Credence (2017)

This is from 2012 

*Lyrics* 

Catch my breath and finally
She keeps me calm and suddenly
A relapse of old tricks trying to make a new
In his car she finally
Tampers with her sexuality
Scratching at each other's minds till they're in the nude
As for me, my loyalty
Is only sold illegally
To the pantomime crying clown
Cry for me whilst upside down
Salivating, bloody mouth
Or passionately bloody mouth
And graveyard girls swinging a bag like a pendulum
For the static rustling
Plug me in, the record spins
And treat me like I wasn't someone that you knew
Annabelle she reads my dreams
Surrounding me in casualties
But I don't get mad cause I know it's what you do
Over-priced analogies
Brittle man he dress like me
Like the pantomime crying clown
Cry for me whilst upside down
Salivating, bloody mouth
Or passionately bloody mouth
And graveyard girls swinging a bag like a pendulum
She creates this
Border around
Her perfect body
Shes perfectly lonely
And graveyard girls tapping ribs like a xylophone
She creates this
Border around
Her perfect body
She is perfectly
Lonely

Crying Clown (The Wytches Cover)

original song is called 'for marlon' 

*lyrics*

I broke my toes cause when I'm sad 
I get as clumsy as a stupid clown
but you're way too young to understand
and I'm way too desperate to be sane
so I fall for you like a fool for gold
cause you look so pure and I love your voice
I can hear the cracks of your youthful heart
and it makes me wanna be 
a part of that

till I said
what's there on your arm
you said don't look, please don't ask
I know you won't like to know that
I'm a recovering addict and sometimes I relapse

but if I get sober
would you swear to love me
If I get sober
could you care for me?

and as I was ready and didn't care to doubt
the wheel has spin and left a drought
I thought I knew back then to never ever trust
someone who drugs come first

and I think there's no love
but just proof of love
and you've just proved me 
that you never cared
and it's been raining for 3 days straight 
as a sad reflect of my sorry state

and I remember you said with me you felt
the best that you've ever felt
and I think that no drugs can replace
the warmth and tenderness that we embraced

and if you get sober
I will be here for you
If you get sober
I'll be yours for good

I Am Sick, I Am Tired (Soko Cover)

you just want to use me you run to abuse me 
you just wanna use me for my heart
why'd you have to make me feel like i meant something 
why'd you have to do that from the start

you told me i was a gem
but im not sapphire
please get out of my head
i promise im no liar

i know that you know that you meant everything you said
why'd you have to fuck with my head
i really liked you i want to take your pain but now youre not the same

youre really just like everyone else
im just gonna stay by myself
its better for my head its better for my heart i wont give you a chance i wont give you another

watch me grow and watch my glow ill be up here

Don't Be Sorry

thank u foliage <3 

produced/mixed/mastered - @foliyear

i wasn't meant for this 
i'm so sorry that i am the way i am 
cut my body open 
make me whole again
i know you can
yeah i know you can 

i'm so sorry i can't love
i promise i'm trying it won't be enough 
i feel so much in my heart i'm empty at the same time
empty at the same time 
always wanna fucking die 
will i make it through the night

i wasn't meant for this i'm so sorry that i am the way i am

cut my body open make me whole again 
i know you can 

always wanna fucking die will i make it through the night
will i make it

Bury You (Prod. Foliage)

huge thank u to these guys <3 

@deadtreesnolongerbreathe

@foliyear

i need some time
i just need a minute
i gotta get my head right 
i gotta make sure that tonight 
tonight is that last night i see you like this 
to get better is my only wish 
for you to see me for me
i've always been this way you see 
maybe next year when the weather gets colder 
i'll look back over my shoulder 

would you believe this things i've seen
at this point i've gained control
of my stupid tendencies 

blade cut go ahead deeper
you thought i would be weaker 
you know that i love this pain 
knife touch baby it keeps me sane

Cavities (Prod. DeadForest & Foliage)

thank you <3 

@totaldespair

@ginsnegxx

can you imagine a love with out pain
warm light and the smell of the rain 
if only tomorrow would be the same
tonight i am pure and i feel nothing

the wretched decrepit the sick and the worn
i promise ill stay we will never be torn
when you said you loved me i never would
 have known
the day i will lose you and the day you will be gone

ill wait in my mourning until the light comes
i may wait forever but forever to one
may be such a long time but listen to me
forever is nothing when you're all i see 

inside your body there is seething hate
break the fucking chain before its too late
a life without light and a life without love
is no life at all i'm just so sick of
seeing you like this all injured and bleeding
i cut its throat the demon was feeding

Leash (Prod. Despair & Gin$eng)

produced/mixed/mastered: @foliyear 

thank you so much for listening

i don't think you really know
i can see how much you bled 
every night i spent with you 
you were hanging by a thread 
cut through all your veins yeah 
i know you're in pain yeah 
feel like you're all alone
i'm here please pick up the phone 

make me feel alright 
like i'm okay tonight 
like i can manage i can heal 
please make me feel something real

Hollow (Prod. Foliage)

@notemrys <3 

@underrate <3 

thank you for listening 

I should have told you
with all that we been through 
how much I feel
I don't wanna know it's real 
I don't wanna lose you 
I don't wanna lose you 
go ahead and look inside 
you don't have to hide
promise me you'll stay 
by my side
everything that haunts me
all the things that taunt me 
can't fall asleep I know you don't want me 

we're building up just to fall out 
it's entropy we're breaking down
you're missing the point so i'm blacking out
and I hate to talk so I just write it down
don't fuck with me now
life is no fun until I take the crown
I'm just myself can't be someone else 
don't use a pseudonym 
It's just the hand that i'm dealt 
wanna know how I feel get a lock pick 
armored up growing toxic 
drowning in percs till I panic 
I'll fade to a ghost watch me vanish

