Otoño.

demo for "murder me for my sins pt. 2"
engineered by megg

lying to you

Boy Crush - Creep

https://salviapalth.bandcamp.com/album/melanchole

Salvia Palth - I Was All Over Her

Julia Brown - Without You

Teen Mom Birthday Cake: "I See Stars"

Rachel Levy: "Australia" (Attic Abasement Cover)

The 3rd & deluxe edition vinyl repress of Ontario Gothic will be available August 27th, 2021. 

Pre-order a copy here: https://shop.orchidtapes.com/product/foxes-in-fiction-ontario-gothic-third-press

"Musicially, “Ontario Gothic” begins where the previous song on the album, “Shadow’s Song” lets off. The the same melody - made from cutting up & copying and pasting singular guitar notes forms the melodic basis for the majority former. The instrumental elements of the middle / transition section make up the Foxes in Fiction song “Breathing In” found on the first Angeltown compilation.

Lyrically, “Ontario Gothic” is written about a close friend name Cait who died in 2010 and to whom the album is dedicated. Cait was one of the closest friends that I had for many years when I was a bit younger. She and I became really close after I had moved back to my hometown in the suburbs of Toronto, away from a farm in rural Ontario that my family lived on from 2001 until 2004. I was coming away from what was the worst and most emotionally tumultuous period of my life at that point and I carried a lot of fucked up anxiety and deep sadness about my life and myself as a person. But more than anything else, getting to know, open up to and spend time with Cait during those first years helped open me up to kinds of happiness and a love for life that I didn’t think was within the realm of possibility at that point in my life. 

She was one of the most remarkable, open and truly good people I’ve ever known, really. The song “Flashing Lights Have Ended Now” was also written about her just a point where we’re drifting apart; a year later she was gone. I wrote this song to crystallize the better parts of our friendship and to remember the healing effect that she had on me as a person which without I would not be the same person or have the same acceptance for life that I do now. I miss her enormously and I feel her influence and presence constantly. "

I was trapped under concrete
Built from the memory
Of all the daydreams
That I buried underneath

Now find me a way to divide
All of the noise on the other side
We’ll change where we live in the fall
Soon it will feel like nothing is wrong

And I could see who I should be
Though a past that casts it’s shadow down over me
In empty fields on summer nights
I feel the flashing lights

Teeth clenched in moonlight
A limitation, want to ignite
Reset my biology
The imitation, the apology

And I felt just like a child
I’m taking it all from the other side
Driving with you in your car
The home that I know seems so far

Spring, fall, I’ve lost it all (the morning fog)
Your empty street where we would meet
These parking lots bless us with peace
Your light has strayed, there’s no release

Ontario Gothic

Foxes in Fiction - Ontario Gothic

Recorded at the Orchid Tapes HQ and released the same day as Foxes in Fiction's original version.

Julia Brown - Ontario Gothic (Foxes in Fiction cover)

soulless blue eyes keep me from myself
for when you leave ill still be here
left to wander around the concrete farms
what do you after yr favorite harm
yr cigarettes taste like opiates
and still got nothing to show for it

ill be the ghost that cannot cry
ill be the sadness in yr eyes

lady made of gold ill do as i am told
pull my teeth out for the christmas wreath
i still dont care i never will
and i dont care why for how its been

unforgiven IIII

Samples:

Melody on Casio SK-1 made with voice sample
Sam Acchione of Alex G playing piano in Rachel Levy's house
Isolated section from dream vocal melody
Speaker in Montana rest station announcing weather
"Insomnia Keys"

Download: https://www.mediafire.com/?356kay1vm3nu3c6

October (For J)

for Secret Project

Ricky Eat Acid - Inside my house; some place I keep dreaming about
https://soundcloud.com/rickyeatacid/inside-my-house-some-place-i-1

Ricky Eat Acid - Inside my house; some place I keep dreaming about(Qrion remix)

old track but one of my fav tracks. circa.... 2010 

Kyle

abortion ceremony
i dont care about you anymore
yr mom seems happy
so i guess yr happy too
going to watch you drink yr tears
bodies shaking incestuously
pictures take to be forgotten
we'll who even seems to care
smell like cigarettes
i love yr face
everyone eats their birthday cake

abortion ceremony inside a church
everyone is dead and i am too
smile to forget this shit
drink the poison of a witch
smell like cigarettes
i love yr face
everyone eats their birthday cake
 
abortion ceremony
i dont miss you anymore
yr mom seems happy
so i guess yr happy too
abortion ceremony
i dont miss you anymore
yr pain seems happy
so i guess yr happy too

abortion ceremony (shitty demo)

Starry Cat - You're The Reason I Believe In Ghosts

Off of "Blithe Field/Ricky Eat Acid Split (2012):

https://rickyeatacid.bandcamp.com/album/blithe-field-ricky-eat-acid-split

Released via Primitive Patterns (Sold Out)

Don't Want To Be Here

i want to forget this world
everyone is a sinner
sinners go to hell
everyone suffers
i am a sinner
i am already in hell
please murder me for my sins
so I can be nothing


please murder me for my sins


you've been here a while stripped of happiness
in yr self made purgatory you say
if im right then ill fade into the light
and if i love anything i love nothing
i tried to come clean but you didn't understand
that ive been here too long but i get along
and if i love anything i love you here
inside my self-made purgatory

*~*purgatory*~*

growing up so slow
you bred yr hate here
for everyone you know
growing up so slow 
you learned to hate me
whenever i did anything at all

you feel old
yr only 19
you look old 
yr only 19
yr eyes still pass through me
yr eyes still peirce through me 

Otoño.

krishia.