Main Artist: lil XipZ
Featured Artists: EMO FRUITS x CARTER TOMORROW
Production: lil XipZ
Mixing: lil XipZ x EMO FRUITS x CARTER TOMORROW
Mastering: lil XipZ
Cover Art: Bella Lenahan x lil XipZ
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LYRICS:

[Chorus: lil XipZ]
I got anxious tendencies 
I bite my nails until they start to bleed
I'm always quiet so they think I'm mean
But I'm really just scared of what they'll think of me

Pale white skin with purple bags under my eyes
I feel like I'm dead but thats not a surprise
My life is meaningless I cant wait for my demise
I'm sitting on the ledge I cant wait to fall and die

[Verse 1: EMO FRUITS]
Woah can't sleep can't dream at all
Red wine I'll drink it off
My head can't think at all
Anxious can't breathe at all

Bitch I'm anxious yeah I'm anxious
Yeah I'm feeling so cold yeah I feel it in my bones
Bitch I'm anxious yeah I'm anxious
Blood dripping from my nose yeah I'll probably die alone
Bitch I'm anxious
I don't wanna be here at all
I don't wanna be here at all
I don't wanna be here at all
I don't wanna be here at all

[Bridge: lil XipZ]
Prada beanie on smells like weed and cologne 
Feel like Carter baby can you hold me close
You got the coke drip baby can you wipe your nose
Same old jeans I haven't left my home

[Verse 2: CARTER TOMORROW]
Does it matter when youre dead?
It's all in my head
I'll fix with a bullet hole
I'm getting nauseous from these thoughts 
Stay cautious while I walk
Cause I crossed too many hoes
Right
Shawty called 
She miss me
And said she's in the city
Looking at the lights 
Shining loud out so pretty
I wish I knew 
You could've felt
That shit is such a pity
I guess it makes sense on why I feel so shitty
Anxiety got me stuck inside my room 
I'm dying please just come help me real soon
It's fine for me and I'm lying here inside my tomb
Accept it all and theres no such thing as doom

[Chorus: lil XipZ]
I got anxious tendencies 
I bite my nails until they start to bleed
I'm always quiet so they think I'm mean
But I'm really just scared of what they'll think of me

Pale white skin with purple bags under my eyes
I feel like I'm dead but thats not a surprise
My life is meaningless I cant wait for my demise
I'm sitting on the ledge I cant wait to fall and die

ANXIOUS (ft. EMO FRUITS x CARTER TOMORROW)

Heart w/ Tar$i$, Durahan (Prod. Underwood)

you wanna stay
it feels like home
you cannot escape
now its only you and i
alone tonight

you dont wanna understand my side
not a single text cause she dont wanna reply
to my messages, i got things to say
and i dont understand why

they dont really know the pain that i endure
its not just a song, thats how i feel
girl im talking about my life its real
im writing letters in vain
my life been nothing but pain
i dont know how im gonna change
but thats fine

nah, i really gotta get this shit off my chest

i wanna talk about my feelings and u just wanna fuck
and i cant really tell the difference between you and my ex
i hate that im so dependent
i see you taking advantage
and i dont understand why

not a single soul but me
i cant see clear, so dark in here
i been alone and im used to it

you wanna stay
it feels like home
you cannot escape
now its only you and i
alone tonight

and you dont wanna understand my side
not a single text cause she dont wanna reply
to my messages, i got things to say
and i dont understand why

SPOTIFY

Late Night (prod. OTAP)

I know you’ll get what you want from me
And maybe I wanted it to
When your tears stain your checks cuz you’re crying too hard
I know you’ll get over it soon

You reap what you sow
Now im left alone
And I know you’ll get over it too
Then you text me again
When I’m layin in bed
Cuz the warmth that i felt 
Exists inside my head

Wrap your arms around
Take in the silence 
Swim before you have to drown 

I don’t think it’s worth it
I cant decide
She wants me to run
But I just want to hide 

Take it all in
Bask in the silence
If everything stopped
Would you still try to fight it? 

