i remember sending this to my ex at like 3am freshman year

I remember being 17 ,homeless and staying on this rooftop , just me my skateboard and my music

Im aware theres a lot of sewerperson on here. I cant help it, hes my fav artist.

Second installment - https://on.soundcloud.com/f2dzwJtEg3rAc1JP7

Y̑̈ȏ̈ȗ̈

Euthanized (Slowed & Reverb)

the way i see things (prod. kryptik)

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Cold lips on your cold hips
Close your eyes 
Baby girl we'll make love in the Afterlife
Benjamin.

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/tothegood

AFTERLIFE  w/ YungJZAisDead (prod. tothegood)

Prod by @fats_e

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Scared To Die ( Prod. Fats'e )

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spotify: https://play.spotify.com/album/69UxOX12PC4ukcyTigpNhD

tour: ftrbnd.co/tour

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so tell me this is who you are
they tell me ive got something more
and oh you could be loved
but i dont want the lights to find me when im dark and lost
but never on my own

cos i just wanna swing like sinatra
singing like i cant stop
cos i could never rock like a rolling stone
i just wanna live like the ones before
and maybe i could play guitar like hendrix
or save the world or end it
and then maybe youll remember me when im gone
thats all i could ever want
thats all i want

so i got ten minutes to be all or nothing to
whoever wants to hear
and i got ten weeks of talking bullshit on repeat till im burnt out and disappear
but i owe you nothing
and i own my luck
oh they said youll never be alone again
but i dont think you understand me or what i fear
but you could be loved
but i dont want to lie to tell myself
im more than all the mistakes ive out run

cos im only here for a minute
and i dont care what you say cos i know
youre only here cos im winning
but i can be my own kind of rock and roll like
i dont really care if you say you dont fuck with me
and i can say what the fuck i want cos its down to me
and i got love for you even if you are doubting me
like oh my god i just cant stop

cos i just wanna sing like sinatra
with ethanol my soundtrack
cos i could never rock like a rolling stone
i wonder how it feels to burn out young
cos i just wanna die before my heart fails
from heartbreak or cocktails and
then maybe youll cry once you know im gone
thats all i could ever want
oh thats all i want

cos i aint scared of living
i aint scared of living
no i aint scared of living
cos its all weve got
what are we breathing for if we aint living
and i dont want your love
i just want to feel like im still living
and if there is no god
ill know the day i die i lived through heaven
and that i gave it hell
and if it hurt oh well at least thats living

thats all i want

sex drugs and rock and roll thats all i want
whats under the words you know thats all i want
something more than superficial is all i want
sex drugs and rock and roll thats all i want

/i aint scared of living.

i think you think too much of me

rock + roll

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every night i close my eyes like i'm alright, tell myself that i'll be okay i'll be fine

vocals: @lilxlotus - twitter.com/LILXLOTUS

production: @harvest - twitter.com/hr_vest

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wasting your time w/ lil lotus

prod @lilprettyxox

astari: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3BbxhoHIE2E

our song

SINGLE OFF THE ALBUM
'BITTER BLUE'

prod: https://soundcloud.com/nothingnowheremusic

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And for the first time
Im feeling closer to closure
I Feel the storm blowing over,
like i can close my eyes tonight

And i can see it in your eyes
(Let go)
A whisper in the night
(Run home)
Run home, Run home

And thought i was right for too long
Now its time to face it
I can feel it inside of my bones
And its so hard to shake it
And for the first time
Im feeling closer to closure
I Feel the storm blowing over,
like i can close my eyes tonight

And i can see it in your eyes
(Let go)
A whisper in the night
(Run home)
Run home, Run home

Run Home (Prod. nothing,nowhere.)

lyrics

and im obsessed, with being a mess
but when youre upset the pains easy to forget
i get im not the best, but i do my part
just know ill never rest till theres designer on your chest
pull a stack out the closet, one that i cant deposit
drop a bean in the lean man fuck being cautious
fuck being cautious
fuck being

ya ya fuck being down, and fuck being dumb
i always love what i lost, why do i hate what ive become
and im so beat down, by the shit that you sent me
im sorry i cant help ive never felt this empty
now youre stressed out cause i dont care what my rent be
while im at vv droppin 20s on fendi
and you dont need me didnt say it i guessed it
well my heart bleeds cause youre the one im obsessed with

and im obsessed, with being a mess
but when youre upset the pains easy to forget
i get im not the best, but i do my part
just know ill never rest till theres designer on your 
pull a stack out the closet, one that i cant deposit
drop a bean in the lean man fuck being cautious
fuck being cautious
fuck being

