what i used to be

imma be honest I don’t even want this but I don’t wanna let go,
all those things I promised, had u in my pocket,
the demons the feelings, and the world, 


and I been giving you my love, and I fear that it’s not enough, they always told me growing up that life is going to be tough, if I woulda known it was this hard I woulda stopped it long ago, but I’m not weak in the mind that’s not the way my story goes

you can catch me in the night time with the demons,  
yea I’m hiding in the shadows,  I have my reasons. 

yea ur in my head i really got my heart up on my sleeve,
yea u said me u love me girl but next day you just went and leave, 
fall asleep, I’m dreaming but my fucking thoughts are falling weak 
I don’t wanna feel like this I got my heart up on my sleeve


I want it all to last but nothing ever lasts in life,
my life has been alright except from all the constant fights, 
just put on ur headphones, close the door shut ur eyes and you’ll make it through the night, everything will be alright just know I’m always by ur side 

imma be honest I don’t even want this, 
I might have to let go, 
if worse comes to worse then I’m sorry for this shit, 
I’m gonna let go

shadows.

i really wanna live the dream life, shit but it turns out <3

lyrics: 
this is everything I have I don’t know if this gon work out,
I really wanna live the dream life shit but it turns out,
I don’t know what I want but what if this does work out,
maybe I could help my parents so they never have work now,

up inside my head the voices yea they tell me to stop,
there’s a lack of understanding they don’t know this is all I got,
It really makes me think who would I be without this shit,
maybe lost in my life, without this music I would not be shit,

I started two years ago, I progressed a bit ,
and I lost A couple friends on the way but it is what it is,
to the people I have now sorry for being so distant,


I can’t find myself so I made it my life mission,
seek out for help find somebody to listen,
all I see is flaws in myself how I fix this?
I rely on smoke at night to get me to the next day,
without it, it’s like kryptonite it bites me on my worst days,
I don’t drop enough so I gotta up the work rate,

she said I don’t see no flaws you don’t need fucking fixing,
I know you feel lost I can join u with ur mission,
I know that it’s hard living life with addictions


make ur last wish drop the penny in the fountain
we been climbing too long to drop up off this mountain
i been here im soon gone, eighteen years im counting,

I can’t find myself so I made it my life mission,
seek out for help find somebody to listen

this is everything I have I don’t know if this gon work out,
I really wanna live the dream life shit but it turns out,
I don’t know what I want but what if this does work out,
maybe I could help my parents so they never have work now,

up inside my head the voices yea they tell me to stop,
there’s a lack of understanding they don’t know this is all I got,
It really makes me think who would I be without this shit,
maybe lost in my life, without this music I would not be shit,

life mission [michael harrison]

[lyrics]

[benzo]

shawty told me that she wanna take a trip tonight
me and carter getting fucked up till the day we die
shawty told me that she wanna take a trip tonight 
i'm gonna have to lace the shrooms with some kryptonite 

take a tab of acid watch me talk to the sun
my ego's dissipating & my conscience far gone
this is the life i'm living and it is so fun
so addictive 
i've got nowhere else to run

Kryptonite w/ Carter Tomorrow (prod.flower)

Lyrics:
this dead air is leaving me chocked
draw in this smoke, burning holes in my throat 
talk to my ghost, it followed me here to my home
We kissed and you pulled me in close 
the next day you cut it off cold, and I froze
blood in my shoes walk into the unknown
and lately it feels like the worlds monochrome

black and white
tearful eyes
short lived highs
you can lie

pain subsides 
knives inside
kill my pride
I don’t mind 

this dead air is leaving me chocked
draw in this smoke, burning holes in my throat 
talk to my ghost, it followed me here to my home
We kissed and you pulled me in close 
the next day you cut it off cold, and I froze
blood in my shoes walk into the unknown
and lately it feels like the worlds monochrome

I’ve been hurt too many times and now my heart is absent
forget everything just like it never happened
crystalize these fragments need to stabilize 
I’ve been panicked, feeling paralyzed

