17 at 25
Written by Kristian Veech and Eitan Snyder

Verse 1:
I’m ready to fall
And I might get hurt
But I’ll take that risk
For whatever it’s worth
I’m ready to love 
I’m ready to try
Dust off my boots and go along for the ride

Verse 2:
‘Cause I ain’t gettin’ younger 
Afraid to get old
Still stuck on the sidelines 
Doing what I’m told
Still too young to be wise
Too old not to know
How the rest of my life oughta go

Chorus:
‘Cause I’m still seventeen in my mind
Afraid I’ll be left behind
Still searching for a reason
I can really start feeling alive
‘Cause I’m still 17 at 25

Verse 3:
I’m ready to fly 
And I’m not looking back
Won’t live more of my life
Stuck in the past 
‘Cause I’m still catching up
Still trying to prove 
I swear I know everything but don’t have a clue

Second Chorus:
‘Cause I’m still seventeen in my mind
Afraid I’ll be left behind
Still searching for a reason
I can really start feeling alive
Like I wish I could have been 
When I was seventeen and I tried 
To be the golden child all the time
Peeling back the wrapper
Letting out what I was holding inside
‘Cause I’m still 17 at 25

Guitar solo

Bridge:
Taking chances I never would have back then
‘Cause I swear my only regret 
Was having nothing that I’d rather forget
Except 

Down Chorus:
That I’m still seventeen in my mind
But I take it all in my stride

Third Chorus:
‘Cause I’m still seventeen in my mind
Afraid I’ll be left behind
Still searching for a reason
I can really start feeling alive
Like I wish I could have been 
When I was seventeen and I tried 
To be the golden child all the time
Peeling back the wrapper
Letting out what I was holding inside
‘Cause I’m still 17 at 25

17 At 25 (Demo)

Written and Produced by Kristian Veech

Lyrics:

Strips of light through my window shades
I’m staring at the ceiling
Crawling out out of bed
I’ve been tired for endless days
And there ain’t much to celebrate
People laugh and people let loose
With Fireworks and sparklers
Up down the street
Everyone’s got their red white and blue
But I only feel the later hue

Feels like I’m looking for freedom
In all the wrong places
Like waiting on a promise
Believing lies
Maybe independence is hidden
In my scars and strides
Like the Fourth of July

july 4th

Written and Produced by Kristian Veech

Lyrics:

Turn the lock up the stairs
Close my bedroom door
Change my clothes
Rip them off
Now they lie on the floor
As I stare in the mirror
I’m worn out like an old t shirt
Im fading away
As I crawl in bed
Ignoring how much I hurt

Now I’m starring at the ceiling
Thinking what could be
Dreaming of a better me
I’m lost inside the future
Like a memory
Im just hanging on by a dream

I see a lighted stage
Hear song in a bright studio
And gone are the days
Of the retail hole
I see a stronger man
Taking on the world
With nothing but his own two hands
He ain’t afraid of nothing
So fearless to the core
He ain’t that scared little kid anymore

Still I’m starring at the ceiling
Thinking what could be
Dreaming of a better me
I’m lost inside the future
Like a memory
Im just hanging on by a dream

I’ve been patiently wanting
To start a new
Don’t know where I should go
But I know I will be soon
I can’t shake these dreams
Of unfamiliar places
That feel like home
Is it a sign to go?

Now I’m staring at the ceiling
Tracing morning beams
Trying to get a little more sleep
The thought of waking up
Is weighing down on me
I’m just hanging on by a dream
But one day it won’t be just a dream

Hanging On By A Dream

Written and Produced by Kristian Veech

Lyrics:

Saturn rises over burning streets
He’s looking down and he’s not real pleased
The people fight the blaze of tyranny
Into the summer night they sing

The pigs of war armed from head to toe
Gaslight the masses, spill blood in the road
Sworn to protect but only built to serve
The establishment of a broken world

They’re telling lies telling lies
But you don’t really care
And They’re taking lives taking lives but you’re still unaware
Cause ignorance is sweeter than bliss
Silence, silence, turns a blind eye to the right
And just fight through the night
Through the night, through the night
They’ll be sorry they lied
When the revolutionaries cry

The men in suits lie beyond the law
In solidarity the people call
Red, white but they demand the truth
They paint the town a whole new shade of blue

They’re telling lies telling lies
But you don’t really care
And They’re taking lives taking lives but you’re still unaware
Cause ignorance is sweeter than bliss
Silence, silence, turns a blind eye to the right
And just fight through the night
Through the night, through the night
They’ll be sorry they lied
When the revolutionaries cry

