pastpresentfuture

abc
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omg i got adhd!

i got adhd and i wanna fuckin kill myself
jk i dont want to but i really feel like i need help
i am just a little boy dont make me take the adderall
one more second passes and i feel like my brains gonna fall
i got adhd and i wanna fuckin kill myself
jk i dont want to but i really feel like i need help
i am just a little boy dont make me take the adderall
one more second passes and i feel like my brains gonna fall

bees in my head
bees in my head
bees in my head
i got bees in my head
i cant focus i cant take it i got sparkles on my face
if another second passes dont tell me im a disgrace 

watch the time go by
watch the rain pour down
its a different state
youre in a different town
and i might drown
im a little hyperactive
but not right now
did i just get fs in all my classes?
what!

bees in my head
bees in my head
bees in my head
i got bees in my head
i got adhd and i wanna fuckin kill myself
jk i dont want to but i really feel like i need help
bees in my head 
bees in my head
bees in my head 
i got bees in my head
bees in my head
bees in my head
bees in my 
bees in my 
bees in my head

BEES IN MY HEAD! (adhd)

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/kittydog/superposition-2
so uhhhhhhhhh i edited it so it has more stuff in the production :3 im a lot more proud of it now  HHHHHHHHHH  this is the version that will be in my animation uhhdsghf84578457946 nyan
old version: https://soundcloud.com/kittydoggo/superposition/s-7JuEPgWrSrp?si=70103ad4ec0a45aa8a9ba2c040754d39
https://soundcloud.com/kittydoggo/freeze-up
https://soundcloud.com/kittydoggo/im-not-in-love-im-just-a-mixed-bag

youre both in love and youre a mixed bag mixed up cant tell you the outcome
superpositioned cause when they see your pain it's long gone
i might be a @@%^ you might be a &*%&
but baby when they become you they'll finally see what you mean

youre both in love and youre a mixed bag mixed up cant tell you the outcome
superpositioned cause when they see your pain it's long gone
i might be a @@%^ you might be a &*%&
but baby when they become you they'll finally see what you mean

i popped a gummy to make pain go away
but what happened next is that i started questioning pain
you need pain to make pleasure a thing and vice versa
a superposition of painless and painful
so thats when i realized the truth of this game
is that we are eternal and we're all the same
a renewable resource of giving and gain
so no matter what happens we'll break through the pain

why does my love not last?
it lasts forever and you didn't know
why do i love so fast? 
you never want your happiness to go
why can't i just relax?
you just want to feel stronger
i feel so damn detached..
you won't feel like this forever

why does my love not last?
it lasts forever and you didn't know
why do i love so fast? 
you never want your happiness to go
why can't i just relax?
you just want to feel stronger
i feel so damn detached..
you won't feel like this forever

love yourself. break the cycle
freeze up, thaw out, you're delightful
your emotions are divine
it was true when you said you'd never die
true love will always win
and you always had it deep within
you've been living the dream, you're always going far
and there's no need to chase them cause you are the stars

kittydog will never die
kittydog will only fly
ill always be right by your side
it's always see you later it's never goodbye

constantly everywhere superpositioned
that is the reason why they wouldn't listen
everything that i have said is a given
that we're all immortal and made in our image
<3

superposition

hyperfollow: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/kittydog/no-response

lyrics:
i forget
all my problems when i sleep
they started asking me
to try and break the peace 
i dont remember that
i was tryna set the scene
im singing to the beat
im swinging by my feet 
dont test me

idk who i am
i just wanna be myself
should i stay the same or
should i try something else
i dont feel tangible
i think ive lost my sense of self
im feeling in the dark 
to see if anything can help

dont text me!
unless u tryna get No Response
ill say nothing!
but maybe anything all at once
what happened?
i asked myself and said nothings wrong
who is this? you got No Response
but do you need one?

(oh my god im trying so ####ing hard and its not perfect why am i not perfect-)

who am i?
i asked myself and got no response
im nothing 
and also everything all at once
start singing
i tell myself and i cough up blood
waiting for myself to respond 
but i dont need one

who am i?
i asked myself and got no response
(kittydoggo)
im nothing 
and also everything all at once
start singing
i tell myself and i cough up blood
waiting for myself to respond 
but i dont need one

clearly you don't understand what good music is.
I know what good music is I'm the god of good music okay
(no response)
You can delete all your songs, just ####in, shut the #### up.
(no no no no response, but i don't need one)

no response

lose lose lose my fucking mind
win win win until i die
theyre not like the other guys
you cant tell from ur disguise

lose lose losing so much time
as a year just passes by
i can't live another lie
so ill win win win til im compromised

paranoia fills my brain
i wanna push them all away
theres nothing i can do but wait and let my heart decay

fuck the world and fuck this screen
i wanna make my insides bleed
but a knife in my chest won't fix the issues in this galaxy

baby i suffer inside 
nature makes me feel alive 
poison makes me wanna die
and all that poison's online

i dont want a poisoned mind
its feeding everyone lies
ill let the pain out by painting all of these red and blue lines

lose feel like a loser
my heart! i loved her!
i understand every side but this is mental torture

win im fuckin winning
even in between decisions
it's just a matter of time before we know it's working

