Old version: https://soundcloud.com/lawyerontheloose/i-have-tried-to-love-an-original-song

Lyrics:

I have tried to live
I have tried to love
I have tried to see
Now look what that did to me
Now look what it did to me

I was true to life
That runs in my blood
Wild as a star's desire
And you came along, darling
You set my world on fire

I was true to love
Of a special kind
I thought we would be one
It was foolish, I know, but that's what I've done
I'm a fool but that's what I've done

This the grave
For the last of my dreams
This is where they'll sleep now
Now I hope to forget, to forget somehow
I hope to forget somehow

But the angels cry
For the all the roses that die
When love is killed by fear
And an angel's tear is eternal rain
Is eternal rain down here

I Have Tried To Love [an original song. New version]

English lyrics:

The Deserter

Mr President, I am writing you a letter
That you will read, perhaps
If you have the time
I came to receive
My military papers
To go to the war
Last Wednesday evening
Mr President
I don't want to do that
I am not on this earth
To kill these poor people
It's not to make you angry
I must say to you
My decision is made
I am going to desert
 
Since I was born
I saw my father die
I saw my brothers leave
And my children cry
My mother has suffered so much
That she is inside her tomb
And she mocks bombs
And she mocks their targets
When I was a prisoner
You stole my wife from me
You stole my soul from me
And all dear to me passed
Tomorrow in the early morning
I will close my door
In the nose of the dead years
I will go down these paths
 
I will beg for my life
On the roads of France
Of Brittany and Provence
And I will say to people
Refuse to obey
Refuse to do it
Don't go to war
Refuse to leave
If you must give your blood
Go to give yours
You are a good apostle
Mr President
If you chase me
Tell your policemen
That I am not armed
And that they can shoot

Original lyrics:

Monsieur le Président
Je vous fais une lettre
Que vous lirez peut-être
Si vous avez le temps
Je viens de recevoir
Mes papiers militaires
Pour partir à la guerre
Avant mercredi soir
Monsieur le Président
Je ne veux pas la faire
Je ne suis pas sur terre
Pour tuer des pauvres gens
C'est pas pour vous fâcher
Il faut que je vous dise
Ma décision est prise
Je m'en vais déserter

Depuis que je suis né
J'ai vu mourir mon père
J'ai vu partir mes frères
Et pleurer mes enfants
Ma mère a tant souffert
Qu'elle est dedans sa tombe
Et se moque des bombes
Et se moque des vers
Quand j'étais prisonnier
On m'a volé ma femme
On m'a volé mon âme
Et tout mon cher passé
Demain de bon matin
Je fermerai ma porte
Au nez des années mortes
J'irai sur les chemins

Je mendierai ma vie
Sur les routes de France
De Bretagne en Provence
Et je dirai aux gens
Refusez d'obéir
Refusez de la faire
N'allez pas à la guerre
Refusez de partir
S'il faut donner son sang
Allez donner le vôtre
Vous êtes bon apôtre
Monsieur le Président
Si vous me poursuivez
Prévenez vos gendarmes
Que je n'aurai pas d'armes
Et qu'ils pourront tirer

Le Déserteur (B Vian) [cover/version]

Memories of Nights in Napoli [original piano improvisation. (Waltz-March-Waltz)]

Great Expectations [an original piano improvisation]

Cirkus Rinaldo - The Jugglers [An Original Circus Tune]

Cirkus Rinaldo - The Clown Before His Entrance [original piano improvisation]

Vola, Giuseppina, ma sii felice! [Original piano improvisaiton]

Here's Looking At You, Kid  [An original piano improvisation]

Solo nel sogno, Giuseppina? [Original piano improvisation]

Unkind Words [An original piano improvisation]

If there is a heaven [an original piano improvisation]

Reminiscence    [An original piano improvisation]

On A Toujours Le Droit De Rêver (We're Still Entitled To Dream) [An original piano improvisation]

The Masquerade - An Original Fairground Barker's Chant

I know you have come
out of boredom
You don't have to be ashamed
The crowd might be promiscuous
But no one will ask your name

