I was your 1100 follower after hearing this <3

I can't stop listening to this right now 😭🥹

self produced
follow decks: @decksmusic
cover art taken by decks
lyrics

getting back to my feet standing up again
guess i wasnt ready for the fight that u brought again
said i was the one that u want can u want again
im been trying hard but im ending up distraught again
guess i wasnt ready for the battle to be fought again
guess im just relearning all the lessons ive been taught again
i can only take so much that ur throwing at me
when ur angry it feels like 100 degrees

decks:
when ur mad no i can’t take the heat
i just back down fallin onto my knees
i dont wanna be a problem babe im beggin please
im retracing all my steps and now its hard to breathe

so i fucked up
pass time cuz im done up
second chances arent free but i could earn em
suns up
wake up early cuz the funs up
out of time baby im not what u wantttt

100 degrees w/ decks

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0ZSKl5rjtjWLQ3HI1moWyf
YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F8BufMqlNQI

Artist:
@decksmusic

Produced by
@sadboiforever

Lyrics:
i've been waiting for something, then i found her
i'm accustomed to silence so thats a first
maybe its all in my head
but i fuck up, then make up, and do it again

i've been waiting for something, then i found her
i'm accustomed to silence so thats a first
maybe its all in my head
but i fuck up, then make up, and do it again

and we watched as the stars fell down to earth
weather warm and the breeze gave a sudden burst
of life
to you and i
i remember
we started again that night

and it's easy to say
that i miss yesterday
but its all in my head now
that you're in my head now

and i'm frightened for sure
but you know that i'm yours
baby grab my hand
we could have one last dance

take me home
i need to see myself in the mirror
myself in the mirror
wake me up
'cause i have to see a little bit clearer
a little bit clearer

i've been waiting for something, then i found her
i'm accustomed to silence so thats a first
maybe its all in my head
but i fuck up, then make up, and do it again

i've been waiting for something, then i found her
i'm accustomed to silence so thats a first
maybe its all in my head
but i fuck up, then make up, and do it again

and we watched as the stars fell down to earth
weather warm and the breeze gave a sudden burst
of life
to you and i
i remember
we started again that night

and it's easy to say
that i miss yesterday
but its all in my head now
that you're in my head now

decks - one last dance (2001)

went for something different.
made this with the intention to expand my creativity as an artist
and the hopes to understand myself more as a person.
hope you enjoy :')
prod. @branwenmusic & @rvrhiv 🖤
cover art done by @akanenosketch

~~lyrics~~
(i got these daggers in my spine)
(they come right at me from the skies)
(just tell me why, why)

knowing that you’re safe
could you save me from this bad dream
know it’s kinda late
girl i’m sorry that i’m asking
glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat  
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within
until i meet an end
do you understand?

go into a rage 
when i see you in my sight
everyone the same 
and i always wonder why
tell me what it takes
just for you to stay mine

swear i’m fucking sick
everyone’s a prick 
running fucking swift
don’t ever stop, won’t ever quit
eh i was a mistake
in this world; why do i stay?
no, seriously.
THIS SHIT SUCKS!!!

hush…

glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat 
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within

i’m rotting from within!
i should probably go
there's blood under the snow 
infinity below
i hear the echoes of bellows

aren’t you just happy for me
i wanna be someone else
stuck inside a catacomb
it’s like my own personal hell 
just give me the signal 
and i’ll try to book it outta here
it’s not that i’m terrified
this is just how i look my dear 

i got these daggers in my spine
they started raining from the sky
i didn’t make it home in time
within your arms is where i lie

i rot, everything’s stupid 
i want you, but i’m useless
time’s not real, we are lucid 
i’m just, gonna lose it all


glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat 
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within
until i meet an end 
do you understand?…

infinity below [prod. branwen x rvrhiv]

