Bri Tolani - how to be alone

its all closing in

in remembrance of soryn, Jarid Anderson
rest in peace, i hope you know how much i always cared about you even through the distance<3 i love you ,, 7

https://soundcloud.com/user-36090459/soryn-laced-xanax-prod-misery?si=f5c5fe7b09af46ad9f3248849e991728

thank you @lizdek  &  @subsad for the prod.

for soryn <3 7

i wish you never lied to me
@prodbyjoshwa
intro to my ep, 2004, with joshwa

and it’s late at night, i’ve been thinking about you
you lead me astray, want to get without you
but the connections were there, you coulda peeped thru a stare
thought we coulda been something baby i was prepared

and it’s times like that fuck me up
thoughts to recollect and i had enough
we could be strangers again, but i have the love
shit’s been getting worse, and it’s getting rough

dont know if i got the heart to leave you
cuz im always up at night, baby girl i’ll leave you tonight
i dont need you tonight, i dont need u tonight
and it’s crazy how you’re stuck in my mind

i guess i need love for consolation
and im feeling really stuck with this information
and its crazy how u lied, put me in the pavement
my emotions acting up, feeling sick with hatred

and i want something real for once
don’t want no lies i know that shit aint fun
problems i face, i cannot run
but if i leave u now, it’s said and done

STREAM

astray (joshwa)

i keep making the same damn song
ride around drunk till my wheels fall off again
i see you
i wanted to be you
but u couldnt care less

see its one of the pros of the sidelines
its always wrong place at the wrong time
eyesight gone by midnight
but im bleeding out quick till sun rise

i wouldnt change its perfect
i always crack but not on the surface
watch me break

its one damn thing to say that i miss it, real shit
i could never stand to visit
cause i always got drunk
never check my phone cause im too fucked up

i said baby do u trust me
and she said i would rather kill myself
am i disgusting?
or is it hard to fucking heal myself

i wouldnt change its perfect
i always crack but not on the surface
watch me break

watch me break

SPOTIFY

watch me break (yungspoiler)

wanted to get something on here for once
song about some thoughts ive had recently
hope you enjoy :)

@prodbyjoshwa

::lyrics
slamming my head way too damn hard
and ive been trying to find my way to my heart
and i know its kind of stupid
but its all that i have left
ill keep on trying

start to feel alive but i cant see
and all the shattered lights below my feet
a couple brides and only one wedding ring
i cant stop being a burden to those that i meet
i fell down and i cant get up
and my brains going numb and i cant see the sun
theres too many people out there i wish i was done
i need someone to please be the one

trying to socialize but its so damn hard
i tried to make a new friend group 
and it all fell apart
and ill just go to bed
ill just say it once again
tired of all the interactions
i wont take back what i said

now you confuse me
whats with your reply
you said that you cared
but you never bat an eye
so come out of your shell
come and see the outside
i swear that itll be worth it
please just take my hand (3x)

burden (joshwa)

mix: @yungduzz1k, @uhhh.13 & @mavyrmldy
beat: @yungduzz1k
photo: @gxnn.jpg

ela sempre volta...

#1kvoltz
##kaliUchis
#**chaoss

kali uchis 3 * ft. psycho 13 & mav [yungduzz1k]

it's for the best, i’m sorry
@prodbyjoshwa
mixed, mastered, recorded and engineered by me, production (and lovely beet) by joshwa 

SHOUTOUT @ericdoa U BEAUTIFUL MF THANK U SM

yeah, with the bag i got my groove in
life been different cuz everything been movin
lookin back at myself cuz ive been stupid
thinking about the things that were useless

yuh, and its all ur fault, tear your pictures from your wall
and you’re wasting all your texts and calls
but ur the one who fucked up 
cuz u know i tried to duck but u never listened :(

and i know baby u dont wanna end it tonight
but u always tryna fuck it up, u picking a fight >:(
u getting desperate, defensive, like, u wasting ur life
but im telling u, we dont need it
u getting poisonous and toxic, its blowing my mind
i assure u, i dont need it, cant u just see the signs?
always wished for the best, thought we would be fine 
so im tellin u, we dont need it

we dont need it
so im tellin u

its getting ridiculous, u getting so meticulous
tryna break it down, but what u got was dissonance
sick and vigilant but u aint used to getting shit
out of ur head, up and stuck im feeling villainous

words of innocence, u drinking ur so bibulous uh
swift and nimble with ur thoughts that u jus race out ur tongue
twisted vigilance ur thoughts brought out from synthesis
tired of getting fucked up think im getting sick of it

thats how the story goes
cant do anything about it
i just doubt it

we don't need it (joshwa)

produced and mixed by @blackwinterwells

the stars glow
but can’t see past your window
it doesn’t matter
when i ask you
you just say no

the blackout
blinds never leave your eyes
don’t make sense to me why
they never hit the side

i can’t help you like before
i swear i tried
i don’t know what you look for
stayin in my life
but i know better
this time

and way outside the city
where we’d go together
it would look so pretty
we didn’t make it any time

and just as i surrendered
felt it moving faster then i thought it would before
i couldn’t hold together
maybe we weren’t meant to work together
could be better

i can't help you

i can't help you ( blackwinterwells )

【宇多田ヒカル/One Last Kiss】-  ver.Sou

https://open.spotify.com/track/1yhdlroSvk04vrOilDdaj7?si=89fbb1db4b324c55
Written & Performed by endie
Produced by Joshwa ( @prodbyjoshwa )
Mixed & Mastered by endie & joshwa
lyrics:
Down
Downright fucked up
But I'm in love
Tell me what I did to you
Got so fucked up, I broke your trust
Tell me what I did to you
Now the world is on your fingertips
You broke my trust
When I opened up
Tell me what I did to you

