Mine 💓

Phora - Tears of an Angel

Good times are good times <3 Prod by https://soundcloud.com/multirex
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I remember when I met you...it was a cold January late night singing the blues
I never fell in love I swear it's true, but the moment that I talked to you
It felt like everything was good...
Why does it feel strange? I've been zoning out for days...
But no i've been feeling down with my head in the clouds
And im running outta town gotta stop stresing out...
CHORUS: Clearwater memories, love when you're next to me
I swear don't leave my side cuz I swear you're keeping me alive.
Stay by my side, guess i'm gonna close my eyes...
Reminisce about those good times...
Late talks at night, we would talk about anything, Talk about life.
I swear everything's so good. I got u smiling like you should...
---Won't you go back in time with me? Back to clearwater memories...---
Oh no...Oh no...Oh no...Oh no,,,
~~I remember when we said goodbye you held my hand so tightly
 I tried so hard not to cry...
I swear I fell in love hope its not true...
That the moment that you walked away you didn't fall in love too..
Why does it feel strange? I've been zoning out for days...
But no i've been feelin down with my head in the clouds
And im runnning outta town gotta stop stressing out...
CHORUS: Clearwater memories, love when you're next to me
I swear don't leave my side cuz I swear you're keeping me alive.
Stay by my side, guess i'm gonna close my eyes...
Reminisce about those good times...
Late talks at night, we would talk about anything, Talk about life.
I swear everything's so good. I got u smiling like you should...



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Clearwater Memories [Prod. Multirex]

Enjoy.. Prod by https://soundcloud.com/charlesmanson :)
Visual: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QMDm69-X3Kw
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I know that I gotta let this go...These memories they haunt me u should know
Ayo Ohh so tell me that you miss me too.. yea yea yea
And I laugh it off everytime you ask me how im doin, nah... 
I know you don't really give a shit 
and I should stop hitting you up cuz I know that
You're just moving on... You know I don't wanna deal with this
~~Growing up quick, we're all just getting old, 
Playing hide and seek, oh where did you go
You're just like a sunset, you're just gonna say goodbye to me again.
And I feel the tears run down my face but u just look away...
And everytime I see ur smile in the picture frame it don't look the same...
And I wonder what happened to the soul I once knew, 
My whole life changed on the day that I met you....
But I guess i'm just a memory...did you forget about me???
CHORUS: I just can't forget about you, forget about the things I put u through
And you should know that, I miss you so bad, tore my heart apart
Threw away all the words that I said...
~Take one more step closer to me...You walk away & then you leave...
--It's been getting harder just to breathe...
I've been drowning my memories Ayo Oh I don't think you miss me...
Nah Nah and I cry it off everytime you ask me how im doin
Nah I know you don't really give a shit and I should stop texting your phone
Cuz I know that you're just moving on. You know I should let go of this..
~~Growing up quick, we're all just getting old, 
Playing hide and seek, oh where did you go
You're just like a sunset, you're just gonna say goodbye to me again...
And I feel the tears run down my face but u just look away...
And everytime I see ur smile in the picture frame it don't look the same...
I just can't forget about you, forget about the things I put u through
And you should know that, I miss you so bad, tore my heart apart
Threw away all the words that I said...
~Take one more step closer to me...You walk away & then you leave...

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Can't Forget You [Prod. funeral] +Visual in description

A sad song about a sad girl. Prod by  https://soundcloud.com/orionnotitle
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She's sinking down the oceans, she's choking on emotions...
She feels herself sinking, getting deeper, shes holding onto her breath,
just falling to her own death, she feels herself sinking,getting deeper deeper. 
She's used to livin like this, livin in an endless abyss,
Take a pill just to make herself better, stuck under the waves
she's the girl that no one will miss.
Cut the air and let it go, gotta breathe underwater and take it slow
Say goodbye to your friends they never cared about you so...
CHORUS: Don't feel bad, the girl who lives underwater
She don't got a problem, she goes with the flow and she knows
that she just gotta let this go...
Through every wave, after wave she just keeps going on
Through every tear, every tear she just keeps growing up
Barely breathing but, shes got a smile on her face and she knows
that when she leaves, she won't ever leave a trace.
Take me underwater with you, I swear that all your dreams will come true
I'll take you to the shore again, even when I think 
that the ocean is your only friend....

