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new single off my new album 'for better or worse' coming March 24th!!

production by the amazing @kingtheta

Lyrics:
(verse)
taking my time 
stuck in decline 
i been told to smell the roses 
but i can’t find them 
and i’m still hopin 
for all of this to get better in time 
if i turn a leaf would it change my mind?
cuz i’m feelin hopeless staring at the progress 

(pre-chorus)
i don’t want this but i still need this 

(hook)
like to think that it’s coming along but 
my feelings change and i’m so damn wrong (hey)
wanna say that i’ll fix my ways 
but if i do what will i be? 
this life is exhausting 
my problems they haunt me 
ill
give it another day 
drowning in all this weight
if you still wanna change 
make sure it’s steadily 

(verse)
shouldn’t this be easy?
but i’ve got a pocket full of reasons not to be free 
and it takes its toll 
trying to take my mind off of all the things 
that i can’t control 

(pre-chorus)
i’ve been faking my progress 
in hopes i can stop it 
i thought it’d be simple 
the truth is it’s not 
(yet i still)

(hook)
like to think that it’s coming along but 
my feelings change and i’m so damn wrong (hey)
wanna say that i’ll fix my ways 
but if i do what will i be? 
this life is exhausting 
my problems they haunt me 
ill
give it another day 
drowning in all this weight
if you still wanna change 
make sure it’s steadily 

make sure its steadily

steadily [prod. King Theta]

Breakeven (Cover)

@nothingnowheremusic
@killbreanna

what if it’s too late to go back
if it’s too late i won’t know that
maybe today i can photograph
my own suicide wit da kodak

2g of sticky i roll that
to let out the feelings i hold back
sellin my life it’s on rollback
i don’t ever want my soul back
so

believe me i’m okay
i would never lie to you no
believe me there’s no way
that ima let you walk out the door

stand in the doorway
blocking you from leaving your home
you belong here close to me
don’t you leave me out in the cold

don’t leave me out here to rot
don’t believe me when i say i’m okay truly i’m not
i want you back more than i thought
but now it’s too late for me i could never save you a spot

can’t save that spot for you it’s not mine to be savin
i’m not meant for you my heart is truly vacant
i can’t be there for you cant be your safehaven
i don’t wanna do this i refuse to be complacent

its too late, to save, my sanity
you cant, expect, any change

too late (nothing, nowhere. x kill breanna)

prod. xenshel
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why you looking face down, kicking grass up
fear and loathing Cuyahoga 
now i ain’t got no one, better hold up
hiding ain’t gon help them know ya 
why you looking face down, kicking grass up
fear and loathing Cuyahoga 
now i ain’t got no one, better hold up
hiding ain’t gon help them know ya 

and I act up when i’m smacked up 
bags under my eyes getting older 
and I hate this whole feeling it’s colder
and I’ll pack all my shit in the morning 
I hate how it feels when I’m mourning 
why does it come with no warning 

look at me like I am just pieces
put the puzzle on at least you’ll give me reason
I don’t have a cost I got no need 
try to turn the clock done with the speed 
hide away like I do
praying that somebody knew me
coping with all but a few
seeing that nobody knows me 

kicking grass up
fear and loathing Cuyahoga 
now i ain’t got no one, better hold up
hiding ain’t gon help them know ya 
why you looking face down, kicking grass up
fear and loathing Cuyahoga 
now i ain’t got no one, better hold up
hiding ain’t gon help them know ya

cuyahoga

cuyahoga (prod. xenshel)

take what you need
take the rest of me
been nauseous all week
you've been haunting my dreams

don't tell me you care
you're sittin right there
fuckin around while i rip out my hair

so tell me
was it worth it
i had never meant to be a burden

tell me was it worth it
i don't wanna wake up i don't think there is a purpose

but does there have to be a reason
i don't wanna be here anymore i'm barely breathing

while you're barely bleedin
you're the only reason that i'm drowning in the deep end

so rip out my heart 
tear it apart
if i were to keep it i'd have to restart

if that's what you want
i'll pack and depart
i'll gather my shit and head straight to vermont

to be with the trees
is all that i need
i don't need you here
i just want all the evergreens

and i might fall apart beneath the trees
that overlook the spot we used to meet
i promise that it's everything i need
should have never worn my heart upon my sleeve

and i might fall apart beneath the roses
a deathwish and a pocket full of poems
i promised you but you ain't even notice
i hate myself i'm drowning at my lowest

a pocket full of poems (king theta)

amelia earhart

i had a lot on my mind when you cut me like that
distant memories i feel em crawling up my back
its like a drug
fall in love
withdrawals 
given up
there's a century of knowledge in the void

now im toyed with 
im just on my grind at times i really feel so worthless
worth it
i dont think its worth it
time spent alone inside my room
memories refracting of the days i spent with you
*dont wanna think about it*

anymore
in the whip im still thinking of times where all i felt was  just the joy
apologies for treating you like no one ever could
remember Halloween i held you saw the stars while on my hood
that party was pretty good

where do you go when you are home
i sat here by the window for some hours now im good
you thought i was toxic but i never understood
you almost took my life away October 21

asking myself why i cannot catch a break inside this moment
of life, yeah coursing through my veins im really tired of the 
trust im handing out
at times when i was down
i wish that i was 12 collecting candy house to house

why you do it to my heart
bones pressed in the dark
i just wanna see you fuckin drown
i just wanna see you fuckin drown

you cannot control what people feel or how high
they get on every weekend getting fried
i, wanna go home i cant lie
looking through my window to the sky
as i pass out

october 21 (prod. secre swallowtail x tiedforsilver)

its been a year since I last posted on here. if you're still here I love u thank u for listening. sorrow world forever...

lyrics:

its 3pm and I just woke up
my stomach kills think I might throw up
yea I threw up
wish we never grew up
Cuz we’re getting older
Its already over
The future is scary
The past dont bring closure
Whenever you’re over
I feel my heart getting colder

Cuz I wanna face this
Dont wanna evade it
Whenever you’re with me
I feel like the greatest
I hate when we fight but
I cant just erase this
Your love is like water
And I wanna taste it

Money comes and money goes
I just hit the road cuz they booked me for a show
Im making plays now
They know my name now
When I get my first M
I know they’ll hate wow
I guess thats just the life I live
U hear my pain give me a kiss
Im burning up like an angel falling
From the sky
U in my head and every time I reach
You multiply
I did this shit all on my own
Aint need no one
But im thankful for the people who show love
Im still tryna make it out im stuck in Florida
Ill be in la next month im tour
I always dream of this
I know my parents doubted me but
Thats the price I get
Im off the edge might jump cause
I cant sleep, every night I battled 
Demons they cant take me

MESSES

Laeland

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