thank you to-
Kathryn for an amazing album cover
Sabrii for the incredible sax on blues and neon lights
Nick from Coma Witch for the drums on neon lights
Richie Rodriguez for the bass on neon lights
Skye for backing me up with her gorgeous vocals (and for her patience with me as a roommate)
and to all my friends and loved ones

each day i hope to earn the love im given

darling

a little present as i enter a new phase of both my life and my musical career. i compiled both the original album (remastered to a higher quality standard than i was originally capable of) and an EP of b-sides i never properly released into a full collection featuring songs from a very specific era of my life.
thank you all for the support i've seen over the last 5 years. enjoy.

Songs For The Naive Soul (2023 Special Edition)

split amongst the seconds of somnambulant intent
a momentary passion betrays you with relief

Lyrics:
it seems coarse
that though i find myself in your arms every night
a morning comes to take it all
flashback
a midsummer dream, theatrical scenes, occipital delusions 
protruding a heartbeat only to seize

quiet comes
deceased, diseased
thoughts rushing in
a shame
that lingers
on your fingertips

the fool
the stars and death
thoughts rushing in
a name 
still sits
on your breath

whisper,
shallow ghosts
persistence
stillness
ruminations castigate
polaroid personalities
bronchial arrest
overactive synaptic telegrams
read STOP

breatheless

wrote this one a while back. I try to limit my hypocrisy to only the staple foods in my texan diet.

Lyrics:
hey there good morning
i got you some chai tea
with a bit of esspresso
to wake you up a bit
now i couldnt remember
do you like it hot or
do you like it cold with
a bit of ice
its okay i got you both
with a bit of chik fil a tho
i dont support them

Jesus Chicken

fantasma

never let a good thing last, that's what momma taught me

lyrics:
the years ground us down and to tell you the truth
why make it this far as a bomb with no fuse

s'pose we cant help it being this way
its the call of a window catching up to the flames

Said the dove pleading mercy at the grasp of the wind
Falling or flying? what difference did it make?

Why would it matter if we took all of the blame
its a cardial rust laying into the grave

so we try and we'll try to turn a new leaf
and they'll watch the fall happen, salt the wounds, and then leave
again and again and again

s'pose we can't help it being this way
it's the call of a window catching up to the flames

call

maybe theyre not that bad but its kinda lame to give up on them
dont really know why im doing much of anything at this point

dreams are terrible things to have, i think

lyrics:
sometimes
you see me and im not there
im sorry
im trying but it gets hard

its not like im hiding
myself, on purpose
my problem aren't yours to solve

"open up
open up and let it all spill out"
and youre gone
none of this was worth it at all

"open up
open up and let it all spill out"
and youre gone
youre gone
and youre gone
and youre gone

"open up
open up and let it all spill out"
and youre gone
none of this was worth it at all

"open up
open up and let it all spill out"
and youre gone
youre gone
youre gone
and youre gone

open

saltyman's bae (crunchy)

skip

butthead

riff

instrumentality

loseball

idiot

armadillo

school

who needs coping

heart eats self

almost lost you there (Remake)

who's dancin'

holding hands is some cool stuff

so things are pretty good right now

i get anxious when i drive so i try not to go anywhere

i like what i do i guess

hey i think youre really cool

for the record, i know i cant rap

lyrics:
sometimes its drops of rain
sometimes its storms that just start pouring in my brain
sometimes i handle it just fine all on my own
sometimes its tough to keep on going all alone

i dont spit 'cause i cant handle it
enunciate with no pace; tongue-tied like a shoelace
i was 24, did you know, before i could tie a shoelace
should've seen my face to think that someone even taught me

it makes me think, im late to all the parties im invited to
but at least i was invited and thats progress, im excited
cause the process was the topic on which i would anxiously fixate
but now im trying to get out of my head instead of stress or ruminate

and waste a day or waste away like im decay
on delay im livin' life from day to day 
and andale cause i hear you only live once
and if it is just this once, gonna give it all that ive got

but what if im not sure if life's ruined or not
and if its ruined it who'll come to patch it back up,
if my heart is glass, who's gonna come pick up the shards
or maybe love just isn't something in my deck of cards

