artwork by n1ghtf0rce
produced by dercept

scars in her eyes (dercept)

@joshuasageart
@benxni
@lilkuudere

produced by @lilkuudere

SPOTIFY

can u f33l it now?? REMIX (BENXNI, JoshuaSageArt)

SPOTIFY PRE-SAVE
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/lilkuudere/i-dont-wanna-grow-up-anymore-2

@lilkuudere

lyrics

i don't know which way to go now
what's the point when nobody cares about me?
i hate walking down this street
i keep staring at my feet
cause i'm scared that they'll look at me
and they'll see my face
i can't explain why i'm feeling this way
but i know i'm hurting
i dont know what im learning
what the fuck am i learning?

CAUSE I FUCKED UP
I FUCKED IT
RATHER RUN AWAY THAN COMFRONT IT
ALL THE PAST TIMES I SAID THAT I LOVED IT
NOW I'VE GROWN UP I'TS DISGUSTING (x2)

its fucking disgusting

it's just me, myself and i
tryna figure out my life
i don't care about the others
why tf should i reply?
i'm so sick of this shit
sometimes i wish i could die
i'm so scared of growing up
and dealing with a normal life

i don't know what to do
when there's nothing in my view
i don't have a planned career
i don't even have a clue
just my blood, sweat and tears
i've been searching hard for years
i'm so scared of waking up and finding tht my time is near

WHY IS EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE SO HARD?
I CAN'T EVEN SEE THE STARS IN THE DARK
I CAN ONLY SEE THE SCARS IN MY HEART
MY HEART (x2)

i don't wanna grow up anymore (xmichaelwarren)

FULL AMV https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VVF8KwzJkvs

PRODUCED BY K4NJI BEATS
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCD7WkywhEl1CB6TGK20t_Xg
@LILKUUDERE
@JustWarrenPeace

in the end i'll always be there for you (JustWarrenPeace)

why u looking like tht ft. TAHITI (michaelwarren)

MUSIC VIDEO https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K5CHMQ-KTsk

lyrics

it feels like home again

do you see me walking around inside your rear-view?
don't leave me here on the ground, let me be near you
i feel like i'm falling in love all over again
this just feel like, like it's real life

it feels like home again
with you inside my bed
it feels like home again
i don't want this to end
it feels like home again
i'm all alone again
it feels like home
i don't want this to end

it feels like home again
with you inside my bed
become the ghost again
that lives inside my head
it feels like home agin
i'm all alone again
it feels like home
i dont want this to end
it feels like home

i wish that i could see you now
i wish that i could see you now
i wish that i could see you now
i wish that i could see you now
i wish that i could see you now
i wish that i could see you now
i wish
i wish i could see you now
i wish that i could see you
i wish that i could see you
i wish
i wish i could see you now

(i never understood you and i guess i never will)

i wish that i could see you
i wish that i could see you

feels like home (recycleBin)  MUSIC VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION

songs: 
S3RL - MTC
kuudere - let me get this off my chest

S3RL mTC fLIp

prod. kuudere

Feels like my heart stopped
when I saw you at the bus stop.
This feels like a movie scene
and the characters are you and me.
We fall in love at the first sight.
Faint anoxic while I'm tongue tied. 
Her razorblade eyes are cutting deep.
She walked away and now I r.i.p

I wish I could be your boyfriend
She already has a boyfriend
I wish I could be your boyfriend now
She already has a boyfriend (x2)

It's 3am and I've counted all the sheep now. 
All I'm thinking about is you and me.
We're not together but together in my dreams now.
When I wake up I'm in misery.
Now every day's always feeling like a lie.
Just wanna go back home and close my eyes.
And maybe I should just eternally sleep
for you and me
for you and me 

I wish I could be your boyfriend
She already has a boyfriend
I wish I could be your boyfriend now
She already has a boyfriend (x2)

I hate my life

spotify

boyfriEND

shoot me with your red arrow i won't change now  :･ﾟ･✭

lyrics

kuudere
She treats me like the one 
She shines just like the sun
I think i fell in luv
With an angel from above <3
I see you when I sleep
I hear you in my dreams
She's an angel just for me
Like she's heavens property

 I see your face when it's late out
Her skins so cold like it's rain now
I need you like everyday now </3
When I'm having nightmares she's the way out
Life then made me wanna blow my brains out
But right now I can say that I'm okay now
Shoot me with your red arrow I wont change now Cause either way I know I will feel the same now <3

JoshuaSageArt 

Feel so crushed with it
I can’t deny
So in luv with it
It’s on my mind

She wanna take me away
Don’t wanna come back down
Hop in that wraith
No we can’t come back nowww

I’d run towards the challenge
Cause for you I’d move mountains
Your light just stays surrounded
I could never have doubts about it

Catch me living two life’s woah
I can’t switch up on my side woah
You’re everything that I ever said I wanted
You’re someone I know that I slide for