LOSE LOSE LOSE

im perfectly normal
when all my thoughts multiply
you could add your own meaning
but subtract it and i'll divide
my own mind many times
overlayed into the sky
watch the screen lighten and darken
with differences in time

they try to hit me with exclusion, but i always dodge it
i burn through their hatred, cause i aint soft
light surrounds my world, it always shines hard
light of so many hues, got saturated bars!

im good at blending in but i make myself stand out
my colors are so luminous you'll miss out
im blending in unparalleled fascination
fully transparent with all the words im saying!!

blending in

i quit soundcloud but im putting this here because fu thats why
credit to learke for vocal mixing on the verse parts

when i speak the truth i retain it
when i hear a song i like imma save it
im like a sponge im soaking up soundwaves
feelin like max level absorption

i'm responsible, im not aimless
when i infodump, u might listen
if i got work to do i can make it
and if i got a tail imma shake it!!

im in tune with all of my interests
feeling like max level fixated
i could be hyper i could be silent
either way i feel such amazement

i think the universe is my canvas
cause my life is something i painted
so you could dance with me or stop listening
but that don't change that we made it!!

max lvl fixated

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/kittydog/want-me-dead

u want me dead
u want me passing away
gonna feel all the dread dread
im passing on every day

like dying recycling parts
my corpse resides in your heart
so baby kill me consistently
til im nothing but shards

dead dead
u want me passing away
gonna feel all the dread dread
im passing on every day

like dying recycling parts
my corpse resides in your heart
so baby kill me consistently
til im nothing but shards

IF UR GONNA KILL ME THEN DO IT!!
IM ALREADY ROTTING SLOWLY POISONED BODY
PAIN SO FREQUENT I START TO LIKE IT
PUNCH ME AS I SMILE IN THE DEATHPIT

AFTER THAT U COULD EAT ME ALIVE, WHAT DOES IT TASTE LIKE, BETTER THAN PERFECT?
GNAW ON MY BONES LIKE A DOG, IM DELICIOUS
THEN YOU MEOW ON MY GRAVESTONE WHEN HEARING THIS SONG

Im passing on on the daily
can you feel my memory in your heartbeat
when ur done i know u lick the plate clean
then u shed fake tears readin my obituary
do u miss me bitch, im right here
im reincarnated thru all ur fears
u wish me dead for all of these years
well dreams come true
but not the way u think they do.

want me dead

bite into my mind
i wanna feel ur teeth inside my thoughts
just fuckin
eat it like ur last meal
idc i wanna forget things i dont want

consume my perception
make my brain have no reception
i want my only connection
to be this broken obsession

my router in your hands
disconnected from the network
i can't see my own existance
you just click with me like clockwork

my digital wires are fried
so eat them like crispy french fries
i feel like im going to die
i feel like im going to di-i-i-ie

bite into my mind
i wanna feel ur teeth inside my thoughts
just fuc-
consume my perception
make my brain have no reception
i want my router in your hands
disconnected from the network
i-i feel like im going to die
i feel like im going to die

don't leave me hanging
stuck all day trying to connect
i got no patience
so why keep tearing at my threads
i thought you were all i wanted
but now i got nothing left
i really miss what i had
I REALLY MISS WHO I AM!!

SO BITE INTO MY MIND
LEAVE ME WITH NO CONNECTIONS
ALL OF MY WIRES EXPOSED
LEAVING MY MOTHERBOARD BROKEN
ALL OF MY DATA'S CORRUPTING
SLOWLY LOSING ALL ITS POWER
BABY I LOST ALL RECEPTION
BUT ILL BE BACK THE NEXT HOUR!!

1. no reception

memories won't leave me alone
catch me rebuilding my home
what i need isnt unknown
next time i pick up the phone,
hang up before i explode!!

my patience being tested
im feeling damn infected
im losing all my senses
baby i need to scream it

im up against the pressure
im fighting for the future
something we can believe in
baby can you believe it??

been so long, and i cant take the pain
just give me some time to breathe and some personal space

they make me feel alive, like my time's not a waste
so catch me making the best of the rest of my days!!

memories won't leave me alone
i need to restart
catch me rebuilding my home,
made out of my heart
what i need isnt unknown!!
i know what i want
so next time i pick up the phone,
hang up before i explode!!

