It is not easy living this way
My colors are faded turning to grey 
I've sat in wonder/ The shit I replay
The thought of my fate and the way that you'd say
the words that you did the shit that you hid
I cannot forget                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    
I've no control/ what I cannot do


This shi so crazy/what I put my self through
Been through the ringer and still fell through
cause i fell for you cause i felt for you
somedays its unreal how much you control
the feelings I feel my heart is so cold
where can i run to/ how can i undo
the feelings I have for you/ shit that I see through

cause you say you want me and i want you back
but all of this flooding emotion comes back
do you really mean what you say ab love
are you scared of our love cause our love is my drug

its not easy living this way
my love is fading running away
ive got to thinking it shouldn't be this way
the though of our future the shit i replay
constant reminder nothings here to stay
some things i cant live wit some shit i cant take
i can forgive you but i cant forget
so what do i with with the thoughts in my head?
the world can judge me i still stay the same
i may be different but im staying this way
hats off im self made trans man grenade
take me or leave me ill never change

do you really mean what you say ab love
would you walk away if i wasn't enough?

Scared of our love

its a crazy life 
in this crazy world
live in a crazy home 
less than we deserve
ain't that a shame
but its the truth
this is the dream of us
and what were living through

how bout we talk about the real thing
yeah this shits wild when you think about the real thing
when you told US you knew the truth about covid 19
all the poison you was cookin up to make mainstream
dealing drugs to the weaker half killing our nation just so that you could have a laugh its got so fuckin bad
but we are not blind and we can see what's on the other side the nations full of lies

tell me why I bust my ass to live another day
and everyone I know lives the same way
living pay to pay you gotta pay to play 
but life ain't a game you just made it that way
a greedy leadership that takes what they can get
whens it time speak up against the leadership
wake up and smell the lies its time handle it

but you take what we get before we get our hands on it
and everything we need you dip your hands in it
when does it end how much more of us u gonna take
before we stand up to your bullshit the systems bout to break
everything i knew was fucked up from the jump
they lie and steal so much id rather deal w trump
this worlds is crazy what can you do
this worlds a liar ain't that the truth
I'm ready to go pack my bags im out the door
I'm ready to go pack my bags pedal to the floor
its time to ride the lightning out this bitch.
I ain't waiting no more ain't no trust left in this bitch 
cause I cant take no more with all this fuckin crazy shit
ruining the world as we know it biden you can live w it
you manifested you created it and you can live w it
your a piece of shit. you remember it, yeah, you remember it

 tomorrow's a new day 
new world new age coming our way
open your eyes your life is in demise 
I wanna believe its not true but its right in front of my eyes




new world

you pressed your lips upon my finger tips
I cant forget the look in your eyes when u did
I melt into the light you bring to my soul
you made me want to start a new world with you im home
sometimes I lose my faith in love.
sometimes I feel like im not enough
you give me confidence you made me believe
that I could have a woman like you love me 
I've waited a lifetime to give my heart to you
but ill wait forever to hear you say you do
for these words i promise to hold only for you 
baby this I do is long overdue 


my 
LOVE LOVE 
YOUR ALL I EVER DREAM OF
AND I , I WANT 
TO BE FOR YOU EVERYTHING THAT I CAN 
JUST SAY I DO JUST SAY I DO 
cause I love you

and ill never give up
my mind is made up
baby its so true 
i cant live without you 

my,my
my love, love 
your all i ever dream of
just say I do, say I do,
cause I love you



say I do

I'm on a train to run away
bought a ticket to another place
take me higher than I ever been
im so tired of playin pretend
what can I do
can you take me away
to another place
to live another fate
its not okay
not that you asked but
im a little sad
but I never know why 
its something I try to hide
maybe in my mind inside 
its got a broken wire 
i am on fire
how do I unwind
inside, inside