I know that you that you gotta do you
And I gotta do me I can’t trip all night no
She gonna throw that ass back for me
Then I’ma hit on that hoe like it’s mine woah-oh-oh

I’m so through
All the things I went through
You’re a demon with a halo
Think I wanna see you move

Now I know why
You’re all mine
There’s no disguise
Give our hearts the time

kuudere
She treats me like the one She shines just like the sun
I think i fell in luv
With an angel from above <3
I see you when i sleep
I hear you in my dreams
She's an angel just for me
Like she's heavens property

platinum end ft. JoshuaSageArt (dercept)

@lilkuudere
@odece

I don't know what to do
When I fall asleep I see you
I don't know what to choose
Either way I'll loose (x2) Life's tragic
Put the apples in the basket
Tore my heart so you could have it
When you got it you just vanished
Like you're magic
I'm so damaged
I'm okay though thanks for asking
I just need a little time to be alone then I'll keep standing on my feet.
I'm not dead, I'm not alive, something between something between (x2)
Yeah yeah
Something between (x2)

idkwtd (odece)

circles (recycleBin)

i tried my best (saki!)

i feel like :/ (tohruxd)

@lilkuudere @3speon @uglyzucc

produced by @uglyzucc
artwork by @3speon

On my own again
You told me sweet pretty lies
Now I've got to pretend
It'll be okay in the end
Tell me all these sweet little lies
Tell me it'll be alright
Tell me all these sweet little lies
Tel me it'll be alright
Some nights I stay up thinking
Some nights I can't stop weeping
Some nights I stay up thinking
Some nights I can't stop weeping

Some nights
Some nights
Some nights
I can feel your heart still beating
Most nights wont turn clockwise
I can feel my whole world sinking down
And now you're talking bout me in the past tense
I'm driving in my car I hope I crash it now
I just want something in life to make sense
Everything I touch is always breaking now
Now I'm waiting at your front door hoping you don't hate me now
now now now
I'm praying you don't hate me now

On my own again
You told me sweet pretty lies
Now I've got to pretend
It'll be okay in the end
Tell me all these sweet little lies
Tell me it'll be alright
Tell me all these sweet little lies
Tel me it'll be alright
Some nights I stay up thinking
Some nights I can't stop weeping
Some nights I stay up thinking
Some nights I can't stop weeping

pretty lies ft. espeon (uglyzucc)

@lilkuudere @benxni @odece
PRODUCED BY ODECE

i'm rarely outside 
fucking up on some high 
i can't feel inside 
butterflies in the night 
i can't let this die 
i don't wanna waste my time
if you're not by my side then 
i don't wanna be alive 
i see you tonight
dancing round in my mind
i'll pay any price so 
tell me some pretty lies
oh baby if you were a drug i'de take you instantly 
when i sleep
i'm a feign

やり残したことばっかり考えてたきっと
だから目の前の事を冷たい目で見てた
きっと悔やんでは病んでは
なんであの時
なんて考えてるうちに
この景色はどっかに行ってしまう

君と裸 エデンの楽園
きっとはたから 見ればやばくね
君と目が合うだけで全部わかる
君とひとつになる
yeah yeah

求めていたのさ空に答えを
正解ならもう知っていたのに
足りないものなんて何もないよ

forever after ft. BENXNI (odece)

@lilkuudere
@spaceb0y
@levi_tokyo
@bakurwd

PARTY EVERY NIGHT (Space Boy, levi, Baku) prod. lileffort

i do it all for my brothers
do it all for my mother
i do it for proof before the heavens start callling
i do it for you, shawty you're just like no other
i want to see you again, if not this life then another (x2)

Tell me, are you ready?
Fall in love and suffer
My hearts way too heavy
Can you feel the burden?

Read you like I’m Levy
Why am I never learning?
Heal you like I’m Wendy
everytime you’re hurting

Tell me that you need me
Tell me with your eyes
It’s real because we’re bleeding
Real because we’re alive
Staring at the ceiling
こころこわすない
まじで this feeling
Takes me to the sky

今は泣かないで
未だ鮮明で
取り残されたわたしは
なにもできないただ今は
自信を持てるようにおんがくをつくってる
歌ってる

願うの毎朝
明日は来ないなら
もうあんなことしなきゃ良かったなんて
願って憂いな運命なら
本当の強さは何処にあるんだ

僕らはまだいっしょに
離れないで居たいのに
左側がいたいの
何処にもいかないで

離れないで
まだここにいて
手を預けて
感じてみて
目の前には
はじめようか、もう一回

existence ft utumiyqcom (star607)

lyrics

turn off the lights 
Let’s see you shine 
Fucked up sipping on strongs tonight 
Yeah
Tryna live my life
Shawty are you tryna be apart of mine? 
Yeah
I luv the way you smile at me it shakes me to my core 
Please stay here for a while 

