لقد أثقلتني أكاذيبك ولعنتك التي تلاحقني منذ أعوام وكأن وجودك ظلٌّ ثقيل لا ينفكّ عني تحاول أن تبرّر نفسك أمام الناس وأن تلبس ثوب البراءة بينما حقيقتك واضحة كالشمس مكشوفة لا تحتاج دليلًا لقد سئمتُ منك ومن كذبك ومن صوتك ومن محاولاتك التي لا تنتهي لقلب الحقائق أنت العذاب الذي يفرض نفسه عليّ وأنت القيد الذي يحاصرني كلما حاولت أن أتنفّس تظنّ أنك المسؤول عني وما كنتَ يومًا إلا عبئًا وسياجًا يضيّق روحي تروي الأكاذيب لتظهر نقيًّا وتُلقي بي وحدي في موقع الذنب وكأن السماء لا ترى ما تفعل ومع كل يوم يمرّ يتّضح لي أن لعنتك أعمق مما ظننته وأن وجودك حولي يطفئ في داخلي كل معنى للراحة لقد تعبت تعبت حتى صرت أشعر أن البقاء بقربك يشبه الموت في بطئه وثقله وظلمته ولا أريد بعد الآن إلا أن أتحرّر أن أبتعد أن أخرج من دائرتك التي تخنقني وتبتلعن

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Remixed Sample: the story so far - navy blue

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I walked her home, for the last time

remastered 9.21.17

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Sample: Turnover - Disintegration

street lights

im feelin lost and ion know where else to go now
ion really have a place to call my home now
everybody hatin and i feel so cold now
why do everybody make me feel alone like
x2

ive got so much shit to say 
baby take me from this place
i just really cannot stay 
tears are falling down my face
i feel colder every day
know they want me out their way
ill be gone ill be okay 
i just need some fucking space
i walk by i feel them hate 
wanna die cause i relate
wanna cry i feel insane
i get high but cant escape
would they love me if i change
am i lost am i too late
soon im dead i cannot wait
please dont love me its a waste

wanna die so fucking bad
youre the best ive ever had
wanna die when i look back
cause u always made me sad
cant get over shit im done
i just make another song
nothing helps im fucking numb
ill be gone bitch pass the blunt
ive been hurting for so long
baby kill me in your thongs
ive been dying all along
let me go where i belong
get me drunk bitch get me high
give me pills and let me vibe
when its time just let me die
im so tired of this life

let me die

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let me die (prod. lilhappylilsad)

Lyrics:
Every day I just feel so much, god fuckin dammit i just bleed so much,
I know i plead too much but i need your touch, cause without it I wont be someone


Wake up I wish I was dead, you were there when noone cared,
now my lifes full of despair, shaking and scared, i wasnt prepared,
THESE DEMONS ARE ALL IN MY HEAD


NEVER EXPRESSED, IT'S ALWAYS CONSTRAINED,
THESE THOUGHTS ARE JUST HAUNTING MY BRAIN, I JUST CANT EXPLAIN
All of this pain, going through each and every single one of my veins


The past is done, I cant change that,
I think it's time for me to just face facts,
All red is gone, my heart aches black,
I might just go and blow my brains blank, 


 why cant It just end? 
STOP, STOP IT, JUST GO AWAY, PLEASE!


pain...pain...pain..pain....pain...pain..NOTHING WILL EVER BE THE SAME



I CANT ESCAPE, THIS IS MY FATE, 
WHY CANT THINGS JUST BE SO SIMPLY EXPLAINED,
WHY ARE YOU FADING, FLOATING EVADING, GOING ESCAPING,
YOU KNOW I CANT TAKE IT,
I JUST WANT TO LIVE IN PEACE, I JUST WANNA LIVE WITH EASE,
I JUST WANNA LIVE AND BREATHE, I JUST WANNA LOVE MY QUEEN.


