Hate Me

[hook]
i keep my circle small
shoutout the few
that no matter what 
always answer calls
i used to dwell on rejection 
now i don’t give a fuck
you always open the message
so why can’t you respond?
in about a week i’ll regret it
proceed to carry on
at least reply with a sentence 
did i do something wrong?
shit i got so used to rejection 
so everyday i fall 
deeper in the same old depression
i swear it’s gotten old
and sadly i’m not getting younger

[verse]
my whole adolescence 
carried a lot of lessons 
so many broken bonds
i was left to clean up messes
they told me imma peasant
and fuck, i still don’t get it
why can’t you leave me be 
let me fucking dress how i’m dressing
i always hated home
until my father sold the house
that’s where i learned to crawl
always cried within them walls 
i say i hate my father
but inside i wish he’d call 
and yeah i hate to bother
you won’t see me anymore

[bridge]
live a day 
in my shoes
i admire everything
you do 
never gave 
the time of day 
cause you
i self medicate
i’d lose 
just to find away
to you
maybe someday 
yeah you’ll choose me
but right now i stay broken

[repeat hook]

Self Medicate

Tattoo Over All My Scars

LYRICS:
baby i’m confused
these are words you’d never say to me
light a cigarette 
while you tell me that you hate me 
all the the shit you say 
killing me like you the plague 
i envisioned us so different 
guess you don’t feel the same
on my way from work
i got everything you wanted
dr pepper cream soda
take 5, and some loving
in the honeymoon phase
gotta bun up in the oven 
you say we were a mistake
getting high, thinking fuck it


hello(x4) dear
miss elegant 
you now irrelevant 
gave you my heart 
now don’t be selling it
took me out of my element
fuck
i hate you 
but i love the way it feels
worlds away, a world of grey 
is why i’m skipping meals

take me to before i ever had a drink or smoked
before i tried to die
before i cried because no hope 
before i held regrets 
and before i could even know
that i would self harm, cut my arms
end up watching all the blood flow

baby i’m confused
these are words you’d never say to me
light a cigarette 
while you tell me that you hate me 
all the the shit you say 
killing me like you the plague 
i envisioned us so different 
guess you don’t feel the same
on my way from work
i got everything you wanted
dr pepper cream soda
take 5, and some loving
in the honeymoon phase
gotta bun up in the oven 
you say we were a mistake
getting high, thinking fuck it

worlds away (prod. RXHFF)

LYRICS:
i said ma “what do you call this?”
typed letter said you gotta be out by august 
i said fuck
cant believe i just read all this
i remember when Lil Wayne he got the audit 
i can’t remember when the pain really started, regardless 
dark room, no lights
dim lit closet 
not a Migo
but i used to bump Offset
all set, i wreck, and i pause it 

imma long lost cause
ya’ll foggin
up the windshield 
of my homemade coffin 
i’m gross yeah i hear that shit often 
take another breath, inhale, now i’m coughing

head hurts way too often, 
skully had that seizure 
and i swear i thought we lost him 
a couple dead lilies that we ended up tossing 
i was born, in the hospital, that i’ll fall in 
i wish i made it down to to charlotte
Utah, Madison Square Garden 

look at all the dead trees
dead like me
fell in love i swear i did
on that South 9th street 
let me be deceased 
save me from myself
i need bout 300 me’s
to relieve me from this hell 
could you tell
these eyes, are blood shot 
these eyes, are prone to swell
i’m beginning to think that i’m living in hell

columbia (prod. HXL)

LYRICS:
i didn’t come for retribution 
all the weed
i’m supposedly abusing
the fuck that even mean?
i’m smoking, i’m feeling lucid
another dream,
hell’s scheme 
to keep me losing 
already have anxiety 
fuck i hate that shit the most 
undiagnosed 
or at least i thought i was
got weed in my container
my mental illness on the sheet paper
i taper out think i hate her, 
i guess i’ll take a new route

when suicide is present 
i tend to say a lot of shit that i end up regretting 
just think of how a life could be gone, in just a second
the new dawn, it leads to a whole long, beginning 
get on both knees, tried to seek, some forgiveness 

i struck out my whole life
now i begin the ninth inning
i feel my family drifting
i feel my parents start to look down
shake their heads they grinning
my brother don’t reach out,
my father probably dead
and my friend’s always out 
so i lay home in this bed
and i, 
listen to songs
that will get me out my head
and i,
smoke by myself,
till my soul stares death 
in the eyes
hate everything
never meant to be a hero 
a working class, taxi driver 
i’m Robert Di Niro 