I’m my head 
I see you with only me
In my head
It’s Filled with strong and extacy
In my head 
I see you crawl on top of me 
In my head 
I’m fucked
In my head 
Oh
in my head 

My heart feels numb
But it beats for you just like a drum 
I’m off the drugs
Looking jet lagged when I’m pulling up
Never enough
Can’t be sober when I open up 
Girl ur my lifeline 
Hoping that shit is likewise 

Yeah 
only got strong in my cup 
Taking my shot in the dark now
Yeah I cannot stay being stuck 
gotta keep chasing the sun now 

She says I’m so mysterious 
But ide say I’m more delirious 
Life‘s hard but it’s not that serious 
because it ends

I’m my head 
I see you with only me
In my head
It’s Filled with strong and extacy
In my head 
I see you crawl on top of me 
In my head 
I’m fucked
In my head 
Oh
in my head x2

in my head (drma)

prod. kuudere

Lyrics:

hate me
Break me
Please don’t take me
Down to hell like the others
Wake me
Wake me
From this bad dream
Watch my world slowly coming down
I can’t feel my heartbeat lately
Guess my times slowly coming round
When I see you I start aeciing
Cause my worlds slowing coming down

I hate how I can’t see you
I hate when he is near you
I hate how you moved on and you left me inside the rear view

I hate how nothing works out
My brain is always burnt out
Wish I could see the light instead I wait until it’s dark out

Can’t let you go
Why am I always selfish?
You’ll never know
Without you feel so damn helpless

hate me
Break me
Please don’t take me
Down to hell like the others
Wake me
Wake me
From this bad dream
Watch my world slowly coming down
I can’t feel my heartbeat lately
Guess my times slowly coming round
When I see you I start aeciing
Cause my worlds slowing coming down

cOming dOwn

kuudere

There’s something about you 
that makes me wanna scream at the top of my lungs 
oh there’s something about you 
that makes me wanna believe that I’m falling inluv
everything about you hurts my soul 
but I can’t seem to let you go…
I’m paranoid that he’s involved 

i guess that this is the end of the road 
for you and me….
this is how the story goes
it ends incomplete….
i wish that you could know 
the pain I keep
oh baby I gotta know
why did u let me go??
and leave me at the end of your road 

baku 

and I’ve been keeping all the letters you wrote 
still have your voice notes on my phone
daydreaming about life when we’re grown
gave you trust but I should’ve known
now I’m heartbroken stranded 
separated by a whole fucking planet 
forget our future I never should’ve planned it
she’s the one that got away I cannot stand it 
our love burnt like passing shooting stars 
you should’ve seen what you did that tore us apart 
you tore my heart out 
i sped off in my car 

because this is the end of the road 
for you and me….
this is how the story goes
it ends incomplete….
i wish that you could know 
the pain I keep
oh baby I gotta know
why did u let me go??
and leave me at the end of your road

how our story goes.. ft baku

ENERGY (PROD. SUKOYOMI)

PRODUCED BY @yung-jza-shawty <3
SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/track/3QKB64ivMA3GRUXtcQioHM <3

+* WHY?!! *+ (PROD. YUNGJZAISDEAD)

*:･ﾟ･nothing has changed*:･ﾟ

@lilkuudere
@jufie

They don’t care what I say 
I’m always fucking lonely
Wish I could go away
Then maybe you will love me
These drugs inside my brain
The insides fucking ugly
I never feel okay
I guess I’m never lucky


My Body starts to rain 
It’s Looking kinda bloody
Im sippin on the drank 
My cup is kinda muddy
sometimes I gotta pray
The world will always fuck me
I really wanna stay
But life is not so lovely 

I always cop the blame
Anxiety is peaking
I’m never feeling safe
See spiders in the ceiling
There’s nothing left to gain 
So what the point in breathing?
I wanna fucking change
And give my life a meaning

*:･ﾟ･UNLUCKY *:･ﾟ(PROD. JUFIE)

prod by lil kuudere
remix of "star story - hatsune miku"
jap vocals by - kz Livetune
artwork by Bewithmiku on pixiv

STAR STORY FT. HATSUNE MIKU

STAY BY MY SIDE (PROD. CXLD BLXXD)

@lilkuudere
produced by me
art by @ tatsupino1 in twitter

i used to think tht we were meant to be
call you everynight and then i'de wake up to you texting me
but now i see you as the enemy
now i couldn't give a fukk cause everything is dead to me again
you were leaving me on read but im guessing what you said
i'm guessing i was never gud enough so why don't you confess?
that i was just a pest
maybe it's for the best
this took a little time but now i'll get this off my chest

i hope life kicks you in the head
blow your brains untill there's nothing left
that's what you fucking get
for moving on and fucking with my friends
i'm not wishing you the best
i hope you fail at everything like it's a test
i hope your job is shit and everything's a mess
and you think about me when there's nothing left

let me get this off my chest

prod by me
@lilkuudere
@uhohkawasaki
original song: iris - goo goo dolls

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