'things i never had'
track 5 of 5
4/1/22

i spend my time
thinking bout things i never had
and my whole life
was wasted on dreading about the past
they say look forward
cause everything changes as you grow older
and i know, i feel much different

i cut my hair to fit in with the crowd
and grew it out again 
i knew it was artificial but somehow
i feel in doubt again

i fell in love in the 10th grade
but i hid it away
and to this point you still dont know yet
thought all my life was mistake
cause i always felt strange
and now these days im filled with regrets

so did you know
that i feel like a puppet, cant move on with the show
said i'd go through a passage
but im stuck in the snow
frozen leaves in the pathway i cant follow the road
and i just feel
i cant do things that i want to
im feeling a bit
unmotivated and confused
sick of being
left confined up in this room
lost in my head
and im so lost here without you

i spend my time
thinking bout things i never had
and my whole life
was wasted on dreading about the past
they say look forward
cause everything changes as you grow older
and i know, i feel much different

they say look forward
cause everything changes as you grow older
and i know, i feel much different

and i know, i feel much different

things i never had

vox + additional prod by @swotll

lyrics:

i gave you my heart
will you make it up to me?
is this real
you're making it hard
makes me wonder why you're here

please dont talk behind my back
why u talking at that smack
ur like a burden in my back
and im with you and i cant stand it

you're like a plane and i cant land it
im just tryna fix my damage

damage (ft. swotl)

linoleum (demo)

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lyrics: 
Do you know how 
How to give it a rest 
Something tells me you want next 
Trust me I want the best
 For you 
But I get it now
 I'll simmer down 
If you know how

Don't tell me you're fine 
You want it outlined
 Cause you're needing out

Tell me how do you feel 
Now that you got what you wanted
 Are you head over heels 
Or do you feel like you're running 
Cause I don't really mind
 If you wanted out of that place
 I can't in good faith say that you'd be wrong
 If you don't wanna try
 I promise I won't lie to your face
 If you need me I'll be already gone

And even though I'm gone
 I hope you know I meant well 
I heard you're lying in bed now 
Something tells me you don't wanna know what you'd feel like
 If you had taken my advice 
And thought this out 
You're struggling now 
You stopped working all the way 
You should've watched the daylight 
Now it's gone and tucked away
 If only you had made time
 To say you're running late

I know it seems slight

Tell me how do you feel 
Now that you got what you wanted
 Are you head over heels 
Or do you feel like you're running 
Cause I don't really mind
 If you wanted out of that place
 I can't in good faith say that you'd be wrong
 If you don't wanna try
 I promise I won't lie to your face
 If you need me I'll be already gone
Gone, gone, I'll be gone

//•//

Treehouse Fairy

#FOUR SCARY MONSTER AND SWEET KMOE #DARIACORE #SKRILLEX

25/03/24 - 11/03/25
4/11

Wind is probably the darkest song on the album, in my opinion. It's to do with sexuality and self-discovery, but it's also about a time when I was raped, and other dangerous encounters I've had in a similar nature.
Being queer is already such a difficult landscape to be in, and the community being so unwelcoming and having such damaging standards makes it very difficult to feel wanted or worthy of any kind of affection or love.

Maybe it's just me but I really hate being queer and being in that community. I've never felt welcome and I've always felt like an outsider no matter how hard I've tried with dating or just finding a friend group. I guess it has to be something I'm doing wrong personally but I don't know, it just sucks.

Of course the most queer people get is meaningless hookups which is where an app like Grindr thrives. I've had plenty of incredibly questionable encounters from the app, and of course a few that I'll never properly forget.

It's difficult because it wasn't violent or intensely forceful, it was a case of me saying no and someone doing it anyway.

There is no kind of silver lining in the lyrics, a lot of them are just to do with anxiety around these meetings or small anecdotes.

[LYRICS]
(Little Faith)
Figure it out, I just can't decide
just figure it out, before I fake myself out
I said figure it out, oh
oh, oh, oh

'cuz I didn't think it'd be this loud, winding down the back of your house
and there's all this black water
you're telling me to go
there's so much black water

one, two, one two three four

'cuz I didn't think it'd be so loud, winding down the back of your house when
there's all this black water

Sprinting through a pitch black park
covered in mud and ejaculate
didn't think I'd get this far

'cuz I didn't think it'd be this loud, winding down the back of your house
and there's all this black water
you're telling me to go
there's so much black water

Maybe I should go
lay down in the snow
if I'd just said "no"
but I didn't, 'cuz I didn't think it'd be so loud, winding down the back of your house
I'm not here to play the part
so much black water

There's all this black water

Wind

Summery dnb remix of Waterfalls by James Hype

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✨ Surma (Miracle) – JK x Karam Brar x Sub Focus
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💫 Euphoric drops + rolling basslines
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Surma (Miracle) - Jk & Karam Brar & Sub Focus - Drum & Bass 2025

remixes, demos, covers, etc.
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merry christmas have some more songs since kmoe isnt dropping

linoleum (demo)

kmoe unreleased

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