She's used to livin like this, livin in an endless abyss,
Take a pill just to make herself better, stuck under the waves
she's the girl that no one will miss.
Cut the air and let it go, gotta breathe underwater and take it slow
Say goodbye to your friends they never cared about you so...
CHORUS: Don't feel bad, the girl who lives underwater
She don't got a problem, she goes with the flow and she knows
that she just gotta let this go...
Through every wave, after wave she just keeps going on
Through every tear, every tear she just keeps growing up
Barely breathing but, shes got a smile on her face and she knows
that when she leaves, she won't ever leave a trace.
Take me underwater with you, I swear that all your dreams will come true
I'll take you to the shore again, even when I think 
that the ocean is your only friend....

CHORUS: Don't feel bad, the girl who lives underwater
She don't got a problem, she goes with the flow and she knows
that she just gotta let this go...
Through every wave, after wave she just keeps going on
Through every tear, every tear she just keeps growing up
Barely breathing but, shes got a smile on her face and she knows
that when she leaves, she won't ever leave a trace.




https://kaiyko.bandcamp.com/album/reminiscing-girl-ep

TheGirlWhoLivesUnderwater [Prod.Orion]

@kaiyko
When we end up at our graves, will everything really be okay?
Will we be satisfied with what we've done, be satisfied with what we leave behind
Does it scare you? That everything you know will be gone...
And all the memories that we shared, you know it was all for fun,
and I won't forget it... The pain we both went through, late nights staying up w you
And you should try to get rid of your sympathy...You don't have to feel bad for me
Cuz Alls well that ends well...All's well that ends well it ends well it ends well
We can keep saying that to ourselves..We'll take one step closer to the edge
To find out what happens in the end...And we'll keep on falling for the same old tricks, it's sad to say... But we'll be okay, In the end.
And i'll just keep doing this for my own self cuz it's all changing
And this is my own happy ending, yeah this is my own happy ending. 
All's well that Ends well, All's well that ends well its ends well, it ends well
We can keep saying that to ourselves,
We'll take one step closer to the edge
To find out what happens in the end....

download

ends well w/ kaiyko

feat @scummusic
prod @youngburial

guitar played by me

<3

me:
I keep trying to forget
this whole situation
I'm falling apart 
that shot straight though my heart
how could I let miscommunication 
destroy what we had
I still remember those nights that we spent
just laying together 
and memories fade
like the tears from my sweater
but feelings remain
I just hope it gets better

I never wanted it to be this way
but here I am trying to
pull myself back up and be ok
I'm trying I'm trying

scum:
and I just want to be ok
but there's always something in my way 
in my way
I'm falling apart at the seams
and nothing is ever as it seems
hold me please

Trying w/ SCUM [prod fats'e x dub]

music video: https://youtu.be/WLmP3M_SIoI

lyrics:

i got angels hovering above my fuckin head
i got heart eyes for this lil shawty in my head
wake up every morning thinkin that im fuckin dead
makes me wonder why i dont just stay inside my bed

stay inside my bed
this never fuckin ends
makes me wonder why i dont just stay inside my bed
stay inside my bed
im inside her head
makes me wonder why id rather talk to you instead

twinkle twinkle twinkle you know im a fuckin star
twinkle twinkle twinkle you dont know just what you are
gotta find my way back home i think its getting dark
but home is where your heart is and you know that i dont got a heart

keyblade on my back i never need a strap
bankai on my lap im always on attack
flexin all these bands you know that shit is wack
tired of this shit im boutta take a nap

i got angels hovering above my fuckin head
i got heart eyes for this lil shawty in my head
wake up every morning thinkin that im fuckin dead
makes me wonder why i dont just stay inside my bed

stay inside my bed
this never fuckin ends
makes me wonder why i dont just stay inside my bed
stay inside my bed
im inside her head
makes me wonder why id rather talk to you instead

im a waste of space yea all i ever do is lie
i dont understand why you give me your fuckin time
blowin up my phone they know i wont ever reply
pls just leave me alone im just a waste of time

