always in the background w/ thrml

w/ @angelsflight + @heyvilse
prod: @prodjayysoul + @fum1ko

@anti-light
wasting all my time in my racing mind, lonely
always smoke until i cry and stay awake all night, scrolling
at the moment i feel better when i’m letting life flow
‘cause if i try and break the cycle it gets stronger ninefold
i’ve been on my knees so many times, still a believer
i’ve been on my knees too many times, still a believer
head stuck in my feelings all the time, i’m the biggest griever
lately i’ve felt closer to my maker, i know i’m ready to meet her

@angelsflight
you don’t know what you wanna say
i can’t find the word if i tried
lately sky been looking real gray
i can’t see through all of those lies
yeah you fucked up, want a doctor
in the first place, it’s the worst way
when i found it, i was drowning
i don’t mind ‘cause i’m better without it

@anti-light
lose myself, can’t find back to hell
this path’s getting rough
watch my health getting worse
still working, can’t get enough

wasting all my time in my racing mind, lonely
always smoke until i cry and stay awake all night, scrolling
at the moment i feel better when i’m letting life flow
‘cause if i try and break the cycle it gets stronger ninefold
i’ve been on my knees so many times, still a believer
i’ve been on my knees too many times, still a believer
head stuck in my feelings all the time, i’m the biggest griever
lately i’ve felt closer to my maker, i know i’m ready to meet her

@heyvilse
yeah i got my own problems, i don't wanna talk
need to find a way out fast, i’m too sick of all these thoughts
yeah, losing my head and i want it to stop
i’m so sick of how i feel and i swear i’ve had enough
i don't have time for what i want
and you told another lie just so i could feel wrong
and i did another line so i could feel like i belong
need to cope with how i feel so i put it in a song
find it way too hard to deal with my emotions
lately i’ve been feeling like i’m drowning in the ocean
i know that it's bad but i feel better when i’m smoking
i can't talk to you 'bout how i feel cause i’ll be choking
are you stupid?
i don't like a single thing that you did
if i had a choice you'd be the last one that i’m choosing
you got in the way and put a stop to my improvement

Spotify

Ninefold w/ angelsflight + vilse (jayysoul x fumiko)

losing it! w/ full ctrl (endevour)

time bomb (wayza)

first song i made while being 15 :D

pre chorus: ive been feeling different 
yet all this shit still feel the same 
a-a a-a a-a 

chorus:  idk what to do will i ever change?
i aint feeling different im stuck up in my ways 
she dont really love me im feeling all the pain 
i dont really know if itll it ever go away

will it ever go away
will it ever go away
will it ever go away
will it ever go away
will it ever go away
will it ever go away
will it ever go away
will it ever go away

i dont really know if itll it ever go away
will it ever go away 
will it ever go away
will it ever go away
will it ever go away
will it ever go away
will it ever go away
will it ever go away
will it ever go away

bridge thing: 
it wont ever go away 
look to god i pray 
 ever go away 
will it ever go away 
will it ever go away 
will it ever go away 
will it ever go 

 pre pre chorus: ive been feeling different 
yet all this shit still feel the same 

ive been feeling different 
yet all this shit still feel the same 

pre chorus: 
ive been feeling different ive been feeling differentttt 
ive been feeling different ive been feeling differentttt 

break:ve been feeling different 
yet all this shit still feel the same ve been feeling different 
yet all this shit still feel the same ve been feeling different 
yet all this shit still feel the same ve been feeling different 
yet all this shit still feel the same ve been feeling different 
yet all this shit still feel the same 

will i ever change?

shoutout @shittergxng 
inspired by @kmoethekid and @janeremover
Also inspired by valetical


this has been a long time in the coming this is my first song ive made since January i know it isnt digicore but im too burnt out of that thank you 4/28

Will I Ever Change?

"Isn't life exciting! Everything can change all of a sudden, and for no reason at all!"
☆☆☆☆☆
[00:00]  ☆  +tera & venthan
[01:14]  ☆  +alkyl
[01:47]  ☆  +yuri
[02:58]  ☆  +defectt
[04:24]  ☆  +yuri
[05:38]  ☆  +yuri
[07:03]  ☆  (https://soundcloud.com/natanaelcano/pacas-verdes)
[07:54]  ☆  +yuri
[09:14]  ☆  +pk & rochambeau
[10:45]  ☆  +yuri
[11:55]  ☆  (https://soundcloud.com/graveem1nd/saturn-my-life-prod-rhine)
[13:15]  ☆  +troiner
[14:03]  ☆  +jaxn

spring clips 2023

I miss @elr_oy (I'm heavily inspired by him and I made this then bro dropped a new BANGER)

Lyrics -
Same light, same road
Different colored chemicals
Cars pass by they won't see me in my halo
Sweet white fruit, poison drip from the same grove
Thorns in my hands, really think I need to let go
x2
I don't wanna waste my time
I don't wanna walk alone anymore
I love and I hate this life, oh
Don't sleep, 3 days, fall on the floor
Tired, Tired
I just can't sleep anymore, I'm
Tired, Tired
Always thinking bout the-