fuck being cautious
fuck being cautious
got some pills im off it baby im just being honest
knew right when i met you youre the only one i wanted
for you id do whatever baby baby thats a promise
take away the pain cause i know that theres a consent
got some killers with me ya i brought em in my pocket
i just sniffed the twisted got me blasted like a rocket
know that they fuck with me ya they love the way im rockin
and if im lookin sad, its just because i feel sad
know im fly as hell but somehow i still feel bad
when i tell you that i love you
hoping that you feel that
when i tell you that i love you
hoping that you feel that
and im obsessed baby with doing my best
its your boy lil death wont someone lay me to rest
in a year imma be poppin or dead
i said im bout to be ballin you heard me thats what i said

Untitled EP

Precautions are for the Weak & Living w/poloralphmacchio (feat. SMRTDEATH) (prod. haruhi)

"All My Little Scars" 
 Nov. 2 <33333333
-------------------------------X3-----------
Prod: https://soundcloud.com/4evrgone
https://twitter.com/4evrgon3

dead to me <3 (prod. 4evr)

prod and mix/mastered by me

I feel like a ghost bitch I’m transparent 
Smoking thrax up in the hills in the clouds bitch I vanish 
All these fucking thoughts I can’t manage
All these fucking thought up in my brain it needs a bandage 
I'm at a disadvantage 
Tryin not to panic
Not the best at planning
Some days barely standing 
The door inside my mind is locked shut
So what big deal big bags shits real
The door inside my mind is locked shut
So what the key to the door is the drugs as of late
I’ve been staying up late not answering the phone making music smoking strong pop another to keep calm 
They just mad at me 
Oh trust I know 
I’ll just smile as I blow another o like

Driving down the road at night
Confessions to the star light 
I want a bag and bag and another bag
Yeah I know it’s sad know you’re mad yeah I know it’s bad 
Yeah I want a bag and Benz and another bag and another bag
I’m just wrapped up in my old ways 
Same songs blowing haze in a daze I hope it stays like this 
Can’t hurt like hurt like this
Just numb like this 
Took 2 more percs just to stay like this

i feel like a ghost (prod. kryptik)

game of fate (prod. nick mira)

no samples
prod mix master @93feetofsmoke

video: https://youtu.be/La0kW8IDOa8

lyrics:

nowadays
headache
cold shoulder
getting colder
guess I'm growing older

imma loner
lie and say 
i love her
u dont come over
when your sober

x2

i don't wanna tell you
what I think I about
drugs are longer now
i never leave the house
don't look at me for help
i hate to watch u drown
still tried my best no doubt
like fuck u talking bout??

lie & say i love her

mixed / mastered by lil narnia

I remember everything
heaven didn't seem so far
when you were with me
falling asleep in my arms
and theres a hell that she brings
always lingering in her heart
now its inside mine but
I remember everything
heaven didn't seem so far
when you were with me
simple and clean like kingdom hearts
now you're gone in a blink
wonder what you think of me
are you gone for good

or am I wasting my time
thinking you might come back 
and make this right
tasting blood when I bite down
miss you so much right now
wish I didn't find out 
all the shit you did
all of our promises are you heartless
I find solace in memories against the truth
me and you we weren't meant to be
god damn I wish the memory would leave

I remember everything
heaven didn't seem so far
when you were with me
falling asleep in my arms
and theres a hell that she brings
always lingering in her heart
now its inside mine but
I remember everything
heaven didn't seem so far
when you were with me
simple and clean like kingdom hearts
now you're gone in a blink
wonder what you think of me
are you gone for good
(jon)
about to take it all
just too far now
show the whole world who you are now
I remember how you raised the bar now
with all that hate laying in your heart now
I let you get close to me
you're not what you're supposed to be
wish you never noticed me
are you gone for good or am I

heaven didn't seem so far (feat. jon simmons)[prod. BlingBlou]

VISUALS: 
https://youtu.be/nOPnwawM0ow

ARTISTS:
https://soundcloud.com/itsyungvan
https://soundcloud.com/erisu-san
https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt
https://soundcloud.com/sushisai
https://soundcloud.com/frvrndalwys
https://soundcloud.com/diamoonofnhg
https://soundcloud.com/deadbrokeofficial
https://soundcloud.com/darkblu10314

BITEKI COLLECTIVE - JAPANESE GIRLS (FT. YUNG VAN)

new album 'nosebleeder' (deluxe) out now on Epitaph Records. lillotus.ffm.to/nosebleederdlx

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