I dont think I'm supposed to feel this way

Download: http://www.mediafire.com/download/8asnjbudwmlbgku/Bones+-+Useless.zip

Prod. by Vegard Veslelia

lyrics

the boy in in the bubble the furthest from trouble
when i look at you its like damn
u give me sympathy practical instantly
i feel so bad like how could i be mad

you on some shit i don’t want
u on some shit i done did
we all got idols but don’t feel to high up n fall to untimely end
go ahead out with your friends
ima stay in n make ends
meet like a blind date
fuck what the time say
if it aint 5 to sesh then i cant
you yet to see the best that i can
earth will end if bones get uncanned
sherpa lined everything let them see every stain 
59 everyday burnt to the membrane
flashback slumped in the breezeway
thinkin i cant do this shit forever
fuck doing there way ima go me way
100 high ways not long enough for my race
ima take it further than that
all these pussies think they take it further than rap 
no
u take it nowhere quick, nobody give a fuck bout the money that u get
AND
if u convince yourself any different
its safe u gone n been missing 
off in a land i could have predicted
molded by thoughts of those who don’t get ya
the scum has arisen 
and no bitch dont tempt me
cuz i have been patiently waiting for my time to lose it 
please come and offend me

feeling something like larry david
observe the world and then i get to shamin
shit go wrong im the one they blamin
while the rest get on stage and they blow it like kramar
stranger stranger who really stranger
cuz i dont know you but i know my anger
worried about your album say you need more bangers
bones never approach that ledge with danger
say you a star end the conversation
me and my brothers make the constellation
ima get it now im far from patient cant sit still i forever go crazy
the store clerk know what i need when i walk in
who bought out the bricks first night that they got in
who got what they need when they need it ill drop hints
im pointing all over like i promise its not him

Bones - KeepTellingYourselfThat (Prod. By Vegard Veslelia)

Gho$t In The $hell (Prod. Prohibeo)

you were right when you told me i was fucked up
i didn't know what i was doing i was fucked up
i was riding i was gone off of the drugs
i just didn't give a fuck cuz i never give a fuck
i give up that's what you wanted
i'm ok i'm just fine yeah
don't talk to me yeah don't mind me
i'm here now let's stop fighting

be quiet, i'm trying
i don't know why you look into my eyes babe
you were right i lost control but i'm ok
i'm just lonely right where you put me
you kill me, you don't get me
and it hits me, the way you did me
if you can fix me, i'll be still here
yeah bitch, you got nothing to fear

I Thought This Would Go Differently

FUCKED UP

cøzybøy & AXIDNT - I Used To Know How To Love  2016

Visuals featured on @idleglance: www.youtube.com/watch?v=b7R8PXqZ43Q
Produced and written by AMWA
Lyrics:
Chorus:
I just wanna slit my wrists and end this shit, 
I don’t really care, I don’t really care, 
I feel like I can’t think positive, 
I don’t really care, I don’t really care,
I feel like my life don’t really mean shit,
I don’t really care, I don’t really care
So if I die just listen to this shit
I really didn’t care, I really didn’t care 

Verse: 
I just wanna sit under your tree,
Thinking bout how my life’s been,
Got this notebook in my lap, I can barely even grip the pen,
Sometimes I’m ok, 
Sometimes I just wanna die,
Sometimes I just wanna be alone, 
Sometimes I just wanna be alive,
So I’ma get high to your memory, riding on a white caravan,
Speedin’ down the slopes with a bottle of jack, 
I can’t blame anyone but myself,
Only me, myself and I can get m outta this jam,
So I sit and breathe, sit and breathe, 
I guess I just need more positivity, 
But just when I think its Ok, 
I think fuck that….

Single

Sometimes I'm ok, Sometimes I Just Wanna Die(NOW AVAILABLE ON SPOTIFY AND ITUNES)