who am I 
do I really know 
how many days I been feeling alone
how can I stop 
running away, away
just wanna run run
just wanna run run
just wanna run run away away
just wanna run run
just wanna run run
just wanna run run away away

to another place
nothing to say nothing to say
I'm not okay
its never a question of why 
but how can I
sleep at night
knowing im not complete
knowing that ill never be
who I really I wanna be
on the inside 
how do I fight this pain I hide
I cant take this mental life
how do I breathe 
when I dont feel me

who am I 
do I really know 
how many days that I been feeling alone
how can I deal with everything I know
how can I feel when everybody judges me
this how I really need to be
thats why I wanna run away
so far

cause I cant fucking take it
I cant fucking 
Im, so tired
Im, so tired
just wanna run run
just wanna run run
just wanna run run away away
just wanna run run
just wanna run run
just wanna run run away away
away away away away away
just wanna run away from here
just one single tear 
is all i
is all i










run away

its crazy how your perception of everything changes 
life goes on while everything rearranges 
beauty was in everything thats how it seemed to me
colors are more dull then they used to be
star in your eyes, laugher in the distance 
no fears, sleeping through the night
friends by your side, it was a different life
happiness in my soul it was a different time

sometimes I wish I could
turn back the clock 
and make things okay 
maybe Id see things a different way
but sometimes you can't
change how everything is
and I know 
everything is gonna stay the same
sometimes you have regrets in life
but you can't turn back time
and thats okay dont look back at yesterday 

time changes the mind, and how you see
pain changes the heart, you breathe heavy
with every breath no emotion left in me
and I cant hardly speak
trauma rips away your your hopes and dreams
it never goes away it leaves you empty
If I could id go back in time to fix it all
maybe that would change everything 

sometimes I wish I could
turn back the clock 
and make things okay 
maybe Id see things a different way
but sometimes you can't
change how everything is
and I know 
everything is gonna stay the same
sometimes you have regrets in life
but you can't turn back time
and thats okay dont look back at yesterday

don't look back

its been years since I spoke about the past
seems this music is my therapeutic cast
pour my emotions into this moment 
listen to a lullaby my heart was holding

not to get it mixed up I hold no anger
but you gotta let it spill or let it simmer
I chose to let it go into a flow
so I dont have to hold onto it anymore

I never had noone to listen to my pain
and everything that happen was a fucking shame
not tryna cry or ask for sympathy 
but shits fucked whyd it have to be me

where were you when I changed
where were you when i took the blame
where were you when I had no where to turn too
when I looked  to you to tell what you what I been through 
where were you when I reached out for help
when I sat alone in my room and cried to myself
where were you when the flame went out in me, in me

I learned to deal with emotions in my own way
the only one to hear me and what I had to say
was myself so I relied on my own brain
to get me through my thoughts to deal w my own pain

maybe thats the reason why I sit up on a shelf
id rather be alone then ask anyone for help
its a habit that was molded by the silence 
maybe it'd be different if I had some guidance

its never easy to accept the flaws i see in me
I struggle every day to look past reality
the simple fact is I was trained to think a certain way
when all I wanted as kid was just to run and play

instead I deal with memories I should've never seen
some people in this world, should never be allowed to breath
they walk around with every one, they try to blend in 
but what you may not know is most of em pretending

you can't protect yourself if you got no strength to fight
you can't fend of the lions if you got teeth to bite
your just a victim to a predator no room to run
then they sit next to you and tell you "yeah, it'll be fun"

where were you when I changed
where were you when i took the blame
where were you when I had no where to turn too
when I looked  to you to tell what you what I been through 
where were you when I reached out for help
when I sat alone in my room and cried to myself
where were you when the flame went out in me, in me


therapeutic cast

what if tomorrow never comes
what if your life was dead and gone
your life flashed like a smoking gun
would you regret the things you've done

this world will spin without you in it
to it your life less than minute
but it consumes your every atom 
ain't it a crazy thing to fathom

one blink of eye
the night is gone
next thing ya know 
you see the sun
one day is done
what more to come?
you never know
how long you can run

well ain't it crazy what life we living
where it consumes you and every minute
but while we in it we take for granted 
the love that's priceless the gifts were handed
well ain't it crazy what life we living
where it consumes you and every minute
but while we in it we fail to see truth
we fail to be the one who sees the best in you

do you see the best in yourself?
or do you fail to see the truth?
do you see the best in you?

