older songs to learn how to master right now still so much music to put out. I love you so much I really do

Fake News [prod. Tension]

Ways that I write my songs
May in the end make clones
Need my own microphone
Rather be on my own

Rather be in my zone
Zoned out when I fill my lungs
Words out like it's all for fun
I guess I do it for fun

And Im not the same guy that you used to insult to
Not a surprise when I act like ion know you
Stop
Can't tell me when I should stop
I got my plans and they will not flop

I wrote some songs that I will not drop
Wrote for years to get all prepped up
Man I was scared, man I was stressed
Took me a lot of time to just give no fucks

Fake love, stayed in my zone
Make stuff, stay in your zone

ZONE

Parachutes & Planes

ChrisMurrin's Album

CRYBABY prod.Santana

tryna die* cashcamilo

blaze and shadow - cashcamilo *nighttime edit*

METAPHYSICAL

The Polar White Paper :
->I-L-O-V-E-Y-O-U<-
THEY ARE ONLY THOUGHTS. THEY ONLY HAVE POWER IF THEY'RE NEXT TO YOU. <333


IF YOU LIKE WHAT YOU HEAR AND WANT TO WORK . LETS MAKE SOMETHING. HIT ME UP. ANY GENRE. 
 
i recommend the use of headphones for the full effect. 

*not a producer **if i used your beat not tagged, let me know. these are yt beats from all over the years and if youre not tagged i couldnt find you** (apologies for the volume lvs on alot of the older stuff, i lost the files so i cant adjust.) ive spent years developing a style and finding my voice. im learning and you will see as i release. i will try and clean everything up the best i can. i dont have the money to buy beats and studio time. i also come from somehwere with not the best accent for rapping. maybe it doesnt sound as bad as i think sometimes tho?*

bitch, i am the captain.
this a serge, join the wave . fuckboi im dead, insane paradox. sadboi making heartbreak music . my words are inertia for the weak.  im in every genre. this shit real. this shit raw. this shit comes from the heart. ima be a soundcloud rapper forever. i love you

bitch, ima sinner. im hollow; i hope that you fall in

"I will be gaming with fans and friends and expanding my fanbase beyond comparison, I want to be bigger than an artist or "rapper" . " - Jahseh Onfroy

MY TWITCH --> PEEP_CR_

"I just wana be everybody's everything I want too much from people but then I don't want anything from them at the same time u feel me I don't let people help me but I need help but not when I have my pills but that's temporary one day maybe I won't die young and I'll be happy? What is happy I always have happiness for like 10 seconds and then it's gone. I'm getting so tired of this"  - Gustav Elijah Åhr

ive learned so much from these 2. im truly changed, altered. i didnt know who i was before i listened to lil peep and x. let me help you find yourself. i love you , i know you can do it, anything in this fucking world is yours, all i ask is you just listen to my words. thank you 

lilboipolar is my soundcloud name. my final form is POLAR. i will attain this status, in my eyes, when i am known off of this platform. my real name is Christopher Murrin. its nice to meet you. i have about 250 songs and freestyles to put on here . gonna start with my old and make it to the new. this collection is starting from 2016 to present.  i think it will be cool to hear the progression because i have very few songs that use auto tune over the years. (the first few im uploading do have some but in the overall no lol). i love to freestyle and 1 take in songs. so be patient with me as a develop myself. i will do this. this is my dream. i will support my family and comfort others above all else. i know its my content because this is my diary. lemme talk to ya. im not just writing flows here. i love the raw shit. like Jah said  , you are literally entering my mind. if you wanna know how im feeling. just listen to my music. welcome to my world bitch <333

ill be uploading for quite some time. i plan to upload the good, the bad and the ugly on here. the more songs, the more leverage. the more you know me. i have made my first music video, i have so much on the way for you.

peep, mac, xxx, and juice are huuge influences for me. i have alot of stuff to upload. I know i have what it takes. i know i can do it like lil peep xxx juice or mac or anyone before me; they live inside me now. But i really need your help. i couldnt do this without you. i know that im speaking to a real human right now. i love you. i truly do. if there is anything you ever need( instagram/youtube/tik tok/twitter - lilboipolar chrismurrin45@gmail.com twitch - peep_cr_ ). you know where to find me. i have so much to say and i know i can help alot of people , hopefully you can find something in my music.  i love and i would srly die for this shit. i am what i do. you know i always try and speak into the mic like im looking at your face. im just making my own lane. i love you, really, i wish i could just kiss you on your forehead. i have bipolar type 1 so thats where the name comes from. spent about 2 months of my life on some kanye shit, thinking i was god. to no feelings, psychosis, lost, disconnected from the world, crazy obsessive thoughts i would turn into reality, so much anxiety, not being able to talk or look at anyone, or in the mirror. ive never cut or tried to kill myself. thoughts were there but idk. life is 2 precious. you matter too much to the people around you. i made it through. you are not alone. it gets better. i promise. there is only 1 you. let me help you find it. your face is beautiful. your body is too. there is only 1 voice that sounds like yours. your voice is beautiful too. no matter what.  anyways.. i was locked up in a psych ward against my will. but it was all for the good... other than this damn seroquel. this music man. its helped me.  its good to get out emotions and deal with things. dont be afraid to cry. dont be afraid to love. cause one day you might not be able to feel anything. this message is for the lost. if you already know. im so glad you do. i hope you can vibe to my vibes. ive been so down and up so high. i just want you along for the ride... 

->I-L-O-V-E-Y-O-U<-
THEY ARE ONLY THOUGHTS. THEY ONLY HAVE POWER IF THEY'RE NEXT TO YOU.

-POLAR

i keep adding to this. i have big plans. raincoats for homeless. dog shelters. mental health awareness things  so many thing. i just need ur help. its a different kind of world. much more connected, conscious. im secular but i believe in a higherpower. it is what it is man

CRYBABY prod.Santana

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