madison & 1st, night lights in a coffin
w/ @betweentheveinsandi
prod. @sadboiforever
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
yeah u can take my life if u want it
file thru the pain, small prize if u block it
and i never been ashamed, cut ties if im wantin’
u came here to play, eat shit where ur talkin
cuz im sayin u can take my life if u want it
madison and 1st, night lights in a coffin
i cant ever fall asleep, twist spine pretty often
bored of counting sheep, yet fine feelin nothin

and im saying with dusk comes dawn
another painful day where the night feels wrong
& i’ll stay inside tonight so i can weather the storm

my mind
a fragile portrait of my architecture
my spine
is broken by the words that i have dragged along
inside
i’ve spent so long for progress to force me backwards
alive
im glad i am, its hard to carry on

veins:
Take my life if u want it 
I don't really give a shit 
2 shots that's a warning 
And I don't make ties they just loosen with time 
Back when throwing up was the best part of our lives 
Oh what u say book a hospital stay 
All the times and the days that u tried to run away 
Despite what u say I think ur mom is pretty sweet 
Cause if u always be the victim then u always live in pain 
She said that break ups suck 
But I don't think she gives a fuck 
And I don't think that meaning from a broken heart just takes a fuck 
Woah 
Laid back 
I'm at terms with the past 
And I'll follow the act 
Just tell me how to act  

yeah u can take my life if u want it
file thru the pain, small prize if u block it
and i never been ashamed, cut ties if im wantin’
u came here to play, eat shit where ur talkin
cuz im sayin u can take my life if u want it
madison and 1st, night lights in a coffin
i cant ever fall asleep, twist spine pretty often
bored of counting sheep, yet fine feelin nothin

and im saying with dusk comes dawn
another painful day where the night feels wrong
& i’ll stay inside tonight so i can weather the storm

take it, it's yours (ft. betweentheveinsandi) [2001]

spotify!

pacing, aimlessly in circles unable to recognize myself. w/ sace6

i was never the same

prod: michael harrison, aidan han, and max vossberg
master: @onlyfriendyeah

you said my eyes looked pretty
and wiped the tears from my face 
you told me that you're leaving
but it'll all be okay
and i was never the same
you didn't have to go 
why'd you leave me alone

i bet you're sick of playing innocent
aren't you?
you were happy tearing ligaments
weren't you?
i was always the participant 
for you to see just how bad it gets

and really baby you're a monster
and when i saw you by the water
i should've known i was a goner
but i took everything you offered

and really baby you're a monster
i was in love with that

you were on me fucking every night
sweating through the signs
you look so good in white
we do this every time
so baby let me go
i'll see you after i die
the last light
will fucking let me know 
i wasted my whole life

and really baby you're a monster
and when i saw you by the water
i should've known i was a goner
but i took everything you offered

you were on me fucking every night
sweating through the signs 
you look so good in white
we do this every time
let me go
i'll see you after i die 
the last light 
will fucking let me know 
i wasted my whole life

i saw you by the water

my time is up, old friend i knew, your skins starting to tear
quit glaring down our dreams as dead as youth from the lies we never shared 
it’s all a blur, but i miss that, i hope you could understand
im not you anymore, just a shadow instead
i hate your lies, hate your touch
hate how you don’t give a fuck
sick and tired of the same excuses, we’re blinded and corrupt
it’s sad to see what i’ve become, the life i used to fear so greatly
im letting go of all i love cause in the end no one can save me
 
all my dreams turn to nightmares without you
i can’t fall asleep till it’s permanently 
if i run i have nowhere to go to
toss in turn in my sheets 
and the cycle repeats

and it’s so hard for me, to take the road i paved
what i envisioned, these inhibitions 
are taking over me, there’s nothing left to say
i never listened, i should’ve listened

all my dreams turn to nightmares without you
i can’t fall asleep till it’s permanently 
if i run i have nowhere to go too
toss in turn in my sheets 
and the cycle repeats