You don’t think it’s worth it
You cant decide 
You just wanna run
But I don’t wanna fight 

I know you wanna be held again
You know That I want that for you
everything’s gone and you made up your mind
It’s better to leave then wake up left behind

You reap what you sow
Now im left alone
And I know you’ll get over it too
Then you text me again
When I’m layin in bed
Cuz the warmth that i felt 
Exists inside my head

Wrap your arms around
Take in the silence 
Swim before you have to drown 

I don’t think it’s worth it
I cant decide
She wants me to run
But I just want to hide 

Take it all in
Bask in the silence
If everything stopped
Would you still try to fight it? 

You don’t think it’s worth it
You cant decide 
You just wanna run
But I don’t wanna fight

loneliness, liquor & longing

the silence

@officialcorley x @harveysdead - jar of hearts

kakashi! (prod tydrizzle)

*lyrics*

(yuh, nah)
(yuh)
(nah)
(im done, im done)
(shit)

i felt this shit for a while now
i think its time that i step down
i think im done, im done, im done
for good, i think im done
picture frames, ill go insane
i spent my luv on vanished pain
ache by ache, these pills ill take
still on my shelf, ull see the purple my face, okay

id fake it if i had the choice, but i dont
depression is real, THIS SHIT PUT ME IN A HOLE
no soul, no joke
ill break my bones
heartbeat turning to zero
kardi aint no goddamn hero
im the type to fuck it all in the end
kardi aiint makinng it clear tho
but itll clearer when im dead

this shit aint fun and games to me
u can hear the goddamn pain when i speak!
i wanna run away n die by myself
i wanna go from this hell, cant u tell?

FUCK THIS SHIT IM DONE
i think bout stealing a gun
trees nearby gon leave me hanging for once
i tried every night, i think im giving it up
what the fuck
i think kardi just ran out of luck

i felt this shit for a while now
i think its time that i step down
i think im done, im done, im done
for good, i think im done
picture frames, ill go insane
i spent my luv on vanished pain
ache by ache, these pills ill take
still on my shelf, ull see the purple my face, okay

(yuh)
(nah)
(aye, aye)
(nah)

i felt this shit for a while now
i think its time that i step down
i think im done, im done, im done
for good, i think im done
picture frames, ill go insane
i spent my luv on vanished pain
ache by ache, these pills ill take
still on my shelf, ull see the purple my face, okay

(PICTURE FRAMES ILL GO INSANE)
(I SPENT MY LUV ON VANISHED PAIN)
(ACHE BY ACHE THESE PILLS ILL TAKE)
(STILL ON MY SHELF ULL SEE THE PURPLE MY FACE)
(OKAY)

im done pt. 2 / pictures pt. 3 (prod. kardia26)

RAINcheck (freestyle) prod. Jupiter

I Will Remember (prodJohnnyfriendXreesoo)

Lil Desire - Pain With The Drugs

LYRICS:

I got nothing left to give
Don’t act like you care I know you don’t 
Cross another drug off of my list
And hope to god I don’t overdose

She’s what made me smile
But I don’t have that
I don’t need that
I didn’t ask for help

Girl it’s been a while
Since you left me broken
Now my veins are open
Ion wanna lose myself

Get me high
Read between the lines
One more time
For I close my eyes

Berate me
Break me down with lies
I’m fading
I don’t wanna die
Here lately
Nothing on my mind
She hate me
She can get in line

I got nothing left to lose
Drop another Xanax in my cup
I’ve become numb to the abuse
And I’m too high to give a fuck

Say you’re fine
If it gets you by
Don’t me let me in
If it saves you time

Get me high
Read between the lines
One more time
For I close my eyes

I got nothing left to give
Don’t act like you care I know you don’t 
Cross another drug offa my list
And hope to god I don’t overdose

overdose (prod. crcl)

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