and if the shards cut why not throw them away
if its not worth it to bleed on what's broke anyway
and if i feel all this i shouldnt call someone "bae"
have someone realize that maybe i really am just this way

what can i do if i cant improve for someone else?
is it kinder to put this dream up on to the shelf
right next to every other "if" that exists this hell
whether or not ive improved or im emotionally well

sometimes its drops of rain
sometimes its storms that just start pouring in my brain
sometimes i handle it just fine all my on own
sometimes its tough to keep on going all alone

im sorry if its stressful to see all of my thoughts
i try to cover them up or keep them under a lock
im really fine i promise but if i need to insist
is it really alright or am i doing a bit?

and if this is a bit then am i just a joke?
a facade a charade or maybe a hoax?
who is this person that no one can reach?
is it even a person or only a leech?

sometimes its drops of rain
sometimes its storms that just start pouring in my brain
sometimes i handle it just fine all my on own
sometimes its tough to keep on going all alone
sometimes its drops of rain
sometimes its storms that just start pouring in my brain
sometimes i handle it just fine all my on own
sometimes its tough to keep on going all alone

spit

Wrote it and recorded it within the span of a week last January. Shared it a few times but I felt I might keep it here.

Jan, 2015

Ambient tracks from bygone days. Never intended to be released but whatever. They'll help someone sleep at night. It's amature-ish and some tracks are over two years old but it's kinda good sleeping music. I think it's trash but I hope someone enjoys it.
credits

Jose Gomez- Guitar, Piano, Production, Recording on all tracks 

Special Thanks To My Boy Doku for the Inspiration 
My Homie Myka for the Cover 
My Other Homie Kat Cause She the Dopest 
Jacob Hutto cause I Love Him 
The Rest of The Homies For Making Life Cool 
and You, Whoever You Are...

songs on books

(reuploaded because the soundcloud app's playback was weird with this mix.)
I've had this on my computer a while. Alex G is my favorite artist to cover so I have another one on the way (might even upload it tonight). Anyways, this was an experiment in tape emulations, recording an electric guitar acoustically, and just going crazy on the lofi-ness of everything. oh and i totally fucked the lyrics.

Support Alex G, he's amazing: https://sandy.bandcamp.com/

Lyrics:
Yeah you were scarred
You were cryin loud right out in the schoolyard
And yeah I felt good
Everything i knew was looking just as it should
I saw the tree
Carved in it 666 and he found me
But I am no fool
I know everytime I look in his eyes he sees me too

Dry your eyes
I won't tell your mother
She won't ever discover
The things you kept under the covers

Please dont cry
I am not your brother
I am not your lover
And there is nothing wrong

Gnaw (Alex G Cover)

I watched fight club last night and i remembered how much i love this song.
Shoutout to my little sister for doing some OOOs with me

Support Pixies cause theyre old and somehow still pumping out bitchin' jams: http://www.pixiesmusic.com/

Lyrics:
Ooh, stop
With your feet in the air and your head on the ground
Try this trick and spin it, yeah
Your head will collapse
But there's nothing in it
And you'll ask yourself
Where is my mind
Where is my mind
Where is my mind
Way out in the water
See it swimmin'
I was swimmin' in the Caribbean
Animals were hiding behind the rock
Except the little fish
But they told me, he swears
Tryin' to talk to me koi koy
Where is my mind
Where is my mind
Where is my mind
Way out in the water
See it swimmin'
With your feet in the air and your head on the ground
Try this trick and spin it, yeah
Your head will collapse
If there's nothing in it
And you'll ask yourself
Where is my mind
Where is my mind
Where is my mind
Way out in the water
See it swimmin'
Ooh
With your feet in the air and your head on the ground
Ooh
Try this trick and spin it, yeah
Ooh
Ooh

Where Is My Mind (Pixies Cover)

He Was A Skater Boy
She Said "See You Later Boy"

I cant stop crying. No greater tragedy exists in the modern mythos.

