@nevrfall
i love @heylog so much, he's an amazing person c:
lyrics:
(casperrr)
moving away as my body collapse
half a day and i already smoked half a pack
i smell the chemicals burning in my hand
i need to change this i need to take a stand
all of the promises u made they didn't worth nothing
while u ran ur mouth ur actions didn't prove anything
u still wanna tell me that i am lying
do u really wanna tell me that i am lying

AND THIS IS FUNNY CAUSE THE PROMISES ARE STUCK IN THE WALLS
U TREAT ME WRONG AND I STILL PICK U UP EVERYTIME U FALL
I GET DEPRESSED AND I SHUT MYSELF FROM WINTER TO FALL
I REALLY NEED HELP I CANT SEE WHATS REAL I JUST SEE fog
FOGGY MEMORIES IN MY BRAIN HELP ME REMEMBER
WHAT WAS THE THING THAT TRAUMATIZED ME LAST DECEMBER
CUZ I TOOK IT OUT OF MY HEAD
I KNOW I WISHED EVERYDAY FOR DEATH
I WAS GETTING SO MAD
I WAS GETTING SO FED UP

(heylog)
u made me mad, i called but u won't answer
don't speak to me like that where are your manners
it's hard when life just sucks, is it supposed to?
deteriorate non stop what am i s'posed to do
u hate on me now when i didn't do a thing
u love causing ruckus and it's concerning
but i kill the vibe is that why u hate me
i won't give u shit or anything

is it safe to say that i miss u
forgot what it's like to kiss u
i'm sorry u had to tell me what u been through
if u need me i'll be here for u
forgot what ur face looks like, it's been a day
leaving ur house but i can't drive away
arriving home and it don't feel the same
without u here, it feels so plain

promises w/heylog (nevrfall)

IDRWTAI//kennedyxoxo + Kenny Orlando + noahmadethiss + SINNERSDEDX + killmesumday + sace6

this time it won't fix

https://soundcloud.com/heylog
https://soundcloud.com/imcaves
https://soundcloud.com/irby314

you made me feel nauseous 
i keep getting sick
can't remember where it started 
can't forget all that you did to me
you tasted so bittersweet 
i still see you every time i sleep
i gave you every part of me 
i bet you couldn't tell
i fall in love with narcissists,
don't care about myself
i just go through sedatives
keep fucking up my health 
what's the point of heaven,
i already live in hell

it's not easier 
i'll lie and say it is 
i gave up on getting better 
it's just the way it is
i've been feeling numb ever since i was a kid 
i don't wanna die,
but i don't wanna try and live

i said that i loved you 
(save me)
i gave you the blood from my skin
i tried everything
admit it
it's hard but i did it
you left me too damaged 
this time it won't fix

[heylog]
i'm calling for you 
are you with someone else
the pics on my phone
are nowhere to be found 
would it surprise you 
if i took myself
i might just die here
when no ones around
but i made a choice 
that i regret 
stomp out the house
from what i said
and now it's too late to apologize
fumbled my words,
i guess this is goodbye 

i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
baby it's whatever
see you in the next life
i'm trying to forget her 
but god it feels impossible
now she's just a number 
floating in my phone
i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
i don't make any sense
and it makes me wanna cry 
but i look like im stupid
and she say that it's fine 
girl you're pretty funny 
tell another lie

it's not getting easier (w/ heylog) (prod. caves & irby)

produced by neverforever

completely non profit 

lyrics

Where u been now
Where u been
Its almost been a week now 
And i havent seen u since
I wanted us to stay friends 
But that isnt how it is
I know it gets stressful
Sticking next to me
All the stress on my mental
It stains all the sheets
So i sway to this tempo
As she falls asleep
In his arms
In their apartment
Life gets hard
But i knew that from the start 

Think i aged like 20 years in a few days
I saw the message of the gods burned in my brain
I found the fight inside my soul n now i spit flame
If anything i learned i got a cruel fate
Suns blocked so i start booting up
I break down my body i dont give a fuck
Bitch im going hard until my time is up
I need the cruelest woman to make me give a fuck

i want u to fuck me up
why is that never enough
looking at me with the eyes of an angel
i think that we're both falling out
how does this come about

she just falls asleep
in her lovers arms
when life gets hard
we fill our lungs with tar

i think i aged like 20 years in a few days
i saw the message of the gods and its burned into my brain 
if anything i got a cruel fate



