I don't wanna be alone when I wake up

Lyrics:
Staying in the void cause theres nothing anyway
Sticking to myself so get the fuck up out my brain
I know that ima be me i aint beg no one to stay
And if you really knew me then youd know that im insane

When i panic over not too much of nothing
When i feel it makes me sick down to my stomach
All the evee got me floating bitch im buzzin
I say fuck it, then i throw up in a bucket

i know im a mess, im doing my best, but maybe im not, just wanna impress, i may be obsessed, with all of the words, that come from your head, so baby say less

lets get to the point, uh
lets smoke on this joint, uh
lets fuck on the bed and the couch and the floor in the closet lemme hear your voice, uh

i know that im iffy
without the Drizly
i know i need it to chill, im running on my instincts

ice up on my wrist B, bought it like im Disney,
got so many racks and ill still take what you can give me
cause maybe im a fraud and im so broke youd never miss me
this boy aint got not racks hes just a misfit in a big tee

welcome to my life bitch
stay or dont you might ditch
when you see brain i know its hard when i be like this

prod. @siemspark x @jkeibeats

lyrics
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go
she said baby take your time
have fun out on the road
life is but a dream but it depends on where you go
i’ve been meeting people that i hardly fucking know
hardly fucking know
so now i’m singing woah
this is all i ever dreamed about and god it shows
swimming through this liquor tryna rid of all my woes
something in my head is telling me to take it slow
please just take it slow

please just take it slow
i’ve been tryna pace it
by erasing who i know
lifting up my spirit
in a pirouette with ghosts
dancing with the devil
every time i fucking smoke
but they would never know
panic sits before me
in a newly painted coat
i just drank too much so baby
please don’t rock the boat
fully automatic i go manic in these notes
this is what i wrote
this is what i wrote

she can tell from my eyes that i’m jetlagged
i’m not talking enough i regret that
my coding is fucked but i cracked that
i put my whole life in this backpack
and i’m hoping that i never backtrack

i hope this is forever
my life put together
a mere apparition
of me doing better
i’m sick of this weather
debating on whether
i’m writing this letter
for me or for everyone

jetlag (prod. siem spark x jkei)

(prod. kais x sorrowbringer)
u all mean the world to me fr
enjoy :’)

lyrics:
don’t wanna let you down again
I know i’m nothing but a burden.
and when the tide goes down i’ll stand
up for myself again

I was never a part of it
nah I was never part of it, a part of anything or anyone

got me painting pictures of the future stressin bout my life
kais don’t stress bout stupid thought illusions cloudin’ up yo mind
just fkn stop this shit
get me out of it
just get me home, where I can grow, and heal my scars a bit

this is really up to me
I can’t rely on not any my friends, nah
I would love to be chillin at home makin beats every week
so I wont let this go to waste
wont let them see this smile fade away

“im lonely and hurting”
all these thoughts averted.
I kno y’all got my back
I can hear it from your wording
im sorry i called you
these things seem to fall through
pictures comin down I can tell the rain gon’ fall soon.

it's okay

castle with the cobwebs

My discography reflect upon my state of mind
I be thinking bout what I've been writing this whole time
Who am I really fooling when I'm saying that I'm fine?
Listen to my lyrics, learn I'm twisted like some twine
~
Trust me I am trying
I am done relying on these to drugs for peace of mind
They grip me like a vine
I use them when I'm feeling like I lost control of my
Life, this inner strife will strip me right down to the spine
~
Lately ain't been feeling like myself
I just escape at night
Pack another bowl and I just disassociate from life 
Love to medicate my mind
Thoughts that I can't leave behind
Miss when I was younger, God please take me back to simple times
~
Found myself on the ground floor
I've been working on myself and going out more
People come and go but I'm around for life
so I must learn to love what is behind my eyes
Dark and Light you must have both sides
Shine too bright and you might ignite
But if you in the middle and you balance out your mind
Problems will be little for enlightenment you find
~
Lately ain't been feeling like myself
I just escape at night
Pack another bowl and I just disassociate from life 
Love to medicate my mind
Thoughts that I can't leave behind
Miss when I was younger, God please take me back to simple times
~
Just for a minute, Admit it ... I'm wrong
that's why I'm singing this song
I can't find a meaning, pack weed in the bong
haven't been happy for long
you make your purpose, stay committed so your life isn't worthless
At times I feel nervous, But I just remember I'm forged in this furnace
I'm molded by all the heat

