Reapers Shadow

Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced by: @domesticsoul
Mixed & Mastered by: @joshiguess
Artwork by: Reapers Shadow & angelsofsorrows

Lyrics:
[Intro]
Body aching 
Broken connection from this life 
Losing the grip on my reality 
My mind feels like solitary 
I want to deal with this blasphemy

[Verse 1]
Walking the sand trail 
Seeing civilization rise after it fell
This is just a vocalization of my thoughts 
Earth has rotted away 

[Bridge]
Now mars is part of a new day
Letting go of everything 
Including these old ties 
WHEN WILL I FEEL SATISFIED

[Verse 2]
Your ghost is still haunting me
(and I don't know what to do about it) 
Even on another world 
(You're still there everytime)

[Interlude]
It's like when I lost you 
It's like I lost everything 
That matters to me
And I can't take that back
I can't gets you back

[Verse 3]
Why am I still fucking living 
at this point 
Cause everything I cared about is gone 
and now I want to escape

[Interlude 2]
No matter how hard I fucking want to
I have to accept that You're FUCKING GONE
And that you will never be here again

[Outro]
Trying to forget that you're gone 
But that never works

Denial (Prod. domesticsoul)

Written by: Reapers Shadow
Produced by: Sk8miles
Mixed by: Reapers Shadow
Mastered by: @heurestal
Artwork generated by: https://dream.ai/create
Artwork prompt from: Reapers Shadow

Lyrics:
[Intro]
We met when we were younger
I know that we both hated summer
(I love you)
They say that time is just a number
But, don't you remember
When I cried on your shoulder

[Bridge]
Tonight you've made me cry
Thought it was love but it was just a lie
Expected me to smile all the time
Never respected my feelings
At all

[Verse]
I guess I can't trust you like I used to
You've changed for the worse
(For the worse)
You're not the man I used to know
Thought I was the sun when I was just a lonely moon
Hiding in the dark

[Chorus]
What happened to us
We used to be so close
But now you hate my guts

[Outro]
I still love you no matter what
I want to be in bed with you
(So just)
Just hold me in your arms
My love

What Happened To Us (Prod. Sk8miles)

Written by: Reapers Shadow
Produced by: Michael Harrison
Mixed by: Reaper Shadow & angelsofsorrows
Mastered by: angelsofsorrows

Lyrics:
[Intro]
Blood dripping
On the floor

[Chorus]
I wish I could lets you go
But nothing ever makes sense
Anymore without you here
Crying on your hospital bed
Isabell you were the best
(Why does my heart go like this)

[Verse 1]
Why does everything feel the same
Everyday I don't know why
I want to escape
Made this song hoping you'll rest
The night sky is beautiful like your hair

[Bridge]
Your beautiful pink hair
Made my world so bright
But now your not around

[Chorus]
I wish I could lets you go
But nothing ever makes sense
Anymore without you here
Crying on your hospital bed
Isabell you were the best

[Post-Chorus]
Your beautiful pink hair
Made my world so bright
But now your not around

[Verse 2]
My heart bleeds
Cause your in that hospital
I just sit here & listen to your heartbeat
Losing track of my time
Going through my mind
Of all the memories
We had together

[Outro]
I wish I could lets you go
(Your beautiful pink hair)
I wish I could lets you go
(Made my world so bright)
(But now your not around)

Isabell (Prod. Michael Harrison)

Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced by: Clozzbeat
Mixed & Mastered by: AkiraDoves
Artwork by: Azusa Banjo
Artwork Edited by: angelsofsorrows

[Chorus]
Looking back if you knew me
Would you have left me behind
Could I have changed your mind
Do I even still want this at all
Cause I still don't know who I am

[Bridge]
Is true love even real
or is it all false
cause if it is which way will I fall

[Verse]
You got me feeling puzzled
But where is this missing piece
I blush when I think about us
You make me feel cute
I'm so shy I go on mute
When I'm talking to you
I've never felt this feeling before

[Chorus]
Looking back if you knew me
Would you have left me behind
Could I have changed your mind
Do I even still want this at all
Cause I still don't know who I am

[Outro]
This is all in my head
But I hope someday
This becomes reality

Could I Have Changed Your Mind? (Prod. Clozzbeat)

Written by: Reapers Shadow
Produced by: raspo 
Mixed & Mastered by: @angelsofsorrows
Artwork is AI generated
Artwork edited by: Reapers Shadow

Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
You said I was a dime 
But we've ran out of time
I was never kind but your passion 
Slammed out the window pane 
You're remembrance floods my brain 
Reminding me of the days 
When you would ease my pain
But those times came and went like the sun 
The sky fades to black 
& the moonlight beams through ever fiber of my eyes 
Wish I could hear your voice 
Just one more time
Just one more time

[Chorus]
Everyday I'm still haunted 
By the memory of you
Please just let it stop 
All this anguish is killing me inside 
& All I know is
I don't wanna be like this at all
This at all
So release me from this pain
 
[Bridge]
If only you would've stayed
I would still be here 
But I know it's too late
To change the past 
 
[Verse 2]
The signs misdirect me to a creek 
I find a river & I drown in the suffocation 
Screaming till my lungs give out 
They'll say I was a good guy 
But never understood the way I felt 
I'm sorry to say I gave into my temptations 
The screams echo through my mind 
& as the last breath is sucked in 
My face gives one last smile
That haunts this lake of souls
Forever 

[Chorus]
Everyday I'm still haunted 
By the memory of you
Please just let it stop 
All this anguish is killing me inside 
& All I know is
I don't wanna be like this at all
This at all
So release me from this pain

Haunted By The Memory of You (Prod. raspo)

Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced by: @nevrfall
Mixed by: Reapers Shadow & angelsofsorrows 
Mastered by: angelsofsorrows
Artwork by: Reapers Shadow

Lyrics:
[Chorus]
Said I'd be better alone
But I couldn't replace
(But I couldn't replace you)
Anything you left
Cause you filled the hole
In my chest
I let my heart lay to rest

[Bridge]
& I prayed for the best
Your smile was so pretty

[Verse]
You were once the angel in my life
But I was always a demon in yours
I'm sorry I let my blood pour
Just turned 22 recently & I closed every door
Will I ever be truly okay?
This years been a lot to handle

[Bridge
I hide everything in my brain
So others don't feel my pain
I don't know what the fuck to say
But This passion is my novocaine

[Chorus]
Said I'd be better alone
But I couldn't replace
(But I couldn't replace you)
Anything you left
Cause you filled the hole
In my chest
I let my heart lay to rest

Laid To Rest (Prod. nevrfall)

Written by: Reapers Shadow
Produced by: Mamoru &1kurane 
Mixed by: Reapers Shadow, angelsofsorrows, & JoshIGuess 
Mastered by: @joshiguess 
Artwork by: Azusa Banjo
Artwork from: I Think I Turned My Childhood Friend into a Girl (Manga)
Artwork edited by: Reapers Shadow 

[Chorus]
Ceiling filled with my thoughts 
Skipping across like a rock
(Rock)
They say they wanna hang 
But I don't hear a knock
You're such a loser 
But still have the nerve to mock
You're just another number 
In the Infrastructure

[Post-Chorus]
Spending all my time 
Tryna make him mine
But my smile never shines
Because I'm too shy 
To tell him the truth

[Verse]
I'm making songs 
So I don't end it 
Starting a new wave 
But I know I'm gonna bend it
(Bend it)
If it's a new style 
I gotta blend it
Masking my feelings 
To hide the truth but

[Bridge]
I feel butterflies
When I see him
I wanna look 
Cute for him

[Chorus]
Ceiling filled with my thoughts 
Skipping across like a rock
Oh Oh Oh
(Rock)
They say they wanna hang 
But I don't hear a knock
You're such a loser 
But still have the nerve to mock
You're just another number 
In the Infrastructure

I Wanna Look, Cute For Him (Prod. Mamoru & 1kurane)

Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced @idealismus
Mixed by: Reapers Shadow & angelsofsorrows 
Mastered by: @angelsofsorrows
Artwork by: Reapers Shadow & angelsofsorrows
 
Lyrics:
[Chorus]
It's November & 
I don't wanna leave you alone
It's November now
& I've broken my promises
To you
But I'll make it up to you

[Bridge]
This years been a blur
It's like everything went for the worse 
2022 was for the better 
But It's almost December 
1 year later now
Now I hate summer for fucking ever

[Verse]
Yeah I know It's hard to 
Remember my face like that
Just wanna get some space
From everything
I ran the race
Don't got no case 
Just wanna something better 
But I know it's going off
Like I'm next on the fucking class trip 
Ya I'm tripping off something 
Everybody knows this shit not the best 
But I got some stress in my head 
Everyday I just wanna get 
Further along this path way
Cause it's a new day 
& I'll make it before the cave in