Original beat, Aestral- Miran

Pain (prod. aestral)

@lilhappylilsad

Art by: @neversince

Lyrics:

ye i love you, and i want u to smile
get the drugs boo, ye lets smoke and get high
drippin blood tho, i got death on my mind
got this urge hoe, wanna cut till die

and i dont want to, but i fuck it all up
i feel so damn low, cant control it at times
and it hurts you, i dont want u to cry
cause i love u, and i want u to smile

lil happy lil sad - smile (prod. nciku)

@lilhappylilsad @teenpregnancy

lil happy lil sad:

imma break down soon
in the same old room
that i always do
i feel so alone 

make some beats and smoke
pray i make it soon
pray they buy my shit
cause im so damn broke

girl im so damn cold
i might freeze to death
rollin up some dope
smoking trees for stress

fuck the life i had
i dont want it back
fuck the friends i had
they just made me sad

now its me and her
bout to fuck the world
we dont need no help
we came up from dirt

i still hate myself
thats a side of me
wanna kill myself
and ive tried im weak

mom would drive me in
everytime i did
i would ask to leave
and theyd give me pills

that shit on repeat
every other week
they would numb me down
till i couldnt speak

teen pregnancy:

lay me down
i dont wanna die
i cant sleep alone
need u here tonight

you were everything
you were my god damn life
now its all fucked up
and i wont sleep tonight

i was snorting pills
you were up all night
i swear i couldnt feel
i was so damn high

liquor in my blood
you were all i want
i gave you everything
i feel so unloved

you finally got exactly what you want
you were off getting fucked and i was so fucked up
fuck the wedding ring fuck this life i lead
got me feeling numb doing bumps off keys

i dont wanna live
tried to kill myself
girl ill numb you too
take your life as well

i wanna watch you bleed
she gets numb for me
lets kill ourselves
so i can sleep

lil numb w/ Teen Pregnancy (prod. lilhappylilsad)

@lilhappylilsad

music video: https://youtu.be/qSVPoTjlw-8

she told me i was nothing n it hurt
she used to make me happy n feel special with her words
i tried to shed some light on all the dark inside of her
she used to be my everything and now im off the drugs 

i fell to the ground
im smoking all the time
just tryna survive
i might kill myself tonight

i never fucking know
when im gonna go
cause one day i am happy
next im strangled by the noose

i fell to the ground
crying all the time
sadness in my sound
i am always on the grind

im always feeling low
stuck inside my mind
i just wanna go
but i never seem to die

always in my bed i made her leave me here alone
screamin at her crying i would point her to the door
all i ever want is her to be here when im low
i try to act unbothered but i end up hurting more
x2

i fell to the ground
im smoking all the time
just tryna survive
i might kill myself tonight

i never fucking know
when im gonna go
cause one day i am happy
next im strangled by the noose

i fell to the ground
crying all the time
sadness in my sound
i am always on the grind

im always feeling low
stuck inside my mind
i just wanna go
but i never seem to die

survive (VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

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Jake Hill & Josh A - Suicidal Thoughts

@lilhappylilsad

lyrics:

I've lost myself to anxiety
cause I cant find my way out of this hole
I cant believe what you've done to me
you don't wanna see the dark inside my soul 

I'm always dying so quietly 
I know that it's too much for you to handle
my blade takes away my anxiety 
I know u think that this is sad, but it's just a sample 

u really fucked me up, I really wish u knew how much 
you're the reason why my blade has always been crutch
you're the reason why I hate myself a bit too much 
you're the reason why I cant even fkn trust 

I know you see me slowly falling apart 
there are so many fkn wounds in my heart 
I don't ever stop bleeding I need stitches 
but the only way to heal me is if you could fix it 

save my love cause I know you're gonna miss it
say goodbye to my respect and all my kisses
I'm so unstable always on the verge of crying 
I cant deal with my emotions so I'm hiding 

damn I loved you so much and I admired you
until I realized what you've put me through 
I can't believe those stupid words you used to say 
nowadays I think about em everyday 

I'm a wreck can't go a day without crying 
I'll always be this broken so I started lying 
I'll never recover even tho I'm fucking trying 
no matter what I do I'll just end up dying

I don't understand how you can fkn live with yourself 
I ain't done shit like you and I cant even live with myself 
I know you lay awake with anxiety every night 
I hope you're thinking about that you've ruined both of our lives 

I'm filled with emotions that I've bottled up 
I write songs about the things I cannot speak of
there's no point in tryna help me I'm about to give up 
you should blame yourself cause I never felt loved

Save My Love (prod. lil happy lil sad)

@xam @itsyungvan @lilrodger

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/1c9HI3TRRmxnR0nafNgs6i
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/im-sorry-feat-yung-van-single/1464245907
YouTube: https://youtu.be/gcre0V8UAhU

[Intro]
I’ve been thinking why i keep waking up
I wanna sleep i’ve had enough
I don’t wanna do this anymore

[Verse 1: XAM]
Stuck inside this mind of mine
There is no escaping this
Am I wasting my time?
What do I live for, why am I alive?

