Drugphone was the first song I made during the beginning of my darkest time.
This was recorded before everything fell apart — before the guilt, before the numbness, before the anger.
It’s the moment I first felt my soul breaking.

This song came from early grief, confusion, and trying to drown emotions I didn’t understand yet.
Drugphone is the start of my story… the moment the storm began.

**LYRICS**

The Drugs they keep calling me 
My demons they keep haunting me 
My love it’s still poisoning 
Life ain’t fair that’s clear to see

Looking out the window 
Hoping one day that I die 
My eyes burn when I cry 
You can see my pain in my eyes 
My soul is a Furnace 
Smoke thicken my blood 
I been drinking Hennessy 
I been drowning emoceans 

Suicide constantly on my mind 
tired of pretend to be happy
I can’t mask my sadness
I can’t hide my from pain 
try to run from my demons but, 
I never get away 

*voice recording in the background* 
Khi* you can run from your demon you gotta run with them 

The drugs they keep calling me 
My demons they keep haunting me 
My love it’s still is poisoning 
Life ain’t fair that’s clear to see 

I wonder if I sell my soul to go to heaven 
Will I see my mother again 
The thoughts that come to me at night 
only god and devil know how much I wanna die 
Eyes swollen shut from crying all day and all night 
I can’t even sleep 
Paralysis got demons crawling through my body
My mind twisted from cognitive distortion

Suicide constantly on my mind 

tired of pretend to be happy 

I can’t mask my sadness 

I can’t hide from my pain 

try to run from my demons but, 
I never get away 

The drugs they keep calling me 
My demons they keep haunting me 
My love it’s still is poisoning 
Life ain’t fair that’s clear to see

DrugPhone

IM AN ANGEL BUT I CHILL WITH DEM DEMONS… TAKE YOUR SOUL AWAY… MAKE THAT SHIT MINES.. BABYGIRL LOOK INTO MY EYES… AM I AN ANGEL OR DEMON?
POP A XAN JUST TO GO TO SLEEP… MAMA TOLD ME ALWAYS SAY MY GRACE… SIPPIN LEAN WITH MY GANG BIH…DONT GET UP A STAIN BIH!
WHY THIS WORLD SO COLD… TOLD MY NIGGAS WE GON GLO… REP GOOK TILL THE DEATH.. TILL THE DAY OF MY DEATH…YOU KNOW IM GON FLEX!
ARE YOU AN ANGEL OR DEMON?! 
WE GOT ANGELS IN THE TRAP-HOUSE… WE GOT DEMONS IN THE TRAP-HOUSE! 
GOOK BOYZ 3EVA

Angel Or Demon? (2017)

What would you do for your heart? My family is my heart without them, I honestly don’t know where I’d be. Learning to appreciate more and be grateful for all that I have. Manifesting the proper life and happiness I truly desire for my family and I. It’s beyond words what I’d do if somebody fucked with me family! Never forget what you fight for … Remember to Remember! I LOVE YOU ALL… I APPRECIATE ALL THE DAY1 SUPPORTERS! ITS TIME TO TAKE OVER THE WORLD…WE WILL ACCOMPLISH THIS TOGETHER AS ONE. I free-styled this song as well, Enjoy! #333
Death03Demon 
Death Of My Demon

WHAT WOULD I(you) DO?

WATCH THE NARUTO VS PAIN FIGHT. NARUTO FUCKING STEPPED FOR THE WHOLE VILLAGE BUT NAGATO HAD A REASON FOR ALL HIS PAIN. BE NARUTO BUT BE NARUTO ENOUGH TO UNDERSTAND NAGATO’S PAIN. 
Ps … where the fuck was Sasuke?! 
Death03Demon 
Death of my demon!

ALMIGHTY-PUSH (pain)

HEART BREAK IS THE REALEST PAIN, OTHER THAN THE DEATH OF A LOVE ONE. YOUR HEART IS CONNECTED TO YOUR SOUL, BECOMES APART OF YOUR SPIRIT. BECOMES YOUR ONLY ENERGY! PROTECT YOUR LOVE. THESE STREETS COLD. KEEP YOUR HEART FILLED WITH GOOD ENERGY… DONT LET THE DEVIL’S RAGE INTO YOUR HEART. LOVE YOU ALL. 
Death03Demon 
Death of my demon 
#333
#NewMusic
#Leaked

FLYAWAY ft. Jojo Castro

This song features my brother TwoTone! Expressing emotions people scared to discover. MORE TO COME! Within time you all will understand, thank you for the support!