[Chorus]
It's November & 
I don't wanna leave you alone
It's November now
& I've broken my promises
To you
But I'll make it up to you
Because I love you

Broken Promises (Prod. Idealism)

Written by: Reapers Shadow
Produced by: Jang0
Mixed & Mastered by: @angelsofsorrows 
Artwork by: Reapers Shadow & angelsofsorrows 

Lyrics:
[Intro]
I just want somebody here for me 
But nobody is ever around 
This past summer was hell
& I don't know why I feel like this 

[Chorus]
Just let me exist please
Without wanting to die 
Winters coming 
& I feel a breeze

[Verse 1]
My persona has changed 
& so has the rate of my descent 
From this mountain top
This rage inside won't ever stop
At this rate I'm boutta drop
Like six stories
I don't know 
If I'll get up in time

[Bridge]
If only you would've found me 
I could've lived
Now I've hid all my feelings away
Cause I'm worthless anyway 
At least that's what I think 

[Verse 2]
The memories are still haunting 
But I can't be losing anymore time
Hope one day 
I'll find someone to love me
The song I wrote you in June 
Means a lot to me 
It's time to become the real me
& accept my femininity

[Chorus]
Just let me exist please
Without wanting to die 
Winters coming & I 
Breathe slowly

The Summer From Hell (Prod. Jang0)

Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced by: afterlife 
Mixed by: Reapers Shadow & angelsofsorrows 
Mastered by: @angelsofsorrows
Artwork by: Reapers Shadow & angelsofsorrows 
 
Lyrics:
[Chorus]
I left everything in my past
Reminiscing on the past 
But now it wants revenge 
& I might just let it get it
To be honest
I just want peace

[Verse]
Living Anti Social forever 
(Ever)
Levers lifting me to the top
Ghosts of hatred parting ways 
I miss the brutality of the words you say
(You say) 
Stuck in this life I made 
I live in the rain everyday
I only have one lane
Sign says wrong way
At this rate I'll be in an early grave

 [Chorus]
I left everything in my past
(Past)
But now it wants revenge 
Beat me till there's nothing left
I tried my best 
But it broke the heart in my chest
The regret eats me from the inside out

[Outro]
I'm broken 
& a waste of space & energy
I live the same way
& I can't change 
No matter What I try

Ghosts of The Past (Prod. Afterlife)

Written by: Reapers Shadow
Produced TakebacKK
Mixed by: Reapers Shadow & angelsofsorrows
Mastered by: @angelsofsorrows
Artwork by: Reapers Shadow & angelsofsorrows

Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
The memories of you
Stick in my head
You were my glue
Yet I never saw through your cracks
I would just look past them
But I was never one for interacting
In the same fashion
I'll end up crashing without you around
To guide me through the light
But I just wanna get myself right
Cruising through the night
I hate fights
I guess I have more bark then bite
Feels like a dart hit my heart
Now I'm the one with the cracks
But at least I don't have a knife dug in my back
(I miss you & that's a fucking fact)

[Chorus]
I hope I can see the sun
Feels like I'm always on the run
They want fun but I want to live in peace
You'll always be my missing piece

[Verse 2]
I still have so much I could say
But It's hidden away
Like always you'll find a way to reveal it
The tears run no way of healing it
I don't know why I'm feeling this
I miss your face & My thoughts misplaced
Remember wanting to drown in June
But I was saved before I drowned
Nothing new just trying to push through
Even though your my missing piece
& I miss you
(I miss you)
What else am I supposed to do
Who could've ever predicted? 
I would have to make that song
Life feels so wrong now that you're gone
(Now that's you're gone)

[Chorus]
I hope I can see the sun
Feels like I'm always on the run
They want fun but I want to live in peace
You'll always be my missing piece

[Outro]
I really wish we could've met
So much earlier in life
Cause we could've been together
For longer but I know It's too late
I know that's you're gone
Wish you were here still

Missing Piece (Prod. TakebacKK)

Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced by: Idealism 
Mixed by: Reapers Shadow 
Mastered by: @angelsofsorrows 
Artwork by: Reapers Shadow & angelsofsorrows

Lyrics:
[Intro]
Been so long since I saw you
I don't know how you are?
Or what's going on but
I wanna let you know I miss you
& I hope you're doing alright 

[Chorus]
Too much bullshit in my head 
Everyday I'm closer to the edge 
One more step then I'm off the ledge 
Just wanna lay in my bed 

[Verse]
I'm just a shadow that feels dead 
But still I know 
there's always a light 
In every Shadow
Wish I could get away 
To a meadow
Cause my thoughts are 
Suffocating me

