such a lovely track here, props to the arist! very talented.

Kyan
"Trouble"
7/9/2021

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Production: Ruan & Malloy

[LYRICS]
Still hear your voice when I'm in my bedroom
Make no noise when I finally text you
Got no choice knowing I'll be dead soon
I take another and then another to calm me down
With the uppers and then recover I look around
Got no others except my brothers don't make a sound
Under covers I stay silent don't want no trouble

Now I'm running around in circles I don't deserve you
No you don't deserve me cause I never hurt you
But now you're hurtful and then I ask if you don't love me
Here's what she said
She said she's letting in her ex
Now I'm gone with all the rest
I put my tears up on my neck
So I can run up on her and flex
I just wanna feel her love
Then she started giving me less
I tried to push it all beside me
Then you hit me up with that text
All dark and loneliest nights
Are getting colder as they go
No more stupid meaningless fights
And no more hit me up when you're home
Knew you never wanted this life
And you just wanna be a hoe
Make me wanna end my life
I take these drugs I'm moving too slow

@kyan_official

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Trouble [Prod. Ruan & Malloy]

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LYRICS-

[VERSE 1]
Getting messed up of my script 
Otherwise I dunno how I’d breathe
Pop a half
And the shit don’t work
So I take a whole
Now I’m falling fast asleep
Hard for me to sleep at night
Takin pills so I can feel alright
My chest always getting tight
And it makes songs like these hard to write

[PRE-HOOK]
No way out
From my dread
I might rip off my own head
Help me now
Might be dead
Noose hangs by a single thread

[HOOK]
Can’t go on like this, no
Might end up six feet below
Poppin’ klons my brain slow
Why I’m like this, I dunno

[VERSE 2]
I’m stuck in perpetual anxiety
No way out so
I fight my sobriety

Is there a way to find some bliss
I need help
My brain needs fixed
I feel stuck
I reminisce
Haven’t felt the same way since

So addicted to the scripts I take
Heavy shakes 
Body aches
And my feelings opaque
Have a feeling that I might break
I could make
a mistake
And would never awake

Anxiety and liver crave the liquor 
Makes me wanna drink so I die quicker
Always hear my demons bicker
Every single noise is my new trigger

[PRE-HOOK]
No way out
From my dread
I might rip off my own head
Help me now
Might be dead
Noose hangs by a single thread

[HOOK]
Can’t go on like this, no
Might end up six feet below
Poppin’ klons my brain slow
Why I’m like this, I dunno

[OUTRO]
I’m stuck in perpetual anxiety
No way out so
I fight my sobriety

ANXiETY (PROD. YUNGSPOILER)

SiCK OF THiS (PROD. NOTHEND)

Untouchable

@heyimmanic
@SupraVir
@ghostsocial

(heyimmanic)
Keep me out of your head ‘cause your out of mine
You see that I have bled you thought now was your time
Let go from your grasp on me
Choking me out till I become yours
I swear this is the last time
No reason to doubt I’m leaving you behind

(GREAVES)
Know you trapped me
I can’t break free
You’re the devil but you’re calling me crazy
I got stab wounds
Come and save me
Imma try my best to die before you erase me
Know you trapped me
I can’t break free
You’re the devil but you’re calling me crazy
I got stab wounds
Come and save me
Imma try my best to die before you erase me

(heyimmanic)
I don’t wanna see your face again
Why were you trying to win this race again?
Took to many drugs to the face again
I told you they’re my only friend
Now I’m getting drunk there ain’t nobody to stop me
I’m pouring it up ‘til this shit runs empty
I don’t even care about the relapse
I’m walkin right on the edge
Might take a couple pills perhaps
Oh you think you had me there
No, I’m still sober
Wrote these lyrics last time we were over
Really should’ve let my heart be colder
Now I might finally have my closure

(GREAVES)
Know you trapped me
I can’t break free
You’re the devil but you’re calling me crazy
I got stab wounds
Come and save me
Imma try my best to die before you erase me
Know you trapped me
I can’t break free
You’re the devil but you’re calling me crazy
I got stab wounds
Come and save me
Imma try my best to die before you erase me

