I hate being sober, drugs are my friends🥵💔

broken 💔 by the way

@prodmichael

mv https://youtu.be/eOEz9bdl5XY

I don’t think you understand 
what I said is not what I meant 
soon I’ll be gone 
& what I said can’t be undone 

I’m with my bro and we just popped a hulk 
I won’t be coming home tonite 
so tired of your bad advice 
I’m not very attached to life 

2x
she said I look like I came from a nightmare 
clouds hanging over me 
I’m not feeling it 

I’m not in the mood,
everyday I’m feeling blue 
it’s cuz of u 
and all the things you put me thru 
I’m split in 2 

I know u prolly don’t care 
but are you even aware 
stop playing games it’s unfair 
I’m beyond repair

clouds 🌧️ (xmichaelwarren) vid in desc

follow my girlfriend @novagarden

TRECH:
in my suicide note i wrote
that if any motherfuckers want smoke
id choke 
i stay fucked up
i’m so hung up
on the fact i ain’t shit
but a fuck up
all my friends have overdosed
even though i ain’t there yet, bitch i’m close
in the meantime
i’ll stay locked in my room 
away from sunshine

take cover in a substance
i hate the taste
down it like its nothin’
how many hits can i lick before i tap out?
how many
drinks can i sip before i black out?
imma test my limit for the last time
please stay with me on the hotline
i’ll call u back when i feel alright
but tomorrow never comes
a life is finite

NOVA:
i can’t stop takin’ hella pills
but im not addicted 
i just do it for the thrill
acid tabs sitting on my tongue
but don’t worry ‘bout a thing
i just do it for fun
glassed eyes in the mirror
lookin’ at myself
thinkin’ ‘bout why the fuck i do this to my health
paranoia got me grabbin’ shrooms off my shelf
try to stop me
i cant let you bitch
so go to hell

TRECH:
i feel nothin’
to feel somethin’
but im a fucking slave to the chemicals
ive been 
straight huffin’
i wake up in panic attacks from my dreams so
take my mind away
my eyes fell down the drain
these tear drops act as rain
try to flush away rinse away my pain

shards of glass

SPOTIFY

shards of glass (feat. nova garden)

prod. me x @hiraethsry

And I will love you 'til I'm broken by the weight
Of everything I've ever wanted and how it all has your name
I am trying, I am shaking, I am crying, I am breaking
Every second, every minute, I'm so tired, why's it raining
Baby, kiss me just to kiss me, not to take me home tomorrow
I am drunk and I am bleeding in your apartment, in the shadow
Of what we were when we were young
And you don't remember my name
And I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry

And when I'm leaving, I'll pretend like I don't give a damn
But it's been four years, I just wanna hold your hand
It's been four years, don't know who I fucking am
Oh, oh
And when you're begging me to stay, I'll never listen
I guess it takes four years to know the difference
You knew me better than anyone and you hated me
So how the fuck am I supposed to love myself

And I will love you 'til I'm broken by the weight
Of everything I've ever wanted and how it all has your name
I am trying, I am shaking, I am crying, I am breaking
Every second, every minute, I'm so tired, why's it raining

I am drunk and I am bleeding in your apartment, in the shadow
Of what we were when we were young
And you don't remember my name
And I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry

YOUDONTREMEMBERMYNAME

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i know i’m always overthinking, love 
but what can be done?
i was sedated when you broke my trust
you say it’s my condition and- 
but i don’t give a fuck
these constant comparisons turn me to dust
so tell me all about him
do you laugh hard when around him?
do these shackles that i’m bound in make you think that i’m not enough? 
im pathetic
but you wouldn’t get it
that's tough
it’s AvPD but i blame it on luck

can’t take drugs cause anxiety kills me
go smoke spliffs with your friends 
envy fills me
i am sorry for how i am ugly
in your shadow i sulk
i’m nobody
i self isolate for days 
now i cant get out of bed without crying
draining all my veins out is the way i talk to the reaper without dying