SPOTIFY

Shivers (prod. nate2timez, Blocktane, steezy prime)

(deebø)
Padded rooms, im just talking out my head now
Look myself in the mirror when i break down
Boutta run away and try and keep my head up
Split myself, like im toting twin berretas

Sleep alone and im always in the background
In a dazed fucking state, cause of that loud
On the moon, yeah im feeling interstellar 
Wasting time when im wrtiting all these letters 

Talkin shit bout my life when you on that phone
You knew the consequence was bad, now leave me alone

I jus wanna see the light of day now💔💔
I jus wanna see the light of day💔💔

Yeah shes taken all control
Evil witch, she took my soul
My whole bodies growing mold
Living nightmares that i loathe

(SCRE4M)
aint much to say cuz ian rlly tryna dissapoint 
id rather find a fix with rolling up another joint 
ok i made sum bad decisions ian have a choice 
im tryna get shit thro yo head but you jus get annoyed

why you tryna act all sad in this bitch 
aint makin figures but ill figure path in this bitch uh 
ian tryna make you mad in this bitch
but i hate it when you snappy and u actin like this uh 

fucking with my bro gon leave you dead in a coffin 
couldnt trust yo bitch she been very dishonest 
last thing thats running thru my head is ur comments 
imma find my purpose and i swear it to god 



i know sum ppl couldnt feel me 
quit fuckin wit my head bitch why tf u actin silly
i know the drugs that i been takin aint gon heal me
but all of this fake love that i been gettin finna kill me

(ghøsty)
she want bags
gucci + fendi
fads make em envy
the tabs make you empty
i know when im gone that you gon prolly forget me

i just wanna see the light of day x2

ion feel like talkin about this
if you would, get off my dick
all these people say they fans of me
my song not on they list
i aint tryna make no enemies 
but i wont take no shit

lay a bitch down in her crib if she gon cry about it
i think ima need a hit, no like ill die without it
turned out better than these hoes w no dad
no doubt about it
in da benz, im flippin O’s 
i could make a money mountain

down a fifth & throw it up
you wouldnt even know me now
all my bros been growin up
only ones that held me down
miss my bro, been chokin up
really wish he stuck around
same ones throwin shade at us
same ones in that shit ol town

they wont ever get it tho
i know everything they dont
they be shoppin five below
my bitch shop at mavilo

packin up a Raw cone, to the dome where ill face it
thinkin i see home, i dont know if ill make it

Light of Day ft.DEEBOTWOSEVENOH & ghost (methboiswag)

[intro]
it kills me slow
cuz youre my one, i already know

[chorus]
girl i cant lie
when i look into your eyes
it makes me wanna cry
i just wanna take your pain away

i know how you feel inside
cuz i been there before
n ill tell you
it can go away

just imagine
its us in a castle
while moon shines down
glowing on your pretty face

n i know deep down
that its only me n you
n theres nobody else 
that could take your place

[verse]
girl i wanna take away your pain yeah
girl i wanna take away your pain yeah

girl i wanna take away your pain
i wanna be there for your every need
i really hope you love me back the same
i really dont like when youre far from me

tell me if i died would you mourn me
tell me if i died would you mourn me

tell me, if i died would you mourn me
god i really hate when i think this way

it kills me slow
cuz youre my one, i already know

[chorus]
girl i cant lie
when i look into your eyes
it makes me wanna cry
i just wanna take your pain away

i know how you feel inside
cuz i been there before
n ill tell you
it can go away

just imagine
its us in a castle
while moon shines down
glowing on your pretty face

n i know deep down
that its only me n you
n theres nobody else 
that could take your place

