trauma bonds (ryo)

prod. me
ft. @t1gerstar

out on all platforms: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/anem0s/empty-nesters-feat-tigerstar

thank u to tigerstar for hopping on this! u are the best :D

lyrics:
(me)
could you tell me
what it is that im missing
i been waiting by
so long for a mission
what's my problem
are you checkin my condition
tell me whats wrong with a little ambition

i been feeling washed up
whats the rush
i been fighting demons
and i never keep in touch
i been talking to my thoughts tryna think the right stuff
but its never not enough
life's always gettin tough

thought i'd never see the change but i'm movin away
empty nesters back home know i got a lot to say
but i'm stuck in my head
blocking out all my problems started thinkin
i was better off stayin in bed

and if the world behaved
i'd be better off now
than i was yesterday
its okay to take a break if you need to
dont shy away from the people who believe you

so im watching where i step
and ill keep on pushin
and the secrets that i kept
now i know i really shouldnt
so ill take another breath
i was too focused on my footing
it took all that i had not to fall right into it

picture this im never sitting til i stop
kept my eyes on the clock
countin seconds til i caught
a glimpse of what im seeking i could never miss the top
if i never make it i can't bear to take the drop

(tigerstar)
thought i'd never see the change but i'm movin away
i took a little bit too much of what i really can take
getting too attached to the buzz i feel when im awake
its only when i sleep enough i can get up to make (something of myself)

you gotta be trying to turn around
you can't be so ready to be turned down
why are you wanting to rush things to happen now?
i don't really mind if they're making me wait

it's really not as serious as they make it out to be
closer to home than a different agency
know i can sound just a little too passionate

i wonder if i'll live up to all you expect from me
letting them down amplifies the pressure
but i won't let you down however you measure that

(me)
thought i'd never see the change but i'm movin away
empty nesters back home know i got a lot to say
but i'm stuck in my head
blocking out all my problems started thinkin
i was better off stayin in bed

and if the world behaved
i'd be better off now
than i was yesterday
its okay to take a break if you need to
dont shy away from the people who believe you

empty nesters ft. tigerstar

shoutout to @crona01 for the beat and @t1gerstar
please sit back and enjoy :)

"9-5" itsatrill© w/tigerstar (p.crona&itsatrill)

'90s videogame soundtrack
+fellow villagers @oroahh, @scrufff
+additional guitars from @billsburyjoeboi

stream on all platforms: https://ffm.to/charmerr

song abt extroverts n small-talk enthusiasts - i still dk how tf they do that socialising shit

.

INTRO.

roah's verse 0:
who are these ghosts in my room?
they don't even care bout you...
they don't even-

talk…
i have to do this now! (nownow)
i can’t get out free this time,
imma leave with a sliver of doubt... (doubt doubt)
start talking till your brain gets fried! (｡ŏ﹏ŏ)
(run)
but nobody listens to you, (run?)
broke bones, then you left me beat and bruised! (run!)
bled out, split my heart in two... (RUN!)
now i'm just another ghost inside my room.

now run away
can't even stop
don't even speak here, we cant get along
now stay awake,
ya i'm not that strong.
i know that i can't live like this,
can't stall...

run- run- way-
can't even sto-
(you split my heart)
don't even speak here we cant get along -long
(im bleeding out)
now stay awake
ya i'm not that strong
(i can’t even talk noo)
i know that i can't live like this
can't stall
(they werent even listening from the start)

red's bridge:
and it's too late now,
it's way too late...
it's the last straw now,
i can't be saved.
if only u were here?
i'd be okay.
if only i had your charm?
i'd be okay........

.