[Bridge]
Everyday I live 
A worthless existence 
But I still go on 
To do my best 
(Got way too many plans)

[Verse 2]
Moving to another planet 
I know you haven't planned this
Why can't you move away 
To another day
I hate this place
Why can't it be somewhere else 
Other than in my head 

[Chorus]
Too much bullshit in my head
(I don't know man, It feels like) 
Every fucking day I'm closer to the edge
(I'm suffocating every fucking day 
& I don't know what the fuck to do) 
One more step then I'm off the ledge
(But for now, I'll just have to do what I can to deal with it)

One More Step (Prod. Idealism)

Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced by: Michael Harrison 
Mixed by: Reapers Shadow & angelsofsorrows 
Mastered by: @angelsofsorrows 
Artwork by: Azusa Banjo
Artwork Edited by: angelsofsorrows

[Chorus]
Looking at you with feminine eyes
Through my eyes
You'd easily rate a ten
But I know through yours
I barely make a rating of five

[Post-Chorus]
I'm just another person
Breathing the same air
But you and I would never pair

[Verse]
Still I won't say life isn't fair
(Fair)
Because I haven't even moved a hair
Everyday I wanna change the type of
Clothing I wear
My parents wouldn't like it So
I don't dare change a thing
Never gonna have a ring
On my finger
Because my confidence
Hasn't gone any higher
I wish I wasn't so shy

[Chorus]
Looking at you with feminine eyes
Through my eyes
You'd easily rate a ten
But I know through yours
I barely make a rating of five

I Wish I Wasn't So Shy (Prod. Michael Harrison)

Written by: Reapers Shadow
Produced by: ayoji
Mixed & Mastered by: @angelsofsorrows
Artwork by:  pixai art & Reapers Shadow 

Lyrics:
[Intro]
I read this manga everyday
Got me feeling a certain way
Changing my tones on the daily
All these feminine traits emerge silently
Shifting the colors like the lights in the room
The way I think is such a delicate feeling

[Chorus]
When you kiss my neck
I feel your passion
All my happiness in rations
All my thoughts are crashing
But you still
Carry me like a princess

[Verse]
I'd only ever
Wear a dress for you
You say "I hope I don't disappoint you"
Truth is I just want to love you

[Chorus]
When you kiss my neck
I feel your passion
All my happiness in rations
All my thoughts are crashing
But you still
Carry me like a princess

[Bridge]
I know it's unhealthy
But I just can't live without you

[Verse 2]
These feelings are just a wish
But my presence is anything 
But a gift
Hold me in your arms 
Cause I need you to close 
The rift in my heart

Hold Me Like A Princess (Prod. ayoji)

Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced by: Lickowens 
Mixed by: Reapers Shadow & angelsofsorrows
Mastered by: @angelsofsorrows
Artwork from: Sasaki & Miyano (Anime)

[Intro]
Sometimes I think about the future
& wonder if you'll be in it
What kind of of love would I nurture
(Nurture) 
Hopefully by then I mature 
So I can love you

[Chorus]
The passion in my eyes 
When I think about you in my life 
Sometimes I get so embarrassed
(Sometimes I... So embarrassed) 
With you calling me pretty

[Verse]
When I imagine you calling me pretty
I hope you don't mind me being girly
Because I feel my femininity 
When you're near me
When I think of my gender I see two sides
& to most I only show masculinity

[Chorus]
The passion in my eyes 
When I think about you in my life 
Sometimes I get so embarrassed
(Sometimes I... So embarrassed)
With you calling me pretty

When I Think About You (Prod. Lickowens)

Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced by: sk8miles
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork Edited by: Hopewithindarkness  
Artwork from: I Think I Turned My Childhood Friend into a Girl (Manga)

Lyrics:
[Intro]
What happened to us
We used to be so close
But now you hate my guts
I still love you no matter what
I want to be in bed with you
Just hold me in your arms
My love

[Chorus]
Autumn wind blows through the air
Rain falls a top the trees
Wish this life would stop playing me
Oh Oh
Nostalgia been killing me inside

[Verse]
All I want is to go back to
Carving pumpkins with my family
Hanging out with my cousins laughing happily
Now everythings so in between
Sometimes I wonder if they all hate me
I really do

Regardless I want to see you all
Years go by & all I do is reminisce
I hate thinking It will never be that way again

[Chorus 2]
Autumn wind
Blows through the air
Rain falls
A top the trees
Remember going to
The cider mill
I miss it all
& It kills me to know that
It's gone forever now