(Supra Vir)
Retching screaming fighting
My tanks empty
I gotta stop all of this crying
Go ahead and try to tempt me
I gave you it all except get down on one knee
Always speaking in tongues
Now we’re constantly bashing skulls
Kill me already break my lungs
It’s over already, I have no one

(ghostsocial)
How you stab me in the back, then tell me I'm fine?
Swear to god you been on my mind
Feel like I'm wasting time, every time I tell you lies?
So I backtrack
Another day another time that I can't get back again
Then I lose track, one track mind I've been finding time to mend

(Supra Vir)
Run!

(GREAVES & heyimmanic)
Know you trapped me
I can’t break free (I can’t break free)
You’re the devil but you’re calling me crazy
I got stab wounds (Stab wounds)
Come and save me
Imma try my best to die before you erase me (You erase me)
Know you trapped me
I can’t break free (I can’t break free)
You’re the devil but you’re calling me crazy (You’re calling me crazy)
I got stab wounds (Stab wounds)
Come and save me (Save me)
Imma try my best to die before you erase me (Die before you erase me)

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stab wounds! w/ heyimmanic, ghostsocial, & Supra Vir (SHADE08)

@supravir

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

[zoltar]

i don't even get angry anymore
i just close my blinds and lock the door
cause i know that they won't understand
i'm alone and stuck with shaking hands
i'm a mess, i'm bleeding on the floor
i try my best, but i need something more
should i take my life for fuck's sake
'cause it's on my mind everyday

i feel too much, bash my head against the wall
nothing's right, i'm still waiting for your call
wreck my head, it's always messy by default
promise me you didn't fill my wounds with salt
i'm always tired so my bones collapse
i traded in my spine for a heart attack
i fucking feel so blind
everything fades to black
and both my legs go numb
now i cannot run back

i feel so out of touch
i'm getting way too fuckin' cynical
i hope i'm enough
'cause if i'm not, i won't be in pursuit
i know my worth at least a little bit, you doubt that
i'm feeling anxious so if you need me, i'll be out back
but i know you won't come lookin
'cause you couldn't be bothered
even though you act like i'm your everything, it's awkward
tsunamis in my stomach won't reside without an offer
so i chief my pen, i hope you don't mind i'm a cougher

if you got shit to say then say it to my face
watch your mouth before i put you in your place
you better lower your tone when you're speakin' to me
i feel just like a god when i'm watching you bleed
couldn't give less of a fuck about the money 'cause that's lame
i just want catharsis, something that will kill the pain
i do this cause i love it, not a dollar to my name
the drive within my heart will never do this shit in vain

i'm not gonna lie, i haven't got good sleep in ages
when i shut my eyes, my thoughts are flipping through the pages
my head can't stop running, feet are far behind the pavement
sick of all the static so please let me make a statement
i could not care less about your health or wealth, i'm done
fighting off the anger, but i'm positive it won
you wore me down just like the nail that lingers on my thumb
if i spoke from my chest, you would just tell everyone

[Supra Vir]

i'm comin' lurkin' between all the shadows
now i'm the villain but i'll always win the battles
you were the snake, but i never heard the rattle
my mental boiling mad now i'm splittin' between the atoms

if only i knew what this could've been for
i never would've stayed if you're in this form
now you got me filling up
'bout to cause a tidal wave
you can throw our story out
your plans on the title page

i hope you're prayin' on my downfall
because i never wanna see you again
this was never at all my fault
your heart was always playin' pretend

how you gonna look me in the eyes and tell me everything's okay
especially after all was done my heart has started to decay
nothing will ever mend the bridge between you and i
here we go our separate ways
here's our final goodbye

tsunami (ft. Supra Vir)

