i always find myself revisiting this song whenever i feel down

shoutout soundcloud.com/boyfifty

lyrics:
woke up in a sweat last night, fuck my life howd i get so cold
I dont even know what I meant when I told u that, I was so fucked up
livin life like volume cant mute this shit howd it get so low
I dont even know who I am anymore so lemme take yo advice and go

fuck off with my bull shit
were too sick to evolve, a straight neucense
we rly gotta look at love in a new sense
not obsessin over shit fuck ur 2 cents
in the middle of the night straight mental
feelin like shinji what am I supposed to do
I hope u kno that my life dont belong to u
I hope u kno that im fighting for the likes of us

and I wouldnt wanna lie to us
I know ive lied but I learned to trust
so trust me, I dont rly do that anymore trust me
lonely
trapped in the back of my mind help me

or dont, I been like this for years I been gone so long
u see thru it, laugh wit me but u think im stupid
oh no, I kno this feelin like its my home
I hate it, think im fine but im fuckin anxious

I see thru the lies in my vision
tough shit, dont be surprised if im missin
exist in my mind like prison
listenin to the thunder im breakin in
to the place that I knew back then
its nostalgic ill pack it in, and
ill remember how i felt back in december

trust me

spotify

trust me (prod. boyfifty x kndey)

not all fairytales have happy endings ☂️ .ft demxntia .prod 4evr

w/ @guardinmusic
prod. by @taylor

lyrics:

why does this 
seem never ending i try to be patient
i wake up everyday just trying to escape it
this darkness is lurking don’t want to embrace it
i left my sanity dead in the basement
i burn with the demons
i drink till i’m wasted
this life full of color just seems to have faded
though i know my hearts temporarily jaded
and i will be free on the day that i face it

oh no
if i you go down this road
i’m gonna die soon
and i don’t wanna die soon
oh why do i
do this to my health
it’s like i’m killing myself
i’ve created this hell

(guardin)
why do i
even try 
i swear that i've 
lost my mind
it's not right
losing sight
of direction objection i'm losing my pace
caught in the storm and my head's outta place 

grip my hand and we can make it out alive
trust my integrity it's eating me inside
they say honesty is crucial to survive 
but i know a couple people comfortably living a lie
so why do i feel so uninviting
head vs heart and they keep on fighting
lost my mind but i just keep writing
lock my door in my bed i'll be hiding 

(ooo ooo ooo
oh no
oh why)

oh no
if i you go down this road
i’m gonna die soon
and i don’t wanna die soon
oh why do i
do this to my health
it’s like i’m killing myself
i’ve created this hell

oh no ft. guardin (prod. taylor morgan)

prod @oceanonthebeat

let me paint a picture there's this girl that broke my heart
i barely even know her now she's just another scar
she likes the way i kiss but i guess its pretty par
cause she's sleepin' w my friend i caught her wrapped up in his arms

i'm a mess
i'm a man
plus i'm hurting
little ghost in the wall you don't deserve me

i'm a mess inside a man i'm not a soldier
cause every time i close my eyes i wanna hold her

loose lips sink ships that's a problem
i, won't last next autumn
i'm, so sorry for the karma
pretty little ghost babe i didn't mean to harm ya

little ghost girl, i won't forget you
i swear those eyes are like a portal i could step through
little ghost girl, i'm glad i met you
i swear your smiles so contagious i might catch you

i'm dyin to hold her like every night now
just cryin my eyes out
i been alone in my room with the lights down
like i need you right now

little ghost girl, i wish you'd haunt me
you could trick me make me think you really want me

loose lips sink ships that's a problem
i, won't last next autumn
i'm, so sorry for the karma
pretty little ghost babe i didn't mean to harm ya

lil ghost (prod. ocean)

Prod. Kado

https://soundcloud.com/bradyponder

https://soundcloud.com/lilsadeyes

<3

Lyrics:
Okay okay now think I’m on my way now 
Show up at the show and it’s time to bring the place down 
Think it’s time to cop a little place now
Maybe cop a tattoo up on my face now
Okay okay now think I’m on my way now 
Show up at the show and it’s time to bring the place down 
I just need a little space now 
I’m just hoping that you stay down 

Well okay okay is that all you’ve got to say
I’ve been keeping to myself I don’t know another way 
I don’t want to hang maybe some other day 
I don’t really want to go but I sure don’t want to stay 
I know that I’m the reason that you find it hard to care
All you needed was a friend I was never even there
But I’m tryin to improve cause I’m feeling pretty down
And I’m getting sick of no one ever wanting me around
Since I met you I re-thought a few things
My no love songs rule and the words that I mean 
I’m good on the Juul I e got my nicotine 
From the buzz that you give and the joy that it brings 
This blunt is getting short I just wish that it would last
It reminds me of the times that I’m never getting back 
I’m leaving pretty soon hope you’ll be here when I’m back 
Cause I think I think you’re  pretty cool and I thought you’d like that 