i know i’m always overthinking, love 
but what can be done?
i was sedated when you broke my trust
you say it’s my condition and- 
but i don’t give a fuck
these constant comparisons turn me to dust
so tell me all about him
do you laugh hard when around him?
do these shackles that i’m bound in make you think that i’m not enough? 
im pathetic
but you wouldn’t get it
that's tough
it’s AvPD but i blame it on luck

medical exam fetishist

lyrics:

you separate me from the rest
in my crematorium
i feel the burning in my chest
im still awake

but why the fuck am i still trippin up on time?
i panic on a dime
cuz my existence is terminal
driving edge of knives into my skin
im fine
you wont believe my lies
yea
yea
i wish i wasn’t discernible

i tried to drown my brain in Everclear until the damage that appeared finally killed me
i used to push the limits i was given ‘til they broke, and that decision came back to haunt me
i signed my own death warrant, my application
you be the judge, and i’ll be deprivation
abused my lungs from toxic inhalation 
need peace of mind, don’t need your medication

clotting; my blood
evolving; i’m not 
resolving; no thoughts
yea
yea
i feel invisible

so why the fuck am i still trippin up on time?
i panic on a dime
cuz my existence is terminal
driving edge of knives into my skin
im fine
you wont believe my lies
yea
yea
i wish i wasn’t discernible

Molotov Cocktail

molotov cocktail

4 u pt 2. (prod fluxury)

labnights

@supachefm

~I Forgot The World Was Spinning~

私はあなたを青い影で夢見る
デッドボーイ / / コールドワールド
me and you together dancing in the dark
輝くあなたは美しいです
ワープドツアー

S u i c i d e / / P u r i t y

YungJZAisDead x Supachefm ! - Fireflies(When We Were All Alone)

caspr. - idk(prod. Zaid)

over and over ill try again 
i hate being sober
the drugs are my friends
i guess im a poser
its all pretend
i hate when its over
but everything ends

i know im a loser baby oh
i cry when our songs on the radio
if u hate me can u just say so
youre my everything girl i cant say no
i feel like shit because i wanted to
and all i miss is the way u soothed
my emotions tell me its not true
till my face turns blue 
and my heart cant move

i wish that i was a nobody
what tastes like dirt once was oh so sweet
get lost in crowds take a walk with me
im so fucked up let my insides bleed
i lie awake thinking bout my dreams
i just cant take when u look at me
my soul it breaks because ur all i need
but u cant fix what is wrong with me

poser

this album is dedicated to my friend nez

produced by me

anxiety

in my eyes (feat. lil narnia)

bathroom

Ppgcasper  - Mean What I Said (unreleased)

prod/mix/master/cover @trechorboy
feat. @trechorboy + @nicoteenninyo

TRECHOR BOY:
she said she never really cared about me
wasting my time maybe
fuck all that shit
hypocrite 
doesn’t even come close to the way i think of you 
can’t you see 
there's something wrong with me
incapable of love
im never good enough 
but
(X2)

turns out i really wanted this shit 
i had the confidence to make moves with it so 
i went and got my bag 
all i had 
was you
fast forward four years on the timeline 
i woke up and realized all the online shit won’t help
and i still hate myself 
fuck

NICOTEEN NINYO:
is he as warm as me, holdin u on a cold night?
does he say i love you cuz it just feels right?
yeah im gone and ur okay but maybe u wont be in a couple of days
listen to the words u say
does he make u smile like me?
cuz

i only say i love you when we break up
i only say i need u when we cant make up
ill only ever call if im drunk enough
to say the things i never said
tryin to force this new girl down my throat
but it just makes ur taste in my mouth worse
i wish i could say i believe u
i wish i could fucking hate you

~i wish i could fucking hate you
i wish i could fucking hate you~

~i wish i could love just like you
i wish i could love like you do~
(X2)

poser

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