Red, white and blue
Stars, stripes, and fools
Freedom forever and ever
Fighting for the
Red, white and blue
Scars, strides, and truth
Freedom forever and ever
And ever
Hear the revolutionaries cry

Revolutionaries cry
Red, white, and blue
Scars, strides, and truth

red, white, And blue

Written and Produced by Kristian Veech

Lyrics:

Mama always told me
“You’ll find a woman some day”
And daddy tried to raise me
To be a man his way
I could feel their hesitations
And silent expectations
On my young bright mind
I didn’t want to let them down

Those kids that I called friends
Called me the worst of names
Bullied into silence
All I felt was shame
But how could they have known?
Was it so obvious it showed?
So I just denied
And I believed my lie

The truth I wanted to erase
I couldn’t look into a mirror at my own face

Cause I’ve always known
It just took a while to realize
That there was some hope
For a kid like me
As I look on back
Through the silver glass
Im proud because of all I’ve overcome
In my time of reflection

I was always scared I’d be
Written off and outcast
What would they all think of me?
Fearing the worst in my head
So I kept to my own music
To distract my disillusions
Quietly I struggled to be free

The truth I wanted to erase
I couldn’t look into a mirror at my own face

Cause I’ve always known
It just took a while to realize
That there was some hope
For a kid like me
As I look on back
Through the silver glass
Im proud I’ve overcome
And healed those scars
In my time of reflection

I never wanted to believe
But I came to terms eventually
And they’re all still proud of me
Cause I can live in honesty

Cause I’ve always known
It just took a while to realize
That there was some hope
For a kid like me
As I look on back
Through the silver glass
Im proud because of all I’ve overcome
In my time of reflection
I believe
In my time of reflection

Reflection

Written and Produced by Kristian Veech

Lyrics:

Here I am
I’ve done this all before
My body shakes my heart will race
I’m lying on the floor
I can only ride this out
Till my mind wears me down
Like a torn up journal entry
In pieces in the dark
To me
You are no stranger
You’ve been here my whole life
But always fail to make me braver
Internal sabotage
You’re a like a ghost without a cause
Lingering inside my head
you haunt me

And I hide you with a smile
To make them think that I’m alright
But I know that I’m a liar
Every time I say I’m fine

Cause you follow me
Every day you’re right behind me
You make my life feel so god damn empty
Like I don’t even matter
You twist my thoughts and all of my mistakes
Block the light out make me feel insane
You’re just like my shadow
Cause you’ll always follow me

Here I am
I keep trying
To shake this twisted obsession
With hurting myself
But you always undermine
With judgement you disguise
Everything I’ve ever done
Like I’ve failed everyone else
And I
I keep wishing
That someone someday will save me
From this pain that keeps me living
But love is no solution
Cause it can't fix it all
And in the end I need to same myself

So I’ll hide you with a smile
Just to function all the time
And I know that I’m a lair
When I say that I’m all right

Cause you follow me
Every day you’re right behind me
You Make my life feel so god damn empty
Like I don’t even matter
You twist my thoughts and all of my mistakes
Block the light out make me feel insane
You’re just like my shadow
Cause you’ll always follow me

I didn’t want them all to see
Me broken down like this
But the consequence
Of running just to exist
Is only suffering
Oh I can’t hide

Cause You follow me
Every day you’re right behind me
You Make my life feel so god damn empty
Like I don’t even matter
You only make Mistakes
Block the light out make me feel insane
You’re just like my shadow

Here I am
All I have is hope
It’s a lonely shred of light
In a dark and empty void
I’ve got reasons to believe
In what I will achieve
I’ve put my faith in a childhood dream
Cause I’m more than a shadow
And maybe one day I’ll be free

Shadow

Written and Produced by Kristian Veech

Lyrics:

Strips of light through my window shades
Light these stripped down walls
In a whole new way
I can’t believe just how much I’ve changed
And there’s still so much to celebrate

Packed up my life
And unpacked my pride
In cardboard moving boxes
Covering the floor
A change of pace and a change of mind
It’s a blank slate
And I’ll I’ve got is time

Cause I’m still writing my story on the bedroom walls
It’s messy and imperfect, don’t hold back at all
I’m just grateful for each chapter
Through hurt, the cries and laughs
No I won’t look back