Everything is going to be okay, we're going to a better place now 
Verse 1
I saw you drowned in the bath tub/
But
The pills hit hard like a Mack truck 
I been tryna save me so I didn't save you/
Now I stay just swimming in the sad stuff/
Pretty girl ugly scar I know You've heard it all/
To the feet of a greatness Ima failure/
Stranger standing in room full of takers/
Break me tears fell when I saw both of your wrists caved in/
Decipher the shapes of the blood stains/
Your Id was scraped had no name/
Your body left was white like the cocaine/
That you would stuff inside to feel no pain/
And I hate the god that made you feel so odd/
So you danced and prayed that you could shake it off/
Now the shadows play inside your lonely loft/
So I fight to stay with a heart so soft/ okay
Chorus//
You were my angel 
I couldn't saved you
You don't trust nobody 
I should have known you were numb
You were my angel
Your body breaking
I don't trust nobody 
But I didn't give you enough 
Verse 2
Pick apart All the pieces broke from your lonely heart/
Feel the razor blade your body pierced and marked/
From place it ends till the time it start/
Heaven bleeds/
From the holes that you made in you sleeves/
And I shake and I pull and I scream/
And I rip and I stare and I stay/
From the place that you left but now chest is a cave/
Now my life is a maze/
Now your eyes a blazed/
With the gas of your heart/
And the room is in flames/
With the pain in your hands/
With the pain in your head/
This was never the plan/
Now I'm falling instead/
Rummage through the puke/
Swallow all the blood/
I don't wanna chose/
running out of luck/
Lobby full of drugs/
This is all a dream/
My Bodies full of puss/
Your corpse is where I sleep/

Everything's going to be okay, we're headed to a better place now-prod(datboidj)

i will forever regret the life you gave

listen to my friend @le_play </3

shaun, for you

yøu used tø be my little angel (ft. le play) [prød. cøzy]

https://genius.com/Illah-itriedtokillmyself-lyrics

S P O T I F Y

itriedtokillmyself          (prod. ty rose | xanxan)

GRIM REAPER

Seconds now drag on, but moments seem to fade away,
When I wake up I wait for the end of the day,
but my mind can't make time for my thoughts, so I cave,
Know things change, but I've watched my emotions decay,

Every day try to maintain, I just break away,
And the pain gets so numb that it leaves me afraid,
Now my gaze is something that they just can't mistake,
Losing touch with this world is so easy to me,

Dissappointing how easy it is to delete
Anybody that tries to step infront of me,
Things are different when there's really not much you need,
When perspectives start bleeding there's not much to see,

I feel guilty for things that I don't need to be,
How I've felt, how I should, how I can't even sleep,
How I still have these times I can't help but feel weak,
These are words, but these feelings are so real to me,

These are words, but these feelings are so real to me.
These are words, but these feelings are so real to me.
These are words, but these feelings are so real to me.
These are words, but these feelings are so real to me.

SWEAR

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These Are Words, But These Feelings Are So Real To Me (Prod. GREAF)

demons in my orbit

1242am (prod. syndrome)

Spotify Link - https://open.spotify.com/track/12Z6dBkcQ4brCR4otixJOM?si=A6nyC_oOSru5JujVn4dkqQ


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If I Killed Myself, Would You Cry (SPOTIFY LINK IN DESCRIPTION)

Produced and performed by king theta
Vocal mix and master by IOF https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic
Art by Love, Max https://twitter.com/lovemaxofficial

Lyrics:
I
I just wanna feel like I could fly
Give me anything that gets me high
I need you in my life cause
Shit's gonna cave in soon
Why?
Why you gotta say that I'm lyin
I swear to fuckin God I'm doin fine
The power's all mine but
Shit's gonna cave in soon

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

I got everything that I thought I wanted
But it didn't work

She said "lose
The fake personality you use"
Spent too many nights pourin Goose
So easy justifying getting loose
Attention is distraction from the noose
Sorry, not sorry for my ego
The king threw the old me out the window
I know there's no way home

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

Keep fillin me up
With your love and affection
And I'll spill it right out
Call it self-protection

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

Wish I Could Start Over

<3
I heard the words that you said 
They try to play with my head 
Roses all over your bed 
I know I wasn't the best 
I heard the words that you said 
They try to play with my head
Youll wish that I wasn't dead 


cant sleep with the lights off 
cant sleep with the lights off anymore 

Prod - Brady Amour 
Art -Brady Amour




hit up @scottysplash for mixing

I cant sleep with the lights off anymore

shattered:
in the benz
no more friends
smoking up that indica
with my luck
yeah i feel like i am dead again
in my head
something here doesn't feel right
feel right

woke up 
still gone
yeah i write another song
shawty won't love me for long
guess i gotta move on

always been chasing 
always been lacing
my heart is racing 
your guard is fading
i think i hate you
my soul is screaming
i'm dreaming
there's no escaping
i'm shaking

and when i die
will they shout my name
will i get the fame
will they stay the same

