Chaos phobia

Guitar by @tmywtsisband
circa — March 2021

Lyrics:
Don't feel like I'm enough
I got so much problems 'cause of what you did
I'm running out of luck
At this point I might as well give it up

Can't, you be a little more helpful
Because I know that you're special
Give me some time and I'll make things less stressful

Don't you leave me, to be
Falling out of my own tree

Please don't leave me
All to be

Tree

dont walk away...

demo twelve

(prod xona)

take what you want, i know you'll take it from me
you've been playing show pony, and now you're weak

tossing out projectiles
protecting a line
i've been playing sovereign
like i cannot die
they've been running up the gallery
like i could survive
all the influence you've shown me
cannot describe

the way i feel about this
i feel so worthless
i'm punching at the surface
i hope it's worth it

to see me fall back and forth
crashing in waves and pulling off
i'm damaged from it, or so i thought
'cos now i'm addicted to the pain involved

whatever you saw, you didn't see from me
whatever it was, i know it's your mind that's bleak
i'm so empathetic, you're welcome for the charity
no one else cared, not even i was there for me

now i graze these plains myself / i can't hold all the cards you've dealt
couldn't tell i was tense by the way my body felt / fall to the floor, i won't ask for help
digging in between your hips, it's warmer now / i'm not sure i want this, maybe it's my guilt
i hear whispers in my ear, i think it's from the spell

take what you want, i know you'll take it from me
you've been playing show pony, and now you're weak

tossing out projectiles
protecting a line
i've been playing sovereign
like i cannot die
they've been running up the gallery
like i could survive.
all the influence you've shown me
i cannot describe

projectile

a collab with Andy Cizek, from Makari/Monuments/Termina/WVNDER

prod breakdown vid on youtube: https://youtu.be/NGkT72ZahdI?si=_6P3t3q7N1QIsm0x

ANDY:
bent the truth so I could see clearer
gazin through those cracks in the mirror
you can call me but i ain't gonna hear ya
don't wipe up your tears, now
don't wipe up your tears now

SCRO:
reaching out my hand to a stranger
tried to break those eyes tried to change you
take it back i don't want it i don't blame you
it all feels the same, ya
and i can't play your games now

BOTH:
im turning back from a blind eye
from seeing ev-er-y face i hide from inside
feels like i'm brooding on lost time
and now i'm chasing the echoes i try to rewind

SCRO:
I’m chasing the ghosts that I can’t leave behind
got drunk off regret to forget you were mine
i wish that we never met, can’t reset, can’t rewind
the voices deep in my head, I do this every night

ANDY:
I’m chasing the ghosts that I can’t leave behind
got drunk off regret to forget you were mine
i wish that we never met, can’t reset, can’t rewind
the voices deep in my head, I do this every night

cause now I’m chasing the ghosts that I can’t leave behind
got drunk off regret to forget you were mine
i wish that we never met, can’t reset, can’t rewind
the voices deep in my head, I do this every night

SCRO:
cause i don't, i don't need this
moving on, don't believe this
ENTER ANDY: i tried to learn from the reset
but now i'm burned and all i feel is the regret
SCRO:
i've found the reason
i can't believe it
no more deprivation
reprise from desperate mourn; he cries

ANDY:
I’m chasing the ghosts that I can’t leave behind
got drunk off regret to forget you were mine
i wish that we never met, can’t reset, can’t rewind
the voices deep in my head, I do this every night
you know I’m chasing the ghosts that I can’t leave behind
got drunk off regret to forget you were mine
i wish that we never met, can’t reset, can’t rewind
the voices deep in my head, I do this every night. I do this every night

ANDY:
born of a ghost left behind
rinse off the blood from the wine
the voices deep in my head, the voices deep in my head
I do this every night
BLEGCH

BOTH:
echoes; left behind
fractures; from my mind

fractures (w/ Andy Cizek)

music vid: www.youtube.com/watch?v=tIN6-WGYHho
single off my album 'love yourself before others'
produced by me, guitar by me, ib @keyvslocket

pocket book

Don't believe anything else

I don't think anyone is taller than me
Yes I'm the tallest around
And I look bigger than buildings
I don't think you're more paper than me
Yes I'm as fragile as that
I'm just a big ol' dumbass
I don't think anyone's cuter than me
Dont' bother looking around
So I guess it could be contrary

Oh I know I am beautiful
I'm so checked out of Earth
This is what I prefer
This is what I prefer
Bigger than Eiffel Tower
On paper, I'm more paper than paper
I'm cuter than Kate Moss was ever
Don't believe anything else

You know
You know
You know
I'm as tall as they go

Play

i was talking about the pieces
and i cant really explain it right now
and i thought we would get even
because i hate to see it all fall down
you wanted me
but i left you so blindly
even though, you want to see
but i left you alone

and ill be fine, it's ok, it's too soon
and i wont wait at all, its hard for me, to look around, to bruise
for you

please give me one more chance to get there
i left you starring at my phone unaware
please give me one more chance to get better

Aware

Produced by @crispyporkbelly, 
I just I sing on I SUNG it lourly
So don't get your hopesout in
a twist                           ...   .....
Drawn by @necronomicmiraclepending
Clock on my wall was picture
Its a picture its pictured
My thoughts in the part
My photographs two
They were... Reviled by me...
now understood better
I'n much kinder to them

unobstructed w/拜訪者V

kuch1k

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