DRAIN YO ENERGY

CHAINSMOKIN LYRICS… LYRIC VIDEO DROPPING ON YT

[Chorus]

I been up all night 
chain smoking blunts and cigarettes 
(repeat so many times it’s stuck in everyone head by the end of the song) 


[Verse]

I been up all night chain smoking blunts and cigarettes 
don’t want you to see me down but you can tell when I’m stressed 
I try to control my outside but it’s hard when know my inside
Sometimes I feel like a ghost a spirit in some flesh 
shawty suck me like a leech I do it dirty I’m flea 
her pussy wet just like an ocean got lost me in her sea (I’m drowning)
she my lil mermaid but she a siren deep inside 
lead me to my death baby I’m so ready to die 
(for you)
in this infinite pool 
our souls forever intertwined 
I just pray that when I die 
I find you in my next life


[Chorus]

I been up all night 
chain smoking blunts and cigarettes 

[Closing Thoughts]

I remember when my mother passed away
it felt like my demon was finally freed from his cage my vision was oh so bloody alcohol level disgusting I couldn’t control my rage 
all my life I struggled with anger problems 
this time was different 
I didn’t physically have my momma 
deep inside I’m just a lil boy who lost his momma


Im thankful for all the support I’ve received over the past few years, music for me never been about money especially now it’s my therapy since my mother’s passing I don’t have any other way to express myself positively. I spent years knowing my potential but found myself always been stuck in the same loop. Not knowing how… having an artistic vision. I never stop creating I may not be the best communicator or even just an organized person in general. I’m finding my purpose in life and I think I’ve finally reached the point to where I can finally start to focus on my goals in dreams in life. I now want to do this for anyone who’s ever felt like me or the people who will feel like me one day. If you took the time to read this thank you so much, I appreciate your time. Thank you for getting my words and vision a place to be understood and heard. Guys I don’t have any social media right now but you can always email me at Death03Demon@gmail.com or even message me on here. I love you for all those this message reach, your not alone 3️⃣3️⃣3️⃣

CHAINSMOKIN (PROD. LOVE JIGOKU x PROREFX)

[LYRICS] 

You don’t tell no one 
You don’t tell no one 
All the pain that you feel 
You don’t tell no one 
Everything you going through 
You don’t tell no one 
Everything on your mind 
You don’t tell no one
The reasons why your stress
You don’t tell no one
All these drugs you been doing 
You don’t tell no one 
How you gonna tell them 
You don’t tell no one 
You been feeling all alone 
you can’t tell no one 
You can’t even feel your heart 
You can’t tell no one 
You don’t relate to anybody 
You can’t tell no one 
You don’t never feel the same 
You can’t tell no one 
All the pain that you feel 
You can’t tell no one 
Everything you going through 
You can’t tell no one 
Everything that’s on your mind 
You don’t tell no one 
All your suicidal thoughts 
You don’t tell no one 
You be feeling all alone 
You can’t tell no one 
You just really want love 
But you can’t tell no one 
All the things that you feel 
You can’t tell no one 
Everything on your mind 
You can’t tell no one 
Everytime that you cry 
You don’t tell no one 
And you know your minds toxic 
But you don’t tell no one 
All the guilt that you feel 
You don’t tell no one 
All the stress that you feel 
You don’t tell no one 
All the shame that you feel 
You don’t tell no one 
You wanna die but you can’t tell 
You can’t tell no one

IHATERATS

*LYRICS SOON*
BACK AGAIN FROM THE VAULT WITH A CLASSIC FREESTYLE TRACK WITH MY BROTHER TOKYO LEAN WE RECORDED THIS BACK IN LIKE 2018 BOTH FRESH OUT BACK IN THE WORLD WE NEVER ENDED UP UPLOADING ANY OF THOSE SONGS BUT SLOWLY THEY BEEN RELEASING OUT THE VAULT!!!!

