Memory

(Verse 1)
 Woke up on the floor again, phone full of missed calls
 Last night’s a blur, but I remember it all
 Said I’d quit the party scene, yeah, I said that last week
 Guess I’m just a rerun, stuck on repeat
Mirror talk, I hate what I see
 Another stranger staring back at me
 Fake a smile, pretend I’m fine
 But I’m dying slow inside my mind
(Pre-Chorus)
 And I can’t keep running from the mess I made
 I try to change but it’s too late
(Chorus)
 I’m halfway dead, halfway alive
 Caught in between the lows and highs
 Every night feels like goodbye
 But I still wake up somehow
 I crash and burn, then laugh it off
 Pretend the pain don’t hurt that much
 It’s all the same, I’m outta luck
 But I can’t slow down now
(Verse 2)
 Text my ex like “hey, you up?”
 She leaves me on read—yeah, that’s tough
 Scroll through pics of better days
 When I still had a heart to break
Can’t tell if I’m numb or I just don’t care
 I light one up just to clear the air
 All my friends say “you’ll be fine”
 But I’ve heard that line a thousand times
(Pre-Chorus)
 And I can’t keep running from the mess I made
 I try to change but it’s too late
(Chorus)
 I’m halfway dead, halfway alive
 Caught in between the lows and highs
 Every night feels like goodbye
 But I still wake up somehow
 I crash and burn, then laugh it off
 Pretend the pain don’t hurt that much
 It’s all the same, I’m outta luck
 But I can’t slow down now
(Bridge)
 Maybe I’m addicted to the chaos in my brain
 Every time I fix it up, I tear it down again
 I swear I’m trying, but I love the pain
 Yeah, I love the pain
(Final Chorus)
 I’m halfway dead, halfway alive
 Lost my mind but it feels alright
 Every scar’s just proof I fight
 Even if I don’t know how
 I crash and burn, then laugh it off
 Pretend the pain don’t hurt that much
 It’s all the same, I’m outta luck
 But I can’t slow down now
(Outro)
 Halfway dead, halfway alive
 Guess that’s just the story of my life

Halfway Dead

[Intro]
 I’ve been chewing on glass just to see if I bleed
 Tell me something that hurts, I don’t want to be clean
 Pretty poison in my veins, yeah it tastes so sweet
 I’m a nightmare wearing glitter, baby watch me bleed
[Verse 1]
 Yeah, I’m flawless on the outside, rotting within
 Smile wide, candy-coated but decay in my grin
 Call me toxic, call me tragic, call me something you fear
 But you still hit me up at 2 AM when I disappear
Got a halo made of razorblades, glitter on the floor
 Said you’d never come back, now you’re knockin’ on my door
 I’m a long shot, bad plot, self-made horror
 A crash you can’t stop looking at, you’re begging for more
[Pre-Chorus]
 Don’t tell me to calm down, I was born like this
 Chaos in my bloodstream, venom in my kiss
 If I burn this all down, would you miss the wreck?
 Baby, place your bet. Place your bet.
[Chorus]
 ’Cause I got hollow candy teeth and a sugarcoat smile
 But I’ll rot you out slowly if you stay for a while
 Yeah, I’m sweet, yeah, I’m sweet, but it’s all just deceit
 I’ll be the nightmare that you see when you try to fall asleep
 Hollow candy teeth, hollow candy teeth—
 Yeah, I’ll ruin you softly while you dance with me
[Verse 2]
 I don’t break, I just crack more, call it character growth
 You say you love the chaos, but you fear me the most
 I’m the taste on your tongue that you wish you could quit
 But withdrawal hits harder when the high was this sick
I’m the lipstick-stained cigarette burn on your chest
 Yeah, the bruise on your heart that you never confessed
 You don’t want a cure, you want something obscene
 You want the monster that you made out of your dopamine
[Pre-Chorus]
 Don’t tell me to calm down, I was born like this
 Chaos in my bloodstream, venom in my kiss
 If I burn this all down, would you miss the wreck?
 Baby, place your bet. Place your bet.
[Chorus]
 ’Cause I got hollow candy teeth and a sugarcoat smile
 But I’ll rot you out slowly if you stay for a while
 Yeah, I’m sweet, yeah, I’m sweet, but it’s all just deceit
 I’ll be the nightmare that you see when you try to fall asleep
 Hollow candy teeth, hollow candy teeth—
 Yeah, I’ll ruin you softly while you dance with me
[Bridge] (spoken/screamed)
 I’m not broken, I was built like this
 Don’t fix me, don’t fix me
 You say you want honesty?
 Then look at what you picked
 This isn’t love—
 It’s a habit.
[Breakdown]
 (yeah, yeah, yeah)
 Let it rot
 Let it rot
 Let it rot
 ~You like it when it hurts a lot~
[Final Chorus]
 I got hollow candy teeth and a sugarcoat smile
 I’m the stain on your life you’ll regret for a while
 Yeah, I’m sweet, yeah, I’m sweet, but it’s all just deceit
 I’ll be the ghost in your head when you try to fall asleep
 Hollow candy teeth, hollow candy teeth—
 You were doomed the moment you tasted me