I’m lonely but I’m not alone
Don’t worry when I’m on my own
I’m not gonna lock the door
I don’t do that no more
One day I wanna grow old

I’m sorry
From the bottom of heart
I should kill myself today
And come back to life
And start again

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I’m sorry for the choices that I’ve made
I hate myself and I’m ashamed
I’m sorry for the things that I have said
It wasn't me, it was the voices in my head

[Bridge]
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry

[Verse 2: Yung Van]
You've got me feeling like a lost cause
For everything I said
I'd rather hang inside my living room
Because I'm better off dead

And now I know why
You had to leave me all alone again
Because I didn't know how
To treat you like a queen and not a friend

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I’m sorry for the choices that I’ve made
I hate myself and I’m ashamed
I’m sorry for the things that I have said
It wasn't me, it was the voices in my head

I'M SORRY (feat. Yung Van) [Prod. RODGER]

i will forever regret the life you gave

listen to my friend @le_play </3

shaun, for you

yøu used tø be my little angel (ft. le play) [prød. cøzy]

Guccihighwaters - I Thought I Died Inside

Artwork By : https://www.instagram.com/swedish_weirdo/
Lyrics

Seeing My Fears Come Alive
I Feel Like I'm Dead Inside

I Feel Like I'm Dead Inside

I Went Through Hell And Back
You Would Never Understand

You Would Never Understand
Getting Trapped In Yourself
I'm Screaming, I'm Calling For Help

It's Quiet As A Mouse In Here
I Just Gotta Get Out Of here

But I Can't
And You Can't Help Me
If I Come Back Please Hold Me Gently
And Now I'm Back , I've Lived A Thousand Lives
If I Die Let It Please Be By Your Side

Hell And Back

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Hell And Back (Prod.Discent)

Dont Walk Lil happy lil sad

[Intro: lil happy lil sad]
Right now
About to drown
I wanna die

[Hook: 4ever Falling]
Baby tell me where you at
Cause I'm in need of you right now
The blood is rushing down
And baby I'm about to drown
Baby come and save me
I don't wanna fuckin die
Baby hurry up
The pain is stinging in my thighs

[Verse 1: lil happy lil sad]
I can't get my thoughts off of you
You're the only thing that matters to me when I'm low
When I'm crying and I'm smoking dope
You're the only thing I want girl i feel so alone
I wanna start my life with you
So I'm working really hard for independence to provide for you
I wanna live my life with you
So let's work until we make it and we rich for good

[Hook: 4ever Falling]
Baby tell me where you at
Cause I'm in need of you right now
The blood is rushing down
And baby I'm about to drown
Baby come and save me
I don't wanna fuckin die
Baby hurry up
The pain is stinging in my thighs

Lil Happy Lil Sad - Drown

Hold me, down again
I've lost it, I've lost a friend
I'm stuck in, this mindset
I'm stuck in, my own debt

Cause we're falling, we're falling away  
And I called it, from a mile away
Warnings show, it overflows
Should've known, cause we're

Doomed
Slowly fate is
Doomed
And I feel like we're
Doomed
Cause I feel like we're doomed
Cause I feel like we're doomed
We're doomed

When stars collide, hold me tight
Into the darkness, we will glide
Close the story, It's the end
Are we sorry?
Do we regret?

All our choices and our mistakes
Once our moment, left in vain
What a waste of a life, what a waste of our time

Future of sorrow, can we repair?
Don't leave till tomorrow, today is still here
I know its been harder, but we cant give up
We cant give up, cause we are

Doomed
Slowly fate is
Doomed
And I feel like we're
Doomed
Cause I feel like we're doomed
Cause I feel like we're doomed
We're doomed

let me die (prod. lilhappylilsad)

lil happy lil sad

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