smoking that west coast cure
is the cure to my pain 
addicted to the feeling
or am i going insane?
i got, another month 
till i’m kicked to the road
yeah a dick to the throat 
is all these hoes know
and know, this no joke
i wished for something genuine
they, left me on read again 
i give up, i give up, i break down
i ease up, i try to free up,
some room, for good thoughts 
but my mind is in the freezer
i’m here to meet the grim reaper

sometimes 
i don’t leave my room for days
i’m looking for a sign
or a familiar face
i say, fuck all religion
don’t pray, fuck saying grace 
surely i date every race
and race to every date
cause i never seem to get away
die alone a castaway 
buy a home another state
maybe that’s the secret to people feeling so goddamn great 

i fade away, and turn my blood into a stain 
i been deranged, when things changed in eighth grade
i love watching the world, burn and turn grey 
everybody been scared, but i live with no care
i swear this past year was nothing other than tears
i lost a few homies, and gained a few fears 
i’d be lying if i said it wasn’t music to my ears 
i hear, the people living 
so ar-guably livid 
i hop, out the Civic 
proceed to see vivid 
another dimension
is it the tenth or am i just guessing?

LYRICS:
i’m so stressed out 
feel it in my chest now
smoking cigarettes
tryna fit with the depressed crowd 
can’t settle for less now

no money in my pocket 
gotta watch when i’m upset now
i feel so defeated when i look at my regrets 
face it like a man, they said i’d gain upmost respect 
but i lack the subtle feeling when i’m faced with the neglect 
i hate it, so i smoke till i’m yay high out of my head 

i speak of such dread
these dreams of lying dead
they seem to be a sign
a poet’s line of my own death 
i was trying just to find
where the time had been afflicted
used to say i’m sober
now i smoke like i’m addicted 
i swore that i was finished
to all the girls who came before 
here’s all the love i rented
all the love i meant it 
i don’t hold grudges
never take life for granted 

wish i had time to speak to some of those who have descended 
i get to feeling weak, blurry eyed, high and destined,
now i feel a bit more confident in what i dressed in 
a little less stressed and, 
bullet proof vest in, 
i don’t trust these pussies, 
jordan belfort i’m invested

as a child i was reckless
anger was no stranger 
punching holes and breaking dressers
i’m often used to falling apart sorry for making messes 
ship me off maybe a calm, Jamaican setting 
i let this mess undress it
i’m sorry

was i the reason that you left?
i was on my emo shit
being all sorts of depressed
i admit i should’ve kept it in 
locked it in my head
i have my insecurities
and they currently hurting me
i deserve it preferably 
if you’d just let it be
Paul McCartney with the Höfner let the music speak 
Meechy Darko i took over while my demons weep 
you mention enemies, 
yeah i got plenty see,
keep my circle real small i don’t fuck with many,
never stood tall always considered a deadbeat,
yeah i cry real shit, 
while i sink real deep 
if only half these people knew what i wanted to be
maybe they’d be more hype about the music that i release 
i repeat, yelling FTP
laying low with Skully 
smoking weed watching MTV
i hate it 
hope we make it
shake it off
i overthink
but i don’t have an ounce of doubt
i swim until i sink

loneliness has followed me my whole life, everywhere

midnight television (krypt king mashup)

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M3DICINE (Feat. DeadBoiDex) Prod. Haaga x !llmind

JJ Castor - https://soundcloud.com/jj_castor000

Dark Culture - https://soundcloud.com/dark-culture

Recovery (DND) [feat. NVKWB$T] Prod. TROYVIXIOUS

LYRICS:
cocaine, 
anything you say darling,
I've been through so much that I can't stand,
Look at the clouds while I hold your hand,
Is it bad if I'm not just like all your friends?
insecure f*ck, put me to rest,
I don't deserve you thoughts I have,
been so lonely, craving skin,
go to sleep hoping it's the--

cocaine,
anything you say darling,
I've been through so much that I can't stand,
always overthink it makes no sense,
wonder if you'll like the way I dress,
wonder if you'll care that I smoke cigarettes,
no I'm not special, no not at all,
wonder if you'll accept all my flaws,
smile on my face when I see you've called

I'm insecure,
I'm breaking down,
I'm scared that you'll,
never come around.

cocaine,
anything you say darling,
I've been through so much that I can't stand,
look at the clouds while I hold your hand,
is it bad if I'm not just like all your friends?

krypt king

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