prod. me // art by halo // vox: me + @trustt + @nujioh

[vai]
search for my own heart
learn how to breathe again
I can't handle
to stay with you
to stay misused
just discard me
hands shake as you
try say that you
love me but you
don't I can see through you

do you feel do you 
do you hurt do you 
do you hurt do you
what was I to you

don't look my way 
I'll stay by myself

i don't think i'll handle this
I don't think that I'll forget
relearn all that I have missed
relearn how to love again 

I'd break all my bones
just to escape you
I'll stay all alone
I'll find my own
way out of here 
you don't really know me
try again
I'll handle it

[trustt]
dont use me just for reference
for how bad your best friend looks
i dont wanna be that one
and i said
things i dont like about you
are thing i like about me
i paint my body for you
and you dont even care to see
help yourself breathe

[vai]
I'll try escape 
all that you say 
all that you mean
do you hear my heartbeat pulsing
just watch me go 
I'll never fold
I'll never break
I'll handle this I'll handle you
I'll handle -

[nujioh]
i don't sin too often
but i don't fear your judgement
to be honest i don't have no intentions
to coerce with you
approaching aimlessly
your words so hastily
when you said "just go away", i don't know if i'll be back
its a vicious cycle
sick to my stomach, gut feelings
i spilt it to you, you told me just can't hear it
i feel like, the freedom that i wanted back because you stole mine
is there some way?
is there some way?

or is there,
no one to save us? 
no one to save us? 
no one to save us?
no one to save us?

handle w/ trustt + nujioh

Single 1 of 4
written, performed, produced & mixed by Micah Callari
mastered by @ryptage

LYRICS:
(It’s about… adventure!)

There’s a frog in my throat
And I think that she croaked
I get a little bit anxious
When I think about goals

Cuz I was made for the city
New York in the nighttime, felt so itty bitty
Walking down the street, do the people think I’m pretty
Came here to remember what I’m even living for
Cuz there’s something more out there for me

Where I am is fine, ‘til I step outside
This town isn’t mine, and I hate the damn state
Rich retirees, and their entitled pleas
It’s a tourist trap, and I’m stuck with the bait
And rent is so high, that I can’t even pay it
My job pays shit, but I can’t say I hate it
I know I’m much better off than most of my friends
But this place might be my end

Cuz I was made for the city
New York in the nighttime, felt so itty bitty
Walking down the street, do the people think I’m pretty
Came here to remember what I’m even living for
Cuz there’s something more out there for me

(I was made for the city)
(Cuz I was made for the city)

Oh, a dozen churches in a row
I can’t even count how much I’ve driven this road
I always end up at the same place, same place
I always end up at the, I always end up at the
Mom and Pop, comic store, arcade, the smoothie place
Coffee shop, grocery store, gardens, and my workplace
Creek Christian, Woodland, First Faith Baptist
Everybody moving here’s a motherfucking fascist

At least that’s what it feels like
To not have a car here, not even a permit
At least I can still fly
Even if only for just a little bit

Cuz I was made for the city
New York in the nighttime, felt so itty bitty
Walking down the street, do the people think I’m pretty
Came here to remember what I’m even living for
Cuz there’s something more out there for me

(I was made for the city)
(Cuz I was made for the city)

Cars 2006

iCry

it doesn’t get easier
but you can make it more

Smiling from your disadvantage
huddled in your store

I want to know what makes you tick
I want to know

Getting all the same advice from the grown moon as the son

spend as much time searching as the work
could’ve been done

brother, we’ve been here in dreams
luster, shine on plated seams

this time isn’t new it’s cycled
this time isn’t new it’s cycled

2 2 24

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lyrics:
i'm still here searching for that same thing
definition of insanity has the same ring to it
i hope you don't mind me brushing you off again like that
cause I need more reasons to be feeling this bad

i'm still here searching for that same thing
definition of insanity has the same ring to it
i hope you don't mind me brushing you off again like that
cause I need more reasons to be feeling this bad

got a list of things that I wanna do when I feel just right
i wanna go outside more
cut my hair
i wanna be there