The girl over there
lost her true love
because she was playing a game
I don't think he ever forgave her
and now it's all the same

Don't be afraid 
of the children
Enjoy their beauty instead
as they dance their way in the spotlight
They arrived here when they were dead

If you look through the roof
for a moment
You will see a fading rose
It carries the song of forbidden love
that in heaven will be disclosed

There are more rooms inside
to discover
If you are the curious sort
Truths of the world you will witness
and your senses it will distort

I can feel
that your heart was broken
by a love much too pure and true
In the chamber of ancient music
there are many clowns like you

Well your story
has its merits
but it resembles a dream to me
Let me guess: You never had her?
Or let's say just to a degree

You know, this cabaret
is peculiar
You can never return outside
With the tears of hearts disconnected
Its gates were fortified

Over it all 
floats a rainbow
No one knows what it signifies
It emerged from a dark lake in winter
Like the Devil in disguise

Our waiting room
is crowded
by men with a longing like yours
And she is always across the ocean
and her beauty made of metaphors

From here
you have a good view
The show will soon begin
The masquerade will seduce you
into a hardened grin!

The Masquerade - An Original Fairground Barker's Chant [remastered]

I Can't Help It (If I'm Still In Love WIth you), (Hank Williams) [Cover/Version]

A card was found among the effects of the wrecked steamer "Hungarian", bearing the inscription "Lizzie Dies to night".

Lizzie Dies To Night (S. Foster, 1862) [cover/version]

An pensive little summer piece, reflecting on the discreet charm of the bourgeoisie

Thus the native hue of resolution Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought [improvisation]

La Danse Du Passé [Improvisation]

La Valse Fragmentée [Improvisation]

Brief Encounter [piano improvisation]

A Lifetime Away [piano improvisation]

A traditional russian folk song. In Sweden it is often used at funeral services, in a version with religiously themed lyrics.

Jag har hört om en stad ovan molnen / Однозвутжно гремит колоколтжик(Trad. Russian)[Piano solo]

A Swedish hymn from 1847 by Carl Olof Rosenius. Often considered as the most popular hymn in Sweden. Here in an instrumental solo piano version.

Var jag går i skogar, berg och dalar (trad. Swedish hymn) [Piano solo]

This is a typical victorian sentimental song, written by H J Lincoln in 1908. The music and lyrics are now in the public domain.

Which Way Did My Mama Go? (by Harry J Lincoln 1908)[cover/version]

Alledgedly, this song was sung by Mary Jane Kelly on the 9th of November 1888. She was brutally killed that night by the mythological "Jack The Ripper".

A Violet From Mother's Grave (by Will H. Fox, 1881) [cover/version]

St. James Infirmary / Gambler's Blues (trad.) [cover/version]

After The Ball (Charles K Harris, 1892) [cover/version]

La nostalgia di Giuseppina [An original piano improvisation]

This is a traditional folk song from the swedish speaking parts of Finland.

Who can sail without the wind?
Who can row without an oar?
Who can say goodbye to their love
Without crying?

I can sail without the wind
And i can row without an oar
But i can't say goodbye to my love
Without crying

Who Can Sail Without The Wind? (Swedish/Finnish Trad.)

Ballerai mai con il pagliaccio , Giuseppina?  [An original neapolitan piano improvisation]

Musique Funèbre pour un Théâtre de Marionnettes [an original funeral march for a puppet theatre]

Just another day....   [original piano improvisation]

....There's a story in there somewhere....

A bunch of demos and improvisations


BOSS BR800 Multitrack recorder 
-Built in drum machine
-Built in guitar effects processor

Yamaha MX88 Synthesizer
Yamaha CS1X Synthesizer
 Yamaha Clavinova CLP 535 Digital piano
Squire Strat Electric guitar
Fender Standard Telecaster Electric guitar
Lee Oscar harmonicas
L'Artigiana accordion

No Midi 
No loops
No DAW

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