darkness stands alone i know the light will guide us home
but i cant help but feel like ima fuckin die alone
if you fuck w me hold me down like a dialtone
youre the reason why i always stay up on my phone

stay up on my phone
please just take me home
youre the reason why i always stay up on my phone
stay up on my phone
i feel so alone
youre the reason why i never can put down my phone

i got angels hovering above my fuckin head
i got heart eyes for this lil shawty in my head
wake up every morning thinkin that im fuckin dead
makes me wonder why i dont just stay inside my bed

stay inside my bed
this never fuckin ends
makes me wonder why i dont just stay inside my bed
stay inside my bed
im inside her head
makes me wonder why id rather talk to you instead

sea salt ice cream (✿◠‿◠) [visual in desc.]

an album about how i've been feeling lately

bandcamp (physical CDs available here too): bit.ly/2qBSeCp 


credits:
@jvbeats666
@yung-hy
@ihateshinigami
@nothingnowheremusic
@prodmikefrost
@ericnorth
@xchrisvayle
@machinesix

download & physicals

shy & shinigami - where dreams come true (prod. jay vee + nothing,nowhere.)

[VERSE 1]
When every thought brings so much pain.
It's hard to explain.
I don't wanna feel anything.
It's hard to explain.
I don't wanna change.
Something in my brain,
Telling me to hate.
All I ever say,
I don't wanna change.
Something In my brain,
Won't go away.

[CHORUS]
Far from home, where you'll find me,
made my bed and i'll finally lay in it.
Lay in it.
Far from home, where you'll find me,
made my deathbed and ill finally lay in it.
Ill lay in it.

[VERSE 2]
Backpacked on my own,
rather be fucked up all alone,
Airplane mode on my iPhone,
Running from a careless path I wish I'd never known,
But I know that...
Everyone that I believed in was holding me back,
Matter of fact,
I wasn't leaving because what I needed was space that I lacked,
I got off track,
Don't wanna do it by myself,
But I don't want no help,
The only way's to runaway
and write a story to tell.

[SPOKEN WORD]
Made a promise that I'd love myself
And a promise that I'd break it.
Made a promise that I'd get better 
And a promise that I'd fake it.
Promised myself that I'd give it up,
Give up everything you hated.
Made a promise that I'd enjoy my life, and a promise that I'd take it.

[CHORUS X3]

deathbed

Lotus killed it , check out his music <3
https://m.soundcloud.com/lilxlotus/sets

'We may never meet again , but we'll never forget eachother' 

Artwork by @Evanxflow
Mixed and mastered by Ronnie Scocozza

@yungscuffonline - Getting Worse ft. Lil Lotus (Prod. Zippy)

the worthless

uncertain

the water

is rising



im choking

help me

i dont know how much more i can take



oh what a beautiful night it is

the wind is howling at my skin

inching me closer to the window

and im not scared at all



a walking corpse

cleanse my soul

rid me of all my impurities



or let me rot

6 feet deep

either ways fine with me





i gave the world my heart and all i have to show for it are scars and nightmares



and i always think about how fucked up it is that we live our whole lives trying to please others



but we can never please ourselves 



day after day

night after night

its just never enough and it will never be enough



now everyday i just sit in this bed and feel sorry for myself and the cycle repeats like clockwork



years to months to days to hours to minutes to seconds



and i swear the only way out of this prison i put myself in is a bullet to my fucking head or a bottle of spilt pills



i need to learn

to just to give in

theres no point in fighting it anymore

i gave the world my heart and all i have to show for it are scars and nightmares

this is my first song i've ever made and there's more to come. thanks for listening <3
prod. by the outset 
lyrics:

hold me tight dont let me fall
you once told me we wont get old
now im sitting staring at my phone
waiting for the day i have one missed call