-1 (neverforever)

i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 

w/ @heylog

prod: https://soundcloud.com/eric-godlow
master: https://soundcloud.com/ezraspandora 

looking back baby,
i already was hollow
toss it back 
way too fast 
till i get through the bottle
i don't wanna leave this club
i just wanna drink 
until i throw it all up
(lock me up)
want you to squeeze until i'm leaking out blood
i wanna see just how it feels to go numb
i wanna feel it on the tip of my tongue
let's fuck it up until we're going out bad 
let's break it all apart until there's nothing fucking left
cause i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 
and i want you to tell me i'm a waste of fucking breath
oh i'm terrible 
i'm the reason you're falling 
unbearable 
i'm the bones in your closet
i still just wanna see you get out 
there's nothing left for me to be now

damn it all 
pray for what 
there's nobody there
(i'm too far gone)
tell me why 
i wanted you then 
i want you now

heylog:
i'm chillin at a party, why'd i decide to go out
wish i just stayed home but i been stuck inside my house
i don't even care, i'd much rather be sober
she hung around the bottles and i could tell it broke her
i'm glad i can't relate cause i've never had that problem
you told me i'm rude for that but hey, i'm being honest
i would never lie to you, just want you to stop it
i could up and go, i've got plenty of options
quit talking, ur just holding me back
it's safe to say, tonight ur getting trashed
take a second to breathe, ik ur sad
you don't have to drink it away, could you relax
she phones her girls for a ride at 3am
can't even walk to her room, she needs a hand
throwing up all the time, she's used to it
friday night rolls around and repeat it

tip of my tongue (w/ heylog) (prod. eric godlow)

i'll let you cut as much as you like 

prod: https://soundcloud.com/prodcxrter https://soundcloud.com/tiedforsilver
extra production / master: https://soundcloud.com/vito2300

two months,
i can't write nothing at all
gave up on having someone to call 
fake blood still left a stain on the wall
fake love still left a hole in my heart
stuck in the middle 
i wait for it to eat me alive
it stings a little 
it kills me when you treat me so nice 
go grab the sickle 
i'll let you cut as much as you like 
(as you like, as you like)

i don't wanna be selfish 
but god i hate myself 
and i can't help it 
you made me lose my mind 
i wish you felt it
and i can't even cry
the things i dealt with 
i dealt with
leaving you behind me,
hope you like your side piece
i look so unsightly
that's why i'm always hiding
i don't think they like me 
most times it don't surprise me
think about it nightly 
keep damaging my psyche

lately i don't even give a fuck about the music
it's just enough that i do it 
one day i might lose it 
don't have enough to get through it
like oh, it's okay if you wanna let go 
spill blood, wake up on the floor 
we're done but i hate you more
he don't ever wanna wait one second 
so dumb, shoulda learned my lesson
those words he said he meant it 
but i'm stuck on the way he said it 
so soft, so soft
and after everything i gave you
you're still gone
still gone

i don't wanna be selfish 
(i don't wanna be selfish no more)
but god i hate myself 
and i can't help it 
(can't help it)
you made me lose my mind 
i wish you felt it
(you felt it)
and i can't even cry
the things i dealt with 
(i dealt with)
i dealt with
leaving you behind me,
(behind)
hope you like your side piece
i look so unsightly
that's why i'm always hiding
i don't think they like me 
most times it don't surprise me
think about it nightly 
keep damaging my psyche

i hate myself 
like nobody else
and i hate you 
much more than you do 
forgive me god
no matter the cost
i can't stop 
no i can't stop

unsightly

don't feel my heart my heart no more yeah
too much wakin up passin out yeah 
too much i been thinking bout in my head

too much
no one
to tell me when to stop
aint got self love 

waiting for a change 
and i mean us
wipping of the dirt
and i mean dust   

another day getting geeked up
sip so much got a lean gut 
how do you say you love me when u give lust 
need u to say sum before i give up 
seasons may change but i feel stuck
might die over love like i mean drugs

got my heart
full of sorrow
and my blood
full of drugs i cant see nothing

can't change her mind
not even if i try
while she said
it was nothing
  
stay away from my home
i don't care no more
cause i feel like 
im burning 

???

smoke anotha cig 
and i roll another 
blunt while i roll
thru the function 

i used to get the shakes
when i looked at ur face
dream about us 
in london

stick a needle in my veins
and i slice thru my arm
just to see blood running 

don't feel my heart my heart no more yeah
too much wakin up passin out yeah 
too much i been thinking bout in my head

too much
no one
to tell me when to stop
aint got self love 

waiting for a change 
and i mean us
wipping of the dirt
and i mean dust   

another day getting geeked up
sip so much got a lean gut 
how do you say you love me when u give lust 
need u to say sum before i give up 
seasons may change but i feel stuck
might die over love like i mean drugs