Support Avril Lavigne I guess: http://www.avrillavigne.com/

Lyrics:
He Was A Skater Boy
She Said "See You Later Boy"
He Wasn't Good Enough For Her

Sk8er Boi (Avril Lavigne Cover)

sonic high school is true art

give support to DarkDoomFireMaster, a magnificent genius: https://www.fanfiction.net/u/3978540/DarkDoomFireMaster

Lyrics:
Being a teen is so hard
You have to learn how to drive a car
And if you hit any thing
It is you to jail they will bring
You also have to go to school
It is definitely not for fools
And everything is even harder because
My best friend died
Oh, wow, my best friend died
I just want to hide
High School drama is so hard to be a part of
It has crazy things like friendship and love
It is the worst
It makes me want to burst
You have to get a date or everyone will laugh
And in a lake they would push you off a raft
Girls wear make up and guys get tatoos
And there are so many possible drugs to do
There are also bullies around
And sports with balls that are round
And everything is even harder because
My best friend died 
Oh, wow, my best friend died
I just want to hide
High School drama is so hard to be a part of
It has crazy things like friendship and love
It is the worst
It makes me want to burst
'm doing a middle finger at God
But God is not real and the world is odd
I am crying so much that my tears could make a cave
Where you cannot be scared you just must be brave
I am tired of teens going on diets
And being mad and starting riots
And everything is harder because
My best friend died
Oh, wow, my best friend died
I just want to hide
High School drama is so hard to be a part of
It has crazy things like friendship and love
It is the worst
It makes me want to burst
Oh, wow, my best friend died
I just want to hide
High School drama is so hard to be a part of
It has crazy things like friendship and love
It is the worst
It makes me want to burst

Tails's Song (Sonic High School Cover)

i started a new job and i dont have time for anything and im always tired and i meet so many people ill never connect with and i feel small in a way that isnt comfortable anymore and i guess this song's kinda about that. my youth is flying away from me and all i can really do is let it happen by trying to not let it happen.

Lyrics:
im tired of feeling like a pilgrim
of feeling like stranger
im tired of feeling
of feeling like an outsider

i bruise too easy
and i cry on my own
i hope to fix this
before i get old

I'm tired of feeling like a pilgrim
of feeling like a pilgrim
of feeling
of feeling
of feeling
of feeling

i bruise too easy
and i cry on my own
i hope to fix this
before i get old

i like what i do, i guess

oh boy howdy ive been so sad like wow omg i wish i could afford a therapist and shit but whatever its all good im fine shit's always fine
also i have a patreon now, probably wont link it until im happy with my output and also if anyone wants lessons on how to make sad lofi stuff and also sound engineering hmu, i love teaching people stuff.

also shouts out to my dear friend Kathryn whomst provided the field recording used in the intro and end. ❤️❤️❤️

lyrics:
the days when i should rest
im anxious always stressed
know my best is worthless
i hate this i hate this

maybe i deserve this
im lonely cant help it
im crying by myself
all the time all the time

shit's been on my mind
shits been on my mind

ive been sick im still sick
please reject my friendship
isolate but im desperate
leech's mind drinks self dry

shit's been on my mind
shit's been on my mind

I Should Get A Therapist

Lyrics (but theyre not really lyrics i guess):
so i've.. i guess ive just been upset about a lot of things for a while and they just feel at this point like theyve been compounding and growing and festering and i dont really know what to do about it. its... i.. im not the worst ive ever felt thats for sure but i just dont feel like im going anywhere or improving in any way thats valuable and im scared that thats gonna keep going. i dont even feel like ive been able to express myself properly even within the things i normally find myself being able to express myself with like music or photography or like, some other artform and its upsetting. i go home and im tired and all i wanna do is sleep and i wanna be alone and have some privacy but i just dont have that anymore.

im filled with bad ideas

can i get uuhhhhhh, some validation pls. also idk my music is going on spotify and places by the end of the month and ill be trying to release my eps on tape. hmu if you want idk.