Thinking of the day we were all alone
laying in the grass and staring at the stars

now im all alone with a broken heart
i never expected things to fall apart

I wish I could press restart
and try something new to keep your heart
but the way you are makes it 10 times hard

just feel me 
please kill me
i know this might sound silly
i know how im feeling
im not really feeling

hold me tight dont let me fall
you once told me we wont get old
now im sitting staring at my phone
waiting for the day i have one missed call

dont let me fall (prod. the outset)

no samples

[lyrics]
is it I think too much
or are we chasing after
a ghost of what once was

I can't tell the difference

is it you care too much
or am I holding our past
like a knife against my tongue

I can't tell the difference

would it be enough
if we were loaded and fucked up
house out in the hills

I wouldn't bet on it

we could be more lost
car roofs, wet shoes
cashed out in an friend's garage

but one time's enough

Will it ever be enough
I hate fucking being numb
sorry that I love these drugs
do you think my head is fucked

Will it ever be enough
I hate fucking being numb
sorry that I love these drugs
do you think my head is fucked

i hate fucking being numb

prod. @blacklunged

these days waking up is getting hard now
i knock the jack back
i pick up what i put down
bad habits comin round like theyre ancient
its no surprise that im gunna need a rain check
not goin out like i dont make anymore plans
sitting in my room, staring at the ceiling fan
wait, whos your mans?
guess i forgot to ask that
you haunt my dreams, i can see you in my flashbacks
i fill my brain with whatever i can find
im self defeating
always wasting all my time
got a 9 to my head, but i swear im fine
im unattached from the little that i call mine

im unnatentive to these bitches like i go to class
reach for the holster, load it up, and then i cock back
up to my dome, running frantic like my last lap
fill the spaces with distractions
cuz you know im bouta snap
like the led on my pencil when i try and write
i smoke a blunt, then im sleepin for the whole night
i didnt answer cuz im busy talkin to the knife
throwin shade like we forgot about the sun light
sometimes its hard to fight back
wake up around noon
stuck in bed while i smoke the sack
black fingernails creeping down to your body
always fucking up like its way more than a hobby
fiendin for some love, so ill take what i can get
nothings ev-er enough, death would be the safest bet
got ashes on my clothes cuz everything about me’s gross
you said i always did the least but bitch i always do the most

people fade away like ghosts, i guess its for the better
loving at what cost? feel closer with the reaper
when i see her its like all time stops
cuz im asleep while the fucking rain drops

smoking packs while im alone
i write these songs and hate myself
this alcohol straight to my dome
and i dont pace myself
fuck a chaser
all i chase are these illusions 
happiness, a fallacy
ive come to the conclusion

these days waking up is getting hard now
i knock the jack back
i pick up what i put down
bad habits comin round like theyre ancient
its no surprise that im gunna need a rain check
i fill my brain with whatever i can find
im self defeating
always wasting all my time
got a 9 to my head, but i swear im fine
im unattached from the little that i call mine

Follow me <3

while the rain drops (prod. blacklunged)

producer. @lightbodyent
guitar written by @Tylerburkhart
https://soundcloud.com/tylerburkhart/i-want-to-drown-in-snow

i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
i hear it in the way you
say my name
don’t hold back
you know i feel your pain
inside
i don’t want to live
but ill stay alive
i don’t want to leave
so ill make time
you don’t tell the truth
so you make lies
i cried
i cried again
last night flowers in my bed
last night i lost my best friend 
last nights flowers torn to shreds
last night our love wound up dead
i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
inside
our love subsides i don’t feel right
pin me down you eat my insides
like a spider pull me in
kiss my neck make my blood thin
i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
i hear it in the way you
say my name
don’t hold back
you know i feel your pain
your pain inside

FREE DOWNLOAD

Last Nights Flowers - (prod. lightbody)

https://open.spotify.com/track/4SyKnSUTgKkTjAZETcQJ01?si=wqCOaZ7zRLy2ZJAeTL0OLg

@ihateshinigami
@ihateshinigami
@ihateshinigami
@ihateshinigami

shinigami - memories of you (prod. 4evr)

go follow this boi @guccihighwaters
he=god

prod @kryptik_official

lyrics: 
cabe-
I'm sinking to the bottom but my wrist still glisten
talking for a while but you never really listened 
would you really go
girl i aint no Romeo
you aint no Juliet but for you id take bullets yeah
how you still by my side when I'm so dead inside
i aint got nowhere else to hide
ill look you in the eyes i aint gunna tell no lies
vices got me falling I've got nothing to deny that
I'm falling deeper I'm balling daily
im calling no one they call me ignore em
I'm falling 
fuck it I'm falling 

