@blake-tolley-632709954: your supports mean a lot bro

This is my second official album called "Why Do I Even Try" I have been making this album since late march of 2022 

This was an ambitious project making it a mostly collab album with artists like Yokai Dreams, epitomeoffailure, & emptychest being bigger artists and The other artists are small or close friends of mine I'm glad we all could work together to make this album possible you all are amazing musicians and friends 

As for what this album is about it is about my insecurities, struggles, emotions, and life this year has been full of many ups and downs and music is the way I cope with it all although I think sometimes I should try to figure myself out more and try improving my life I've started the path to success whether it's through music or a job I want to succeed and be happy with my life I don't care about being famous all I want is good friends and family and to do what I love 

And one final thing Shoutout to all the producers as well they all are amazing at what they do

Why Do I Even Try

Sitch (prod. wip)

mixed/mastered by me
prod by @st1x51

Lyrics:
it's a bad sign of a bad time
it's that one kind thats in your mind
stars won't align like a retrograde
gives me this feeling that i cant ever escape

when you hit me up it's like a bookmark
 leave you alone then i go back to restart
now you in the back of the seating chart
need to pay a toll whenever you're the one to park
you show no remorse

you're envisioning my corpse
if i'm not interested i'll cite another source
feel like i'm playing sports
always a competition
 not easy living
 this life being a musician
 cast a spell i'm a magician
i just wait on this transition

(like just worry about your own life what is mine to you?)

it's a bad sign of a bad time
it's that one kind thats in your mind
stars won't align like a retrograde
gives me this feeling that i cant ever escape

i can't hang around these people
when they acting way too evil
i'm just stuck at home 
while my friends are hanging at the regal
gonna see the view of the ocean like a seagull
i'm consuming water you're consuming what's illegal

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bad sign, bad time (st1x51)

Visual: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ryKXD6O2Q3Q
Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: afterlife & 2001
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork from: Devilman Crybaby (Anime)

Lyrics:
[Chorus]
Life brings hell
I'm feeling it though
Fell right through
I Know the truth
Looking in your eyes
Everything will be alright
As long as we stay alive
Hell with them x4
x2

[Verse]
I'll go berserk in the sewer
Nobody wants to die here
This situation is dire
I'm a liar
Look up and see burning trees
With orange leaves and a red sky
Scared I might die
See weird creatures start to fly
I Start to hear distant screams and cries 
Distant screams and cries
Screams and cries 
Screams and cries 
(Scream)
Trying to find what works
But I will always fall in a ditch of course
Don't wanna be like this
Don't wanna feel like this
But it is just hell
So I'm feeling it

[Bridge]
Falling down into hell
Falling down to hell
Falling down in a well
Falling down in a well
Feels like a cell
Falling down into hell
Feels like a cell

[Chorus]
Life brings hell
I'm feeling it though
Fell right through
I Know the truth
Looking in your eyes
Everything will be alright
As long as we stay alive
Hell with them x4
x2

Hell (Prod. afterlife & 2001)

Updated the Ig go follow imma post my snippets there love yall fam

Min3 and h3rs? - Instrumental

spiraling (prod. wissery x jolst)

PROD. Pyxie 
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FLY AWAY (feat. Jay Muney)

The BlackHawks

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Sprinter Van (prod.cullen)

Visual: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=weTeOB7fn-g
Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: dercept
Mixed by: JoshIGuess
Mastered by: AkiraDoves
Artwork from: Kaguya Sama: Love Is War
Lyrics:
[Chorus]
Doing this shit
Ain't no bitch
Fuck this shit
I'm fucking dead
Inside
I just can't seem to find
Just give me some time
Before I lose it
on a high speed chase
Ain't no time waste
(FUCK YOU!)
I need to be okay

[Verse]
Ain't no time to waste
Ain't no time to say (anything)
Now I lost you
Now I see you
Now I need you
Now I want it back
And that's a fact
All the help I lack
All the time flies fast
With nobody to catch it
Nobody to catch it
Nobody to to catch it, Catch it

[Chorus]
Doing this shit
Ain't no bitch
Fuck this shit
I'm fucking dead
Inside
I just can't seem to find
Just give me some time
Before I lose it
on a high speed chase
Ain't no time waste
(FUCK YOU!)
I need to be okay

Time Wasted (Prod. dercept)

no safety

Featuring: @failure404
Written by: Kurama SD & epitomeoffailure 
Produced by: @sorrow_bringer
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & epitomeoffailure
Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork from: Horimiya (Anime)

[Chorus: Kurama SD]
I don't need you
I don't want you
I don't care
It's not fair

[Post-Chorus: Kurama SD]
Give me a time
Give me a sign
Give me a rhyme
Give me some time
Give me a rhyme
Give me a sign

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
Fuck I'm so pissed at you
I don't know what to do
I can't make no fucking stacks
Cause I'm broke as a bitch
I can't get what I want anymore ya ya ya

[Interlude: Kurama SD]
Someday's I just don't know where I belong in this fucking world
Because everybody fucking makes me feel like shit
I get angry, I get pissed
I don't know where I'm supposed to be
What I'm supposed to do
I guess that's all

[Chorus 2: epitomeoffailure]
walking through the forest
i’m not sure where i live
see the trees before us
reflecting from your iris
it’s so clear to me
that you don’t know where we’re going
cause you lie (you lie)

[Post-Chorus: epitomeoffailure]
and that’s fine
cause when i look into your eyes
i know (i know)
that you’ve been wasting my time

[Verse 2: epitomeoffailure]
nothing stays the same
and i already knew that
I've always been blamed
for problems on top of your back
but this is where it ends
you are not my friend
you are not my friend