[outro]
girl i cant lie
when i look into your eyes
it makes me wanna cry
i just wanna take your pain away

i know how you feel inside
cuz i been there before
n ill tell you
it can go away

just imagine
its us in a castle
while moon shines down
glowing on your pretty face

n i know deep down
that its only me n you
n theres nobody else 
that could take your place

neverland

i love it when you look at me like you need me
your emerald eyes appear in my dreams while im sleeping
i need the warmth of your body, its like ive been craving
lay here with me for awhile this is exactly what i needed

its exactly what i needed
its exactly what i needed

i dont know how to say it, but theres something about you
i need you here, you take my heart, ill belong to you
i want you and only you, you got no competition
you make me feel like im alive again, i cant explain it

oh baby look at me again with those eyes
i promise you, i want you for the rest of my life

i love it when you look at me like you need me
your emerald eyes appear in my dreams while im sleeping
i need the warmth of your body, its like ive been craving
lay here with me for awhile this is exactly what i needed

what i need

Prod Dj Matt Perry Maine edm goat supporting independent artists. Song recorded in black owl studios Maine. I went to Matt when I was broken and needed this song to come to life. I lost everything, and then some. 

Lyrics (these were og but we made them different with the final mix) 

I don’t wanna live 
I don’t wanna die
I don’t wanna try 
Just wanna fall asleep with the sands of time 


(Everyday gets worse
How can it get worse
It can )
It’s all part of the master plan

They want you to sink 
To see you swim
See you strugglin

(What’s your breaking point )
Are you defeated 
Do you wanna be deleted?
(“What’s your breaking point”)
Do you feel cheated 
Was it all worth just to be depleted

I don’t wanna live 
I don’t wanna die
I don’t wanna try 


Just wanna fall asleep with the sands of time x2


Sourround me with silence 
Im just trying
Wisdom of life
Show me the way
It’s been so dark(!)
Forget all the pain 

Surround me with 


I’m alone again
I think I wanna sin
I think I wanna drown these thoughts to oblivion
I’m obsideon  burn me up and I will harden 
The lava flows 
My realitys a valcano
Igniting everything 
that made me feel safe 
Safe 

I feel so out place 
Saw something so beautiful yesterday 

I feel so out of place 
At least memories don’t fade 






Aourround me with silence 
Sourround me with darkness 
Sourround me violence

Sands of Time (prod. DJ MATT PERRY)

wut do u see in me </3
.
.
.

Do you believe in chance
Shawty run it back
Roll us up a lil
Trying to relax
Sellin you a dream
What do you see in me
What do you see in me
What do you see in me

I still can't cry
I'm just weepin
I feel the most alive when I'm sleepin
Your heart
Shawty put it on the defense
Your heart
Blood
Leakin
My heart
Barely beatin
My time
Slowly creepin
Our love at the bottom of the deep end
Can't see it now
You hope it drowns
Geekin
I gotta lie down
I can't keep stickin around
Sunrise
I pass out
Sunrise
I pass out

Do you believe in chance
Shawty run it back
Roll us up a lil
Trying to relax
Sellin you a dream
What do you see in me
What do you see in me
What do you see in me

Do you believe in chance
Shawty run it back
Roll us up a lil
Trying to relax
Sellin you a dream
What do you see in me
What do you see in me
What do you see in me

I still can't cry
I'm just weepin
I feel the most alive when I'm sleepin
Your heart
Shawty put it on the defense
Your heart
Blood
Leakin
My heart
Barely beatin
My time
Slowly creepin
Our love at the bottom of the deep end
Can't see it now
You hope it drowns
Geekin
I gotta lie down
I can't keep stickin around
Sunrise
I pass out
Sunrise
I pass out

Do you believe in chance
Shawty run it back
Roll us up a lil
Trying to relax
Sellin you a dream
What do you see in me
What do you see in me
What do you see in me

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<3

-emo fruits aka SUMMER OF FRUITS BAYBEEE STARTS NOW

WUT DO U SEE IN ME (prod. cxrter x jolst)

lyrics: genius.com/Softheart-hometown-heartache-lyrics

credits: 
main instrumentation by noah walker, cam quinn, 

some instrumentation sampled from killedmyself

download

Hometown Heartache

Just trying to hit the feels. Sometimes in life we can’t navigate through the bad…. singing helps me.

Sands of Time (prod. DJ MATT PERRY)

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