And she goes
You’re all I have and all I want but that won’t last no
That won’t last 
All alone I guess that’s fine
I feel at home when I’m inside 
I keep crying in my blanket 
I get sad but I can’t hide it 
I get low
Nobody to hold not one soul I can confide in 
I fall so quickly whenever you’re with me
But when I’m gone no you won’t miss me 
I’ve been getting high to change my feelings when I’m low 
All it does it make me choke it’s fucking up my throat 
I can’t even look at girls cause I don’t want to go 
Down another road that gets me stranded in the cold

Stay Down

Stay Down feat. Sadeyes - Prod. Kado

produced by @splashgvng
photo by @shakyhandsx on instagram

bad habits (prod. splashgvng)

@qawikamri
@guardinmusic

FIRST SONG OF "A Diary Of You"

a song that i'll play on a rainy day (feat. guardin)

Like a bird she flys at dawn,
And All I do is sing these songs,
We could fly if I had my wings,
I don’t even wanna live that long,

I told her you’re the girl of my dreams
And I’m not ready to leave-
Cos people need me,
I guess that I’ll just wait on my wings

Wake up pop another pill,
I’m sad but that’s jus the deal now,
And I don’t wanna have to die- don’t kill-
And I can’t ever even tell what’s real now,

Fallen of Athens, all I wanted was your kiss
Pretend it ain’t happen, but I know that you still miss me x2


Like a bird she flys at dawn,
And All I do is sing these songs,
We could fly if I had my wings,
I don’t even wanna live that long,

I told her you’re the girl of my dreams
And I’m not ready to leave-
Cos people need me,
I guess that I’ll just wait on my wings

Girl of my Dreams

thank you so much

lyrics:

they say its all in your head
its all in yr mind
we keep thinkin that we're broken we could change on a dime

and i ain't ever felt the same unless i'm rollin it up
i spark the J then take the L because i'm missin yr touch

and i keep wishing on the stars
i can't see 'em are there any left?
portland's real polluted 
or i'm dreaming, or i'm really dead

i turn the lights down low when i'm thinking of her
i'm thinkin wishin on the stars can't hurt

i was, chillin, waiting for you to call back
dbz on the flatscreen all that

and you know just what you mean to me
every time i wake i'm down to give you all my energy

people sayin that i'm next up
i just passed these rappers autopilot in my tesla

and i get real low when the sun don't shine
so you know that ima get real high

and i could rap
till my heart collapse
i won't ever heal
i keep drinking writing songs so i can see if i can feel

i remember how your silhouette danced in the moonlight
fireflies and love in the air by the poolside

yeah i'm a lover not a cool guy
i miss kissin in the mood light
i think the whiskey had us tipsy
would you text me if you miss me girl i'll love you till my heart dies

they say its all in your head
its all in yr mind
we keep thinkin that we're broken we could change on a dime

and i ain't ever felt the same unless i'm rollin it up
i spark the J then take the L because i'm missin yr touch

and i keep wishing on the stars
i can't see 'em are there any left?
portland's real polluted 
or i'm dreaming, or i'm really dead

i turn the lights down low when i'm thinking of her
i'm thinkin wishin on the stars can't hurt

moonlight

fun while it lasted.


if i do if i dont, doesn’t matter cause ill fuck up
get knocked down try again, get so nervous that I up chuck
fingers long i might slice, i can’t trust myself with knives
need someone to hold my hand and someone else to supervise

You know I have no self control no need to fabricate the truth
then we can talk about the good times and all the evil things you do
Made a world full of your bullshit tried to fill my head with lies
so when I tell you that I’m leaving it should come as no surprise

no surprise, why’d i try? just to end up here again
fooled me once, fooled me twice, fooled around with all your friends
idk why im so lame
one more day i’ll go insane

if i do if i dont, doesn’t matter cause ill fuck up
Get knocked down and try again, but get so nervous that I up chuck 
fingers long i might slice, i can’t trust myself with knives
need someone to hold my hand and someone else to supervise

maybe i could learn to skate 
or play guitar to compensate
for all the little secrets that i keep
cause my dreams warned, be on the ball.
i took advantage of it all 
she was my girl, lights in my world, my everything.
then life said sike, why’d you try? 
just to end up here again?
fooled you once fooled you twice, please don’t tell me it ends
idk why im so lame
one more day i’ll go insane

moonlight

sadeyes

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