2. before i explode

(hahaha, i dont care anymore! your heart's shattered on the ground? thats great! i'm so fuckin proud of myself)

so you wanna test me??
dreams dont come true when you
best me
its not made for you
years catching up to me, feel my patience running thin
hear me scream out again and let the cycle begin

i can't wait! to tear your fucking heart out
im a heartbreaker, baby im a fuckin wreck
you better stay away!! for the good of ur own mindset!!
sculpted for eternity, sculpted for the grindset

yeahhhh im married to the grind you know it treats me right
it leaves me crying out for help until i cant fight
it's too busy thinking about other people to notice
im fucked up and crazy and betting on a death wish

i'm seeing the flaws in the ways that im breathing
i'm tainted with all of these heartbreaker feelings
i want to have love in the way that im treated
i want you to love me, the way that i love

do you believe in love,
do you think souls can intertwine?
do you feel like everything will be fine?
will you ever be secure in time?
everything is bright,
the universe is on our side
love is falling into place forever
i'll cherish these moments til i die, yea

3. heartbreaker feelings

not as loud as it was before.
i'm counting the days, when it wasn't this way
tear my face off!
*loudly crying emoji*
if we were head to head in the ring
i'd slip it on my finger and break it

you said you would kill me
11 years ago
now i'm living off all my dreams
i'm spitefully alive to grow
you tried to take my ambition and love
now i can never be killed at all

so u can smash me to bits
but i still saved the data
like divine intervention
saved me from my death

it's like i'm meant to be here
and you were meant to suffer
when you hid me away
and you still live in my veins

they say blood's thicker than water
but now the blood's in my tears
and now the lack of me crying
is showed inside of my fears

and i'm forgetting the days
and i'm forgetting the years
but at the end of it all
i'm still fucking here!!!!!!!!!!

not as loud as it was before.
i'm counting the days, when it wasn't this way
(when it wasn't this way)
tear my face off!
if we were head to head in the ring
i'd slip it on my finger and break it

4. you still live in my veins

don't worry about me
im stuck in the matrix
try to get ahold of the same things
L-1-3-S in the pavement
compositely faded
if i got a problem i face it

so which pill will you take?
im tearing at the edges
cognition it could break
instantly any second
would you bend it to your will?
would you be my contention?
so just go say the word
and i'll reclaim it's retention, retention

unmatched suggestion
i'm under composite
don't you feel vigilant?
supposedly virtuous

death at your expense
for once it's fortunate
so dodging all bullets
unfortunate circumstance

Try not to fight it but you just can't do it
You're irrational incompetent you can't go through it
Would you try to methodically remove all usage
Would you synthesize a pathway just to fucking renew it
I'm not new, living in a false reality is painless
Constantly dissociated but i'm real as all numerics
Try to switch it up, passion won't deflect all merits
So just step up to the novel i'll tear out all pages!!!

don't worry about me
im stuck in the matrix
try to get ahold of the same things
L-1-3-S in the pavement
compositely faded
if i got a problem i face it

so which pill will you take?
im tearing at the edges
cognition it could break
instantly any second
would you bend it to your will?
would you be my contention?
so just go say the word
and i'll reclaim it's retention

I Will Not Let My Death Be At Your Expense
I Will Not Let My Death Be At Your Expense
I Will Not Let My Death Be At Your Expense
I Will Not Let My Death Be At Your Expense!!!
I Will Not Let My Death Be At Your Expense
I Will Not Let My Death Be At Your Expense
I Will Not Let My Death Be At Your Expense
I Will Not Let My Death Be At Your Expense!!! AHHHHH

unmatched suggestion
i'm under composite
don't you feel vigilant?
supposedly virtuous
death at your expense
for once it's fortunate
so dodging all bullets
unfortunate circumstance

5. Death At Your Expense

inhuman mechanical these parts of me are valuable
selling aspects of me at a high high price
don't you want these pieces everybody wanna buy

do u love me? do u miss who i used to be?
do the little pixels on the screen give u dopamine?
did it give you something to forget ur reality
so much to the point u forget im a human being?!?!

ive lost it! i lost my humanity!
but i was never human in the first place baby!
my heart and soul strapped up to a computer screen
kittydogcrystal, the motherfucking meme machine

ive found it, i'm not a kid anymore!
so don't be surprised when i break the floorboards
got hearts in my eyes with the clouds on the floor
tell the moon in the night im a star nothing more

inhuman an animal
driven by instinct natural
im wild and free, my fur dances in the breeze

the feeling's unexplainable
but you could understand it
if you lay here with me
just sit right under the trees~

6. inhuman

feel like a folder cause i see her in my pc
like a controller i feel like her love controls me
im counting up the score cause im one off from :3
feel so adored when she wagging her tail with me

the game of life im playing it wildly
look in her eyes its virtual reality
i wanna lose my sense of humanity
i pet her fur all day its so sensory

the space time continuum don't matter to me
any time any place you're where i wanna be!!

feel like a folder cause i see her in my pc
like a controller i feel like her love controls me
im counting up the score cause im one off from :3
feel so adored when she wagging her tail with me!!

feel like a folder
feel like a folder cuz i
spill out my documents got 1000 love letters baby
find my directory ill be saving my progress
all ur files safe with me ill make sure ur work is a success!!
x2

8. feel like a folder

sea of regrets
but im Past that
moment's in my hands
i Present that
branching out forever
for Future reference
Past Present Future all times connected

that's love! in every action
imperfection is the cure! pure satisfaction
ur a product of ur past self's tiny choices
make something even more, that's self invention
mm yeah!!!

