“the song will maintain the air as ur territory”
 iya bernice johnson reagan. thank uuu for ur profound blx sight/site/cite 🖤

“this is dedicated to who it may concern” Baba Donny Hathaway 

i hope this brings breath, upliftment of spirit, and attention. because the state of things. the state of life. the state of our relationality to life is a concernIN matter. 

- orb 🖤

where i’m at …
11/17/2022 - 7!

ke readiii <3

antiBlacknesss is triggering as FUCK. iii don’t care how many times iii see it iii don’t care if iii “theoretically” know it “exists”. FUCK. These are peoples lives. These are miii peoples lives. Why are we constantliii put in positions to suffer and be mistreated where ever we go/were taking/are taken in the world.😤 iii can kno the “theory” and “history” behind antiBlackness and guess what... it still will effect me... it still will push me to the edge, because knowledge is power and iii BE one powerFULL blx grl who sees and had seen since shx was born her people, her family, herself be used/abused/mistreated/worthless because they are Black. smh. This shit/ship BE personal. and im done acting like its not. so uuu better respect miii and my name and ask me how you can address me. cause iii will react to abuse and mistreatment…

anger is a powerful emotion. AND it can be unstable … iii am tryIN to find stabilitiii in my blx RAGE. iii do not want to reproduce cycles of harm by my own behavior. iii am a child (ọmọ) AND iii am an extension of god (olú) — MODIMO…

iii used to think politeness would save me. because iii knew and was shown repeatedly that as a blx grl iii was not safe. so iii swallowed my pride in an attempt to save my life. 

those are not conditions iii can hold my life or my self to anymore. iii have bottled so much in, generationally, ancestrally, geographically, personally and it’s time for me to live my own life in my truth in order to thrive and NOT end my self to protect others from “me”. fuck that. so, again. the person you thought you knew never existed. let me transition in peace. and if you come for me, iii have no issue callIN you out cause iii be light/lite ooo

ask me what iii want you to address me at and listen to what iii tell you. if you don’t know call me by the initials my parents gave me — ọrB — (ball of light/lite) because iii am a healin blx grl who has suffered so much abuse from people who didn’t know me and from people iii thought cared for me. iii am angry. AND iii want blood. so iii am gonna do my best to protect my peace so as not to BLOW up and harm others.

uplift...lesedi...iii BE lite ooo

rites 
come IN
tears 
ooo
iii
got.

ooof. so much is moveIN ... so much is moveIN and it hurts ... and I'm scared ... and iii also believe iii am able to with stand 
all the changes and 
sharp shifts 
that have taken place... for me ... recentliii, perptualiii.... ALLways... 

iii believe in my strength to withstand me thr(u) this moment. iii believe in the rooted guidance of my ancestors, and the earth to ground me thr(u) this change. 

moments of quick change in my recent past meant that i lost myself... got caught up... allowed others to use and abuse ... survived myself thru use and abuse .... ooof

iii relinquish the tethers of past experiences that moments of rapid change trigger me into dropIN into... flight or fight or dissassociate... or loose my mind .... and almost lose my life. NO MORE.

iii trust that this BE a k(new) phase of my self .... that soothes hxrself through the blx womxned rite of standing for nothing less than what shx needs and deserves to feel in hxr depth of breath and security.... hxr foundation FIRM to continually bear life... 

this is the relationship to rapid change... and moveIN that i choose.

iii pray for support.  

iii pray for stabilitiii. 

iii pray for ease, groundIN and upliftment. 

iii know i am able.

iii challenge myself to BE in the discomfort and comfort of witnessIN my life unfoldIN 

aṣé ooo

ọmọlolú refilwe babátúndé
(orb)

🖤🖤🖤
🔥🔥🔥
⚔️⚔️⚔️

i am so grateFULL to be able to return to moments that remind me who the FFF i am and that i have been feeelIN and knowIN ooof. this reckonIN session was on 11/28/2020 (7) --- kelebogile MODIMO

* self portrait of iya Beverly Buchanan is the image to hold space for this reckonIN session <3

chance 222 move thr(u)

ooof. iii needed to find this today. reminders always. iii need to listen. maniii have been protecing me/we? 

healIN the we bit... 

but iii really do believe in us.

thats why it hurts so much 
not to be recognized 
by 
u
r
kin...?

- orbOUT (1/30/2023)

pic... iya bev buchanan ... deep love and respect for her calling me to Atlanta and the journey down south 😤🤘🏿🥺🌬⚔️💫

they look out... iii BE protected... we swear... hold u r ground...

peace onliii on this page and on my life ooo ✨✌🏿🖤

SHATTER ME

a (lil blx grl/growIN blx womxn) in search of the blx ecstatic in all of its revived spaces and places... 
a worshipper of blx sound...
a diviner of blx possibilitiii...
a site/sight/cite 
to bear
i/we...

ọrB (balloflite)

Popular tracks