Hollow Candy Teeth

Beautiful Strangers (feat. MxRo)

[Intro – whispered / building]
Yeah…
I’ve been falling…
But I’m not staying down.

[Verse 1 – tense & rising]
These steps are heavy like I’m dragging chains behind me
No halo, just the shadows that remind me
Every voice inside my head keeps screaming “you should quit”
But the fire in my chest says “fuck this shit.”

I keep walking though the road is burning open
All the dreams I had are ash, and I’m still choking
Try to stand but I collapse, caught in the break
But I swear I won’t stay buried by mistakes

[Pre-Chorus – emotional lift]
I’ve been down in the dark so long
Thought the silence was where I belonged
But now I hear a heartbeat calling on—
And it’s mine.
And it’s mine.

[Chorus – loud, anthemic, shout-sing]
I’m on this downward spiral, Falling down, down, down—
But I’m not dying here, I’m breaking out, out, out!
Yeah the flames tried to turn me into dust, dust, dust—
But from the ashes I’ll rebuild my trust, trust, trust!

Lift me higher— ELEVATE ME!
Won’t be chained by the weight that breaks me

[Verse 2 – heavier / distorted guitar in]
I’ve been screaming but the echo never answers
Every prayer I had got swallowed by disaster
But I learned that if I wait for someone else to pull me out
I’ll be stuck in this abyss full of doubt

So I sharpen all the pain until it’s armor
Turn the scars into strength, make it stronger
Yeah I bled just to find my way
But now I rise — and I won’t fade

[Pre-Chorus]
I’ve been down in the dark so long
Thought the silence was where I belonged
But now I hear a heartbeat calling on—
And it’s mine.
And it’s mine.

[Chorus – stronger, higher]
I’m on this downward spiral, Falling down, down, down—
But I’m not dying here, I’m breaking out, out, out!
Yeah the flames tried to turn me into dust, dust, dust—
But from the ashes I’ll rebuild my trust, trust, trust!

Lift me higher— ELEVATE ME!
Won’t be chained by the weight that breaks me

[Bridge – screamed / emotional / spotlight moment]
I won’t break— I won’t break— I won’t break again!
Even if the world caves in!
I won’t break— I won’t break— I won’t break again!
This is where the climb begins!

[Final Chorus – peak intensity]
I was on that downward spiral, Going down, down, down—
But now I’m rising through the fire, going up, up, up!
Yeah the flames couldn’t stop me when I burned, burned, burned—
Now I stand in the light that I earned, earned, earned!

Lift me higher— ELEVATE ME!
No more chains— I’m the one who saved me
Lift me higher— Liberate me!
This is hell no more — I made it.