Past Present Future
im feeling timeless, yea
i know time travel is real in my perception
fuck it!
Past Present Future , all times connected
i'll claw my way through time for shameless self expression

time could be nothing or something to you
it could be a presence just waiting
to stop being misconstrued
but we can be the Past Present Future
highlighting the best version of you
we can view it through the lens of perfection
our dreams have already come true~

Past Present Future all times connected
call me to break your lack of reception
i held it in before the explosion
trapped in the song and dance called my feelings
ur in my veins, you're not like the rest
come to my grave and pay no expense
it's in human nature to pay attention
out of pocket to the highest dimension
i fold erroneously in time
with the pace of the rhythm through Her design
i allow myself to love every line
of symbolic threads expressly intwined
so number all the times that you died
and watch the static drain from your eyes
take a taste of passion tune to it's nature
connect the dots in Past Present Future
x2

[instrumental break]

Past Present Future all times connected
I know time travel is real in my perception
Past Present Future, you're every moment
so be the best that you can each passing second!!
Past Present Future, all has a purpose
could be good neutral or bad, but i accept it
Past Present Future all times connected
using the best that we have to make it worth it!!

12. past present future

abc
123
omg i got adhd!

i got adhd and i wanna fuckin kill myself
jk i dont want to but i really feel like i need help
i am just a little boy dont make me take the adderall
one more second passes and i feel like my brains gonna fall
i got adhd and i wanna fuckin kill myself
jk i dont want to but i really feel like i need help
i am just a little boy dont make me take the adderall
one more second passes and i feel like my brains gonna fall

bees in my head
bees in my head
bees in my head
i got bees in my head
i cant focus i cant take it i got sparkles on my face
if another second passes dont tell me im a disgrace

watch the time go by
watch the rain pour down
its a different state
youre in a different town
and i might drown
im a little hyperactive
but not right now
did i just get fs in all my classes?
what!

bees in my head
bees in my head
bees in my head
i got bees in my head
i got adhd and i wanna fuckin kill myself
jk i dont want to but i really feel like i need help
bees in my head
bees in my head
bees in my head
i got bees in my head
bees in my head
bees in my head
bees in my
bees in my
bees in my head

mind is like a swarm, focus uncontrollable
can't do what i need to they say i'm dysfunctional
every minute passing losing track of the clock
so sting me right through the heart so my efforts are worth it all!!

attention, in a deficit in my perception
losing battle to the buzzing in my brainstem
forcing us into a system never helping
shouldn't have to fucking fight for them to listen!!!

bees in my head
bees in my head
bees in my head
i got bees in my head
i got adhd and i wanna fuckin kill myself
jk i dont want to but i really feel like i need help
bees in my head
bees in my head
bees in my head
i got bees in my head
bees in my head
bees in my head
bees in my
bees in my
bees in my head

bees in my head
won't stop me til im dead
passion through the distraction
i'm pulling through instead
of simply buzzing to my demise
i put all this love in my hive
we can stick together and fly forever
we'll make it sweeter in life yeah!!

Bees In My Head (2024 remake)

collab with @learkeoffic  !!! my wife!!! yeah oh yessa

[kittydog]
Baby, you’re like a worst kept secret
Put u in the bag and think when to release it
The cat’s out, I’ll chase her downtown
I scream out loud when I hear her sweet sound

[learke]
Baby, I swear I’ll never leak it
Take it into my thoughts and I swear I mean it
The cat’s out, i’m running ‘round town
I hear you scream out, want you to catch me now

[kittydog]
Wow!

[learke]
See you in my thoughts, wanna fall into your paws
[kittydog]
Barks inside my head, think of sinking in the claws/clause
[learke]
Chatter all around me but I’m only hearing yours
[kittydog]
Let's take a walk when it’s dark and fill the air with our voice
[learke]
See you in the street and it brightens up my day
[kittydog]
I’m in the headlights, close my eyes I see u anyway
[learke]
Yeah u crashed into my heart 
[kittydog]
I hope it doesn't fall apart
[kittydog & learke]
Now we’re picking up debris it's all falling into place!!

falling into place!
falling into place!
falling into 
falling into place!
its all falling into place!!!

falling into place!
falling into place!
falling into 
falling into place!
its all falling into place!!!