Need to let go
I can't stop holding on to it
Hurts more than it should, and I fall for it
Backstab, still suffering a lot for this
(for this) (for this)

Bad Dream (BNP)

Made this Banger with https://soundcloud.com/v2nthan
Mix/ Prod. https://soundcloud.com/okmurrrr


(Soph)
And I try for so long (so long)
You're the only one I want 
I hate that your the one
And I cant forget it
Even though you hate it
And you call me a sadist saying i was faking
All you said was that you hate this
I just want you gone

(Venthan)

and you wanna fuck it up for me again
no i won't deal with this anymore
ain't forever why you gotta fuckin lie now 
tears on my face everytime i lie down
scars on my face
too much on my plate
shit is going sideways yea i hope i'll be ok
yea i don't think it's working
took me years to figure out that this shit is not worth it 
crying in my room
like i lose my brain everytime i look at you
askin why you gotta be so useless
do this by myself no i ain't fuckin stupid
left me in the dust yea you left me fuckin cluelesss

(Soph)
I can not take this anymore
I cant even get myself off the fucking floor 
(and you held my head up)
blood doesnt pour
(even though im hurting)
I hate you I guess even more
I hate I hate you more
I just want you to bleed on the floor	
cuz you held me back
make me feel like half the man I am
I can not take this anymore
I cant even get myself off the fucking floor 
(and you held my head up)
blood doesnt pour
(even though im hurting)
I hate you I guess even more

GONE w/venthan (prod.MURRRR)

new micccc
prod. drma beats
Also mastered by me ❤️‍🔥

LYRICS

am i with u 
or is it a fucking shadow
tryna fill my heart
but that shit is fucking hollow
gotta stay woke
so i got sumthing to follow
hurt me so bad
im crying on my pillow
oh no yea i started again
is this fr the end
ion wanna pretend
no no
and u lying again 
said i was ur bf
but tha shit dont make sense

don't wanna pretend (drma + yunnygoldz)

Prod. @vrtxclt
Spotify - https://open.spotify.com/track/23vAf74yFG0Vee8PDGztWl?si=5be3ac604c0e4e82

Lyrics -
I don't know what changed
It ain't the same now
It's every everything I had
had to fall down
I'm not gonna call now
I'm not gonna call back
I'm not gonna fall out
Said I'm not gonna call now
Tell me, what's the problem?
You can't seem to get it out
You told me not to follow
Wasting all my time again
Thinking I can figure this all out
But honestly I don't think i care anymore
Keep on walking out that door
I'm not one to settle scores
I don't care about that fake shit that I can just ignore
Every text is just a chore
keep tryna throw me overboard
I don't need you in the first place, you tryna go to war

Cause I don't know what changed
It ain't the same now
It's like every everything I have
always has to fucking fall down
I'm not gonna call now
I'm not gonna call back
I'm not gonna fall out
break me
A couple motherfuckers talk like they can save me
I'm too fucking broken to trust, people wanna hate me
You can fucking rot in this prison, you can't escape me
This is your fault you're the reason that I hate me

Fault (Vertex Cult)

STREAM ON SPOTIFYYYYYYY https://open.spotify.com/track/4Jm5dCdf1Vi1R7UQWef0D7?si=5a7ba87a70394edb
prod yoku

lyrics :3:
[D3MO !]
D D D-
Do you hate me?
(do u?)
C Cause i don't really like you
I think that its crazy
You know i despise you
Everything lately
I knew u were the type to
(type to)
du duh
And its crawling in my skin
(in my skiiiinn)
Everything lately
oh it hurts me from within
Why you think you saved me?
No you didn't do
Nothin' at all
And i do not know where i'm going
Fuck you, fuck you(ooo oo)
And hate me, hate you too(oo oo)
you know about everything you put me through
everything
so much pain
Its okay though
got that halo
later mayb
we can play 
haloo

d d d d
dont forget itt
what u said..
in the end i 
knowww
uuu
meanttt
itttt
its okayyy
yaaa
and i hope that i 
see u agaaaainnnnn

[Return to CHORUSSSS 😱😱]
D D D-
Do you hate me?
(do u?)
C Cause i don't really like you
I think that its crazy
You know i despise you
Everything lately
I knew u were the type to
(type to)
du duh
And its crawling in my skin
(in my skiiiinn)
Everything lately
oh it hurts me from within
Why you think you saved me?
No you didn't do
Nothin' at all
And i do not know where i'm going
Fuck you, fuck you(ooo oo)
And hate me, hate you too(oo oo)
you know about everything you put me through
everything
so much pain
Its okay though
got that halo
later mayb
we can play 
haloo

Crazy! (prod. yoku)

16
"tourniquet" Album coming soon
she/her

@el3gance-collective

time bomb (wayza)

KXLDER

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