don't that make you think twice about your life
get up get out enjoy the ride
share you kindness with the world
or sit and hide buried in hurt
the choices yours don't be afraid
take back your life don't be a slave
the system your in wants you to be blind
well prove em wrong an let your sun shine

well ain't it crazy what life we living
where it consumes you and every minute
but while we in it we take for granted 
the love that's priceless the gifts were handed
well ain't it crazy what life we living
where it consumes you and every minute
but while we in it we fail to see truth
we fail to be the one who sees the best in you

we fail to see truth
in you
be the best in you
don't fail to see you, to see you 
it's only you
that can see the truth


best in you

just like the world 
the water flows through the river
the leaves they grow and fall
everything flows together 
perfectly
just like the water in the sea
that's how I wanna be for all eternity
cause I been broken
I've not spoken
I can fix it
I wanna believe 

I can escape
I can be okay, I can be okay
everything's okay everything's okay
namaste namaste

[falsettos]
namaste namaste namaste
just take me away
take  me away
take me away
away

I am one
I'm divine
I come to you to change my life
just like clouds that soar in the sky
that's where I wanna feel so high
existing perfectly 
just like the water in the sea
that's how I wanna be
that's how I wanna be

[falsettos]
namaste namaste namaste
just take me away
take  me away
take me away
away

namaste, namaste
make no mistake
take me away






namaste


I took my heart n  pulled it right outta my chest
right from the start i gave you all I had of my best
and then I sank down into a hole that you dug for me
I even let go of my soul as u left me there to bleed

you stole my trust you led me too believe
that I couldn't do any better than you done for me
I took it all in stride and I looked into my mind
it's just then that saw what I was meant to find
was the answer to it all

you blame me
I'm just crazy 
but now I see
the writing on the wall 
the dusk before the dawn
the break before the fall
I see it all/ I see it all
I see it all/ I see it all
the writing on the wall 

blinded by the lies
I kept it all inside 
I never wanted to feel the truth
but when I let go of the fear inside all I saw was you
and as i stood there looking back at you 
I could finally see, the one that i saw 
the one blame for it all that reflection was me

blame me
I'm just crazy 
but now I see
the writing on the wall 
the dusk before the dawn
the break before the fall
I see it all/ I see it all
I see it all/ I see it all




writing on the wall

all this time I spent up too bent up tryna fix myself
too many days in darkness why don't I just kill myself
tried to let go of the demons they keep haunting me
I've tried to keep my head up see the light to set me free

well it's harder then it seems cause I can only dream this way
my attempts in reality have only failed to lead the way
my conscious keeps telling me there's somehing that I can't see
I cant unblind myself to fight the thoughts stopping me

tell me that one day I can find myself again
I can learn to love again that this isn't the end
I can't take the unknown person that see in myself
I'm invisible in the mirror, tell me what makes me a man
cause I want to learn to love myself again

never thought I'd be this distant my heart is missing from me
I've felt more pain as I grow older this is stopping me
I can't smile anymore there's days I wish I could  give up
never thought Id want to walk away from all that I love

cant you see I'm empty but I'm trying to pretend 
that I can be worth it in end that I can be a man 

I don't wanna let go
but I want to feel my soul
I want to smile
when I feel the sunshine on my skin 
tell me that this isn't the end

tell me that one day I can find myself again
I can learn to love again that this isn't the end
I can't take the unknown person that see in myself
I just want to see me in the mirror, and love me for all that I am



leeboi

Popular tracks