𝚒 𝚖𝚎𝚊𝚗 𝚞𝚜 (YÜG x casperrr) [santana]

prod: never forever 
master: https://soundcloud.com/vito2300

put aside my emotion
i wasn't important 
he touched someone else
that night my body was forfeit
i like it when he record it 
watch it back and feel gorgeous 
i think i need help 
but i'm so good at ignoring,
ignoring it 

ima pour this bottle all out
till i feel my life breaking down 
and i hate myself even now 
don't know what that's all about
and i hate my songs 
won't show my face 
took a couple steps back 
went m.i.a
insane 
didn't learn my lesson 
nothing ever mattered when i try my best and
most days i just feel like a reject 
friends fake n then ask for my preset
hands up, 
asked god for a reason 
blood soaked and i beg for the meaning
most days wake up and i'm screaming 
and my body just shake like im fiending
painful, i remember the feeling 
stitch myself cause i dream i'm in pieces

important

lyrics:

When the lights go out
And you lay spent
And the winds knocked down
The chain link fence
Around your house
And the wisp grows shrill
in this place
We are safest still
When the tears drip down
To the perfect mess
And the words let out
Mark his one last breath
Inside your house
Is an old wood chest
With a sword laid out
To avenge his death
So Twist this blade
Into those u deem
Were the last his eyes
Had a chance to see
With the steel stained red
U have pierced his dreams
Do u feel so changed
Do u feel so free
When the life you’ve lived
Has become his own
And his bloodlust’s plagued
Everything you’ve known
When ur own free will
Has at last been stripped
By a dead mans wish
That u die on his hill
Then u will finally know
U will finally know
U will finally know
U will finally know
Will u finally see
Will u finally know
That his pride linked axe
Has destroyed ur home
Look at what u could of been my love
Just look at what u could of been my love
When the rain dries up
And the crowds gone home
Will u still take pride
In the hate you hold

hush (yunny goldz)

strings by @vayhn

For so long
I’ve cut my heart open
I’ve Been so heavily devoted
But what does it matter now
What does it matter now

Harboured to nothing
I’m drowning you’re not running
Am I not worth saving
Don’t leave me, I’m wasted
I’m rotten
Don’t taste me
I’m falling
You’re waiting
For somebody better than me
How I wish I could have been

Don’t ask no questions
Won’t get no lies
You’ve ruined all we’ve had
Hope that was right

I draw lines running parallel
They never get to cross 
But they know so well
And ones always on the frontline 
Though they never get to touch 
They protect so well
Keep running
I’m surrounded 
Heart open
All this damage
You noticed
Oh you noticed
In truth I’m losing focus 

Don’t stay awake without me
Stretch marks on my skin and I’m hardly
Impressed by myself and my surroundings 
Lowkey kinda scared that you despise me

Maybe it’s all a facade and you’re just tryna keep round
Breathing under water girl you cannot hold me down
Down
Both my feet tied to the ground 
Ground

parallel

i know it feels good when you hate my guts

https://soundcloud.com/vito2300
prod: https://soundcloud.com/prodcxrter  https://soundcloud.com/yunnygoldz

i can't feel my skin
and it's numbing 
god you make me sick 
when you touch me
blood drip down my lip 
like you're wanting 
tear drop down my chin
baby i can't run 
baby i still would 
do i make you blush?
god i know it feels good 
when you hate my guts
baby i still could 
even now, just us
god you know that you should 
till you've had enough

off this bottle 
got me swerving, i'm sedated my,
heartbeat so slow i can't pace it i,
gave up, crush crush till it make me right
i'm the only one you keep awake at night
faster, hands over my body going faster
laughter, he don't feel attached like an actor
backwards, every fucking night i'm moving backwards
everything i ever felt it didn't matter

i don't wanna go like this 
but it's coming
the bruise still stains my wrist from the cuffing
i can't feel my skin 
god you make me sick,
you made me 

(vito:)
Do you want me
I can’t even tell anymore
Your words haunting
Mellowing the pain i endure
A closed chapter
I keep looking backwards
My body’s tattered
Forever and after

But you wanted this so bad
That I don’t think you thought about it
Lay down through the pain
Say what’s good about it
You could love me in ways
I can’t live without it

important

skele