I wrote this song about hyper-independence. A trauma response after being let down far too many times by far too many people. For so long I always needed to be around other people to feel okay. I was never really comfortable just being by myself. I always looked for validation from other people and would get let down when someone wouldn’t fulfill promises. Over the past year or so, I’ve almost become too comfortable with being alone. It’s healthy to enjoy your alone time, but it can be toxic sometimes. For example, not letting your guard down to form new relationships with anyone because every one you have had seems to end at one point or another. So as a result, you prefer to stay in your own bubble even when it gets lonely sometimes.

The music video starts out with me confined in my own space and feeling the need to get out which I then drive to just another secluded place to be alone. The mirror I encounter inside represents feeling trapped and not knowing how I am being perceived but knowing it’s not my responsibility and the mirror with no reflection outside represents the fear of being perceived in a way that isn’t exactly how I want to see myself to be. Do you ever wonder how people perceive you? But you isolate yourself so much that you never really have anyone around that actually gets to see the genuine you, so then you feel like you come off as standoffish from an outside perspective? Or maybe people see you as a better version of yourself than you do and actually want to try to get close, but you avoid any uncomfortable situation that triggers any sort of social anxiety or fear of being hurt, despite the need for human connection.

I hope you can feel the emotion I put into this. If you dig it, please share!

Thank you to my brother who gave me the opportunity to feel what it’s like to front a band, something I’ve always thought would be cool to do, and for filming this music video.

Music written by Randy Pasquarella and Dan Conklin of If I Were You

Song recorded, mixed and mastered at Pasquarella Recordings 

Music Video filmed and edited by Pasquarella Recordings

Save Me Now

I Hate Everything About You - Three Days Grace - Drum Cover

heavydirtysoul (Rock Version)

Taken from Glasslands' debut album Pariah, out now on all major digital outlets!

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LYRICS

So help me up; my body’s stuck. 
I want to go back; don’t want to feel that. 
I’ve had enough; this isn’t love. 
My mind is haunted by this frozen wasteland. 

I won’t be strong; least not for long. 
What’s your cryptic? Tell me what’s your secret? 
Come get your fix; just whisper it. 
We’ll all keep living in this secret sin.  

Set my world on fire, cause I want to watch it burn. 
Hold me under water, cause I’m already a dead man. 
I’m dead without you. 

Now pick your sin, cause I want to feel them. 
What’s the difference if I’m never gonna be full grown 
and I’m going at this all alone? 
Cause I can’t ever come back home. 

I am pariah and I can’t comprehend. 
You are the feeler; know the weight of my sins. 
I am pariah; am I too far gone? 
You are the feeler waiting for the day that I…come home.

I'm a dead man.

Pariah

Deadman

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Three Days Grace - I Hate Everything About You

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Yellowcard - Breathing

Hospital for souls ♫Bring me the horizon♫ Nightcore (3D)

Song: Red Stars
Album: Walking With Strangers (2007)

Red Stars

WE ARE MORE THAN A LOST GENERATION" NEW WAVE HARDCORE

I Don't Care

Megadeth---Blood Of Heroes

FL Studio

Soundfonts:
Final Fantasy VIII - Bass1 - FX2
Final Fantasy VII - Rhodes - FX1
Final Fantasy VII - Strings - FX2

VST/Software Instruments:
EZ Drummer - Drumkit From Hell - FX2
Peach (by Tweakbench) - hover - FX1
Peach (by Tweakbench) - crash - FX1
Triforce (by Tweakbench) - Saved Preset 1 - FX2

Samples:

FX Chain:
FX1 = Fruity Reverb 2 + Fruity Delay 2
FX2 = Fruity Reverb 2 + Fruity Delay 2

RNGesus Saved My Life

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RNGesus Saved My Life

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