RACKS

*LYRICS*

I hopped in your car of love 
I didn’t even put my seatbelt on 
Driving on the highway of love 
Be cautious you might just crash
Love is one Potent drugs 
you Potentially can overdose 
I ripped my heart out my chest
 I’ll gave it directly to you

I torn my soul away from my spirit 
just to connect with you 

I hopped in your car of love 
I didn’t even put my seatbelt on 
Driving on the highway of love 
Be cautious you might just crash
Love is one Potent drugs 
you Potentially can overdose 
I ripped my heart out my chest
 I’ll gave it directly to you

I hopped in your car of love 
I didn’t even put my seatbelt on 
Driving on the highway of love 
Be cautious you might just crash
Love is one Potent drugs 
you Potentially can overdose 
I ripped my heart out my chest
 I’ll gave it directly to you

CAR OF LOVE(highway to hell)

LYRICS COMING SOOON!!

ANOTHER CLASSIC FROM THE VAULT WITH MY MUDDAS JOJO AND JTG 
LETS CONTINUE THIS ROLLOUT!! 
THANK YOU FOR ALL THE SUPPORT AND LOVE

p*rnstar

*Ima Be Aight LYRICS*

You gon be alright x7
SHAKE IT OFF MY SHOULDERS 
IMA BE ALRIGHT YEAH 
I AINT WORRIED BOUT NONE OF THAT SHIT 
IMA BE ALRIGHT YEAH 
IMA BE ALRIGHT 4x 
ROLL UP A BLUNT 
IMA BE ALRIGHT YEAH 
ALL OF THIS STRESS 
IMA BE ALRIGHT YEAH 
EVEN THOUGH IM DEPRESSED 
IMA BE ALRIGHT YEAH x3 
WENT TO THE DOCTORS 
SHE SAID IMA BE ALRIGHT YEAH ASKED IF IM FINE 
SHE SAID YOU GON BE ALRIGHT YEAH 
IMA BE ALRIGHT YEAH x4 
TOOK A COUPLE DRUGS 
NOW IMA BE ALRIGHT YEAH 
HANDFUL OF SHROOMS YEAH 
BE ALRIGHT YEAH 
I JUST SMOKED A BLUNT 
IM ALRIGHT YEAH 
POUR ANOTHER CUP IM ALRIGHT YEAH 
YOU KNOW MY FUCKING VIBE 
IM CHILLING ALRIGHT YEAH 
DONT COME OVER HERE 
UNLESS YOU WANA BE SLICE YEAH 
IM ALIL CRAZY 
I SWEAR ITS IN MIND YEAH BUT IMA ALRIGHT 
YEAH IMA ALRIGHT YEAH 
IMA RIDE WITH IT TONIGHT AND IMA BE ALRIGHT YEAH 
I PRAY WHEN I GO TO SLEEP IMA BE ALRIGHT YEAH 
I WOKE UP TODAY LIKE IMA BE ALRIGHT YEAH 
COULD NEVER GIVE A FUCK CAUSE IMA BE ALRIGHT YEAH 
THEY TRY TO HATE ON ME BUT ITS GONNA BE ALRIGHT YEAH 
I AINT NEVER GON STRESS BOUT NOTHING ALL NIGHT CAUSE IM THE TYPE TO WAKE UP 
GO GET IT ALL DAY YEAH

ImBeAight (Prod.Bénitez)

ok ok

SLUT

broken heart, more drugs (Prod. Sapjer)

