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left nut

I am not

just there

walking out of a party
on saturday night
walking out of a party
all your friends are real charming
real charming and nice
all your friends are real charming
you'll pretend you don't know me
don't know me and i'll
i'll pretend you don't know me
past nine and i'm getting sleepy
i'm closing my eyes
past nine and i'm sleepy

how many times will you walk right past me
how many times will you walk by and notice that i'm

just there
just there
just there
just there

and the crowd's getting wild
there's dirt all around
oh the crowd's pretty wild
your friends all have the same style
they're all up on clouds
your friends all have the same style
i'm sure you all have old vinyls
of velvet underground
sublime and billy idol
you think you're all original
with your marlboros
and some very cheap alcohol 

how many times will you walk right past me
how many times will you walk by and notice that i'm

just there
just there
just there
just there

just there
just there
just there
just there

just there

hey mike, come back home plz thank you

if being young is easy why the hell does it feel so damn hard?
growing up being told that looking back is the best part
don't want to lose my friends, nights that never end
writing letters that i'll probably never send
cuz i read them
when i'm lonely at night

and everybody around me is leaving too
some are already gone, lucky it's only a few
i never said goodbye to one of my best friends
hey mike, i miss you man
playing horrible songs in my backyard
gettin high for the first time between two cars
sneaking out to drive around
and enjoy the peace

so what's the point
to try your best
if everything goes black to white
and i am nothing like the rest
where's the love
cuz i've heard the hate
does anything matter anymore
or is it too late

preparation for the things you can't seem to prepare for
such a waste of time, but it's only going to happen more
telling me i'm wrong, knew it all along
so i'll let it all out in these fucking songs
part of me is preserved
the best of me is preserved

and if i can't slow time i'll enjoy today
not stressing too hard bout my GPA
cuz in a couple of months
we all know it won't matter anyways
doing things that i shouldn't just because i can
when you're under 18 who's to tell you what you cannot
do
it's something new

so what's the point
to try your best
if everything goes black to white
and i am nothing like the rest
where's the love
cuz i've heard the hate
does anything matter anymore
or is it too late

cuz lately i've
been feeling pretty good about myself
and lately i
don't fight my parents when they try to help
it's been a long 17 years
be on my own in less than one year
but i'm so scared
expecting me to know who i am

so what's the point
to try your best
if everything goes black to white
and i am nothing like the rest
where's the love
cuz i've heard the hate
does anything matter anymore
or is it too late

hey mike, i miss you man

hey mike, i miss you man (backyard version)

lone wolf

lyrics:

i've been roaming around these places
seeing all these faces
i've always seen before
i'm still trine catch you staring
hoping that you're waiting
cause you can't leave me wanting more

i'm wondering
when will she feel the same again
if anything
surely i'll be dead by then

you've been looking at me funny
is there something you won't tell me
just know that i can handle it
you're still pretending that you don't
see me cause you know
that it's just a bottomless pit

i'm wondering
when will she feel the same again
if anything
surely i'll be dead by then

dead by then

watch on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0FGcEfxyJAQ

listen on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0oIe0HMg6DvAxrKLHfpS86?si=GQPkcmyxQRKnX1WCqRx5cg

DOWN

w/ @kaiyko
download album-- https://tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/we-disappear
_______________________________________________
(my head is empty)
when the sky snows ash
tell me will it last
when we try and try again
but it never seems to last
i'm running out of time
so leave me with my thoughts
not because i asked
cause it's really what you want
it feels so cold
watch you fade away
its like this everyday
all my feelings are the same
when the sky snows ash
tell me will it last
when we try and try again
but it never seems to last
everything's alright (4x)

it feels so cold
watch you fade away
its like this everyday
all my feelings are the same
when im with you i am lost
without you i am dead
i just want these feelings out my fucking head
so leave with my thoughts
leave cause you want
not because i asked cause it's really what you want
so leave with my thoughts
leave cause you want
not because i asked cause it's really what you want

i just need to be alone
i just to stay at home
i cannot pick up the phone
i just need to live alone
i just need to die alone
i just need to cry alone
everythings alright when im alone

everythings alright (4x both)