Now I’m staring at the ceiling
Knowing I can be
Stronger than I once believed
I’m lost inside the present
Like a memory
Cause I know I’m always free
Cause I know that I am always free

I used to believe that freedom was an endgame
That one day I’d rid myself completely of my shadows and insecurities
But they’re as much of a part of you as your passions, beliefs and wildest day dreams
I’m not perfect but I’m still learning
To shake hands with my ghosts
Letting go and taking control
And I’ve begun to realize
Happiness isn’t the freedom from pain
It is freedom in spite of it

Letting Go And Taking Control

Originally Performed by Riley Green

Written by Riley Green, Bruford Green, Lendon Bonds

Lyric rewrite, production, and all instruments by Kristian Veech

Additional piano and voice memo by Robert Veech

Dedicated in loving memory of Robert Veech


Lyrics:

Wish I could turn back time 
When you taught me how to sing
I miss that front porch swing
I wish we could’ve talked a little longer
Way back then
And live it all again
And gone back to Disneyland

I wish that every little word
I held on near and tight 
I wish every story still felt so alive 

And I wish every moment was well spent
And every memory was permanent 
And heartbeats never ran out of borrowed time
And I wish losing you wouldn’t be this tough
And nobody ever had to grow up
And I wish you’d still be here to say
It’ll be alright
I wish that precious life didn’t have no closing time
‘Cause I wish grandpas never died


I wish Sunday's down at your house would never end
Wish I could hear you play again
Wish I kept your hand-me-down
Broken piano that we had to give away
I miss your music every day

I wish any little miracle was gonna bring you back home
I wish tears dried up and time stood still
So you never had to go 

And I wish every moment was well spent
And every memory was permanent 
And heartbeats never ran out of borrowed time
And I wish losing you wouldn’t be this tough
And nobody ever had to grow up
And I wish you’d still be here to say
It’ll be alright
I wish that precious life didn’t have no closing time
‘Cause I wish grandpas never died

And I wish good men never got grey and old
I wish you could know 

That I wish every moment was well spent
And every memory was permanent 
And heartbeats never ran out of borrowed time
And I wish losing you wouldn’t be this tough
And nobody ever had to grow up
And I wish you’d still be here to say
It’ll be alright
I wish that precious life didn’t have no closing time
‘Cause I wish grandpas never died
I wish grandpas never died

I Wish Grandpas Never Died (Kristian's Version)

Written By Amanda McCarthy & Jake Arthur

Kristian Veech - Lead Vocals, Acoustic & Electric Guitars, Bass, Lap Steel, Banjo, Drum Programming, Fiddle Sampling, Percussion, Organ, Piano, Synthesizers, Production, Engineering, Mixing, Mastering

Amanda McCarthy - Background Vocals

Lyrics:

i've tiptoed around the truth
and i've had to sugaRcoat some lies
wondering what might sEt you off
'cause roses cover your land Mines

single sidEd tendencies
but i'm too old for freneMies

so you go your way, i'll go mine
i wont think twice
i know i'll Be fine
i wont shEd one tear
so go ahead and thRow your bricks
honey i'll make mountains from your stones and sticks
and cliMb on up to where the air is clearer
rising from the ashEs of your smoke and mirrors

daddy said stand your ground
don't back down don't take no slack
mama told me prove them Wrong
oh but i know time will take care of tHat

so you go your way, i'll go minE
i woNt think twice
i know i'll be fine
i wont shed one tear
so go ahead and throw Your bricks
honey i'll make mOuntains from your stones and sticks
and climb on Up to where the air is clearer
rising from the ashes of youR smoke and mirrors

single sidEd tendencies
but i'm too old for Frenemies

so you go your wAy, i'll go mine
i wont think twice
i know i'll be fine
i wont shed one tear
so go ahead and throw your bricks
honey i'll make Mountains from your stones and sticks
and climb On up to where the air is clearer
rising from the ashes of yoUr smoke and mirrors

(smoke and mirrors)
rising from the asheS of your smoke and mirrors

Smoke And Mirrors

Kristian Veech - Vocals, Acoustic & Electric Guitars, Bass Guitar, Lap Steel, Mandolin, Fiddle, Piano, Organ, Synthesizers, Drum Programming, Percussion, Engineering, Production, Mixing, Mastering