PAIN4SALE LYRICS
DEATH OF MY DEMONS 
DEATH 03 DEMON 
Death 03 Death 03 
IM JUST ONE MAN WITH ONE HEART 
WITH ONE BRAIN WITH ONE SOUL
I KNOW MY ENERGY 
BUT SOMETHINGS I BE 
READY TO LET IT ALL GO 
I DONT KNOW 
HOW I FEEL 
SO I CAN NOT EXPLAIN 
ALL MY LIFE I DEALT WITH PAIN 
ALL MY LIFE I DEALT WITH PAIN 
ITS TRAUMA IN MY SOUL 
I DONT KNOW HOW TO LET IT GO 
DEEP AT NIGHT I STAY UP 
THINKING BOUT HOW IM GONNA CHANGE 
THINKING BOUT HOW MY LIFE GON BE IN 20 YEARS 
I DO NOT KNOW I THOUGHT I DIE AT 18 
BUT  I MADE IT TO 21 
THEN I MADE IT TO 25 
AND I TURNED 27 
EVERYTHING STILL FEEL THE SAME 
EVERY STEP IT FEELS THE SAME 
ONLY THING THATS DIFFERENT I AINT GOT MY MOMMA ONLY THING THATS DIFFERENT I AINT GOT MY MOMMA CAUSE SHE IN THE SKY NOW 
CAUSE SHE IN THE SKY NOW 
MY MOMMA IS AN ANGEL 
SHE IN THE SKY NOW 
SHE IN THE SKY NOW 
MOMMA IS AN ANGEL 
I BE PRAYING FOR FORGIVENESS 
CAUSE I DONE SO MUCH PAIN 
I DONE GAVE SOME PEOPLE PAIN 
WHEN I WAS FEELING PAIN 
ALL I KNOW WHAT TO DO 
WHEN IM HURT IS GIVE SOMEBODY HURT 
THAT DONT MEAN THAT ITS OKAY 
THAT DONT MEAN THAT ITS OKAY

PAIN4SALE

LOVE

STRESS.REST.DEATH LYRICS 


Chorus (0:39-1:12) 
Lay me to rest all this stress is causing me death in my chest there’s a hole my heart has left It hurts me to feel so heartless it hurts me that I’m so toxic (x2)

Verse 1 (1:13-2:06)
SNEAKPEAK

 in the dark all alone I feel haunted, I mean hunted by my demons for my soul cus they always hungry 

MINI BRIDGES IN THE VERSE (1:23-1:46)

I can’t get em off of me my thoughts are toxic
I can’t stop the voices in my head my mental’s toxic 

I can’t fall asleep nightmares all that I dream (x2)
my trauma is haunting me (x4) 

Remainder of Verse1 (1:47-2:06)

the devil use my weakness to make me believe that this world really is hell 
suffering and pain is all that I’ll receive 
ain’t no more help cus only momma knew how to stop my rain 
Using all kind of drugs to numb the fucking pain away drink so much that I don’t even have a word to say smoke so much that room won’t stop spin 
I’m crossfaded 


Rest(2:20-2:25)

praying to god for intuition the ability to understand a thought before it alters my conscious protect my energy at all cost 

Chorus (2:50-3:25) 

Lay me to rest all this stress is causing me death in my chest there’s a hole my heart has left It hurts me to feel so heartless it hurts me that I’m toxic (x2)

OUTRO/WRAP UP (3:26-3:32)
They’ll leave you in the ocean, expecting for you to drown but they must not know the real always gonna floated up

Lost song I decided to randomly upload more of a song concept…

STRESS.REST.DEATH (Prod. anticon)

there's nothin like wiping blood off my blade after fighting to kill my opponent. it only takes one slice to the throat from my blade, drugs keep me sane even though im insane.

  - JayGooker

Wipe Da Blood (prod. Dee Beats)

Answers! is me trying to understand the pain I’ve been carrying for years.
This song came from a place of confusion, guilt, and feeling stuck inside my own mind.
It’s me admitting I’m lost, that I’m scared, and that I’ve been trying to hold everything together for my kids even when I couldn’t hold myself.

This is more than a song — it’s me asking God for clarity, forgiveness, and a way forward.

ANSWERS! (PROD DYLO BLK)

Ghost is the moment I disappeared after losing my mom and losing myself.
This song came from a place where I didn’t feel real — where I was alive but not living.
I recorded this in a numb space, trying to understand why I felt like a shadow in my own life.

This isn’t a song about dying.
It’s a song about what happens when your soul goes quiet long before your body does.
I made this so I could hear myself again.