[learke]
Loving ur barks, singing ur praise
Pouncing through the universe to see your face

[kittydog]
Ethereal meows through my headspace
Pawing through the pathways of time, you're my soulmate
The cat’s out of the bag, and I can't get enough dawg
Let’s stand on top of the world with you holding my paw

[learke]
Spread it through galaxies, until everyone hears,
Sitting paw-in-paw there’s nothing more sincere

[kittydog]
Nothing more real than ur love now
Hear in every bark and meow
That’s what its all about 
(Reow!! Bark bark)
Let’s escape under the sunset
Scenes we’ll never forget
I feel it in each time we progress
Our pawprints thru forests, the plants that we forage
Your tail wrapped around me, can’t escape the softness!!
Exploring the world with a brand new perspective
Our barks and our meows echothru every moment!!!

[learke]
Everything I’ve ever wanted
Hear it in my purring
Yeah you got me so certain
Let’s run away from this city
Make our own galaxy
I’m certain it’s better than perfect
Tangible feeling your love’s so appealing
From chasing our tails to feeling so astounding
Love every minute
Your barks all I’m hearing
Your fur in my arms, swear we’re more than just living, it’s

[kittydog & learke]
falling into place!
falling into place!
falling into 
falling into place!
its all falling into place!!!

falling into place!
falling into place!
falling into 
falling into place!
its all falling into place!!!

[Instrumental]

falling into place [the cat's out]

falling into place [the cat's out!]

yea i wanna be seen with u
make a rly big scene with u
do u like what u see?
everything around me
it so obviously agrees with u 

feel so free, a ride or die
so long since i been high on life
feel so gay, girls on my mind
baby girl i want u to be my wife! !! 1!!
 
women!!! slams fist on the table waitress more women please!!

im begging on my paws and knees
im a gay fluffin kittydog
ive been thinking bout

women ~!!!!1
put my paw hands together!
wag my tail side to side cuz im feelin too flustered!!!
out of the box, never been in the closet
this feeling of love is renewing my outlet !!! >//<

yea i wanna be free with u!!
releasing energy with u!!
wanna be on the stage
jamming out to ur bass
feeling like the real me all day with u

and that is a Factual statement!
No cap allowed on my setlist!!
here's an important piece of information:
im tryna be like Aw yeah that s perfect!! 

free, a ride or die
so long since i been high on life
gay girls on my mind
baby girl i want u to be my wife!  

free, a ride or die
so long since i been high on life
gay girls on my mind 
baby girl i want u to be my wife!
 
yeah!!
women!!
wagging my tail for u
making me feel pure love
through my universe its all imbued
waahhh!!
women!!! 
feelings that feel brand new!
my claws will look better with a cute ring on my finger!!

free, a ride or die
so long since i been high on life
gay girls on my mind 
baby girl i want u to be my wife!
x4

AAAHAHH your the girl from my daydreams
no form of love can escape me
crash and burn down the TV
don't want it only thru the screen  

feel extreme, ill ride or die
do anything for u in my life
feel so gay girls on my mind 
baby girl i need you to be my wife!!!
 
womeennn!!!
im wagging my tail for you 
loving so intensely 
oh my passion can't be misconstrued
women!!!!!!
i'm blushin all day its true
im so fluffin lucky to have a cute girl that loves me!!!

extreme, ill ride or die
do anything for u in my life
feel so gay girls on my mind 
baby girl i need you to be my wife!!!
 x2

b my wife!!!

IM GONNA BASH YOUR SKULL IN WITH A METAL PIPE (METAL PIPE CORE)

this is a remake of a song that i made in 2021, i remade it in 2025 as a reflection of who i was when i originally wrote it. i added more lyrics and breakdown sections

og from 2021: soundcloud.com/kittydoggo/so-numb-that-shes-in-hell
credit to jreg for the intro + outro samples! www.youtube.com/watch?v=b1ok44MXhrw

lyrics:
[jreg sample]
(hey doc. ive been wondering
is it me that's sick?
is my only hope to scrape off the edges of myself
that dont fit neatly into reality?
or should i carve a hole in the world
that only i can fit in?

and who is it that has the authority to tell me that im sick?
is it you?
or is the corporations that make the pill-pill-pill-pills-)

[kittydoggo]
i feel so damn proud when im off the addy
when i didnt take them i see others and feel saddy (BOOOO)
cause when i do drugs man i feel so happy (YAYYYYY)
rack the dopamine up i need it all for me

i need happiness i dont need drugs, drugs
dope me up until my body's numb, numb
how come every day i feel so dumb, dumb?
i need that dopamine in my system, um

popping pills so i dont fail school
life's a trip and i was the stool
bump my toe on sadness pick myself up its the cycle

popping pills so i dont feel shit
call me blunt when i dont hear it
hand me the pistol
im feeling a little violent!!

never expressed my own anger well now i can
its bubbling all out now like on a frying pan
and nobody in the system could give a damn
so im fucking up my system emptying cans

im saying fuck you to the system that never helped
its "break yourself just to function" and nothing else
i know they wanted to fix her, now look oh well
shes sleeping in a closet
so numb that she's in hell

never expressed my own anger well now i can
its bubbling all out now like on a frying pan
and nobody in the system could give a damn
so im fucking up my system emptying cans

im saying fuck you to the system that never helped
its "break yourself just to function" and nothing else
i know they wanted to fix her, now look oh well
shes sleeping in a closet
so numb that she's in hell

i broke myself just to function
i did what all of them wanted
oh
just a shell void of emotion
working herself to exhaustion, no

i need happiness i don't need drugs
but where'd my happiness go?
you deceived me, left me bleeding
but i won't let you steal my soul!!