[Outro]
These Autumn Memories are
So special
You're gone but just know I
But I will never forget you

Autumn Memories (Prod. sk8miles)

Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced by: Prod. 4lexf & Daniel Saint
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork Edited by: Hopewithindarkness  
Artwork from: I Think I Turned My Childhood Friend into a Girl (Manga)

[Verse 1]
I just wish I was pretty
Never going to the city 
I don't think my family
Would really accept me 
So I hide myself away
With broken dreams and promises

[Chorus]
My sense of self 
Is a mess
& I'm screaming out for help

[Verse 2]
Body hair is a torment to me
Sorry for never showing you 
My identity 
To be honest judgement is so scary
Using these songs as a diary

[Chorus]
My sense of self 
Is a mess
& I'm screaming out for help

My Sense of Self Is A Mess (Prod. 4lexf & Daniel Saint)

Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced by: sk8miles
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & Reapers Shadow
Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork Edited by: Hopewithindarkness  
Artwork from: I Think I Turned My Childhood Friend into a Girl (Manga)

Lyrics: 
[Chorus]
Sometimes all I got is myself 
Writing lines about 
My mental health 
Who Will I be with 
A guy or girl 

[Verse]
Regardless they'll know how I felt 
Cause of the lines I belt
I'm not perfect I got some welts 
I gotta take care of myself 
To be able to share the future I build
Falling back to old memories
Your beauty is unmatched 
People expect too much from me 
Then get disappointed
When it doesn't work out
I apologize 
But I know that's the reason that 
They've gone on their way

[Bridge]
It feels like a wave
Is taking me away 
& I wish I could've changed

[Chorus]
Sometimes all I got is myself 
Writing lines about 
My mental health 
Will I be with 
A guy or girl

All I Got Is Myself (Prod. sk8miles)

Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced by: decago, hartfxlt, & akura
Mixed by: Reapers Shadow & JoshIGuess
Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork Edited by: Hopewithindarkness  
Artwork from: I Think I Turned My Childhood Friend into a Girl (Manga)
Sample from: Oregairu (Anime)

[Chorus]
You've make me shine 
You're the light of my life 
You four are my guiding light
Staring at the night sky
Reflecting on when we first met
Your words are like a warm embrace

[Post-Chorus]
I'll live a life of bliss 
Because your presence is near 
(I don't know how to say yeah)

[Verse]
You four make me shine
I got blush lines on my cheeks
Crying tears of joy
Cause you're by my side
When you compliment my songs
Long term sadness turned to happiness
It leaves me so speechless 
I get embarrassed 

[Interlude: Sample Hachiman's Youth is Evil Speech]
If failure is truly the designated mark of ones youth
Then would it not be considered abnormal 
For one not in his youth to fail at befriending anyone
But I'm sure none of them would admit to that picture 
They only define youth to their own benefit 

[Chorus]
You've make me shine 
You're the light of my life 
You four are my guiding light
Staring at the night sky
Reflecting on when we first met
Your words are like a warm embrace

[Outro: Sample Hachiman's Youth is Evil Speech]
In conclusion I leave you with this
All you fools that delight in youth
Drop dead...

When We First Met (Prod. decago, hartfxlt, & akura)

Written by: Reapers Shadow
Produced by: 05alagen
Mixed by: Reapers Shadow & AkiraDoves 
Mastered by: AkiraDoves
Artwork edited by: Reapers Shadow

[Intro]
Just why did you have to leave
You're me & I'm you
So don't fucking 
Leave me behind 

[Verse]
Back in 2018 and 2019 
They'd fight every night 
Locking myself away 
In my safety chamber
Drowning ears with 
9tails, guardin, hk, nothing nowhere, and NF
Music was my life line
 
[Chorus]
Still have insecurities 
I'll never give up hope just to die 
That's your funeral 
But I won't take the cyanide
I'll live past unlike you

[Bridge]
Somehow I found love within friends 
I can call mine
Made a song for them 
Called Make Me Shine

[Chorus]
I still have insecurities that I hide
Still I'll never give up hope just to die 
In the end 
That's your funeral 
But I won't take the cyanide
Trying to find the truth 
Within these Polaroids

Insecurities (Prod. 05alagen)

I'm a musician that makes All kinds of music about both my life and issues I wanna talk about
If you wanna hear my new music I changed accounts here's the link https://soundcloud.com/reapers-shadow

Reapers Shadow

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