(kaiyko)
i try to keep my cool when i am with you, leaving scars all on ur heart
is the last thing i wanna do,
you can pull the tigger if you need that
should've thought about it twice before saying you have my back
and now im taking the fall like nothing else mattered before and oh
I loved it before when I could walk out the door without all this weight on my chest
its getting so heavy, do you know what you mean to me?
You're putting it all on me, oh wont you see?
And i know its not right when i say things r fine, yea look me in the eyes
can you tell that i lie? I know its not right when i waste all this time
But I know the fault is only mine..

(my head is empty)
when the sky snows ash
tell me will it last
when we try and try again
but it never seems to last
i'm running out of time
so leave me with my thoughts
not because i asked
cause it's really what you want
it feels so cold
watch you fade away
its like this everyday
all my feelings are the same
when the sky snows ash
tell me will it last
when we try and try again
but it never seems to last

(kaiyko)
And i know its not right when i say things r fine, yea look me in the eyes
can you tell that i lie? I know its not right when i waste all this time
But I know the fault is only mine..

ashes (feat. kaiyko)

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ashes w/ kaiyko

// original rough draft // plans for clean-up, better file conversion, and adding of violin backing // not sure how i feel about the bridge! // suggestions welcome // thank you for the love

lyrics -

32.50 is the price
for a round trip to new york city,
but let's skip the sights
i'll tell you i'm okay with staying the night
then straying north
but it's not a one way baby

2.97 is the price
for a gallon at the closest gas stop
you'll ask for a regular fill up
i sorta wanna ask you to keep it in drive
we could take turns
but it's not a highway baby

14% left on the phone
and it's almost five quarters past midnight anyway
i could fall asleep with your voice pressed on my ear
hope you don't mind my snore
but these calls can't last all night dear

i miss you before you're even gone (x4)

but i'm okay with it like this dear
i think i'd die just to be right here

3250 (rough draft)

For The First Time

i dont
want to bother
asking
for another
grazed knee
grazed knees
some things
hurt forever
fall slow
like a feather
grazed knee 
grazed knees
bird shat
on my window
my room
starts to glow
grazed knees 
grazed knees
lose all of my friends
life starts
and life ends
grazed knees
grazed knees

i want to do everything i havent with everyone i love

Another attempt at double tracking both the guitar and the vocals. As usual, string-slide-sounds are present; I know they're not so pleasant to listen to. I've been having a lot of trouble with my voice lately, so this was all I could give at the moment. Not an improvement as far as that goes, but I feel like the mixing is at least a little better (compared to my previous attempt). Still haven't got it entirely right though.
Featuring one of my favorite photos of Elliott. (:

Elliott Smith - New Disaster (Cover)

the only exception

Track 4 from my EP, "A Thousand Winds."

It's interesting that death and grief can change the way we see each other. When my dad was here on Earth, I didn't always view him through a positive lens. There were aspects of our lives that clashed, and we sometimes struggled to connect. However, since his death, I've gained more insight into the complex person he was. More pieces have come together, and my perspective has shifted. Now, I view him with only love.

Only Love

Track 5 from my EP, "A Thousand Winds." 

Lyrics:

I walked down to Mirror Lake
Tracing pictures in the waves
Memories gone to faded blue
Souvenirs I have of you
All I knew

Still I wait by the waterside
Till the hour dies
And I wait by the waterside 
Till the hour dies

Fallen faces left behind
Valley carved in space and time
Will we find a way to reach
Atmospheric unity
You and me?

Still I wait by the waterside
Till the hour dies
I can wait for you all the time
But I know you’ve died

I walked down to Mirror Lake
One more life evaporates
All I wanted was to see
Your reflection next to me

Mirror Lake

Album written and Produced by Brandy Laute AKA Sea Puppy

people and songs i can't recommend enough

landing planes