Hey, It's been a while, but new name and some new songs! Gonna start posting more again, hope y'all like it!

Lyrics:

Wet callouses and my starved luck 
In some new noose I’m breathing still
This knot I tied was not enough 
But I may have just killed a symbol

A riot burns with every course 
All blind and deafening praxis 
A law, the third, it plays of course 
A race of endless reaction

Hold me down
Into the water 

Still I can’t fake the cynics laugh
I am bound to light in earnest 
And yet I’ve touched the inkwell black
But It takes fire to heal the burning

Hold me down
Into the water 

So here I sit with no recourse 
Other than to put my palms out 
To close this wound - a gaping mouth 
Screams I am you and you are me 
And after all this we are free 

Hold me down
Into the water

Hold Me Down (Demo)

boredom is a great motivator. don't let it consume you.
(expect more stuff soon <3)

Strip malls, sidewalks 
You are in love with a place I was born to hate
The silence and lonely
A location that never had anything to even say 

My inbox, with no talk 
It’s always nice to know that I’m wanted 
Stay in, you vagrant 
Conversationally you’re always walking 

Meeting up in separate circles 
For fun, we feel sorry for ourselves
Thinking in terms of what we serve
Simple pleasure brought forth our hell

I don’t know why 
I don’t know why
We feel closer when we let our teeth bite

Blemished sentiment 
My old photos ink is starting bleed
Question your worthless
Contacts are fleeting like your memories

No one remembers what you say
only how you made them feel 
Syntax redacts all day 
Make sure you keep your lips sealed

I don’t know why 
I don’t know why
We feel closer when we let our teeth bite

biite (demo)

This is supposed to be a full band song, so hopefully I'll get to do that at some point.


lyrics:
The talking death, a stifled breath, we used to feel some kind of comfort
Do you still think, that what you speak, carries little weight or something worse 

The Images, flickering, never seem to stay for far too long 
In my head I guess, I never make much sense, I just find something to put the blame on

moving counter clockwise now
the past will consume you 
Within that single shred of doubt 
I have no idea what I’ll lose
But I still hold my hand strong 
With childlike naivety 
Cause I always follow along
with what I was taught from movies

A phone call neglected, my stomach distended, I should’ve known it would go this way 
You’re stubborn loving, My grown hopeless longing, is your pride worth more than my pain

I can’t even tell, is this how I felt, when you split my ribs in two
I wish you could reach me, somehow just release me, its stupid to think that this is on you 

I’m moving counter clockwise now
the past will consume you 
Within that single shred of doubt 
I have no idea what I’ll lose
But I still hold my hand strong 
With childlike naivety 
Cause I always follow along 
what I was taught from movies

tv tropes (demo)

pro tip: drawing album art an hour before releasing a track is never a good idea

lyrics:

(you said) “Take my hand, I’ve always been the 
one you call, when you get drunk at night”
so I ask, if it ever bothers you 
you just laugh and say “no I don’t mind”

When we spoke it seemed like I’ve known you 
for years at least, the warmth felt real again 
opened up so much more than I could before 
I hope you’re starting to feel something

You could lead me on for miles / Just put me on a string 
Anything you’d like / I’d do my best to try and be 
If you desire distance, I understand it’s fine 
I’ll hold my breath forever, I’m glad to waste my time

Eye contact, I’m short of breath I can
barely breathe, let alone say anything 
that could be seen as smart or eloquent 
instead I am eternally overbearing 

Caught in a space indeterminate 
Between the ways how I feel and want to be 
I still ask if I can hold you, and
you look down and say “you’re not what I need”

“Right now”

You could lead me on for miles / Just put me on a string 
Anything you’d like / I’d do my best to try and be 
If you desire distance, I understand it’s fine 
I’ll hold my breath forever, I’m glad to waste my time

I’m trying, I’m trying
To talk myself down 
I know that I know that 
I know that this won’t work out

trying, still trying
To talk myself down 
I know that I know that 
Oh god let this just work out

strings (demo)

old strings on an even older guitar. this song is dedicated to seasonal depression. 

lyrics:

I’m a copy of a copy
A poorly preserved imitation 
Creeping slowly the monotony 
Begs too many questions too harsh to be making

How did I end up drowning 
In a sea of sedation and plastic siding 
Now my view has gone cloudy 
Caught up in the fog where middle class has been hiding

Beer lines the streets, winter means sleep 
Life stays the same 
The words that they keep, so ancient and mean 
Life stays the same

Mouths still move like they’re infants 
Could you speak a little more softly 
It may seem close but it’s all so distant 
Neighborhood chatter continues to haunt me

I’m starting to fall asleep 
To distant fights in the suburbs 
It’s warm but I can’t see 
The sun from behind these shutters

Beer lines the streets, winter means sleep 
Life stays the same 
The words that they keep, so ancient and mean 
Life stays the same

Beer lines the streets, winter means sleep 
Life stays the same 
The friends that you keep are far less in reach
Than you’d think

suburbs  (demo)

always left waiting, always left guessing, but i guess that should be the fun part, right? 

