If you woke up next to me 
And I wasn’t there in my own right 
I would say, let it go 
We’ve got a long day ahead 
Gotta make it outside 

Gently put our jewelry away 
We don’t need it where we’re heading not this time 
Looking back this oddly feels the same 
If I repeated some words would u be surprised 
We tend to think the same way when these things arise 
When these things arise 
If it was up to if it was up to me I would just decline 

And if i fall 
Would you pick me up despite all the harboring hate like 
Sharp wire wrapped upon my plate 
feel the 
Scrape build after every bite I take 
It’s a, class act type of move ain’t it 
Could you even tolerate another person faking
Every piece of their persona do they think we’re stupid 
I don’t believe it anymore it’s such a hassle such a chore 
It leaves me feeling so bored 
and all they want is us more more more 
And if i fall 
Would you pick me up despite all the harboring hate like 
Sharp wire wrapped upon my plate 
After Everything now it’s all hate 

Could you be authentic while I share a few words 
Would you feel comfortable with being the one that’s hurt 
The one that’s hurt 

Gently put our jewelry away 
We don’t need it where we’re heading not this time 
Looking back this oddly feels the same 
If I repeated some words would u be surprised 
We tend to think the same way when these things arise 
When these things arise 
If it was up to if it was up to me I would just decline

more more more (gasoline)

And they always ask 
How did you forget 
I didn’t choose to 
I got distracted 
and that’s my fault 
I’ll own up to it like it was written on the ground in chalk 
If I controlled it from the start I think I could make that call 

(brecken)
I was walking so far
Thought everything was okay
Locked in my car
All the stuff you’d given back to me
One chance now its all gone
Coulda give you the world but now i write a song
About all of the misery that me and you have come by
I don’t need you temporarily like i need sunlight
Like life forever and ever just take me back
I could write a letter cause we’re better with a gap
I thought it was all good
Gave you everything that i could
But you never gave it back to me

(halfhearted)
Tryna find my way back up
Bet you wish you never messed around
I been tryna keep my head up
But my demons keep pulling me down
I gotta get outta this town again
But you made it so i never get out
Lay me down to rest in a flowerbed
Pull my petals and my roots out the ground

And they always ask 
How did you forget 
I didn’t choose to 
I got distracted 
and that’s my fault 
I’ll own up to it like it was written on the ground in chalk 
If I controlled it from the start I think I could make that call

how did you forget ft. brecken + halfhearted  (michael harrison)

When all you know 
is how to hide in the snow 
Blend in like you don’t feel cold
Those feelings inside aren’t mine
Not mine but I 
Feel the blame despite it all 
In spite of all I face
It’s laced through wire 
Every day I feel tired 
Just put the shame away

2X
Let me get the resin lay me down in amber 
Hold the flame keep it still like a lantern 
Watch it fall real slow can’t look away 
Between my hands is only your face 

Think I need some rehabilitation
How do people get the energy to face it 
Every time I try to help myself it goes wrong 
Attention short but this life yeah it feels long 

When it all goes down 
Will you be there to make a sound 
Don’t let me go without a trace 
And would you even hear me out 
When everything gets displaced 
And you don’t even know my name
Just please don’t let me down 
No doubt now doubt 
Please don’t let me down 

2X
Let me get the resin lay me down in amber 
Hold the flame keep it still like a lantern 
Watch it fall real slow can’t look away 
Between my hands is only your face

lay me down in amber (dead spyro)

self prod
guitar by hiraeth
<3


in ur own ways
tell me where u stand
no. its not 2 faced
dont understand? :)
is all that you take
left the way u found it? 
now this i cant shake
not this, i doubt it

Maybe on a different day
You’d have been nice to me
Maybe in some different ways
U formed apologies
If the weather was a different type 
Would u still be with me?
Cloudy, with seafret in sight 
Does that mean anything?
its the way that you are
i thought you loved that i hated myself, not to mention
my critiques are poor
theres nothing left in this hollow, ashen and hes tarnished
to
no ones support
i probably could do more
baby watch me fumble, every chance i get in love
im
cutting down my line
is that what you planned for my life ?
its clearly out of spite, youve done it 3 or 4 more times

shake w/ hiraeth

You don’t pull my strings cause I swapped em out for keys 
You might be able to play accordingly 
I think I only did it for the dopamine 
Don’t overthink it don’t be mean 

Just need some guidance 
Just a new instruction 
This infrastructure crumpled up it’s losing gumption
I’ll build this life in bits and pieces drawn in silence 
It’s drawn in silence 
it’s drawn in silence 

I’ll sit back by the stream of flowing where we stacked the stones taller 
Think we even dropped a dollar so it could 
Find its own way like we wanted 
Now I’m only feeling haunted by the river gone solid so we trade 
Everything for ocean fodder 
Hoodies for the buttoned collar 
Made us something that we’re not I dream for better days 
We don’t have to share a word your thoughts is what I’ve always heard 
We’ve always been depraved

