This song is about being suicidal, but having people in your life that need you and make life worth fighting for.

Lyrics

Cut and run
This life
Aint all its meant to be

Gotta go
See you soon
It’s all too much for me

Now I know
That I
Don’t Have the right to leave

Still it claws
At my eyes
A painful misery

But I get to see you smile
It may be simple but it’s nice
And I get to hold your hand
Then I feel at home again

Cut and run
This life
Aint how its meant to be

Gotta go
See you soon
It’s all too much for me

But I get to see you laugh
The memories and photographs
And I get to see you grow
mean more to me then you will know

Cut and run
This life
Aint how its meant to be

Gotta go
See you soon
It’s all too much for me

Now I know
That I
Don’t Have the right to leave

Still it claws
At my eyes
A painful misery

Still it claws
At my eyes
A painful misery

Still it claws
At my eyes
A painful misery

Cut And Run (demo)

A song about my new medication. So many medications....

Lyrics:
You miss something 
you’ve done enough
You’re telling me 
there is no cure

take one of these
whats one more pill
now seek out things
that make you feel

Sitting in my room
Shadows on the ground
Does anybody care
Is anyone around
Light a bit of weed
Try to numb it all
Silence the pain
I don’t care how

Tell me what I need
Cause I don’t even know
Can anybody see
I’m struggling right now
Trust the pharmacy
Is that all I do now
Is that all I do now
Is that all I do now

The wait is long
The wait is long
The wait is long

2 weeks have past
Don’t have no choice
Can’t fight my brain
Can’t seem to find my voice
Time does its thing
And I rejoice
Its almost the end
I think I found my voice

The weeks have past and
It starts kicking in

All the pain and suffering
Starts to fall right off of me
Could this be all that I want
Hope to gods it doesn’t stop

Happiness looks good on me
Drop the fear and anxiety
Relaxations all you need
Be a duck just paddling 

Didn't realize
that my life
could be somewhat nice

Finally alive
Finally alive
Finally alive

Can it be just what I need
Can it be yeah Can it be
Can it be just what I need
Can it be just what I need
Can it be yeah Can it be
Can it be just what I need

Lexapro (demo)

We’re losing out again you know
Our cupboards empty oh no
You scrimp and save
But nothing comes

Corporate greed
Its greatness has no meaning
Comes to feed
The souls of them are bleeding
Stocks rising
This money we are feeding
Trust in me
I live in the garden of eden

It’s time for work again You go
Your partners sick again oh no
You work and slave
But nothing shows

People suffering outside
There still profiting from lives
Turn the other cheek
For some fancy things you don’t need
People suffering outside

Yeah
I’m crazy but I’m right
Capitalistic greed
So many millionaires around
While we can’t afford to save our lives

CAPITALism

Pleased to meet you
I think we’ve met before
Seen you dying for oblivion
Then coming back for more

Suddenly you’re
You’re longing to be dead
Sending all the pain
Completely out your head

The plague of this insanity
But you shouldn’t make a sound

These children need a family
Don’t wanna let them down

So one more time around

The choices that we make
Will lead to some mistakes
Just strive to be great

One more time around

The start of a new day
Some drugs to numb the pain
Just want to feel nothing

If it wasn’t for others needs
I wouldn’t be around

But apparently people like me
So I’ll stand my ground

For one more time around

The choices that we make
Will lead to some mistakes
Just strive to be great

One more time around

The gift of a new day
Some drugs to numb the pain
I Don’t want to feel nothing

One more time around

One More Time Around(No Way Out)

You caught me by surprise
A beauty and a mind

Make me lose the night
I Won’t even fight

Cause what you are is love
Just hope that I’m enough

stay close by my side
And lay with me tonight

I’ll pet you to sleep again
I’ll pet you to sleep again
I’ll pet you to sleep again
Tonight

Hypnotizing eyes
A subtle kind of smile

Your perfect blue-black hair
I can’t help but stare

When all is lost
And you’ve had enough
I’ll tuck you into bed
Tonight

I’ll pet you to sleep again
I’ll pet you to sleep again
I’ll pet you to sleep again
Tonight