guccihighwaters- 
i’m sinking to the bottom but my wrist still glisten
problems are a problem you’re the only one that listened
i don’t want new friends behind my back always bitching
you can always ask me and i’ll tell you why im distant
new year soon it always brings new faces
but imma keep my distance and just work up on my statements
i’ve been too lost like what the fuck is coming next
im always getting really nervous everytime i get a text
happiness in small doses
so im taking a breath
if im sad for too long then
im takin a rest
happiness in small doses
so im taking a breath
and if im sad for too long
then i’ll run up a check
sinking to the bottom

cabe x guccihighwaters - sinking to the bottom (prod. kryptik)

it still hurts, forgetting you

featuring my friend @ihateshinigami

blackheartemoji
an album from @prodbybrody and thebreathingbackwards

lyrics: https://genius.com/thebreathingbackwards-too-long-lyrics

blackheartemoji

spotify

too long (ft. shinigami)

produced by ocean beats found at www.youtube.com/channel/UCpipAjo9fIhDMXOoo0Mm86Q

lyrics:

come thru with a quarter ounce talkin bout go until its done
fun
girl you perfect if u leave can you tell me who the fuck im gonna love
none
swear to god i went and met someone
got a bad bitch but she start shit for fun
girl its not fucking fun
picking up the pieces
tell me do u need me
do u wanna see me
do u want a sweater you could keep it when u leave me
i cant
keep it together 
this cold winter weather
has tricked me to feeling a way
i got nothing else left to say to you
forget my embrace

you could sleep at night
youll be alright
but i tore you open inside
bring raw emotion to life
he doesnt have what i have inside
and i know you know that i could treat u right
make u feel right
evanesence girl ill bring you to life

come thru with a quarter ounce talkin bout go until its done
fun
girl you perfect if u leave can you tell me who the fuck im gonna love
none
swear to god i went and met someone
got a bad bitch but she start shit for fun
girl its not fucking fun
picking up the pieces

come thru with a quarter ounce talkin bout go until its done
fun
girl you perfect if u leave can you tell me who the fuck im gonna love
none
swear to god i went and met someone
got a bad bitch but she start shit for fun
girl its not fucking fun
picking up the pieces
tell me do u need me
do u wanna see me
do u want a sweater you could keep it when u leave me
i cant

dnt leave me (prod. ocean)

art - @riley-rand
feat - @lilhappylilsad
prod - canis major

lyrics <3

I fear what's in the dark, 
who I am at heart
Light it up, i spark
But theres no point to start

An when Im all alone
Girl pick up the phone
show me where to go
Gonna need some methadone

Its so hard to be alive
Its so hard to fucking try
Sometimes i jus wanna die
You cannot see it through my eye

Ill be laughing on the day im in a coffin
Find me smiling when im fallin into nothing

All I can do now is hope that it don’t come back
I am fadin around, and I hope she knows that
But I saved a picture of her on my kodak
Had a key to happiness, but let her hold that

yeah 

I cannot lie, nothin left inside
Whys it always gotta be the one I love that makes me cry

you can decide, if we survive
But i just cannot stick around and listen to you tonight    

these thoughts will be the death of me
Sometimes I feel it's destiny
never meant me, no left of me
riding to my death, Kennedy

You change my mind
Only happy when I'm high
feel less dark beside my side
but you break me baby why

I fear what's in the dark, 
who I am at heart
Light it up, i spark
But theres no point to start

An when Im all alone
Girl pick up the phone
show me where to go
Gonna need some methadone

i burn money like its nothing
smoke it for the mind but lately i feel like i lost it
feel like i should stop it
but something made me roll another one so now im off it
off the dope like i always been
i feel happy for a while but then my head spin
I'd do everything for anything
so if i want it u can bet im going all in
that's why my friends call me no chill
cause i can try but i can never fucking sit still
unless I'm off that Mary j
but i gotta stop if i want my girl to stay

cause i can't deal w emotions
need to regulate my smoking
feel too good when im toking
see me laugh when I'm choking

smoke a 50 bag a day
& tbh I'm okay
i just need a little break
so ill get higher when i blaze

Mine 💓

Kittykatkb