Lyrics:
please dont miss me; im not far (repeated like a million fucking times but the second time i sing them i just start crying)
You dont think about me and i guess thats fine
ive been trying for so long to feel alright
you said its fine to say goodbye
guess it's to rethink my life

trying is important and you always hope it works

fun while it lasted

lyrics:
i wish you a good night's sleep
hope you don't mind if I'm out of tune
im going to wish you a good night's sleep
hope it will lead to some real cool ass dreams
(i really like you)

lol aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
i really like people rn and its great i hope yall get that cozy feeling forever

lyrics:
hold my hand
a little while more
keep me close
please keep me close

from outta my dreams
i grin when youre here
its harder to speak
my stomach's filled with
butterflies, with butterflies

is it too soon
to say to you
my dear, i lo. my god, i lo
my god, i lo

from outta my dreams
i choke when youre near
its harder to speak
my stomach's filled with
butterflies, with butterflies

i think i now know
how to-hoo say
my dear i lo, my god, i lo
my god i love you so

holding hands is some cool shit

look at what you are
you ever get the feeling that everything is going right to make it worse when it all goes wrong?

Lyrics:
(look at what you are now)

ha im being productive.  shouts out to bob ross for helping me out with this one.

lyrics:
its wednesday im thinking about getting to see you tomorrow
im counting the seconds until im back in your arms
wasnt too long ago we saw each other last
miss you soon, when soon came the moment you left

miss you soon

the killer

im on a bit of an emo kick, been listening to some rainer maria.

edit 2022: if youve come back to this and notice it's a little different, I redid the mix and added some live drums (an instrument i didn't play at the original time of recording) kinda weird to just change it up like that but this is one of my favorite songs ive written and really wanted to do it justice.

lyrics:
your eyes had a blank stare
film screens in the back of my mind
you have what you wanted
we hold on to ourselves

long arms with awkward souls
grasp at moments as they pass
you have what you wanted
you live with yourself

film screens

almost lost you there

God buffalo '66 got me into a king crimson kick. this song is badass and i wish you could stream it.

Support King Crimson and Robert Fripp cause the man is a musical badass.

Lyrics:
Call her moonchild
Dancing in the shallows of a river
Lonely moonchild
Dreaming in the shadows of a willow

Talking to the trees of the cobweb strange
Sleeping on the steps of a fountain
Waving silver wands to the night-bird's song
Waiting for the sun on the mountain

She's a moonchild
Gathering the flowers in a garden
Lovely moonchild
Drifting in the echoes of the hours

Sailing on the wind in a milk white gown
Dropping circle stones on a sun dial
Playing hide and seek with the ghosts of dawn
Waiting for a smile from a sun child

Moonchild (King Crimson Cover)

doesn't it always
the feeling, a reminder

sting

impressed into heart
a distasteful visage of one's ill intent
masked by apologies that'd only go so far

ogre

some more stuff is on the way, hoping to get my upload schedule back to where it used to be. life has thrown me a shit ton of curveballs but that just means i got more to sing about.
this song is so much more morbid than youd think

Lyrics:
solar flares reverberate
through your soft skin
entwined with mine

aurora of my heartbeart
fleeting souls meant to meet
your name calls to mine
beckoning for more time

hours pass as days
begging you will stay

still air
still heir

Still Air

hope it all gets better

lyrics:
daddy says im going to hell
i've been bad all my life
but when I'm with you
i feel alright

the devil's knocking at my door
but I won't let him in

Preacherman

a three for one special for the lonely soul

lyrics:
I like songs about sad things
They make me feel less alone
I like songs about loneliness
They make me feel at home
They make me feel (random wailing)

sad things

through teeth sinking into bitter lips
a sigh escapes willfully deluding itself

Lyrics:
a temple shifts
the mind altars a goddess
you'd thought you could be everything

as credits roll, and carry on
an anxious spark, grim voices filled my ears
she tells me "You've got nothing to worry about"
yet the heartbeat of the clock keeps ticking down

young love
a desperation, fear of separation means
sure enough
they'd turn to see-you-soons
with young love
growing pains and bloodstained lips
oxidize to black and breath in

young love

lets see how it goes
i hope youre happy
i hope you stay happy

contacts open

Leech Gomez

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