When I taste your lips
I cannot resist

And When I hold you tight
That’s when I’m alive

I’ll pet you to sleep again
I’ll pet you to sleep again
I’ll pet you to sleep again
Tonight

Say it’ll never end
Stay with me and then
I will love you 
tonight

Pet Me To Sleep

Desires of men
Sadly, leave their morals
You sit there Sunday
Casting all your judgment

I don’t need your prayers
I don’t need your soul

You’re quoting from a book
Telling me the lord
Will send me to hell
If I don’t accept him

I don’t need your faith
I don’t need your Heaven
Cause I don’t want a god
That I don’t even know

You’re claiming these things
Clearly are a sin
Well, I did all of them
So cast me out again

I don’t want your truth
It is built on hatred 

I don’t want your hope
It is built on lies

I don’t want your thoughts
I don’t need your love

We’re alone now
And it’s cold out

Fate Of The Faithless

You miss something 
you’ve done enough
You’re telling me 
there is no cure

take one of these
whats one more pill
now seek out things
that make you feel

Sitting in my room
Shadows on the ground
Does anybody care
Is anyone around
Light a bit of weed
Try to numb it all
Silence the pain
I don’t care how

Tell me what I need
Cause I don’t even know
Can anybody see
I’m struggling right now
Trust the pharmacy
Is that all I do now
Is that all I do now
Is that all I do now


The wait is long
The wait is long
The wait is long







2 weeks to pass
Don’t have no choice
Can’t fight my brain
Can’t seem to find my voice
Time does its thing
And I rejoice
Its almost the end
I think I found my voice

The weeks have past and
It starts kicking in

All the pain and suffering
Starts to fall right off of me
Could this be all that I want
Hope to gods it doesn’t stop

Happiness looks good on me
Drop the fear and anxiety
Relaxations all you need
Be a duck just paddling 

Didnt realize
that my life
could be somewhat nice

Finally alive
Finally alive
Finally alive

Can it be just what I need
Can it be yeah Can it be
Can it be just what I need
Can it be just what I need
Can it be yeah Can it be
Can it be just what I need

Lexapro

Be Bizarre 
If its all that you can be
If it makes you feel happy
Or you just want to be seen

come along
doesn’t matter where you’ve been
cause theres no such thing as sin
And the futures about to begin

From all that I can see
There shouldn’t be anymore suffering
Is anybody else like me
I guess I’ll have to wait and see

Look around
Theres so much more to see
A future where we’re free
… Free to be anything

How Bizarre
This life that we must lead
The constant stumbling
While the people stand watching

… I need to believe 
Theres bits of hope mixed in with all the greed
Is anybody else like me
…

I guess not
We’ll just keep moving on
Cause the future sure looks fun
Now Come join everyone

Be Bizarre 
If its all that you can be
If it makes you feel happy
We all just want to be seen

Be Bizarre 
If its all that you can be
If it makes you feel happy
Come join my family

Be Bizarre
Come join my family
Come join my family

Be Bizarre

it’s time for me to go now
Spent too long Chasing dreams

I’m headed out west out to the coastline
For one last glimpse of that blue sea

But I’m not giving up
It’s just that I’ve had enough
I gave it quite the chance
You should a seen me dance
But I’m not giving up

I’m tired of waiting for the good times
Cause they don’t always show
When happiness abandons    you
That’s when it’s time to go

But I’m not giving up
It’s just that I’ve had enough
I gave it quite the chance
You should a seen me dance
But I’m not giving up

I know that this decision
Should be filled with shame
And don’t think I’ve abandoned you    I
Just couldn’t take the pain

Letters For The Future

Fancy suit and tie
Yeah, He’s dressed to the nines
And He’s out for a bite
She passes him 
with an Innocent grin
soon the violence begins

Look into my eyes
I’m the one you like
I’ll give you the world tonight
Let your mind give in
A perfect night for sin
Now It’s time for a bite

Till the blood runs cold
Oh he’ll never be old
He’ll never be told
She’s all dried out
And the suns almost out
Get inside right now

Now he’s alone
But he lives on
And sings his song
How can he go on
Singing these songs
when they don’t sing along

Vampire's Lament (I'm Hungry)

Schizophrenic transgender mother of four I guess sums me up. I make video games for a living and just released my first album.

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