glacier bay

Bitter hearts race to a finish line nowhere
Nothing left to burn
Nothing to repair

little strings

Deep blue 
The ocean view
The faces glued to ice
The sharks feed on their young 
I lay here just to watch
and I can't feel a thing
Forever swimming down
The sea beckons me out
I swim till I black out

In nine days i'll go missing
In nine weeks the body will wash up off the Glacier Bay 
In nine months I'll be forgotten

That's okay.

The seas will show their teeth
The young will wash away
Mothers follow them down
Cut the throat and feed the freak

In nine days i'll go missing
In nine weeks the body will wash up off the Glacier Bay 
In nine months I'll be forgotten

I'm not here no more
I've lost the spark that kept my bones together
I've splintered, I'm undone
You were the lash in my eye
The last siren of the lake
I'll cut my eyes out now
It's all I want to see

I need to disappear
To fade out with the tide
I break the golden bell
The sound is agony

To crush myself like a bug
Wrote pages to a knife
That knife won't hold
Let's burn just one last time

In nine days i'll go missing
In nine weeks the body will wash up off the Glacier Bay 
In nine months I'll be forgotten

I want to dice myself to tiny little bits
Strings twist and strangle me, but I won't let go and lose my way home

Lose the ceiling drop the kids fear of numbers fear of skin
Lose my control, lose my face, frightened creatures in my head

Dressed in all shades of blue
Cross hatched and doublecrossed
Branded, streets of snow
Black sky, my ceiling
To the world it might not be much
The streets untouched, this world's enough.

Fixed to a flame outside
The bishops scream in tongues
Calm witches dressed in black
Three words and then they're gone

my ears are failing
my eyes are draining
snow freckles fading
snow freckles draining
that night i dreamt of twelve-legged monsters

Speaking words to make them feel some sense of worth
Slice out your poisoned tongue
Forgo your faulted sons
Shit festered vale I haunt 
it's storming each night i dream
Caged in your bloodied hands
Softly tucked into bed

i want out
let me out

They're scared I'll wake and see their faces
Friends, lovers, sunburnt, children and freaks
They bred a monster, cannibalizing on my own flesh, my own blood on my teeth

But to the world outside
That joy is not my own
I breathe and feel in blue
I speak so I am God.
My thoughts aren't filling
Woodrot in my trees
snow freckles fading
snow freckles draining
speaker of the word
who got away clean
I pray your lungs fail
I pray your heart stops

The storm's not mine, 
just Leftover broken tributes
They'll never look in my eyes
Won't let me have a face
my thoughts are sludged 
tied into place with broken strings
Worship the astral moon
Cannibalize my eyes

snow cannibal

Transparent, floating through my window and I'm
Left haunted by spirits without names
Your words move like wind and I am just a feather
I'll let you take me with your storm
 I know it must feel like you're disappearing slowly
I want you to want you

I will always see you
I will always see you
I will always see you 
I just wish I could heal you

Empyrean, left floating at ground level and
The rats come and tear right through the eyes
Panic like a ghost caught between two mirrors and you know
I'd break them if it meant that you'd feel safe
Flamingo, your thoughts are sludged and bound by strings and 
Complacent, you'd pass along the torch
I know it must feel like you're disappearing quickly
I want you to want you

heal you

inside skin left behind, don't breathe in
water's rising, i won't take prisoners
stay away
violent weather brings crying mothers
stay inside

sunshine pull me closer so I can just push you away
thought I felt your breath on me below the glacier bay
Burning in the water I can feel your hands ablaze
Drinking up the ocean, and they made you a holiday

don't lie you would do the same and break down
comfort terrifies me so i'll stay inside this cold dream anxious
wanting something different, got it, never satisfies me
i've slept 10000 times but i don't ever remember falling asleep
i'm done staying up to see the sunrise

sunshine pull me closer so I can just push you away
thought I felt your breath on me below the glacier bay

inside

|Faith, you're driving me away| from you
I can't shake my thoughts
You wear me out.
swallow me alive gently
You keep driving me away

driving me away

https://soundcloud.com/lazy-eyelids/kami
saying words without a meaning
they all sound perfect  

But that was my mind playing me again
I'm still an alien with no reflection
When my faith's pulled through flesh and bone
I barely feel at home in my own skin

snow freckles

even the ghosts left

My body shakes, but nothing's left moving
The latest news took the form of lightning 
My brain's a car, that car's underwater
The latest news took my head at the altar

I'm a mess inside
Walls with nothing to hide

home is at the bottom of the sea
arms and neck left tangled in seaweed
locking eyes and laying in the sands
while the freak feeds below folded hands

why do i feel so weightless now
ringing, shaking, calming jowls

fuck me up

Pull me deeper into the flood
I've been drowning in your old blood
Pull me closer into the flood
I didn't want to, but you're in my blood
Pull me closer, swallow me whole
The witching hour will come for us all.

we'll sink down into the sea
with love;
you're tearing me apart
with love;
you're tearing me apart
with love;
you're tearing me apart

Pull me deeper into the flood
Pull me closer, swallow me whole

flood

sail away space queen
I'll sail away
Leaving the love I've found
Missing the time spent with you
I feel too loved, more human than I'd like to be

sail away

solo project

one eye is shut and the other one's completely crushed

glacier bay

Lazy Eyelids