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

the waiting game's begun 
so i can't talk a lot
she's got it figured out
while i'm left in the dark
there's no escaping me
i'm bound to my own fears
'cause this is who i am 
i've been like this for years

do you think that i'll change?
'cause i'm so scared i won't
i know it's up to me
but i can't be on my own
affliction takes ahold
and punctures through my face
i wanna hide my soul
but i can't erase mistakes

dysregulation in the dome 
disadvantaged and alone 
nobody ever checks on me
'cause they know i'm out of hope
why do i take up this space? 
i'm not worthy, i'm afraid
how can i make it more clear that
i'm never really okay?

right from the start, i was a mess 
there was no saving me 
i took it all straight to the heart 
now i've got jealousy
the greenest eyes you've ever seen
staring carefully
i'm sorry that i'm not that strong 
my heart forsakens thee

uncertainty has guaranteed my futility
i'm like a tree stuck in the dark 
suffering and steep 
and while i'm stuck behind a screen 
there's no agency
i've come to realize i'm not free 
there is no release

i came on too strong 
but how is that wrong?
i can't help it if i have a heart
that's full of love
fuck what they all say 
i'm borderline insane
i wouldn't get close to me
if i were you, i'd run away

i'm a liability
i burden those close to me 
don't you ever feel like you're the
only one who's lost at sea?
reading all your messages 
feel the sting inside my chest 
pace around my room until i
write off every word you said

even if i was found dead
i'd hope that you won't regret 
everything you never said
i don't want that in your head

at the end of the day 
i still care about you
regardless of our statuses
i know you'll find truth
the boundaries we put in place
will keep us en route 
we all change, but honestly 
we can't forget our roots

-----

anima

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

bleed out 
separated from all the tension
 seek doubt
disregarded their good intentions
sleep now 
you inflated all my distortions
breathe out
i won't let you say something morbid

we could argue all we want, but we both know we're splitting hairs
seems like nowadays we're stuck indulging and nobody cares
 addicted to convenience while these corporations take a share 
take on my perspective and then we'll see how you really fare

i've been misshapen 
beaten down and hated
 i don't deserve this
 light keeps on fading
 i've been wasting myself tryna pick up the mess
 all the feelings i harbored, they won't lay to rest
 so i thought of your face, now i can't go to bed
 i still have your t-shirt, it's the one that you said
 would look better on me, but despite your regret
 i think you looked lovely, now i can't decompress

i could never put you into words 'cause i feared
 that it wouldn't be good enough
 i think it's clear
 the dependency issues that i've displayed here
 and it's frightening i haven't loved no one in years

this shit is making me sick 
but i'm tapped the fuck in
 steady zoning out in front of my monitor like a kid
 now you can't take no offense
 but are you that fucking dense?
 my brain is growing pretty tired
 from all of your shitty friends

-----

newton's flaming laser sword

No Good

produced/mixed/mastered by zoltar

lyrics:

well i feel fake
don't know what i want
'cause everyday feels all the same
i'm right where you want me
complacent, but lonely
i'm ashamed

i'll go for days without talking at all
confined to my room while i stare at the wall
trying to muster the courage to talk
but i'm too afraid so i'm writing it all
you think i'm annoying
well i think you're right
i feel like i know you from another life
i cannot fathom what i feel inside
forget about me, i'm just another guy

but try waking up with a chest full of nothing
my body's been begging for something of substance
this chip on my shoulder is just getting older
and i swear to god that if i had the chance
i would take back the seconds i already wasted
all of the pain that i haven't faced yet
the taste of defeat, the taste of the pavement
gotta retreat, but no one will save him

replacing my own thoughts with love, but my hope's lost
i feel like i'm reaching for something that's long gone
i'm stuck on this chapter
she's reading with laughter
embarrassed, but i'll sanctify
my struggles in little time
breaking my back trying to fix you up
i'm so sorry that i wasn't enough
the cards you were dealt
broke the heart that you held
there's no one to blame
so i'll point at myself

well that's fine
i know i can't go through that
unwind the vines pulling you right back
sit tight, address the problems you have
aggression's making me see all black
i need a heart that can function and can be patient
too bad the strings that attach are always fraying
you think i like being anxious and always shaking?
i licked these wounds on my own
don't need your saving


-----

Trouble [Prod. Ruan & Malloy]

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