If i stay it comes, if i leave it follows
no one knows at all, no one knows 
im okay, i swear
just deprived of sleep yea 
that’s the one I’ll try
but you know all my lies

all my dreams turn to nightmares without you
i can’t fall asleep till it’s permanently 
if i run i have nowhere to go too
toss in turn in my sheets 
and the cycle repeats
all my dreams turn to nightmares without you
i can’t fall asleep till it’s permanently 
if i run i have nowhere to go too
toss in turn in my sheets 
and the cycle repeats

all my dreams (acoustic)

lyrics:

nothing is staying the same
why do i feel this way
i just wanna say what i think
but ur gonna think im insane 
u know ive been smoking a lot
u know im in love with the change
u dont ever leave from my mind
under a spell like a mage

girl u keep me in a lock box
always make the time stop
wish u needed me but u dont
cuz ur hearts locked
i guess that im good on my own
cuz baby u dont hit my phone 
but u know ur keeping me up at night
need u in my bed and ill be alright

fill my lungs makin sure i feel alright
want ur love since i saw u in the starlight
chasin bands cuz i know im livin right
im still waiting for u cuz i know that u might
come around u know u can spend the night
want ur love since i saw u in the starlight
takin drugs makin sure i feel alright 
im still waiting for u cuz i know that u might

and the moonlight seeping in my bedroom 
wont let me forget u
tell me is the nighttime getting to ur head too
i just need a minute cuz i dont wanna regret u

and ur only in my head but i miss u
baby i just wish u 
knew what i was feeling so i dont have to admit to
being scared of finding someone this soon

fill my lungs makin sure i feel alright
want ur love since i saw u in the starlight
chasin bands cuz i know im livin right
im still waiting for u cuz i know that u might
come around u know u can spend the night
want ur love since i saw u in the starlight
takin drugs makin sure i feel alright 
im still waiting for u cuz i know that u might

starlight

appreciate your loved ones

this is love this is hurt this is me
city dreams fractured heart broken teen
you’re all i want, you’re all i dream, you’re all i need
but it’s your time to say goodnight so sweet dreams

thinking back on times of you and me 
before the illness, before you had to leave 
late night we’d laugh and then we’d sing 
our lullabies that put us right to sleep
you hugged me tight and whispered in my ear
i love you but ill be gone within a year
i kept my cool pretended not to hear
cause being alone is something i have always feared
your words had left a scar with me that night
i watched you go but never said goodbye
ik it hurts it always does but ill try
to hold you close keep you safe please don’t cry

memento

is this the part where i apologize and try to make amends
and if so what do i say this time, or do i just say less
when you talk i wish that’s you’d stop but i won’t say anything 
won’t say anything to conflict or like, complain no matter the words you’ll never change

all the pieces keep on falling out
leaving me incomplete
subjugate the pain to calm me down
medicate my suffering 
i tried but no one was listening 

and what am i to do, with myself cause i’ve been locked inside my room 
and every chance i take just reminds me that i should have ignored you
it’s just a sign to leave to breathe, escape the fate that keeps on chasing me
maybe then just maybe then i’d have a chance to fucking sleep

all the pieces keep on falling out
leaving me incomplete
subjugate the pain to calm me down
medicate my suffering
i tried but no one was listening

this is

Music Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cZpQrIlm1nU&feature=youtu.be

Lyrics:

Verse 1

lets say we kinda like the misery
you see us comin down
you see us rollin out
we hide our feelings
like i dont miss you
but were so full of it
oh were so full of it

Bridge:

tip toe
tip toe down the staircase
can they hear me now?
I can't fuckin sleep at night
I hate this silent town

Chorus:

Don't let it hurt,
think about yourself now
I make it worse
leave me where i bled out
and when you speak
they don't listen
so fuck them all
we only need each other

Verse 2:
I won't lie to you
swear you caught me off guard
I confide in you
I keep reaching for the sky
But they all hide from truth
but don't go tell me i'm better
cause im addicted to you letters
like oohh woah
don't let go
liek oohh woah
don't let go

this is

kinshii

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