YAYYYYY-A-A-A-A-Y
x4

4 year overstimulation
my degree's in ceasing function
sharpest teeth are barely working
it's all pills and carbonation
had no graduation day
no paper shows my work
was so numb in hell for nothing
i should kill you first!!!!!!!!!

[jreg sample]
instead of doing the inhuman amount of work it takes to finish my degree,
i instead find myself doing useless things!
for some reason i just can't bring myself to focus!

SO NUMB THAT SHES IN HELL (2025 remake)

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/kittydog/win-win-win
kind of a sequel to lose lose lose
probably gonna be a single to an ep/album lol

lyrics:
i feel like a _ fan
takin cards from ur hand
couldn't tell all my friends
but some of them would understand

when i look at my face
different person than yesterday
couldn't help but relay
cant say the same if i stay the same

so i cry, flowing tears of us
[data authenticating]
then i sweat, as i begin to trust
[recovery initiating]
then i shake, wipe off emotional dust
[are you sure you'd like to clear trash bin?}
can i breathe one more time for love
[robot deactivated]

does the world even have enough time for me??
when i d** does the person i was release
tell ur friends that u were neverending
and then when u end it u can stop pretending

messed up the mixed sense of baggage
tore it all down to wreak some more havoc
it's so damn good i can almost taste it
feel the fur like grass flowing in the wind

wind, wind, wind, wind
win, win, win, win
i'm killing it, killing it

i feel crazy!! catastrophized anomaly!!
infected beauty!! take normalcy away from me!!
i'm fucking winning, i taste it in the air u breathe
stop talking to me, i'm embarrassed of this part of me!!

i need it put it on repeat so i never forget it
give me directions ill be sure to be them every second
it's irresistible, the feeling of a met condition
take off a layer theres another im fucking bionic

my face, different person than yesterday
win, win, win
you won't believe it if i say it to your face though!
fuck the w*rld
i'll make you scream
i want 2 make ur insides bleed
but a knife in your chest will never
return what you took from me !!!

so i cry, flowing tears of us
then i sweat, as i begin to trust
then i shake, wipe off emotional dust
can i breathe one more time for love

return what you took from me
you better return what you took from me

im gonna
win win win my fucking mind
lose lose losing every time
i take a breath and feel confined
ive got to take back whats mine

WIN WIN WIN

```i'm like a secret agent
creeping up in the night
does it make ur skin crawl
when i don't tell u goodbye

sick and twisted joke
playing up in ur life
ill smile while the slow burn
of fantasies die

im like a cryptid
feel unsubstantiated
but i'd feel so real
petting me thru the matrix

say my name under ur breath
i'm folklore around the fire
ill crawl round ur perception
i eat away at ur wires

i flicker on in the night

crawling away as i smile

dont turn ur back on the time
cant delete me from subconsious
power on from just your sight

cuz ur realitys dyin
i forgot i existed
my humanity's defiled

burned my sense of being
u stared clip off the airplane mode
silence from the screen
speakers blown out chewed em up like bones
falling from the earth
check it out, ive been here before
im inhuman, mechanical animal anthromorph

i can't fall anymore,
it's bound to the floor
cursed to all fours
u fw this form??

now i'm just a myth
so compute me some more
ill claw right around
some unnatural force

I'm so tired of it
Want to be something less ridiculous
had my ups and downs
now i'm fluctuating
cursed 2 on all 4's
all suffocated

so i crawled my way up high
told myself 10 times i'd never die
plastered all my pain on a saturday night
if there's nothing left, it'll be alright

down to the floor
it's warm and it's cold
it's wrong and it's right
it can't be ignored

it's just a myth
so just write me some more
i'll display a pattern
never seen before```

1. cursed2all4s

```i live to see the look in ur eyes
when u made the mistake, stagnant waters align
i feel my heart crush and tar into brine
so one could conclude this concoction is mine

I'M ONE WITH MY OWN INTENTIONS
WHEN I SAY I CANT MOVE MY BODY
I WON'T LOOK AT MY OWN REFLECTION
BUT I CAN LOOK INTO THE MIRROR JUST PERFECTLY

crush my heart, turn it to stagnant waters
blood's thicker than my feelings shoved deep behind metal doors
hold down in my sinking tarring heart, four walls
kept running for my life, now i can't run anymore

i live to see your deep loving smile.
i live to see us around the table.
i live to see us travel the world.
i live to hold our souls together.
i live to cherish every moment
i live to figure out each sentence
i live to love each passing day
ii wish id never ran away

