i love him so much id do anything for him

i never had a childhood but i wanna forget it i hate the fact i was used and abused.

I find myself so fucking ugly I’ll never had a relationship I’m so drained and tired of everything I wished I was just borned pretty god hates me I want to kill myself I just want to be held again, I never get happy with my appearance my life isn’t worth it I’m sorry I wish I was better

on repeat for over a year, engraved in my boundless mind shall i rot.

kendrick? kendrick? did you hear that kendrick?

The best version of the instrumental you will find. I try my best to respond to anyone who comments. You’re not alone. 🫂

loser monologue (Instrumental Extended)

a glimpse of heaven, or wherever you are slowed.

to be loved is to be changed

i tried to kill myself two days ago and no one noticed

nothing is real tracks (soundcloud): https://soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/nir
all 20 NIR albums(spotify): https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6H7FT9Um7zb7aRgFbSMLX3
download: https://tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/nothing-is-real-part-xviii

thank you for listening <3

nothing is real, part XVIII

NIR playlist 💛

make everything make sense again.

not recommended for listening if you have suicidal thoughts.

spotify - https://open.spotify.com/album/6PpRJwz7nY8YKAeAXRAHfW?si=5WP-3iUOTBqbvVf2iH5a_A

road traffic accident

you’ll be ok
listen on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4bPAjzzRgXSoCOXVftIMK2?si=412db05c334e4b96

give me a hug before you're gone

not recommended for listening if you have suicidal thoughts.

spotify - https://open.spotify.com/album/40njHIBZY0OnjuKEPKC9pu?si=Dgpu5ZQ9RqGJrE62MYVpCw

if you need more of this you can follow me - https://www.instagram.com/lesmusicprod/

Lyrics: 

My footsteps tread
Lie low and lone the silent dead,
Beneath the turf, beneath the mould,
Forever dark, forever cold,
And my eyes cannot hold the tears
That memory hoards from vanished years
For Time and Death and Mortal pain
Give wounds that will not heal again,
Let me remember half the woe
I've seen and heard and felt below,
And Heaven itself, so pure and blest,
Could never give my spirit rest,
Sweet land of light! thy children fair
Know nought akin to our despair,
Nor have they felt, nor can they tell
What tenants haunt each mortal cell,
What gloomy guests we hold within,
Torments and madness, tears and sin!
Well, may they live in ectasy
Their long eternity of joy;
At least we would not bring them down
With us to weep, with us to groan,
No, Earth would wish no other sphere
To taste her cup of sufferings drear;
She turns from Heaven with a careless eye
And only mourns that we must die!

derealization

DISCLAIMER : This track explores themes of mental anguish and self-destruction. If you are struggling, please seek help. You are not alone.

the morning after.

I'm sorry

i watched them all die in the fire

not recommended for listening if you have suicidal thoughts.

@houleistired

Spotify - https://open.spotify.com/track/0KvFA2nckCvUKgx3SWMNi6?si=741e2925bcae408b

the day you left

stream: https://open.spotify.com/track/2btLchuHTdHf9T128wudwu

Empty Hours

not recommended for listening if you have suicidal thoughts.

spotify - https://open.spotify.com/track/1LalVcPcXvUAbLCwYGUOxe?si=254dcb29395042fc

derealization

les

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