Inspires me to dance.... which I don't usually do. Wonderful song Lillithe.

I'm in the middle. I'm not yet 9 years old, but I already knew I was going to teach music even though I had only started playing at age 7. I would bring my friends inside and give them lessons on how to play Chopsticks and later, Heart and Soul. The family in the photo doesn't exist anymore, and hasn't for a long time. My older sister isn't in it. Some of my family is still living but there is absolutely no communication. There is only animosity and disrespect directed at me. There is no love or caring. Sad isn't it? I gave up.

Growing up between 1954 and 1972, when I left home to go to school, I had no intention of moving back to my hometown.

I had a wonderful childhood. Children today don't experience the joy of being a child whose sole objective was being able to play outside with a dozen other neighborhood children. 

My parents were still kids when they got married right out of High school and had three babies in four years. My sisters did the same thing, never finding out who they were and what their talents were. Could I sell cars for 35 years? Never. We were just so different. There were many reasons that tore our family apart. My father turned to alcohol after his kids were grown, in his 40's and was dead at 54. My mother couldn't maintain the family business herself and lost everything she had worked for and had nothing to show for it. I haven't talked to my sisters in years. They are angry at me for reasons I don't understand and I gave up trying to figure it out. They don't talk to each other, either. I don't know what it's like to have a sister. Are they lonely, too? Is it pride that stands in the way?

Creating music is my way of understanding what I feel. It is like my diary. From a young child I tried tried to play what I could hear inside, but I couldn't, and there wasn't anyone who could teach me that because they couldn't play their own music. It took a long time to understand and I'm not yet quite there, learning how to play the piano from the inside out. It has changed the way I teach. Anyone can learn to read music but only a few can actually hear their own music. I've written a lot of music for people as gifts and music for my own family, especially the newest babies. Number 5 great grandbaby is due in a few months. Hopefully it is something they will keep to always connect me to them.

I can't change what my sisters think of me. I believe it is regretful but it is their choice, not mine. If my parents could have looked ahead and saw how we ended how sad they would have been. When I uploaded this music to SC last night I sat there, overwhelmed and cried. It is one thing to lose your family to death; quite another to lose them when while they still live.

Broken Family

Strange Dark Night [Live] * Copyright SCRT Record Co.

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Mix, Arrangement and Production: Lillithe

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Road Maps is a blues-inspired song about a knight who did not go to the previous crusade and longed for the glory given to those who did and came back. The song follows his attempt to rendevous with a large military group he belongs to, but is late to the party; he meets interesting and colourful characters throughout his quest to take up arms, with each character symbolizing, codifying and exuding themes of honour, enchantment, potential, backstabbery, and cowardice. Once our character arrives at the battle scene he's been searching for, he sees his side has already lost and tries to slip away unharmed.

LYRICS:
The sky is blue
And the trees are green
Armour shining in the sun.
Headin' out east to Valence
No the battle has not begun.

Out on the road
Ran into Raymond of Tolosa,
His words are rogue
From his battles over Asia.
Who blusters by
But the defacto Margrave boy!
Only fools fly.
The same as the others employ
They are a king's toy.

Their swords are sharp,
But their minds are bare
Absolving absolution:
Been sent out here to conquer
Lord they can't save themselves.

The sky is red
And the land is rich
Signs of victory prevail.
Egressing to Durazzo 
Ohh what it might entail.

Through distant peaks
Met the Moneyman of Milan,
The Byz repeats
Underneath the consecration song.
As months go on
See the Wealthy Barvarian!
Their greed is strong.
He escaped a contrarian
But he was no barbarian.

Their swords are sharp,
But their minds are bare
Absolving absolution:
Been sent out here to conquer
Lord they can't save themselves.

The sky is grey
And the walls are high
Enemy of a lost cause.
Runnin' on past Nicea
No time to greet a pause.

The sky is black
And the trees are burnt
A force surrounds to assert.
Over the Isle of Cypress
How many more will revert.

A broken siege
Constable Conrad wants to win,
Thou doth beseech
The sounds and sights are feeling grim.
Down on the ground
Steven the Coward was redeemed!
His oath was bound.
The process fails at the seams
Must leave swiftly unseen.

No matter where you're from,
Or the suit you wear
If then presented a path:
Better not choose the wrong one
You could meet the devil's wrath!

Whatever one may want
Or the aim you take
Your target's in the distance:
Better deem your ambition
It's chosen by admission!

If you take up in arms 
And meet a dismal end
Outlived by a narrative:
Create a clear perspective
Tale tales so affected!

Their swords are sharp,
But their minds are bare
Absolving absolution:
Been sent out here to conquer
Lord they can't save themselves.

Road Maps

I don't know what's going on in my mind!
Do you feel like that sometimes? 🤪

F r e e...D o w n l o a d
Cover (background): Image Creator by Designer

My Mind

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INNOVATIVE AND CREATIVE 
Vocals and Verses: IPG1 
https://soundcloud.com/ipg1/innovative-and-creative-vocal-96-bpm
Paploviante: 
E Bass, Music, Mix and Production

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Hurt

in a sea - sk

remember the time 
when you said  - no more  

i remember the line you crossed 
liked you did before

i get it, you said it
forget it, you meant it
oh but how 
how can you be so sure? 

when you don't know 
that i love you more than before
and I swore 
i would stay forever
forever more

you're in a sea
a drifting current pulling away
if you could just believe
the light still shines
showing you the way back to me

i get it, you said it
forget it, you meant it
but how can you be so sure? 

when you don't know 
that i love you more than before
and yes i swore 
that i would be yours evermore
oh forever more
and then you would believe, 
oh you could believe
and you could be so sure
that i love you 
I love more 
more than before, before
because I swore
forever more
forever more


Prod Matthew May

In A Sea - SK

THE BOY - CO2 DANCE

This is my old alternative rock tune. Everything by myself. I was inspired by Raiohead and Nine Inch Nails. I recorded this with a 4 track recorder.  
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CO2 DANCE

Recorded live back in the 80' in the rehearsel room

Linie 18 is
Bass : Fin Valentin
Drums: Preben Jensen
Keyboard: Jørgen
Guitar:  PJ Project

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