[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[%

crush my heart, turn it to stagnant waters
blood's thicker than my feelings shoved deep behind metal doors
hold down in my sinking tarring heart, four walls
kept running for my life, now i can't run anymore

stitch the memories together
to match my unsteady heartbeat
well loved plushie made of
pieces of reality

i control my breathing
im sedated situationally
rhythmic power flowing
thru my expressive embroidery

now crush my heart
with the tightness of your love now
get the river flowing
so the water makes a crashing sound
open up the windows
there's an ocean circulating around
broke the water cycle
but the memories come flooding out

crush. my. heart.
[insane instrumental breakdown]!!!!!11!!!1

2. stagnant waters

```I NEED THAT
panting like a dog
drooling like a maniac
I NEED THAT
clawing on my walls
mewing for it back

i need you more than words can quantify
fossilized my human life
drugs fucked up my state of mind
now is my personality a lie???

killed my brain, it's void of all purpose
self reflection ain't no subscattered surface
when do you gotta realize it's worthless
kill my ego so i cannot get nervous

i literally killed my brain
i literally killed my brain so bad
i hated myself too much
but that hate is love
now im breaking all the walls of that

forgive me ive had enough to think abt
resent me til every bit of me comes out
forget me im trying not to make a sound
but youll find me the moment i speak it out loud

kill me slowly
what do i do?
i wanna leave my body
exit me soon
so can ya

[so kill me, so kill me slowly]]]

killing me slowly youre like a demon
eating my soul for stimulation
breathing me in then choking bleeding
breath me out in the wrong direction

i need that badly, the pure sensation
praying that you don't steal my consience
reset reality can't forget it
desperation for no dependance!!!!!!
```

3. I NEED THAT

```i could see directions
in my view
becoming a compass
magnetizing you
looking out from on the summit
coming thru
do you see the vision
it's becoming all i knew

could it give me some direction?
come anew
wanna be infinity
no catching 22
looking down onto the sunset
see the truth
letting go of something senseless
at the altitude

im fed up at the moment
cuz im right where i started
nothing left to be losing
when im down to keep trying

when my mouth cant keep screaming
think at least i'm still living
try my best to keep going
so bring forth all that's coming

i could be ur additive inverse
or your equippolent
direct me to the edge of the earth
or dont see me again

i like your thoughts on public stances and opinions
so baby are u perpendicular to what im singin?

dont know where im goin

could you give me some direction?
[[[could you give me some direction??]]]

i'm too forward when i'm speaking to you
too many variables
thinking XYZ
can you free me?

i'm too backwards when it comes to worldview
i told myself im
forced to the back seat
please let me

hold the gps, i can give me the directions
all 360 degrees with my intentions
spacetime oh it's lookin like breakfast!!
i could take us to another dimension!!!!

im not a Letdown, ill be upright
in the brightest days, on the darkest nights
who knew, a calculation that could save my life
scratch the hierchy, youre my player i

'm too high at the moment
now i'm right where i started
as a singularity, with a taste for creating
spacetime oh it's lookin so epic!!
i could take us to another dimension!!!!!

UR GOING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION!!
wHICH WAY IS THE RIGHT DIRECTION??
UR GOING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION!!
tHAT WAY IS THE RIGHT DIRECTION!!
```

5. Directions

```[kittydog]
can u reach for the stars? oh
can u follow the path to the key to your heart
can u see who u are? wow
can u see what u are? dealing with
when you figure all the best ones out
figure all the best ones out
oh
figure all the best ones out
when you figure all the best ones out

process of elimination
only leads to approximation

need ur exact value
so make the axiom with me

me plus u equals
a new branch of existence

i'm an iteration
that every particle made me~

shut the lights off
when you open the door
separate pathways
where they've seen us before

can u see who you are
little constellation

stars, connected solely by desire to connect
i desire u so strongly that it just makes sense

can u reach for the stars?
can u
desire pathway reaching right where u are!!

[Learke]
Can you look at the sky
Discover new galaxies
We do this every time
Connecting you and me
Cause I know you know that we're both made up of everything
That came before us in time
All of it culminating

And you set me free
Of my past discrepancies
And I'll hold you tight
While you live life truthfully

Turn the lights on
As we enter the room
Our separate pathways
Converge as they always do
Do you know where you are
Little constellation

Stars connected solely by desire to connect
I desire you so strongly that it just makes sense
Can you reach for the stars in the sky?
Can you
Desire pathway leads me right to your time

[learke and kittydog]
little constellation!

Little constellation
Little constellation
little constellation oh !!!

^w^[[[[[[[22356 ! 1!!

[insane instrumental breakdown]!!!!!11!!!1

6. little constellation! ft learke