*Lyrics*
SONG 7 GHOST 
GUESS IM JUST A FUCKING GHOST 
AM I EXISTING OR  JUST PHYSICALLY HERE 
ITS THE PAIN IN MY FUCKING HEART 
ITS LIKE RAGE CLOUDING ME CLOUDED OVER ME 
I BEEN FEELING ALL ALONE 
LATELY I BEEN FEELING ALL ALONE 
DROWNING IN MY EMOCEAN 
I JUST WANT TO GO HOME 
I JUST WANT TO HAVE A PLACE THAT I CAN FEEL IS HOME 
BUT EVER SINCE MY MOM BEEN GONE 
IT FEEL LIKE I DONT GOT NO HOME 
FEELING LIKE IM THE ONLY ONE THAT KNOW THAT IM STRUGGLING WITH THIS PAIN 
AND SOMEHOW I CANT LET GO 
AND I BEEN THINKING IN MY HEAD 
LIKE MAYBE ITS JUST EAISER TO LET GO LET GO 
WHY MY EMOTIONS MAKE ME FEEL LIKE A GHOST IN THE ROOM 
WHY I CANT FEEL COMFORTABLE WHEN IM CLOSER TO YOU 
WHY IM ALWAYS IN MY HEAD I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO 
GOT ME THINKING BOUT 
I DONT WANA SLIT MY WRIST 
I DONT WANA TIE THAT KNOT 
I DONT WANA HANG MYSELF WHY MY FUCKING MIND IS SUICIDAL 
I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND  FEEL LIKE MY WHOLE LIFE 
I BEEN HAUNTED HAUNTED BY A ENITY OR SOMETHING THAT TRYNA GET DEEPER INTO ME 
BUT IM THE ONLY ONE THAT KNOW THE CODE TO GET INTO ME 
IM THE ONLY ONE THAT KNOW THE CODE TO GET TO THE INTER ME 
IM THE ONLY ONE THAT CONTROLS MY ENERGY ENERGY 
WHY THEY TRYNA DRAIN MY ENERGY ENERGY 
MY DEMONS THEY BE TRYNA DRAIN MY ENERGY MY ENERGY 
DEMONS GOT ME FEELING LIKE A GHOST 
WHY MY DEMONS GOT ME FEELING LIKE A GHOST 
CALLING TO MY ANGEL BUT THEY DONT PICK THE PHONE UP 
BEEN CALLING ON MY ANGEL BUT THEY DONT PICK THE PHONE UP

GHOST

Hell in Eye is raw anger turned confession.
It’s the breaking point—where heartbreak, betrayal, and self-disgust collide.
When the light inside burns out, what’s left is the fire in your eyes.
This track isn’t about giving up; it’s about facing the hell you’ve carried too long.

*LYRICS*
(Chorus)
ITS NO MORE HEAVEN INSIDE 
ITS ONLY HELL IN EYE

Fuck it fuck it fuck it
 I been stabbed in the heart but I continue to love 
and when you left me in the dark 
I continued to shine this little light 
came from all my harder times 
how could you hurt the person that you love 
when they needed you the most 
your monster 
A narcissist 
A fucking piece of shit 
you lie to everyone you love 
just because you don’t want them to see your real pain
your real face 
the fact you juggling struggling tryna make it through life 
every night before you go to sleep 
you remember the fact that you want to die 
you hold it all inside 
have no control over your emotions 
so your heart run your mind (2x)
STOP ACTING LIKE A BITCH 
NIGGA GO GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER

(Chorus)
ITS NO MORE HEAVEN INSIDE 
ITS ONLY HELL IN EYE

HELL N EYE (Prod. Seven Nights)

TTK and L0ST reflect two versions of the same story — trapped thoughts, broken love, and the mistakes that haunt you long after they happen.
This song feels like standing in front of a cracked mirror and seeing the child, the man, and the pain all staring back.

Raw. Emotional. No filters.
A real-life therapy session in the form of a song.

BROKEN MIRRORS Ft. TTK27

old jaygooker freestyle (back when lil boosie was still locked up)
jus alil sumthing fah yall tah gook tah 
FREE ALL DA REAL NIGGAS LOCKED INNA CAGE 

Shoutout all mah gooks! 


Ride Da Wave (Free Max B)

Tearz Of Death feat. Space Potato

New Music From The Gook Squad 
Shoutout To All The Supporters 

More Music Coming In 2017

CutBoy ( Ft. Master Key ) Prod. DE$ANI

l0stpain is a storyteller shaped by grief, love, trauma, and rebirth.
My music comes from real experiences — losing my mother, losing myself, fighting through heartbreak, and learning how to grow through the darkest parts of my life.
These songs capture the pain I carried in the past and the lessons that still guide me today.
I make music for people who feel deeply, love deeply, and hurt deeply — people who need a voice that understands what they’re afraid to say.
My journey is ongoing, and my art is the path I walk through it.

l0stpain

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