MAIN.

crazyass refrain:
“know by now i'm not a ppls’ man”
repeat

(ayo cut the bs)

verse 1:
paradox when i think about u
just wanna get violent when i think about u
rude to stare but i don't rly care
ur the cause of my problems but now i’m the fool? (wtf)

chorus:
the days when we were wavelength surfing
refreshed n euphoric i was nervous
eased up well n the book started opening
was a mile away, couldn't see the subservience
it was crazy that u couldn’t have time w/o me
awfully clingy n bitchy but could never speak up
all they know is the weirdo they see
longed to be a charmer, the things i’d do to be one

refrain:
"know by now i'm not a ppls’ man" now w scruff harmonically moaning WWWWWW

scruff's verse 2 (HE FUCKING KILLED IT UGHHHH):
so, understand that i'm on again
say imma make him do the runnin' man
imma make sure that i win again
but i might just be onto something, new
i just wanna be something to you
pitchforks when i'm outside
i want a clean morgue when i die
i wanna see more with my eyes

verse 3 (back2me):
hate the thought of talking to someone like me
and i tell the therapist its more than anxiety !'?*'never taken therapy lmao
always the one to make the second moves
boutta run out of self-worth real soon
rely on me to always fuck it up
god i'm so done this life shit just ain't no fun
never hesitate to wait till its way too late
something wrong w me but i know i’ll just run

*redhorse pro producer tag omg*

chorus:
the days when we were wavelength surfing #)£!?* nah dis is deep istg
refreshed n euphoric i was nervous
eased up well n the book started opening
was a mile away, couldn't see the subservience
it was crazy that u couldn’t have time w/o me
awfully clingy n bitchy but could never speak up (=`{ literally me fr
all they know is the weirdo they see
longed to be a charmer, the things i’d do to be one

refrain:
"know by now i'm not a ppls’ man"
repeat

https://bulbapedia.bulbagarden.net/wiki/Charm_(move)

charmer

stream the mf song

charmer, +roah, scruff

one-side (simon m)

i just need some time alone.

produced by soma & me @prodsoma
mixed & mastered by me
art by yonosora https://linktr.ee/yonosora

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
website: www.avit.wtf

lyrics:
so sew my eyes shut
don’t ever want to see it near
it’s like these deep cuts
blood’s pouring out, it’s all over me
i’m feeling weak and can’t get off my knees
i need a break, i need to fucking breathe
can’t promise anything that i won’t keep
don’t stay by me, please do not look at me now 

yeah i never wanted 
any of this pain, it’s killing me now 
it’s all just self-inflicted
this air, it’s filled with toxins 
and i feel surrounded
heart’s pacing round it
this pressure’s closing
but i never wanted to admit it 

it fills my lungs
and it all feels so wrong
all my work undone 
i just no longer belong 
no place to call my home
nowhere that i can run
no one i can believe
no time to fucking breathe 

feel my time is up
got nothing else in luck
i’m bleeding out my words
and oh i know, it hurts to say it
don’t wanna pick the pieces
given too many chances
do not deserve forgiveness
from u, i don’t deserve it
i need some space
to catch my breath
i need it bad
i’m ripping apart at every seam

Breathe (Prod. Soma & AViT)

Big thanks to @chriad for mix/master as always 
one of my fav songs

Pre-save: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/srrygate/chapters-end-feat-latency


Take a look at your hair
It looks different than the last time we talked
Take a look over there 
I remember you said it's my fault 
But you're wrong, and it really wouldn't be the first time
I wrote a song
I would have been way better off without 
I guess I'm really all alone

First day 
All those things that you said yea the first date 
I guess things change
I guess I didn't know you
But does it really matter
Things break, shatter
Hearts get broken
Change the chapter
Cause I've tried flipping pages 
And I should just embrace it
And if I could id face it
And is it really true
And can't take it anymore (more)

7 nights that I stayed over but I had enough
Like 6 stories that you told me it's not adding up
Take 5, I can't stand to stare into your blank eyes
4 times, that you fake cried just to change sides 
Fuck off got me so confused, black and blue
And I'm up all night thinking about what I could have done wrong 
So long, I'm so sick of writing all these love songs
And I throw up any time I think about the old us
Lockdown I don't make no sound but breathing
Clocked out, fuck it you just gave another reason
Gone south I don't have a choice but bitch I'm leaving
Talk down, cut into my heart and leave me bleeding

