production, mixing and backing vocals by @blackwinterwells

come pick me up i'll pay for gas
there's nowhere that i want to be
and you'll drive fast and i won't ask
to pick the music or the street
and we can talk about whatever and pretend that we won't tell
even pretending to ourselves

u think it's easy where it's darker 
and i like to feel my heart
speed up with my eyes shut
and feel we're doing something we should not
so for a time i spend my life just trying to find out when to stop
just trying to guess when we'll get caught

this place is suffocating
i'll still be here in five years
like i promise i won't through the wind in your ears
but nothing feels as urgent
and these nights are still important
and there's still a lot i haven't put into words yet

every time i feel alive it will feel just like this
i'll get the things u did 
forget the boy i kissed
by the hangar and you'll both be strangers to me

tonight it matters how i'm not a person who u want to see
cause i like to talk about the hospital and go when i don't need it
just to show the world i feel it
i only ever did it once
and it was selfish it was dumb
but i can't bring myself to

hate me for wanting a break
i'll still be here in five years
where i made every mistake
sixteen trying to disappear
for one week and a half
you know it's all an act
cause there's still a lot i haven't put into words yet

hangar

hangar (blackwinterwells)

goonncity + u can't get in

artwork by @/2013yearold
second single from spirit obession

brain rot (prod. jeremyy)

vivisect +8485

traveling thru time
see the blood spill
the blood isnt mine
she can touch me
her touch is divine
the way that we move
intertwine
i gotchu
you that im kind
give my life colors
i never seen before
is that a crime
they always stare at me
i ask them why 
they say nvm

i can find it
deep within you
i can see it glow in ur chest
so collected but so different
baby u can be my guest
somewhere hidden find it someway
i left it all in the dark
i be swimming in this lake
i live a life with a carp
caressing ur love
never felt like this
nobody know all the damage we cause
i never cry like this
never been special
atleast i love who we are


traveling thru time
see the blood spill
the blood isnt mine
she can touch me
her touch is divine
the way that we move
intertwine
i gotchu
you that im kind
give my life colors
i never seen before
is that a crime
they always stare at me
i ask them why 
they say nvm

i can find it
deep within you
i can see it glow in ur chest
so collected but so different
baby u can be my guest
somewhere hidden find it someway
i left it all in the dark
i be swimming in this lake
i live a life with a carp

nobody know all the damage we cause
i never cry like this
never been special
atleast i love who we are

until we meet again
wasting life on earth
thats what i said

blacked out
u make me remember the most
im such a letdown
i be getting higher than most
i have a meltdown
i dont want u to take care of me
but u know i love when u care for me

dirty money got no manager
finders keepers find it first
u can find nowhere on this earth
thru the mud and all these dirt

traveling thru time
see the blood spill
the blood isnt mine
she can touch me
her touch is divine
the way that we move
intertwine
i gotchu
you that im kind
give my life colors
i never seen before
is that a crime
they always stare at me
i ask them why 
they say nvm

d1vine [with3r]

i dont feel safe here 
i see it crystal clear
u wont let me stay here
u think crystal clear

do u think its necesarry 
all that makes me feel unsteady 
its crystal clear

your not my enemy 
it felt like extasy 
now i feel so empty 
but i can see way more clear 

were better of alone 
thats not where we belong
no i dont wanna know
but maybe we were wrong 

i dont feel safe with u 
i want to be far from u 
we might just feel alright 
but just for now i dont wanna fight

crystal clear [prod. 5v]

how can u even make me feel so unwell [prod. cozin & 5v]

zaza

zaza + dxsh & luvange1 [benjithemachine]

Nuclear ft. Dk Shawtyy (prod. Souls1)

First it's the start of the week
Blink
Then it's Friday
And I can't get no sleep
Just been layin' here sideways
You're like
What's been the matter with me
Can't keep actin' this way
But my days been on repeat ever since my last birthday

Wake up, Shower
Brush my teeth for hours
Put on my jeans, Grab my keys
Turn my music louder
Clock in, Chowder
Losing all my power
Days into weeks, On my knees
This one's turning sour

I been all out of breath
Getting out of bed every morning
I keep it all in my chest
I been tryna tell you, just won't
And I keep on holdin' you back
Cause I know you're gon' keep me grounded
I been tryna build up the stack
Maybe we can fly away an-

Love this feeling
You're my only reason
Keep repeating
Skip through every season
So appealing
Don't need time for healing
I'll just do it again and again and again

Wake up, Shower
Brush my teeth for hours
Put on my jeans, Grab my keys
Turn my music louder
Clock in, Chowder
Losing all my power
Days into weeks, On my knees
This one's turning sour

Do it again
Been here before
Fun never ends
Can't wait for more
I'll just do every day the same and I'll never explore
My life must just be perfect why would I ever want more

First it's the start of the week
Blink
Then it's Friday
And I cant get no sleep
I'm just layin' here sideways
Damn, what's been the matter with me
Can't keep living this way
But my days been on repeat ever since my last birthday

Wake up, Shower
Brush my teeth for hours
Put on my jeans, Grab my keys
Turn my music louder
Clock in, Chowder
Losing all my power
Days into weeks, On my knees
This one's turning sour

CHOWDER

i’m in too deep 
i lie in sheets too restless just to fall asleep 
u haunt my dreams 
so come a little closer
show you what i’ve seen
show you what’s haunting me 

i don’t even know where to begin 
i know that I’m the baddest
and you trynna to lock me in 
u know you a hottie 
ain’t no waitin in the lobby
trynna kiss the night away
feel ur skin against my body

give me a sign
cuz i swear this is the last time
walking this path so long
i cannot look behind
another bad decision tonight
i can’t ask myself why
cuz I was born for this life

tell me what your all about 
i need to know without a doubt 
the things u do just dont make sense
all the questions never end
i had no choice 
i had no option
all they do is fuckin’ talking 
i know i was born a star 
i can’t help but going hard

Haunted

@lb66 @blackheart4ever

take this pain away
dont wanna feel a thing
tell me im insane
wanna blow my brain
hiding what they say
makes me feel the same
make me feel okay
promise keep me safe
wanna change my ways
wanna change my face
throw it all away
wish that you would stay
smoke till i cant feel
hands are numb i dont feel real
use my body as your shield
show my love for you to steal

CHOWDER

lil bon (@bonlil)

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