you killed me first

prod 
@1hallow
@ayyitsryo

thank you guys 4 sticking by me all this time
this is a song off a project im working on called “last year alive” hope u like it ok byeee

mother's child (ryo + hallow)

You Nearly Killed Me, Sarah!

worse than luv

unmastered
sample: sledges - june is better than july
produced by me
scrapped song. enjoy

lyrics:

(i felt it, when we met)

i can't save my life
but can you let me try?
don't leave me to dry

again, again, again again
again, again, again, again

huh, huh, huh
i'm just tryna keep myself up in the meantime
when's the last time i tried to have some me time?

wish it was me instead of you
if i lose myself again i'll leave my brains in the coupe

screaming out my feelings 'til my head hurt
at my funeral just say i made an effort
i can't wake up with this feeling that my chest hurts

it's sickening, i
it's sickening, i

i pray one day i take my misery out
you think i care about the price?
i have to live with guilt and all my lies
so don't you ever tell me that i'm fine

i, cant, fall
again, again, again, again
again, again, again, again

why'd, i, try?
again, again, again, again
again, again, again, again

(again, again, again, again
again, again, again, again)

practicing these notes to leave my mother
the last time i tried i failed lets do another
man i'm not the type to joke when i tell you i truly suffer

every time i close my eyes i pray i get eternal slumber
i'm a bastard
every time i try to change it doesn't matter
just take me out my misery so i don't stagger

i, cant, fall
again, again, again, again
again, again, again, again

why'd, i, try?
again, again, again, again
again, again, again, again

(again, again, again, again
again, again, again, again)

YOUTUBE

again again again (p. me)

SPOTIFY:
https://open.spotify.com/track/7fZt4NgRWOU9kGjnosd4T0?si=GllKBZ8hS0qIde6AxDjtFA

p. den

ill be gone
in october
tell me will you miss me by then?
or will i be another one that you will
pretend i never happened in the first place

you always make
mistakes
so i make them to
grab you by the waist
and your heart
imma
cut right through
but somehow you ripped me apart
when i needed you
tearing at the seams of my heart
till you ripped right through

ill be gone
in october
tell me will you miss me by then?
or will i be another one that you will
pretend i never happened in the first place

you got cuts on your wrist
they cant see from a far
ill kiss all of your wounds
ill heal all of your scars
in a hundred of years
will you still love me ?
cause when i see your face
it is you that ill keep
your such a pretty mess
when i call out your name
you get fluttered by words
that he’d never say
when you say that you love me
do you mean it every time ?
cause im scared of losing you
i feel at home by your side.

ill be gone in october

saw u hit the u turn baby 
guess its all in my own head
saw u hit the u turn baby
guess its all in my own head

2 fuckin crazy for my own damn good 
no I can’t let u go, even tho I should
mama so disappointed,gave me same old looks
we got hella dif views, from the same damn book
hold on

God damn it’s all fault, fault again 
God damn I just want it all, all to end 

wats wrong, has it been too long?
guess what bae I’m not that gone ik 
what would you do if I made that call today
wats wrong, has it been too long?
messed up when I made that song
what did I do to make my soul fade away 


remember when I told you it would be okay
remember when I didn’t want to share my space
but u took advantage of bandages set that day
and u manage to vanish from my life okay 
let me go back in time when it was easier
only when I needed her 
now my whole face is in the dirt 
am I makin it worse
Am I  makin it 

wats wrong, has it been too long?
guess what bae I’m not that gone ik 
what would you do if I made that call today
wats wrong, has it been too long?
messed up when I made that song
what did I do to make my soul fade away 

drowning 
up in my blood 
I was jus never the one
to make the better decision 
no matter what I do 
why do I want you around 
why do I keep falling down 
ik I sound crazy 
I sound crazy

uturn

Prod by neverforever 

lyrics:
i got thoughts in my head they tear me apart 
change my face and my name, i don’t wanna play that part 
got no nails and no change, sharpened teeth i don’t bite but with 
these thorns in my waist 
got my future outta sight 

don’t gotta stitch these wounds 
or stitch them slowly 
please don’t cut me loose 
think this noose could hold me longer 
i won’t choose 
whoever wants to hold me 
i don’t wanna choose whoever wants to hold me


got a stomach full of nails oh i’m so paranoid 
i’m not begging you to care, yeah ur someone i’d avoid 
and i’m just coughing blood, cuz they like me like this 
now tell me i’m enough 
when i look just like this

Paranoid

prod. me

i wish i could be perfect
so all my flaws and sins would be gone
i wish i could get rid of all this greed
grab the guillotine cut my head off
oh in my final moments ill pray to you
oh my god is a woman she'll make do

ooh my god is a woman 
and she is so perfect
ill repent all my sins
so you can heal me with both hands
(x2)

i fell flat on my face
i need to pick my head up
im on my knees and ill pray
i want you to come home 
it doesnt matter the day
please just dont lead me astray
im your sheap
and your the shepard
baby just take me away

ooh my god is a woman 
and she is so perfect
ill repent all my sins
so you can heal me with both hands

i thought i had it all
but i could barley grasp it
its in the palms of my hands
girl i cant let go from it

its like your an arrow
and baby im the target
just hit a bullseye 
ill fall down right infront ya

i lost alotta friends
i still hold them close in my heart
cause now im the man 
they helped me build up in the start

but now im where i wanna be 
and everything feels wrong
so now ill do this for you
everyone i lost

i put my trust in you 
i put my trust in god
i put my trust in you
i put my trust in god

ooh my god is a woman 
and she is so perfect
ill repent all my sins
so you can heal me with both hands

Paranoid

knots.

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