
passed out on the front of your lawn
now i know 
i'm stupid 
i fell hard
you felt that
but now i'm 
so fucked up
so in love
i'm sorry 

i hope that you hear this
i hope that your worth it
your dad makes me nervous
i fuck up on purpose
no 
no i don't deserve this
oh 
oh

i should stop running my mouth
i get in trouble everytime 
your dad seems to comes around
its not his fault
he just hates me 
cuz of the way that i sound
im super nervous
kinda quirky
i can't figure him out
he wants me dead, a grave right into the ground

watch the world burn as i walk thru the flames
discard my body the ashes will rain
kill everybody 
brain with no body 
talk to myself when i’m scared and i’m crying
emotionless eyes i can’t tell when i’m lying
far from the end but the end is still nigh 
how we all dead but still feelin alive
came out of the womb and i’m not even crying
baby wanna say bye bye
takin my life like i
don’t wanna feel alright
don’t wanna wake up 
don’t wanna step outside
bitch i been up all night

ur dad doesn't seem to like me much
but i don't care i just want your touch
and when you kiss me i just get a rush
passed out on the front of your lawn
now i know 
i'm stupid 
i fell hard
you felt that
but now i'm 
so fucked up
so in love
i'm sorry

ur dad fucking hates me! ft. joseph cash (prod irby)

(prod. shattered, bangss & ryan medina) 

i think it's time to let go
drive with my eyes closed
baby i don't wanna die
tell me imma be all right
cocaine nose
driving real slow
i don't give a fuck if you cry tonight

hope i die slow
in a car crash far from home
you can't stop what you've created
i am everything you hated
i know i'm not the best at everything
i'm trying really hard just to get you to finally see
you're pulling on my lungs and you're making it hard to breath
i'm going over 90 right into this fucking tree

everything stops when you say that it's over
i never wanted this
i just wanted some closure
you just wanted my clothes off
i just wanted your heart, 
but i fell too deep and now you want us apart

falling down on my bedroom floor
i dream of days where i don't have to feel anymore
im overwhelmed with emotions that i can't explain
i think im dying slowly every day i mask my pain

i think it's time to let go
drive with my eyes closed
baby i don't wanna die
tell me imma be all right
cocaine nose
driving real slow
i don't give a fuck if you cry tonight

you can take the wheel i got my eyes closed
wonder what the fuck goes on when my eyes close
night-time see you when the blinds close
every other days like the same it doesnt change

fall out
fall out i can hear you call out
from a far like a fallen star
gone so far
off of it
so im stuntin hard
and you get lost in it

caution to the wind
and often i find
that all my friends are coffins
gone and lost again so toss it
all your effort is forgotten

i think it's time to let go
drive with my eyes closed
baby i don't wanna die
tell me imma be all right
cocaine nose
driving real slow
i don't give a fuck if you cry tonight

driving with my eyes closed (ft. dylon bangss)

im in your backyard
singing these songs
hope you listen
to the words that i say
cuz all i’ve wanted lately
was to make a place in your brain
a place that i could escape
somewhere that i would be safe

and i just can't relax without you
and all the feelings that you had are through
and i dont know how to get away
you're always stuck inside my brain

nothing seems right
i feel like imma die
im such a fuckup
i dont wanna lie
but you see right past that
still won’t answer my snapchat
like why do i even deserve that
when you hit me up ill call back

im in your backyard
singing these songs
hope you listen
to the words that i say
cuz all i’ve wanted lately
was to make a place in your brain
a place that i could escape
somewhere that i would be safe

and i cant fight back
just might relapse 
and i know its sad but there's no turning back no
and i cant fall asleep at night
i lie awake all the time
she doesn't wanna tell me how
how to get her off my mind
how to get her off my mind
how to get her off my mind

im in your backyard
singing these songs
hope you listen
to the words that i say
cuz all i’ve wanted lately
was to make a place in your brain
a place that i could escape
somewhere that i would be safe

backyard (feat. ryan medina) (prod. brody)

[this is a very early demo, ik it sounds pretty rough but its a work in progress]

you’re not the person
that i knew
its killing me
but i wonder what happened to you
did he change you
rearrange you
your body language doesn’t seem to match your mood

i stole your car again
but it hurt me more than it hurt you in the end
you ran up the mileage of trust
and the miles of love
that we said we wouldn’t forget
i still smell the cigarette smoke
on the hoodies you stole
from my closet back in march
i tried everything
to get the smell
out of my clothes
and out of my fucking mind

you stabbed me in my chest
but it felt so good
just to feel your touch again
i lay my head on the concrete
cuz you brought me to my knees

you’re not the person
that i knew
its killing me
but i wonder what happened to you
did he change you
rearrange you
your body language doesn’t seem to match your mood

please don't tell my ex girlfriend that i wrote this about her (demo)

hook is alek olsen :) 

hook:
I know you moved on
And I get that yeah I do 
I never thought it would be this
This hard to lose someone like you 

verse:
My heart is like a kid with a vase
It’s bound to break 
I know you’re still alive 
But it really feels like you passed away 
I’m praying every day like Dear Lord 
Please just keep her safe 
Even if we part forever 
No one here can take her place 
I’m deeply anxious impatient 
And I can taste all the places that 
We would go and I hate it 
Because it feels like I’m losing you ever slowly 
If you’re gone then I’ll be lonely 
And I’ll never be the same 
Only pain will be here to hold me 

hook:
I know you moved on
And I get that yeah I do 
I never thought it would be this
This hard to lose someone like you 

verse:
I know life’s supposed to be hard 
But not like this 
Once I had you in my arms 
But now you’re gone just like a mist 
All I wanted was simple bliss 
But my gift was an empty kiss 
Now I’m stuck with a broken heart 
And a part that’s completely ripped 
I understand that everything has a reason
God heal this internal bleeding 
And strengthen me where I’m weakened 
How can life be taken so fast 
I wish we would have both passed
We’d hold our hands forever 
And this wouldn’t hurt me so bad 

hook:
I know you moved on
And I get that yeah I do 
I never thought it would be this
This hard to lose someone like you 
I know you moved on
And I get that yeah I do 
I never thought it would be this
This hard to lose someone like you