Just need some guidance 
Just a new instruction 
This infrastructure crumpled up it’s losing gumption
I’ll build this life in bits and pieces drawn in silence 
It’s drawn in silence 
it’s drawn in silence

play accordingly (michael harrison)

produced by cxrter & retz
📸: cxrter

lyrics:
i’m so sick of the notion
they won’t ever understand 
got no things to put hope in
got me hanging by a strand
keep a cabinet open
and a bottle in my hand
found the pressure too potent
now i'm nothing like you planned
thought you wanted devotion
now you want some other man
got me stuck in a ocean
it’s high tide

everybody wanna know what i do
it doesn't matter
when i'm writing
swear it's pulling me through

we don’t talk like we did when we were close friends
i've been sick and tired, tying up my loose ends
she said i should go to bed, but i need one more
sorry baby, i know lately i'm an eyesore

yeah we used to want that house with picket fence
now summers almost over and you told me it depends
putting teardrops on my pants 
and now my music my one plan
i don’t wanna walk around it
quit the drama no offense
i’mma 
i’mma be who i'm destined to be
watching people pull me down
but i'm still on my feet
bet you’re looking at now
while i'm living out my dreams
never did it for myself
girl i did it for the weak

we don’t talk like we did when we were close friends
i've been sick and tired, tying up my loose ends
she said i should go to bed, but i need one more
sorry baby, i know lately i'm an eyesore

everybody wanna know what i do
it doesn't matter
when i'm writing
swear it's pulling me through
just hoping for some guidance
looking at my scars
on my cheeks and on my eyelids

like girl i feel it in my chest, when the night turns young i can feel it in my head now
why i’m feeling so depressed
but i try to talk about it
and it turns into a mess
i was just a kid now i'm losing all my hope
put a bounty on my head
point your gun and now i'm broke
wrong way wrong turn and now im dead weight
can't kick a habit
i can feel it on my worst days
they keep saying that im perfect
but u knew im never worth it
like i kept lying to ur face
now i'm going back to bed
but its been feeling like my grave

we don’t talk like we did when we were close friends
i've been  sick and tired, tying up my loose ends
she said i should go to bed but i need one more
sorry baby i know lately i'm an eyesore

eyesore w/ halfhearted (prod. cxrter x retz)

shake me when im drifting away
and i dont do that much so when i write i aint nothing to say
i go ghost so much wouldnt be surprised if i just fade away
i been on the fence for so long i might just go and jump off the gate
but when youre here in my arms all this other shit goes away
im sitting here tweaking off this hybrid but imma smoke anyway
my hands fucking shaking wondering how imma tell you nothings okay
the man youre dating is right in front of you but hes miles away

but while im here
ill try to enjoy this
ill hold u when we wake in the morning
ill never make a day feel boring
ill sing every song to you while im touring
ill have a drink and see how the night go
cant brighten up cause i feel like im wearing a blindfold
and i stay up recording like its two different time zones
im punching in and i dont really know where my mind go

all i wanna see is some meaning for this
i keep my head down and i work hard and one day ill get paid for it
she said dont drink that cause its too much and its dangerous
baby i know danger when i see it this is childs play
i see safetly everytime im looking at your face
but i only see you on the weekend im in a tough place
i wanna love the part of my self that lets me feel grace
so when you leave i just want you to stay

but baby I just want you to stay
without you the blue skyies turned to grey
my heart has lead me astray
and I can't cope without these compounds
pumping through my veins
sorry that I'm such a let down
i burn in the flames

you can't wait in place
and I don't expect you to
but it hurts me that you'd choose him
cause baby I'd choose you
despite the abuse
our differing views
my drug overuse
your volitile moods
i still don't want to lose you

shake me when im drifting away
i dont really do much so i aint got nothing to say
i swallowed my pride and i looked death in the face
theres a couple nights i know that imma take to the grave
but while im here
ill try to ignore it
just hold me when i wake in the morning
i went to sleep not wanting to see the morning
but ill sing every song to you while im touring
ill have a drink and see how the night go
cant brighten up cause i feel like im wearing a blindfold
and i stay up recording like its two different time zones
im punching in and i dont really know where my mind go

jumping off the gate w/ weepings (under the maple tree)

[sendflowrs]
and as the cold came, it didn’t feel right
on my deathbed i pray for your warm soft kiss
these angels they lay next to me and calm it 
i don’t think i really loved you baby if i’m honest 

and in my resting place, keep the seal tight
cus i would raise all the dead for you if you wanted
i would purge these dark woods with a bow and harness 
just cut out my heart whenever u want it 

[nevermadeithome]

You’re not where i need you
When i sleep at night
My lungs are so hard to breathe through 
My throats so tight 
You’re pretty like the pleiades
I mesmerised just by your eyes
I can’t seem to look at you 
Your hue and glow just seem so bright

Sleeping at night in your gown wear 
Swim the sea
Kill the king just to be there 
Bring your coat because its cold where  we‘re leaving 
Hold my hand baby this is the deep end


[sendflowrs]
on my grave 
in native tongue under my name 
is a phrase that says
“the one i love will always get away”
guess it never changes
no matter how much i sit and pray
for a better day
i’ll always be the one that rots away 
call me anyway
call me when you’re home or MIA
call me when you’re sad
when you’re feelin down or feel ok
call me everyday
call me fuckin now before i tear my face 
maybe you would love me more if i would finally get in shape 

[blaidd]
Stack my chips up high like I'm all in
Fall in love with your face in the morning
All this hate in the way had me bawling
But now I got you 
Your love was the only thing to prove
This world is nothing without you 
Now i find myself with nothing left to do 
But I came back from a business trip 
I Wanna go home cause I miss my *beep*
If I stay longer I just might flip
I wanna go home to the softest lips

lay me down in amber (dead spyro)

lil booj