I wanna be there

schema

thank you for listening, as always

dedicated to sol, my great grandmother and martin

I’ve been thinking about the autochrome
Kids huddled on the stair by the second story window
Watching people float
Peering through the banister in my great grandmother’s

(Home)
(Home)
(Home)
(Home)

I’ve lost all self control
What compels someone to fuse their naive tongue with a metal pole
So I pray that I will moult
And this flawless flesh will free itself from skin and from

(Bone)
(Bone)
(Bone)
(Bone)

Autochrome

made in 8 hours after thinking hard to myself for a while.
this project is in 7/4 (mb gang)

-lyrics-
**n33t and hidden contact talking**
**me recording myself in my room**

went far to see the sun rise
i saw her climb into the sky
if things go wrong its alright
i know it gets better with time

do you know what its like
to be cast aside (i know)
wanted to say so much more
im out to give the warmth

what can i do if its me
if things go wrong its alright
i know it gets better with time

what if its me

figuring out how to walk
on my own two feet
i think there’s something
wrong with me
it has to be.
lucky me, i don’t know
what’s in my head
will finding out
even make a difference?

i don’t know

i have decided that i do not care whether i live or die to see my destination
whether i see it alive on earth or from the depths of hell, inside a conference room where satan himself is projecting my final moments onto a smartboard for all of his demons to point and laugh

i do not care

cant you see, i have places to be. 

experiencing life all at once
i didnt know it would hurt this bad
holding back tears, crying in secret
trying so hard for no one to see it
what would one more bump
do to my phyche
maybe if i fucked up my brain
it would fix me
what would one more bump
do to my phyche
maybe if i fucked up my brain
it would fix me

brain damage

i wish i’d get a letter
but does it really work like that?
why do i want it so bad?

i wish i could sing better
but it doesn’t work out like that
why do i want it so bad?

i was dreaming i was spending
new years with you on the couch
watching tv and holding hands with
fireworks firing out

and if i’m with you, i’d be near too much
can’t believe i was confused for months
now i’m so easy to take over,
we would both agree

dress for winter boy
see you in red and olive green

i wish i’d get a letter
does it really work like that?
why do i want it so bad?

i wish i could sing better
but it doesn’t work out like that
why do i want it so bad?

just some form of confession
of any form

get a letter

with @9nasu
i used the fly in the wind
i used to sing with all of my friends
but suddenly i descend

you don't wanna see this
when i don't feel like breathing
and when i close my eyes
i can barely catch sleep
i can barely feel

i won't waste your time
i won't be online
i’m trying to make it right
i'll still be home

i know it will be just fine
know i can't go, no i can't forget you
i know it will be just fine
know i can't go, no i can't just run away

i used the fly in the wind
i used to sing with all of my friends

i'll make it alright
find me home, i know it will be just fine
know i can't go, no i can't forget you
i know it will be just fine
know i can't go

when i don't feel like breathing
and when i close my eyes
i can barely catch sleep
i can barely feel

i won't waste your time
i won't be online
i’m trying to make it right
i'll still be on

i'll still be alright
i know it will be just fine
know i can't go, no i can't forget you
i know it will be just fine
no i can't go

mourning dove with nasu

thank you for listening, 
i didn’t want to leave this demo locked away any longer


I got a nosebleed yesterday

But
it wasn’t fear or pain that 
drew the blood away 

it’s only time

i saw your figure in the house 
last night

just a shadow 
but I swore 
it was almost wrong til
It looked right

 but i will be fine 
and i will refine 
the characteristics 
to which i am proud of my name 

i saw your figure in the house last night 

just a shadow but i swore it was almost wrong til it looked right 

can you hear my name?
can you hear my name ?
can you speak my name?

it’s every time


I have a footnote
for my life

it’s in the way that you’ve been living
not to do things out of spite

Nosebleed demo

Just telling stories the only way I know how. I hope you're doing fine, and I hope my music helps you in some way <3

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