It's Not Fair w/ epitomeoffailure (Prod. sorrow bringer)

Featuring: @nokerbforever
Written by: Kurama SD & NOKERB
Produced by: jolst & dercept 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & NOKERB
Mastered by: NOKERB
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Intro: Kurama SD]
Some days I feel like a ghost
Feel like a ghost 
Going crazy in the back of the class 
I never thought anything 
You said was true 
So what the fuck dude 
True 

[Chorus: NOKERB]
Cuz i know that she doesn't move on,
Doesn't move on yeah she doesn't do that, 
And she wants to drag me down with her 
Yeah she doesn't go, 
She always looks into one direction 
Is it just her ghost who talks to me?
x2 

[Verse: Kurama SD]
I fucked up 
I know I did
At least I didn't hide it 
I'm still a letdown 
I'm still a letdown 

Thought I was cool
But I always lose 
Nobody cares 
Who I am 
(WHO I AM) 

[Chorus: NOKERB]
Cuz i know that she doesn't move on,
Doesn't move on yeah she doesn't do that, 
And she wants to drag me down with her 
Yeah she doesn't go, 
She always looks into one direction 
Is it just her ghost who talks to me?
x2 

[Outro: Kurama SD]
Think I know everything 
But I know nothing 
So I fade away

GHOST w/ NOKERB (Prod. jolst & dercept)

Featuring: @yokaidreams 
Written by: Kurama SD & Yokai Dreams
Produced by: grayskies 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & Yokai Dreams 
Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Intro: Kurama SD]
(Back off)
Life brings hell 
In the worst ways
Life is pain
(Life is pain)

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
I walk through the burning path
Feels like broken glass
Every step is full of wrath 
The scars are still on my skin
From when you sunk your teeth in
Still I moved on though I'm bleeding 
at least I'm fucking breathing 
Everything is burning to pieces 

[Pre-Chorus: ]
Burning trees 
And Oranges leaves
Maybe I just need to 

[Chorus: Yokai Dreams]
back off
i need to back off
from fighting battles i can't win
stand off
i need to stand tall
i'm fighting battles deep within
(deep within)

[Bridge: Kurama SD]
Fighting battles 
Its a handful
I'll mange somehow 
(Somehow)

[Verse 2: Kurama SD]
Seeing red everywhere 
Nothing left here but pain to share
U stare in my eyes 
I can't help but glare 
Flames burn on
I can hardly bare 
All this pain

[Pre-Chorus: Kurama SD]
Burning trees 
And Oranges leaves
Maybe I just need to 

[Chorus: Yokai Dreams]
back off
i need to back off
from fighting battles i can't win
stand off
i need to stand tall
i'm fighting battles deep within
(Deep within)

[Verse 3: Yokai Dreams] 
act right
if i could act right
i wouldn't be in this situation
for now i need to back off
i need to back off
i think the battle's about to begin
about to begin

[Outro: Kurama SD]
I'll be right 
There

Battles I Can't Win w/ Yokai Dreams (Prod. grayskies)

Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: afterlife & irby
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Chorus]
August gracing
I don't know why u are hating
I'm so often breaking
Your love is fading
This shit got me pacing
Got me pacing

[Verse]
Fucked up on the interstate
I can't escape
From this place
Always on the high way
Pulled up on the drive way
To see my family

[Pre-Chorus]
Family
Last August
(Août dernier)
X2

[Chorus]
August gracing
I don't know why u are hating
I'm so often breaking
Your love is fading
This shit got me pacing
Got me pacing

[Bridge]
Dealing with a lot of shit rn
I can't wear no crown
I can't be what you need
I can't find anything
To help me, to save me
From this shit

[Chorus]
August gracing
I don't know why u are hating
I'm so often breaking
Your love is fading
This shit got me pacing
Got me pacing

August (Prod. afterlife & irby)

Oh Shit

Push that lil' shit to the side, baby, what's the issue?
You got some problems, I wanna come fix you 
Whole lot of gwallah, money aint no issue
Cause you know you wili'n, why you wili'n lil baby
But I ain't gon' stop you , gues it is what it is yuh


Cause you in the party, you lit off the roxies
Straight to the top, ain't nobody gon' stop me
 Know you been lonely, baby wont you call me?
You wanna fuck, baby, I'm that man
Cool with your bros, baby, I'm your friend 
I'm in the stu, getting these waves in I'm in the stu, gettting these waves in
You don't wanna talk ain't no pressure luh baby
Let's go on a walk wont you tell me the info?
You said you got problems, with some of your kinfolk
I know you got trauma But that's what I'm here for


Wanna be more than a friend
 Baby girl let's just lock in
You know you be bad, you a ten 
Stay for the night, fuck your friends 
I love your life, lemme in,  I love your life, lemme in
Girl I love your life I love your life, I love your life


Push that lil' shit to the side, baby, what's the issue?
You got some problems, I wanna come fix you 
Whole lot of gwallah, money aint no issue
Cause you know you wili'n, why you wili'n lil baby
But I ain't gon' stop you , gues it is what it is yuh

Cause you in the party, you lit off the roxies
Straight to the top, ain't nobody gon' stop me
 Know you been lonely, baby wont you call me?
You wanna fuck, baby, I'm that man
Cool with your bros, baby, I'm your friend 
I'm in the stu, getting these waves in I'm in the stu, gettting these waves in

love yo life

I'm a musician that makes All kinds of music about both my life and issues I wanna talk about
If you wanna hear my new music I changed accounts here's the link https://soundcloud.com/reapers-shadow

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