i've been coming up
loko in my cup
sorta funny how these bitches wanna call me up
never felt my pain
never felt the same
never knew the reason that these bitches give me brain

i've been coming up
shawty wanna talk
i don't wanna talk
so that bitch gets blocked
she just want the cock
put my heart on lock
shawty wanna fuck
tell that bitch good luck

sad chill:
i don't give a fuck
i've had enough
i just wanna be myself
is that too much
pressure on my chest
can't breathe 
can't sleep
neck deep
imma choke 
blow smoke
can't cope
all the things unsaid
can i die instead 
im sick of fake love
i just want a friend
all they want is gucci fur
all i need is @gucccifer 
i would die for her 
but im already dead
dont know what to do
dont know what to do
always back to blue
always back to blue
will be gone soon
will be gone soon
hope i follow thru
hope i follow thru
and i try my best
but not for myself
is this fucking hell
i can't tell no

sick of fake love w/ sad chill (prod. jakkyboi)

(PROD. BY @prodlxve x @kvnny)
engineered @kvnny

lyrix

you make me feel empty
in my heart i feel blue
cause ur not around
when i close my eyes i see you
i cant get away
from the ghost that still haunts me
now im fucked up cause 
i know that you still want me

every single day
moving faster like a race
and im hoping that i crash
saw 200 on the dash
fuck a red light
stop sign
i cant give a fuck no
i aint got time
stopwatch
that rolly dont tick tock

woah

if i said it then i mean it
i choose you like
eenie meenie
told you that im never leaving
and you still do not believe me
so i put it in the past 
i cant see you like im stevie
so ill put it on a track
so you see me on the TV
im a rockstar
cant stop till they know it
really hoping i dont blow it
cause i really wanna show it
show show up with the flex
let em know that im up next
yung ghosty with the checks
yung ghosty with the checks

woah
yea i got the checks like its nike
running round my town i think they like me
neck and wrist is icey
baddie treat me nicely
yea
shes bad for my psyche
yea

must have met you in a past life
odd are i loved you then as well
but right now you make me so mad
make me feel so sad
woah

you make me feel empty
in my heart i feel blue
cause ur not around
when i close my eyes i see you
i cant get away
from the ghost that still haunts me
now im fucked up cause 
i know that you still want me

you make me feel empty
in my heart i feel blue
cause ur not around
when i close my eyes i see you
i cant get away
from the ghost that still haunts me
now im fucked up cause 
i know that you still want me

empty (p. lxve x kenny)

shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/bornhero for the amazing beat <3

lyrics:
where i belong 
i do not know
stuck in my room
crying at home
watching the parties from my distant phone
everyone always just leaves me alone
i do not know
how to fit in
smoking me out
ripping a spliff  
everyone loves me when i go and dip
everyone loves me when i go and dip

everyone leaves me on read
everyone leaves me for dead
stuck in my bed once again
writing the same lines in pen
everyone leaves me on read
everyone leaves me for dead
stuck in my bed once again
writing the same lines in pen
i'm stuck here 
writing simple songs
hope to take the pain away
when my eyes turn to gray
i know 
that my secrets buried deep below the bong
will release
every thought i'm feeling making me do wrong

where i belong
i will not know
every weekend i'm feeling so low
no where to go 
staying at home
staring at walls scrolling twitter alone
hit up my phone
leave you on read
people around treating me like i'm dead
feel like a ghost
no one will post
sit in my bed think about you again   

no one invites me to parties
sit in a car acting sorry
girls playing me like atari
soon i'll blow up like i'm carti
no one invites me to parties
sit in a car acting sorry
girls playing me like atari
soon i'll blow up like i'm carti

i take control of the whip in my mind
driving me places that i can't define
exploring the road, taking my time
lie to my friends when i say i'm alright
where have i gone
i do not know 
hop in the car and i'm driving alone
phone is on silent not trusting these tones
i feel the weight all the way to my bone

where i belong 
i do not know
stuck in my room
crying at home
watching the parties from my distant phone
everyone always just leaves me alone
i take control of the whip 
going straight 90 i dip
exploring the vessel of me
tell me about what you see

where i belong (prod. born hero)

iggy universe

NARCAN (feat. egodeath)(prod. egodeath)
@808egodeath

now that i'm losing hope, and there's nothing left to show

</3

~so long, goodbye.

I dont think I'm supposed to feel this way

lostgirl