Disengage (Feat. Emrys) Prod. Underrate

thank you for listening. 

an album is in the works 

fuck with my friends <3 
@bruhmanegod 
@mxtixn

falling fast till my feet crack the ground
fly away, wave bereaved to the crowd
so deprived of the world that's around
dead to everybody till i leave a frown
so fucking lost
can't find my place
there's no escape
a broken face
they love then fade
they run and wait
always question where you went
like they can cared in the first place
blood run down my face
run down the pavement
shivering softly
shaking abruptly
twitch like it's nothing
temple is empty
now they surrounding

like they even cared at all
i came so fucking close
liked they even cared at all 
i came so close
like it matters, like it matters at all

i can't go one more day 
feeling this way 
how can you call this a home 
this is hell 
asking me how i am i'm doing well
you've seen me slit wrist 
you did nothing 
wont be missed i am becoming 
something i'm not used to 
i just wanna hold you 
look through my window 
i just wanna see you glow 
the moon lights up in you 
i think our feelings are true 
all my life i've looked for this 
i need to feel your kiss 
shivering softly 
shaking abruptly 
you are so lovely 
you are so lovely

Lament (Feat. BRUHMANEGOD) Prod. MOTION / MXTIXN

produced by @igorexz <3

mixed by @bruhmanegod & myself 

thank you for listening 

how did this happen
i don't recall 
a feeling i'd lost 
sometime last fall 
you feel so warm 
i'm fucking torn 

bore within him like worms 

please tell me what should i do 
i want this now 
i am brand new 
i don't wanna lose you 
i don't wanna lose you 

the soil is rich it's haunting 
i find myself wanting you

Molt (Prod. Xerogi)

White Fire (Angel Olsen Cover)

thank you @fleece 

and thank you for listening 

Is this happening? is this real life 
who knew I would feel this way 
I don't wanna touch the knife

this is new to me 
I hope you can see 
I'm trying my hardest 
I wanna be what you wanted 
I'm scared 
I've become unaware 
you're so beautiful 
I swear 

the color of your hair at sunset

Bereft (Prod. Fleece)

@fiftygrand

a favorite song of mine... 

here is the original 
https://soundcloud.com/fiftygrand/abigail-and-the-hammer-1

I love you, but when they cut you you're not going to bleed (FIFTY GRAND COVER)

thank you <3 @deadwint3r

titan 

my heart pulls towards you
my words burn my throat 
I'm so deprived 
lover I once wrote 
swallow my silence 
my head is full of dreams 
I had of you once 
don't know what they might mean 
you're listening 
but you refuse to see 
you don't understand what you mean to me

I was walking through the woodland 
saw a fallow deer 
I noticed
once closer 
she knew that I was near 
bleeding her face was 
her antlers molting 
I didn't mean to 
scare her away

I want this to work 
carve our love into stone
you see I am with you 
but I'm always alone

Sanctity (Prod. DeadWinter)

here is the original www.youtube.com/watch?v=TQJd9Dxp0dE

i like this song

Beauty (The Shivers Cover) - Butcher Acoustic Cut

My friend @nathan-fozter released an EP & this is our track that's on it. I like it a lot so I decided to post it here as well.  https://soundcloud.com/nathan-fozter/sets/goodbye-for-now

Darkest of my days
I walked always where the earth was cold
The sun would only show 
At dusk for a moment 
Just past that one tree 
That's where you held me 
In my dream it was so long ago
You were there sleeping 
Here I am keeping my thoughts 
Oh my thoughts 
Oh my thoughts of drowning in you

Mad Kelly x Lilith Is Gone - Long Ago

Gild (Sanctity Acoustic)

Produced, mixed & mastered by: @shaedelea

Fake lights say our lives won’t be forgotten the moment we've fallen.

Why waste our time? Knowing the options you still circle all this.

I’ve failed to see the beauty in between the lines provide for me. I ignored the signs to leave.

I’ve tried to ease the struggles mentally, but end up hiding all the signs again until it leaves.

How can I love myself again? I ask the same thing every night.

How can I love myself again? I asked again just hoping I could obtain an answer.

Please, can something help me see how I can live a stable life without this will to leave?

It’s a hopeless dream buried underneath the line of problems that are carried through the cracks & seams.

How can I love myself again? I ask the same thing every night.

How can I love myself again? I asked again just hoping I could obtain an answer.

Please, can you just let me sleep? A sinking ship without relent while I suppress these things.

This disbelief prevents a state of grief that wastes away my time to break the lines that stain my streets.

Fake lights say our lives won’t be forgotten the moment we've fallen.

Why waste our time? Knowing the options you still circle all this.

How can I love myself again? I ask the same thing every night.

How can I love myself again?

48 Days (feat. Shae Delea)

Produced by: @foliyear 
Mixed/Mastered: @ShaeDelea


Embers of a love thought lost burns 
Deep inside hollow husk 
Remind yourself it's always there 
Reasons unknown I care for 
All you've lost all you'll find 
In this beautiful life 
You are living here 
Take my hand, nothing to fear 
You walk your own path 
No one's fault, just you to blame 
You're not to blame 
We are the same

Embers of love thought lost 
Kinder the fire, this moss 
Winter is here, I'm gone

What if it was all my fault? 
Take your pain, take it off 
Your flesh my bone 
My weakness God knows that 
I wanna live so long 
My rapture is to come 
Keep me here 
Please my dear

lilith is gone

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