Lyrics and Music by Kristian Veech

Lyrics:
steven’s got marble brown eyes
that don’t have to try
entice me with shadeS of his wonderful
steven’s the star of the show
filmed throUgh his phone
he brightens my skies while i'm balancing scales on my own

i just want to picture it just me and him
my head on his chest

cause i’m dreaming of steven
you touch me, i’m bLushing
you just take your time
i’m not leaving barely breathing
cause you give me something to believe in
oh steven

oh i’ve been trying to fly
why don’t you teach me?
cause you Look like an angel, a natural
high on the electric breeze
of a little pocket screen
i smile from a distance
hearts tapping silently

but i don’t want to walk away from somethIng great
and just forget

cause i’m dreaming of steven
you touch me, i’m blushing
you just take your time
i’m not leaving barely breathing
cause you give me something to believe in
oh steven

but i don’t want to leaVe it here
in silent fears and walk away
i don’t want to spend another day in different states to just replay

all my dreaming of steven
you touch me, i’m blushing
you just take your time
i’m not leAving barely breathing
cause you give me something to believe in
oh steven

oh steven
you give me something to believe iN

Steven

"I Thought I Lost You," featured on Kristian's upcoming 3rd studio album.

Music & Lyrics by Kristian Veech

Kristian Veech - vocals, keyboards and synths, guitars, drum programming, production, engineering, mixing, mastering.


Lyrics:

You were young 
And starry-eyed
Just a space cadet in training
Lost in time
You set your sights
To be a captain one day
But you abandoned post
When you started to break

You know It’s never too late to come back home
Sometimes it takes a thousand light years 
To rediscover what you know
Cause you’ve been running on fumes
burning youth 
I thought I lost you
I thought I lost you

Cause you were young
And played the fool
Tearing up the book of rules
That you still follow too
You’re flying solo
In your broken tin can
Wishing you had solid ground 
To grow and make your stand

You know It’s never too late to come back home
Sometimes it takes a thousand light years 
To rediscover what you know
Cause you’ve been running on fumes
burning youth 
I thought I lost you
I thought I lost you

You search for consolation
Among a distant void 
Of cries for help
Where you believe they’ll never hear you 
Internalize, you’re only see through 
But we share this constellation
Your my twin, my sign, my fading light
But I believe that what I’ve been through 
Will always pull me right back to you
Cause I could give every shred of love
To someone else
But you’re with me till the end
And I’ll never have a closer friend 

You are young 
Scared and hurt
You’ve gotten used to pain
But you’ll heal at every turn
You stumble home
Standing at the door
The cadet has grown
And he’s a captain now

You know it’s never too late to come back home
Sometimes it takes a thousand light years 
To rediscover what you know
Cause you’ve been running on fumes
burning youth 
So I thought I lost you
I thought I lost you
But now I’ve found you
Now I’ve found you 
You were young

I Thought I Lost You

Produced, mixed and mastered by Kristian Veech

Written by Taylor Swift and Jack Antonoff

I Think He Knows

With a whimsical, starry-eyed approach and vulnerable story telling, Kristian forges his own sound, backed by a sheen of country, pop, rock and americana. As a multifaceted musician, he’s no stranger to wearing many hats: working in his studio self producing records, then taking to the stage to share his life experiences through his songs.

Hailing from Binghamton NY, the Nashville based singer-songwriter and producer attended the Berklee College of Music, and graduated in 2018 with a degree in Contemporary Writing and Production. From 2014 – 2019, he spent his time in Boston as a member of several bands, in addition to performing as a solo act. He fronted the prog rock group Fordham Road, and backed pop-rock singer-songwriter Amanda McCarthy on bass and keyboards. After releasing two studio albums and an EP, Kristian relocated to Nashville, TN in 2019 to fully pursue a career in music.

As a record producer, Kristian has worked with artists such as Amanda McCarthy, Becca Levy, Ty Openshaw, and Savannah Smith. He produced half of McCarthy’s debut album “Road Trip,” which was nominated for the New England Music Awards “Album of the Year” in 2019.
His music constantly defies genre boundaries, with his songwriting ranging anywhere from symphonic art rock epics to quiet folk ballads. Despite the wide varieties of sounds and genres used in his songs, there’s still an underlying sound that brings the music full circle.

Kristian has been an active live performer since 2015. He currently plays regularly throughout the New England area as the frontman of Fordham Road, Amanda McCarthy’s rhythm guitarist and as a solo act. For his solo gigs, Kristian takes the stage with only his acoustic guitar, microphones, and loop station; layering sounds to create seamless song arrangements on the spot without the help backing tracks or a band.

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