i need it when you call me out 
i love it when you calm me down 
i just need 2 hit the bong feelings coming down 
i might need 2 pop a pill if your not around 
i need it when you call me out 
i love it when you calm me down 
i just need 2 hit the bong feelings coming down 
i might even crack a seal pass out on the ground 
coming down 
never thought i would be loved still don't think it now
said i'm done getting fucked up but i'm in the clouds
i just love these fucking drugs i can't put them down 
i just wanna hold you love never put you down
i can't let you down 
i'm stuck in my mind 
i can't feel you now 
remember i was in the hospital off the ambien 
dying on the floor was all alone got no ambulance  
why didn't i pass on why'd i stand again 
i just wanna pass on to the ambience 
you can play my fav song cus i won't dance again 
hate my intrusive thoughts i wanna blast my head 
thoughts are so disgusting yeah they're so blasphemous 
always fuck it up when i'm in love i can't stand a bitch 
need it when you call me out
love it when you calm me down 
i just need 2 hit the bong feelings coming down 
i might need 2 pop a pill if your not around
i love it when you call me out 
love it when you call me out cus i needed that
love it when you calm me down your my ativan 
i just needa hit the bong feelings coming down 
i might needa pop a pill if your not around
i need it when you call me out 
i love it when you calm me down 
i need it when you call me out 
i love it when you calm me down

calm me down (prod. shvde*)

@injurie @prodaugury

@injurie
i swear
this situation so toxic
a knife is to my throat, i cant care if it fall in
i couldnt care less if they think that im not it
fucked up off a tab think im going psychotic
ever since i kid im wondering if im good enough
i said that id off it but u had 2 call my bluff
n u too good for it why u talk bout drugs
u aint ever touched a blunt why u talking bout the punch

cuz i been hating myself lately
n i dont care if u dont wan save me
swallowed up by the ground, watch it fckin take me
yea i need a cigarette im going crazy
i been goin so fast u cant race me
n why u doing all that faking
im so done w conversating
cuz that dont tell me what im making

@sif666
and so i lose what ur taking
i cant control myself im shaking
i just need a blunt to keep from breaking
fuck popping a pill ima take 3
what did u do to me im aching
put a blade up to my neck and let it take me
i just need another blunt to keep from breaking
fuck all of these drugs i need safety

six feet underneath now im decaying
disappear im just a shadow of ur making
im smoking loud im smoking pressure just to break free 
of all these thoughts of u that plague me
im way too faded visions hazy
i never wanted u to break me
too much pain im going crazy
so dont act like u dont hate me

swallowed up by the ground + injurie (augury)

Am I Someone To Trust? ft. Bennyx3 (Prod. reo)

the one

ft. @inssekt
prod. @sif666
art by instagram.com/rubb3r.d3ck

lyrics:

@sif666
my bitch have fun w her wrists watch the knife slit
what’s the point of living life when it’s like this
mdma in my blood i stay high bitch 
not alive 
give a fuck bout the price bitch
when u look into my eyes think i’m lifeless
break that brick down got some dust on my white fit
u cant find this u don’t know this designer
no emotions percocet put my soul to rest
turn me up i wanna die just to forget this shit
dropping pills inside my cup i need another script 
no fuckin thoughts behind my eyes i can’t pretend to care
i live my life like i’m a ghost bitch i was never there

@inssekt
im like fuck it wat i told u
i was offa so much
dont remember wat i told u
i was mixing shit i shouldnt
i wish i could hold u
coming down its   not what i wan go thru
cutting down on shit i need to make myself feel awful
bitch im here u best believe it something like a novel
takin too much powder feel like snowing when i cough up
u take this shit for fun i take this shit just to feel normal
im taking bigger hits jus lean back baby hold my bottle
i dont need no friends becus i think dat im jus better than them
i dont tie no ends because i keep my bridges a;lways open
mdma geeking like girl i love u so much
fuck it i dont need a reason, baby watch me blow up

@sif666
when u look into my eyes think i’m lifeless
break that brick down got some dust on my white fit
u cant find this u don’t know this designer
no emotions percocet put my soul to rest
turn me up i wanna die just to forget this shit
dropping pills inside my cup i need another script 
no fuckin thoughts behind my eyes i can’t pretend to care
i live my life like i’m a ghost bitch i was never there

spotify

ghost + inssekt

prod. @marcelinedeathdate
art by burrow @user-566119846

lyrics:

spill my guts on ur floor
rip out my nerves like some cords
i think i’m sick
i feel like shit
my lips sealed tight with fucking stitches
im so fucking alone
im just a doll that you own
im fucking losing control 
feel myself slip when u pull
ill be your sacrifice
cut across my flesh until u see inside
cut deeper in
take my life within ur hands and smother it
silence me
i can’t sleep until i watch u make me bleed
take from me
passed out on ur bed while u devour me

sacrifice (marceline)

prod @rubbishrubbish

lost time ill never get that back
heart stopped when you looked at me like that
felt like ive never even been looked at
thought i lost you all but i got you back

i used to take it like i deserved that
after a bad day i deserve that
after some pain it felt like i earned that
but nobody ever fuckin deserves that

nobody ever really deserves shit
put on this planet get taken off it
all this behavior somehow i learned it
now somehow i gotta learn stop it

wake up and check my door i locked it
wake up and break my only promise
why did i think it would be instant
why dont i ever trust the process

why cant i ever just be honest
stupid girl, i wake feelin nauseous
stupid world, everything is garbage
stupid girl, you knew you were toxic

everything is stupid little bargains
do i do good or do i feel good
so i take paths of least resistance
end up in places full of sickness

stop that
step back
dont let back
i had to hear that

feel like i feel like im different
feel like i feel like i did it
didnt i, i just wan be in it
if im kidding ill end it all with quickness

if im kidding ill end it all with swiftness
i cant be present cuz then ill wreck it
demon i demon feel it hiding
why cant i cant express it

stupid world prod. rubbish

prod @ssj5-junk + @bloodcryy
sfx @s0lemn
cover w/ art from @user-867146503

its a Shame tht idk . . . how ur Feelin : /. , ,
is it time Dat i must go .. ?? do i need 2Stay  . .? / + -
die sittin Solo , , ; its Like i Want2 . ..
try But ik that .  .. = = 
u Dont feel the Same ; [ / / /

i Was trapped In my head ya i think we Was Alike ... 
nvr Kno How2Feel cuz i Drown it ina Pint . . ,
y i feel Incomplete ?? ..,.; i js Wana get it Right / / .
I Admit my defeat . ,, U can say dat u Was right .. . 

u can Say dat u was right  .. , i Been so low .. ion wna Make a Fight[[[
lemme Down low cuz im rly Fuxkin High :p  . .. 
on The downlow . . , Should i even fckn Try ?? ., ; 

i Nevr do ,, u Know i feel the Shame ... = - [[
I wanted Uuu .. . but do uuU feel the Same . ..
drug Abuse . , , .; its Calling 2 my Name . . ,
i Knew the Truth .. ., .; [ i Wanted u 2 Change .. , .

admit my defeat [ssj5 + bloodcryY]

inssekt - taste my blood (p. corpse disposal)

if my heart grew wings /// make it last forever (tores)

Zone – “Ceiling” (Prod. Jabro)
Dark, melodic, and heavy with pressure, Zone floats over Jabro’s ambient beat with sharp punch-ins and cold confidence. Staring at the ceiling, fully alert, never folding.

ceiling  (prod.jabro)

What’s wrong with right now? @sadgirlworld @lilsadgirlarchive