```eventually youll find what youre looking for
laying in the back of your eyes, quantify the score

holding you so tightly knowing things never known before
want to be the question to the answer you most adore

wanna be said by you, wanna be sang by you, baby
wanna do everything, just lower my eyelids a bit

what's a girl got to do, just to love you all night
lights all round, see that smile of yours one more time

to see that smile of yours one more time
never get a last one
see us glowing through the night~
re written re drafted n fin al ized
held forever in the hands of time

heaven's door, such a fanatic (wow!!)
u been drawing hearts in my fabric <3
punctuating new thoughts like magic
presence on stage, gotta make the brain elastic

feels like i know every time
how it feels 2 make u mine
to make that smile of yours
always shine

eventually i knew what i'm looking for
laying in the back of my mind, always wanting more
what's a girl got to do, wanna do everything for you
we can make all our dreams come true~
we gon make it thru!!

so hold my paw as time goes on
from the night to the crack of dawn
i adore you with all my soul
so ascend my mind cant be undone

i feel the lights on stage calling our names
ima just say, everythings gonna be great
it;ll all be okay!!!

ur smile spans a thousand lifetimes
ill see u again everytime
ur fire is persistance realized
cuz no matter where she is, she burns bright

she's in everything u do, every little passion
baby keep on shining thru, i can feel the magic
so hold me closely thru the rain and the shine
till we're stars in the air, let's do this one more time!!

if there's one more chance
to make you smile
i'll make the clock stand back
live unlimited lives [with you]
i want
to flip more pages so
hold on tightly to the
pure ideas
concentrated inside of us
Let's create new seasons
evolution combines
to feel the new sensations
warm as sun cold as ice
you make my heart beat patterns
composed onto the timeline
then i lose composure
when im seeing ur smile !!! :D

i could spend a thousand years just loving all the time
cause when i see u smiling feels like i will never die!! <33```

7. smile of urs

```i wanna go crazy for ya
wanna be amazed
losing all my brain cells for ya

bumpin tails with her at the furry rave
every direction feelin all the waves
making its all love a reality
makes me want to live out another day

i dont wanna die yet
cuz i havent felt ur fur on my skin enough
shake the room hypnotic
til the floor caves in

furries down under the stars and the moon
yea its a party when im feelin u
dont want this moment to end
i'm furry furever u know that its true!!!!!!!!!!!

i dont wanna die yet,
i just wanna feel ur fur on my paws again
i wanna stay right there
til the day im dead

im loving my girl and im loving my friends
im loving the world and its feeling intense
i feel like im finally loving again <333

i feel like im goin crazy for ya
melting all my brain cells for ya
feeling so amazing for ya!!
bumping tails with me silly everyday
wanna be surrounded every way
making this new love a reality
makes me so estatic and so amazed!!


[dont want this moment to end,
love comes from every direction
estatic feelings and waves
radiate through my existence
im eternally love
i dont need much assistence
i just feel everything
throughout all of my senses
it's all love!

:333333333 :3```

8. bumpin tails

```It's dire, a fire, residing
No choice but to choose on deciding
What's right for me what i can achieve
Who i can be

Designed to fight and recede
Can this dogcat dare to dream
don't you see the light in the
wishes falling from the trees

Cause i'm not forward when i'm speaking to you
Too many variables
So i'll be backing it up on W
You'll know exactly all the words i mean
in your dreams
When we're awake now we'll be alright
in the brightest days in the darkest nights
spacetime oh it's looking fantastic
We can invent a new direction!!!!!
Direction
Direction ,
direction .:3```

9. w

im m  proud of this,,,,   :)
animation: 

lyrics:

COPE!

dreams become reality but not in the right way
motive in my heart to create something that i crave
if its not straightforward then ill curve to make it straight 
its a paranormal parasocial selfish masquerade 

I AM JUST AN ANIMAL I BELONG IN YOUR CAGE
I COULD BE YOUR SERVANT I DESERVE IT ANYWAY
TAKE BACK FROM THE BROKEN PIECES REWRITE WHAT I GAVE
IM A TWISTED NARCISSISTIC BASTARD LIVING IN FAER BRAIN

COPE!

dreams become insanity 
fiction is my reality
flopp a way from my imminent fatality

dreaming of another world
where they took my morality
if it was real
the blacklight would be pointed at me

dont have to be scared you see
my visions aren't misery
555
change is what the angel's telling me

coping with our history
i wake up and i go to sleep
but next time ill make sure
we'll wake up in another dream

COPE! [prod. kittydoggo]

i might be coming back to soundcloud but i mostly use bandcamp
https://kittydog.bandcamp.com

im kd
i eat ass
she/her and they/them
my alts are:
@rarded
@ipeedandfardedandshidded

kittydog

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