"I Was Wrong"
Performed by Ryan Nealon
Written by Davin Kingston, Jules Brave, and Ryan Nealon
Produced by Davin Kingston
Mixed by Brandon Unis
Mastered by Gabi Grella
Strings by Yasmeen Al-Mazeedi & Niall Ferguson

I Was Wrong

My North Star

family man

nomad

Too Unkind

Change Your Mind

Album Title: Muddy River Blues
Ten years ago, the heartbreak was fresh—but not clean. Muddy River Blues is a reckoning with the kind of love that leaves you questioning whether it was ever real. These songs were written in the aftermath of something unrecognizable: a relationship that twisted so far from its origin, it blurred the line between devotion and delusion.
Set deep in the heavy fog of Swamp Pop and Blues, the album drips with humidity and ache. The grooves are slow and thick, like river water after a storm—churning with memory, regret, and the kind of sorrow that doesn’t ask for sympathy. Vocals are raw and low, grounded in a contralto that doesn’t flinch. Every lyric is a confession, every chord a confrontation.
This isn’t heartbreak for the sake of drama. It’s heartbreak as forensic evidence. The songs don’t just mourn the ending—they dissect it. They ask: Who was I loving? Who was I becoming? And they don’t offer easy answers.
Muddy River Blues is a time capsule of clarity earned the hard way. It’s the sound of someone who survived the flood and lived to tell it

Muddy River Blues

Flatlining

“Forever in Waiting” is a tender and dreamy ballad that captures the timeless ache of longing for love to return home. With gentle melodies and soulful lyrics, it paints a picture of devotion beneath starlit skies — a song for hearts that know the beauty and the pain of waiting for someone they love.

Forever in waiting

Say farewell

A soft piano opens, weaving delicate melodies that evoke vulnerability. Gradually, drums and soaring synths join, creating an uplifting anthem

I ve heard your dreams

Sometimes I make a sidestep of my ceremonial sounds.
Beneath the sound of distant thunder lies the echo of loss, not only the passing of our parents, but the silent knowing that one day our own children will face the same storm.
This piece moves between grief and grace, between the lightning of memory and the calm that follows the rain.
It is a meditation on love that never leaves, on the circle that keeps turning, and on the thunder that reminds us we were once small, and still are, inside.

Childhood thunder

Leeuwenstein is the musical identity of Alex van Leeuwen, producer, songwriter, where he transforms inner journeys into immersive, ritualistic, and psychedelic soundscapes, a Dutch artist and ceremony guide who healed from PTSD through plant medicine. His music is crafted as a sacred space: a blend of shamanic tradition and electronic innovation, with tribal percussion, ambient textures, and angelic female vocals.

Leeuwenstein’s live performances and sound journeys are deeply immersive, supporting inner healing, movement, and expanded states of consciousness. Perfect for psychedelic ceremonies, truffle experiences, and conscious festivals, his albums, such as Frozen in Time, Rhythms of the Cosmos, and The Green Path, are widely used as tools for transformation.

Leeuwenstein invites his audience not just to listen, but to feel, remember, and return home to themselves.

Though rooted in healing music, Leeuwenstein occasionally ventures into political territory, crafting powerful protest songs that reflect on war, freedom, and the future of humanity.

Childhood thunder

Leeuwenstein

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