First day 
All those things that you said yea the first date 
I guess things change
I guess I didn't know you
But does it really matter
Things break, shatter
Hearts get broken
Change the chapter
Cause I've tried flipping pages 
And I should just embrace it
And if I could id face it
And is it really true
And can't take it anymore (more)

Outro

Chapter's End

Chapter's End w/Leyton (Priv)

tysm for 1k on run <33

produced by @johnkwondll

don't cry (p. typhoon)

Preesave <3 https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/tigerstar/been-that-boy 

Prod. tigerstar
co-written with @yazida-essia 
SHOUTS OUT TO CABBY @silentcxbin FOR DOING THE INTRO AND MASTER <3 Check him out NOWWWW...!!!

CREDS TO THE CLIQUE GIRLZ .... My ultimate idols that inspire everything i create
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yYJ284Hndzk

if there was a single day where we could just talk
i'd fade and i'd block anything thats not you
I’d cave when u walk in the room
I wonder if u listen, heart transparent
can u hear it?
u said u couldn’t 
so i'll turn it up just enough
like I wanted for us

you know i
kinda shoulda wish you woulda coulda maybe been that boy
you need to know i...
know you never yea you did you never been to be that boy...
but every little word was true 
i dont wanna waste a minute waiting for ur call back
here i am 5 hours later  and i'll respond so fast
after all thought i was certain thinking u were all that
and theres still a part of me that thinks that y could be that boy

so can i at least plead my case or do 
u just want me to be thrown away and you'll choose 
from all the girls lined up and i'll be another one
its such a  force of a wave to try to get through

im in a daze for u n
spending all day in a trance
when im just looking at u
no one can say that i cant
i gotta look for u
i gotta tell u too many things i said that i won’t get into

already came in like a wreck, like could it get any worse?
i always talk it down i hope that i dont get hurt 
found out all of the words that you had said and i…
kinda shoulda wish u woulda coulda maybe been that boy

NO U NEVER
YES U DID
U NEVER MEANT TO MEAN THAT
AND U SHOULDA 
WISH U WOULDA
COULDA MAYBE BEEN THAT

got my hopes up for it to mean nothin
if ur just gonna pretend all along 
that u could be that boy
wouldnt have let it
if ur never gonna get it
through ur head
i should forget it, for what?
( u'll never be that boy)

u couldn’t have been him at all
figured it out on my own
i should’ve known that he was never gonna be that boy
i cant help but say that it’s dumb
and so i’ll stay on my own
i should’ve known that he was never gonna be that boy

Been That Boy!

@traxee

*You know i wanna be ur MAIN

Rawr

valentines day W/ TRAXEE !!!!!!!

spotify - https://open.spotify.com/track/4BbExVT4k1LCuznNie2iJL?si=8c19ad3891d04240

validation ft @rans0m 
prod @01kon + @p-guda

And I ain't ever felt this way before
Everything just piles on my brain
It pours it rains it pours
You take some more
My brain is sore 
and I

Can't keep on giving
I ain't really been okay in like a minute
And you ask if I love you
But that's a given
Do you feel the same?
Who are we kidding

She’ll do it all
For validation
Addicted to love
Like it was medication
I give it my all
But you were still “complacent“
In love with the feeling of feeling appreciation 
x2

She do whatever it takes
So I'm stuck here talking
And she mess with my head
Like I'm another option

Like I'm another man
Am I not a part of the plan?
I guess it's not that shocking

@rans0m
You treat me like a mess mess
Never clean your shit up
I can't do no right only wrong im a sinner
I won't make it far always losing not a winner
Sit back and watch the stars in your eyes
Watch them shimmer

Left or right?
I don't know where to go
Take my hand show the place the place they call home
Left or right?
I don't know where to go

She’ll do it all
For validation
Addicted to love
Like it was medication
I give it my all
But you were still “complacent“
In love with the feeling of feeling appreciation 
x2

don't cry (p. typhoon)

leyton

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