Hellevator

Until Dawn We Will Hunt From The Crawlspace Beneath Our Home

[Whispered Intro – Japanese → English]
(囁き / Whispered)
 もう信じられない…
 胸の奥が燃えてるみたいで…
 嘘が全部、刺さってくる…
 ねぇ…なんで裏切ったの…？
(Mou shinjirarenai... Mune no oku ga moeteru mitai de... Uso ga zenbu, sasatte kuru... Nee... Nande uragitta no...?)
I can’t trust you anymore…
 Every lie keeps cutting deeper…
 Feels like my chest is on fire…
 Tell me… why’d you betray me…?

[Verse 1 – English]
I gave you everything, even pieces I was scared to lose,
 You turned around and used ’em like a weapon pointed at the truth.
 Said you’d never break me, guess you needed something new,
 But all the cracks you left behind still spell your name like a bruise.

[Pre-Chorus – Japanese]
壊(こわ)された心、まだ治(なお)らない
 信(しん)じてた日々(ひび)が、全部(ぜんぶ)消(き)えていく
 向(む)き合(あ)う勇気(ゆうき)も、残(のこ)らなくて
 嘘(うそ)の声(こえ)が耳(みみ)に刺(さ)さる…
(Kowa sareta kokoro, mada naoranai Shinjite ta hibi ga, zenbu kiete iku Muki au Yuki mo, nokoranakute Uso no koe ga mimi ni saru…)

[Chorus – English + Japanese]
English:
 You said trust you — yeah, that was a lie.
 Now I’m picking up the pieces you left behind.
 I’m done bleeding for the things you hide,
 ’Cause the truth cuts sharper than the pain inside.
Japanese:
 もう戻(もど)れない、trust is dead,
 その言葉(ことば)だけが頭(あたま)で鳴(な)る。
 裏切(うらぎ)られて、崩(くず)れた世界(せかい)、
 I’m done with you — 今日(きょう)で終(お)わり。
(Mou modorenai, trust is dead, Sono kotoba dake ga atama de naru. Uragirarete, kuzureta sekai (sekai), I'm done with you — kyou de owari.)

[Verse 2 – Japanese + English]
Japanese:
 君(きみ)の影(かげ)が今(いま)も残(のこ)ってる、
 笑顔(えがお)の裏(うら)は凍(こお)ってる。
(Kimi no kage ga ima mo nokotteru, Egao no ura wa kootteru.)
English:
 Every memory feels like something staged,
 Like you rehearsed every word you said.
 You played me like a game you knew you'd rig,
 But I’m burning all the pieces — watch ’em sink.

[Bridge – English]
I’m not your lifeline, not your fix,
 I’m not the one you break to feel “complete.”
 You crossed a line you can’t un-pick,
 Now all that’s left is everything you didn’t keep.

[Chorus – English + Japanese]
English:
 You said trust you — yeah, that was a lie.
 Now I’m picking up the pieces you left behind.
 I’m done bleeding for the things you hide,
 ’Cause the truth cuts sharper than the pain inside.
Japanese:
 もう戻(もど)れない、trust is dead,
 その言葉(ことば)だけが頭(あたま)で鳴(な)る。
 裏切(うらぎ)られて、崩(くず)れた世界(せかい)、
 I’m done with you — 今日(きょう)で終(お)わり。
(Mou modorenai, trust is dead, Sono kotoba dake ga atama de naru. Uragirarete, kuzureta sekai (sekai), I'm done with you — kyou de owari.)

[Whispered Outro – Japanese → English]
(囁き / Whispered)
 さよなら…
 信じた私(わたし)が馬鹿(ばか)だった。
 もう戻(もど)らない。
 もういらない。
(Sayonara... Shinjita watashi ga Baka datta. Mou modoranai. Mou iranai.)
Goodbye…
 I should’ve known better.
 No coming back.
 No more trust…
 No more us.



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