Just booked a flight but can't wait till I touch the ground
Not saying I'd want it but you never come around
So many signs but I never could make them out
Finally learning to love myself now
Don't give up on what we had
Praying this isn't how it ends
I'm always burning the guilt of living a lie

And now
You know
What I must
Give up to be with you
My lovestruck lover
No one cares for us like we do

Down
Downright fucked up
But I'm in love
Tell me what I did to you
Got so fucked up, I broke your trust
Tell me what I did to you
Now the world is on your fingertips
You broke my trust
When I opened up
Tell me what I did to you

spotify

what i did to you (p. joshwa)

hun, im not done
i cant go another way
grab a gun
weighed a ton
when it blew the other way
she said hey
i said hi
i should look back
one more time
but its a crime
its a crime
its a crime

you dont change
its okay
that its that way
that way
it was a game
everyday
it was okay
you and i
we're one of a kind
but we're alright
take a smile then look at the sun
then turn around to everyone

hun, im not done
i cant go another way
grab a gun
weighed a ton
when it blew the other way
she said hey
i said hi
i should look back
one more time
but its a crime
its a crime
its a crime

violet hall

w @yarnn prod @prodsecretsss @negative_creeper

fall w/ yarn

shit crazy man

I love all of u

life sucks

home 135bpm tg

disponível em todas as plataformas digitais.

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2yahQRhfWzkGtBkYS21RSm?si=362f54e28d204e6d

ciclo vicioso ft mavyrmldy prod gafib0ss

prod. @lizdek 

i wanna be everything that you need
so give me some time to put my mind at ease
i swear i’ll have your love issues go away
even though i put them there

it ain’t easy feelin like this day after day
i just wanna be your world filled in white and gray
say it right but all that comes is please stay
stay yeah

it’s hazy baby i’m stutterin
not the prettiest but you can call me nothin
drunk dialed pick up when i’m callin
not important i just like talking

it’s hazy baby i’m stutterin
didn’t think i’d see you here so late this morning
if i had been more prepared wouldn’t be blushing
wish i could get out a word to tell you something

something
oh oh
living in a dream world
don’t this feel so perfect

nostalgia hits my senses when i pass the register
i land out by the booth that we sat in when hungover
can almost hear the radio play that one song i knew
unlikely that it would have happened when i’m with you

still can feel the touch of your hand running on my skin
i really hope i can feel that within the next ten
like nothing else i’ve ever felt it all falls into place
and without another thought you’re taking me to your place

it’s hazy baby i’m stutterin
not the prettiest but you can call me nothin
drunk dialed pick up when i’m callin
not important i just like talking

it’s hazy baby i’m stutterin
didn’t think i’d see you here so late this morning
if i had been more prepared wouldn’t be blushing
wish i could get out a word to tell you something

something
oh oh
living in a dream world
don’t this feel so perfect

still wanna be everything that you need
i think i’ve had my time and i don’t want it to beat me
feels just like the first time again i don’t remember why
we ever dropped off

you took me in once then and then you just did it once more
i never expected to fall so hard for you before
guess love stories were written for the people to ignore
we’re getting in your car with lights behind saying diner

hazy

stream on spotify! https://open.spotify.com/track/37yb04qkus8dBzdbYbPZOL?si=d24dcb6f128b426c

@ayeeitsnate @star607

im sick and i probably shouldn't have recorded
sorry for all the recycled shit i cant be original rn
hope you still enjoy though :)

::lyrics
the air is too thin
i couldnt read through all the signs
dont need discussion
i need you in my life
you got one shot
i got you on a tether
i thought you were on my side
i cant do this forever
my blood is rushing down my head
empty out my body see whats left
let me go~
to a place ive never been~

and every time im by your side i get really nauseous
got too many problems in my head gotta deal with
always on the back seat on the road im forgotten
always keep my head up cause i know it'll be worth it (2x)

my friends are starting to fade away
lights out now im waiting for the sun to decay
its the end of the world
im not really afraid
take my hand and we'll pray
for the day we'll be saved

(i want someone in my arms)
(you're so close yet still so far)
(someone please tell me im wrong)
(never wanted you to run)

departure (ayeitsnate x star607)

(lyrics)

selfish 
i'm feelin' selfish
you got me feelin' helpless
and i just can't compete

breathless
chasin' you got me stressin' 
i'm evil baby reckless
all i want is you here with me

i see the way you look at her
i know thats what you feel
i thought that it was meant to be
but clearly you don't want me

you say three words 
they mean the world
but you just can't commit
i'd give my all to make you smile
but that just isn't it 

you got me feelin' selfish
but you couldn't care less
i'm so fucking jealous
am i being selfish

you got me feelin' selfish
but you couldn't care less
i'm so fucking jealous
am i being selfish

but broken hearts do awful things
and mine is damaged
the more it takes the more it aches
can't you understand

you got me feelin' selfish
but you couldn't care less
i'm so fucking jealous
am i being selfish

you got me feelin' selfish
but you couldn't care less
i'm so fucking jealous
am i being selfish

selfish

selfish

GOLDFiiSH (jk Remix) - #VVSS

prod. @lizdek

(lyrics)

i'm not so good at writing love songs
seems when i'm happy creativity is lost 
but with support that i've been given
you make me feel like i could really do anything

i'm not so good at writing love songs
feel like my love is shown through touch that may last too long
and yet the distance don't mean a thing
it's like you're here with me every time i hear you sing

i'm so comfortable with you
i have never felt this way
and i wish i could show you 
so i hope i will one day 

i'm not so good at writing love songs
feel like my love is shown through touch that may last too long
and yet the distance don't mean a thing
it's like you're here with me every time i hear you sing

sad

Lasan