Simple Times

Don't go
Please don't go I need you
You're a fever dream and I'm sick of you
I can't find a reason you'd wanna be here with me
I adore you
You keep breathing yeah I'm in ecstasy
I won't stop
I'm driving all night just to have this for a second and

I'd ride all the way across the desert for you
Y'all don't know my pain I've tasted fucking poison
They don't even know my name ah they just disappoint me
You the only one I can't see myself getting over
I'd ride all the way across the desert for you
Y'all don't know my pain I've tasted fucking poison
They don't even know my name ah they just disappoint me
You the only one I can't see myself getting over

I really wanna be fine
I'm sorry I can't be that all of the time
You understand I'd do anything to make you smile
I don't even wanna save you from yourself
I just wanna make you someone you like
I was lost and taking it slow I thought I'd do this right
Got on I-95 and drove all night
When you're all alone I can't stand it
Call me back when you hear this

I'd ride all the way across the desert for you
Y'all don't know my pain I've tasted fucking poison
They don't even know my name ah they just disappoint me
You the only one I can't see myself getting over
I'd ride all the way across the desert for you
Y'all don't know my pain I've tasted fucking poison
They don't even know my name ah they just disappoint me
You the only one I can't see myself getting over

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fever dream (tennis player)

Well the world don't seem so small
When you're so far away from me
Tried to call you late last night 
But I hung up before the second ring 
Tried to follow my heart
But I would rather just fucking scream
Nothing makes no fucking sense
I need to wake up from this dream 

But I can't 
No I won't yeah I'm the problem
Shaky hands on cigarettes or on the bottle baby
I don't wanna see you anymore I hope I die tomorrow yeah yeah yeah
'Cause if I don't it's just another one to live without you
I'd wait every day and all the nights to save this
You cut me deep enough I don't think I'll fucking make it baby
After all this time away
I thought I'd finally be okay
But every marker on the highway just makes me feel the fucking same 
I'd wait every day and all the nights to save this
You cut me deep enough I don't think I'll fucking make it baby
After all this time away
I thought I'd finally be okay
But every marker on the highway just makes me feel the fucking same
But I can't 
No I won't yeah I'm the problem
Shaky hands on cigarettes or on the bottle baby
I don't wanna see you anymore I hope I die tomorrow yeah yeah
'Cause if I don't it's just another one to fucking live without you 
Without you

the problem [bonus track] (shiki xo)

C and E w/ $ky Yung (boyfifty)

Home Away From Home w/ Screwyounick & American Dead Cross

s/o soundcloud.com/boyfifty and soundcloud.com/user-530621763
enjoy :)

lyrics:

oh you think you know it all.. well you dont
you been stressin bout' everything all alone
and your friends do miss you, you jus dont call em up
it seems to them like you just dont give a fuck

therapy's expensive and exercise is pendin
thoughts are goin wild and anxietys expandin
you need everyone to hear you, but cant seem to open up
yeah your confidence is lackin and you couldnt give a fuck

hear me out
im fallin back down
im callin out to myself, callin out to myself

i miss them all
i need someone to catch me before i fall
i need love and composure
something i looked over
i cant even function, i fucked myself over

hear me out
im fallin back down
im callin out to myself, callin out to myself x2

look them in the eyes, bruh
you cant love yourself if you gonna hide and run
from your confidence its killin you inside of us
im tryna help but you fuckin up the life of us

okay maybe im depressed right now
cant leave the room (go out)
i need some rest right now
i don't got time to show out
i cant find a reason for anything
i cant find the motivation that im chasin so desperately.

oh you think you know it all.. well you dont
you been stressin bout' everything all alone
and your friends do miss you, you jus dont call em up
it seems to them like you just dont give a fuck x2

hear me out
im fallin back down
im callin out to myself, callin out to myself

callin' out to myself

callin' out to myself (prod. boyfifty x eeryskies)

pre save “grim” 🤍🧸
https://sadeyes.ffm.to/grim
believe in yrself <3

castle with the cobwebs

sadeyes

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