lyrics:

I was taking breath in the back of my yard 
Simple misbehavior never felt so bizarre
The atoms worked their way intricate in the seams
Synaptic silence occupies what should be a good nights sleep

And we’re still here 
Did we ever leave 
Time can be so weird 
We fill everything it seems 

Entropy prefers to live its life alone 
Static surrounding it’s apartment studio 
It will sing you a song you only need to ask
Nonsense is far more fun with the right context

And we’re still alive 
At least I think so 
Perception always blinds
We are trapped in the known

So listen when your not being spoken to
Unhinge all the locks they’ve drawn on top of you
Fall through all the gaps that were left behind 
See past all the tints placed by organized time

we are, we are, we are (demo)

10$ to the first person who guesses the meaning of this song correctly


lyrics:

Talking in your sleep
You don’t hear me anymore 
The waves crashing as you breathe
erode everything left from before

My tendons start to pull
Like threads from memory
A net has cast unlikely lasts for 
the next time you speak to me

Concentrate, rearrange 
all the chemicals you seek
Saw a saint, thought it strange
How we aren’t encouraged to leave

Paralyzed you lullabies 
are starting to lose their effect
Concentrate and create 
A world more comfortable instead

Sensory deprived 
I move closer to your world 
The lights are on inside 
But for the life of me, i still can’t see your work

Sorting out my head 
English influences my ears
A post-partum silhouette 
Formulates the structure of all your fears 

Concentrate, rearrange 
all the chemicals you seek
Saw a saint, thought it strange
How we aren’t encouraged to leave

Paralyzed your lullabies 
are starting to lose their effect
Concentrate and create 
A world more comfortable instead

Gardens i think
We don’t know what to feel 
Such a cruel thing 
To let me so near

gardens (demo)

I'm pretty sure there’s a ghost in my apartment 

lyrics: 
You’re trembling on the pavement 
Some forgotten elation 
Even new loves and interests 
Left static and tasteless

So what’s there to do but turn to?
Systematic drinking and throat burns through 
Smoking yourself up almost every day
When you’re this high, you’re too far away

To feel hopeless, with nothing as purpose 
Did eye contact always feel bad?
From temptation, you’re growing impatient 
The street signs will carry you back 

You’re talking too much to yourself 
Festering inside, ideas never fare very well
Come back to this planet we need to speak 
You’ve locked all the doors and you swallowed the key

Something broke inside of your heart
Chipped away by unintentional disregard 
Oh how it continues to pain me to see 
You searching these streets for a thought you can’t seek

It’s beyond yourself, clear to everybody else
so cruel how the game plays the stacks 
It will take some time, but stay in touch you will be alright
The street signs will carry you back

the street signs will carry you back (demo)

this was written a little while ago, hope you all dig it!

(also i’m gonna be out of town for a little bit, so next week’s song is gonna be a cover)

lyrics:

Burn marks sit on the ceiling of my skull
My brain, a forest fire of compliments and insults
I’ve tried so hard to put it out only to make it worse 
bad habits, inconsistent sadness, face heel turn 

I Was wrong to think I’m something different 
By god given talent and undeserved privilege 
I watched my ego grow by the day 
Now a balloon too stretched to properly deflate 

Bury me in all my past guilt and send me 3 feet deep
Long enough to keep me away but close enough to let me breathe
Cause I don’t deserve to die considering the state I’m in 
No clean slates and forgiveness until I’m absolved of sin 

I wish I didn’t put people on edge 
Why can’t the way I speak where make sense
The subtle phrases no one ever picks up on
Led me to a life of misinterpreted atomic bombs

Bury me in all my past guilt and send me 3 feet deep
Long enough to keep me away but close enough to let me breathe
Cause I don’t just get to die considering the state I’m in 
No clean slates and forgiveness until I’m absolved of sin

three feet deep (demo)

(Sorry i disappeared for 8 months)I got pretty weak for a while there

Don’t waste your time on me, but i’m trying
To be able to leave my house without dying 
Just a little on the inside with every 
single word I say or text that i’m sending

Cause its always been so much for me to 
Figure out how to hold my breath and continue
to recite the words I’ve prepared too soon 
instead I think I’ll just become a recluse

Watching, waiting, I will find a way in 
Loving, losing, I can live without it
Holding, Haunting, I will find that feelin
Falling, floating, to there is no difference

When I go home, I’ll be all I needed
Melodies will form from the sound of breathin
Watch me implode, just to find a reason 
there’s beauty in this weightlessness, I know that I am now forgiven 

Hold out your hand, you’ll be surprised to feel that
my skin did split, atoms always plan to detach
Disassembled, my head rolls towards some old map
this entropy reminds me why we try to seek a set path

Watching, waiting, I will find a way in 
Loving, losing, I can live without it
Holding, Haunting, I will find that feeling
Falling, floating, to me there is no difference

Watching, waiting, to me there is no difference
Loving, losing, to me there is no difference
Holding, Haunting, to me there is no difference
Falling, floating, to me there is no difference

Leech Lake

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